In Search of my Body...Not The One I ate...#3 "Crowning Goddesses As We Go"

[lisaviolet]

Still have to catch up later. It's going to be 75 here today. 70s yesterday and tomorrow. Just wanted to say:

Have a good day everyone!!!!


Lisa

 

[MunkyMe13]

Morning Girls
I managed to keep my boys some what quiet for an extra 45 minutes this morning and I slept in. They don't have a clock in their room yet and I kept telling them it wasn't even 7 yet so to be quiet! I'm bad! So I am just getting up... I haven't even gone down stairs yet!

Stephens friend is taking this all very hard because he was the one bailing his son out all the time and he can't bail him out of this one. And stephen doesn't do death well and he hadn't a clue on what to say to the guy so he just did what he always does and just ignored it. That was until friend called and he had to call him back. ( which I had to push him to do) His friend now has called about 8 times and I tell stephen he needs you to listen to him. He got that confused look LIke HUH what are you talking about?
Yes it is all very sad when a young person dies, this is the second one in the area that has died in the last few weeks. I think it was two weeks ago we had a 24 y/o hang himself over a fight with a GF.


Does everyones kids have today off? We also have tomorrow off. I should have thought ahead and took today off and gone home for a few day! The ride would have been beautiful through the mountains with all the fall leaves!
Ok so here is a pic of the "NEW" hair color! Don't mind the look of the style I just got out of BED!!!

Ok So I need to go down stairs because my BFF bought my son a Nerf gun with suction cups and I can just imagine my french doors being shot at!

I like the color!

Good Morning! Hope everyone is doing well and getting through their Monday... We got a dog this weekend instead of going on our hike lol... Chihuahua Min Pin mix... He's very cute! He looooove DH though... I must say that does make me feel a bit jealous... LOL... I've been wanting a dog for 2 years and when DH finally finds one he likes the dog loves him... Pee-Wee doesn't hate me... Just isn't as into me as DH... In diet/ lifestyle change news... I was bad Saturday and had pizza hut for dinner... Whole nine yards... Pizza, wings, and cheesy breadsticks... Was better yesterday but definitely should have worked out... LOL... I got the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred dvd... Gonna try it tonight... Anyone here done it??? I'm gonna be careful with my workouts this week... My walk is Saturday and I don't want to be too sore... oh ya... Liz asked me to put my site for it up again so here it is: http://www.active.com/donate/ltnPhoeni/2273_ssmithLTN109 Anywho I gotta get back to work...

 

[goofyfan-12]

OK - it is not a good thing to be stuck at work with an internet connection and no ambition to do anything.... so, I just ordered a boatload of DVD's from Jillian Michael's website (8.99 each... so cheap...) I ordered the 30 day shred, a 3 DVD set of her frontside and backside workouts and the BL cardio max DVD. I have noticed that my walking DVD's are getting dull and need to change things up a bit...

They should be here next week... I'll let you know how they are... if I am still able to move after I do them...

I am feeling much better today and getting out of yesterday's funk... An old friend from college and I have been e-mailing (not the same one, this is one of my many gay man friends) and he always makes me feel better... Funny, he has a knack for sending me an e-mail just when I need it...

OK - must do work....
Paula

 

[MunkyMe13]

OK - it is not a good thing to be stuck at work with an internet connection and no ambition to do anything.... so, I just ordered a boatload of DVD's from Jillian Michael's website (8.99 each... so cheap...) I ordered the 30 day shred, a 3 DVD set of her frontside and backside workouts and the BL cardio max DVD. I have noticed that my walking DVD's are getting dull and need to change things up a bit...

They should be here next week... I'll let you know how they are... if I am still able to move after I do them...

I am feeling much better today and getting out of yesterday's funk... An old friend from college and I have been e-mailing (not the same one, this is one of my many gay man friends) and he always makes me feel better... Funny, he has a knack for sending me an e-mail just when I need it...

OK - must do work....
Paula

Cardio Max is killer! But it makes you feel soooo productive... LOL!

 

[Astro Orbiter]

I'm back! And trying to catch up with everything. Computer did not like the UK and wouldn't connect... So I'm half jet-lagged, half-sick, and way behind with family, housework, and work-work.

Morning Girls
I managed to keep my boys some what quiet for an extra 45 minutes this morning and I slept in. They don't have a clock in their room yet and I kept telling them it wasn't even 7 yet so to be quiet! I'm bad! So I am just getting up... I haven't even gone down stairs yet!

Aahhh, I miss the good-ole days when I could fib to Kaitlyn. Now she looks at the clock in my room and tells me that it's after 7 so she's allowed to be up...

OK - it is not a good thing to be stuck at work with an internet connection and no ambition to do anything.... so, I just ordered a boatload of DVD's from Jillian Michael's website (8.99 each... so cheap...) I ordered the 30 day shred, a 3 DVD set of her frontside and backside workouts and the BL cardio max DVD. I have noticed that my walking DVD's are getting dull and need to change things up a bit...

They should be here next week... I'll let you know how they are... if I am still able to move after I do them...

I am feeling much better today and getting out of yesterday's funk... An old friend from college and I have been e-mailing (not the same one, this is one of my many gay man friends) and he always makes me feel better... Funny, he has a knack for sending me an e-mail just when I need it...

OK - must do work....
Paula

Enabler! I've heard so much about the Shred workout and want to try it but my on-demand exercise programs suck...

Weight? Not good, I'm sure. I didn't run at all (or exercise) while I was there...I wore new-ish heels that hadn't given me ANY problems in Miami, and what happens? Blisters the size of quarters. Multiples. I could barely wear socks at the end of the day. Kept soaking my feet in cold water. It was $30 for a 3-minute cab ride, so I figured out how to use inter-airport transport to get between the hotel and the meetings - which was about 3/4-1 mile of walking. KILLED my feet. Took until today to have any non-crocs shoes not hurt.

Deb

 

[HockeyKat]

Lisa, we are totally not blowing you off!! Your AOL messenger setup does suck, though. Try downloading actual AIM (the installed program) and using that.

We don't get today off. I did with the bank, though.

And KAT--come back already! I don't care if you are on or off the wagon or whatever...I just care about YOU.

I am in BIG-TIME vacation planning mode today. Like I said, I am finally WAY excited about this trip! But I just made a list of things that I have to do in terms of trip-planning and prep, and it is pages and pages long! Yikes!

So I will be on and off all day. And at some point I am going to have to do something with these kids...

Thanks! I just took a major computer break this weekend.

And glad that you are finally excited about the vacation.

OK - it is not a good thing to be stuck at work with an internet connection and no ambition to do anything.... so, I just ordered a boatload of DVD's from Jillian Michael's website (8.99 each... so cheap...) I ordered the 30 day shred, a 3 DVD set of her frontside and backside workouts and the BL cardio max DVD. I have noticed that my walking DVD's are getting dull and need to change things up a bit...

They should be here next week... I'll let you know how they are... if I am still able to move after I do them...

I am feeling much better today and getting out of yesterday's funk... An old friend from college and I have been e-mailing (not the same one, this is one of my many gay man friends) and he always makes me feel better... Funny, he has a knack for sending me an e-mail just when I need it...

OK - must do work....
Paula

30-day shred is BRUTAL. Enjoy!

Glad you are in a better frame of mind today.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Steph - hair looks good.

Sarah - we need pictures of the new pup.

I am tired today. Need nap.

 

[MunkyMe13]

Steph - hair looks good.

Sarah - we need pictures of the new pup.

I am tired today. Need nap.

sooooon!!! LOL... I just need to upload some...

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Busy Monday evening?

Gotta run and give Mad a bath. She usually gets one herself, but lice was found in the class today. I need to do a thorough scrubbing.

 

[MunkyMe13]

30 Day Shred kicked my butt... Man is it tough!!! Lots of and and a little ... those look like workout moves to anyone else?? Anywho nap time...

 

[3DisneyKids]

Busy Monday evening?

Gotta run and give Mad a bath. She usually gets one herself, but lice was found in the class today. I need to do a thorough scrubbing.

Eeeeewwwww....yuck.

And yes, busy.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hey gang...

Stuck in a first aid class tonight and my internet connection went down this afternoon at work... but all was not lost...

I lost 2-1/2 pounds this week....

Needless to say, I am thrilled....

so the moral of the story is this...

new exercise DVD's: $35.00
swim class: $50.00 / 12 classes
food: $100.00

learning how to deal with emotional issues without eating it away: priceless....

Thanks again for all of the support... you all are the best!!!!

Paula

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Paula, that is AWESOME. I am so proud of you!!!

 

[Dizneydawn]

I'm deciding that challenges aren't my thing. At least if I do them by weight. I lose 3 lbs. I gain 2 lbs. Lose 1. Gain 2. Lose 2. Lose 2. Over like 3 weeks.
Yeah...I knew there was a reason I kept gaining and losing a few pounds...they are yours!!!
So, instead, I'm shopping in my closet. The *other* side of my closet. Where I keep clothes-that-don't-fit-but-I-won't-get-rid-of. Today I'm wearing a pair of pants I haven't worn for like 6 months! I'm also cleaning out my closet. I wore a shirt last week and had to keep twitching it into position all day. Too big! GONE! I'm also pre-shopping for new clothes. Trying on in smaller sizes is the best!

Deb

I will be shopping this weekend in Department de Dawn!

you guys are cracking me up with the conversation about tempertatures... my mother is always cold and the joke has and will always be, count how many layers mom is wearing, divide by two and that is what you should wear... it has to be 100 in the shade to get mom to wear shorts and a t-shirt... I say bring on the cold.... I love my sweaters and can't wear them when it is hot out...

talk to you all later,
Paula

My grandma was like that...always looked like it was January...Dan's mom is super svelt...but white as can be...she might as well live in Antartica..I say you can tell the time of year by her color. Opaque or cotton white...

I want to ve beck to 245# by the 15th and healthy.

Can ya tell I was medically challenged?? Anyway...down to 242 this morning... so I beat my goal!!!

Okay, here is a picture from this weekend. I am the 2nd from left, on the top row:

Love that pic...need to put on the fridge with my kids sports magnets!!

Afternoon, I went to another town with my sister for a dr. appt. (My mom works part time and my schedule is much more flexible). So, we got the ball rolling - hopefully for the final time - to get her body in order.

Update for those of you who need it - she has one barely functioning kidney. Dialysis 3 days a week. Needs a kidney transplant, but before that can happen, other work - which I will not go into here. She has been in and out of hospitals her whole life and abhors (sp?) the thought of more. More surgery. More hospitals. More of it all. We, my family, are on here case as she is going to die from this disease and dialysis is not going to work forever. (She is in her 3rd year!) She has started this process a couple times now, but then puts on the brakes. Thus the hand holding from all of us (me going into the dr appt with her). We simply are pushing it/her thru.

I get this all too well...just went for a check up and they want me to see a pain specialist because I am having so much nasuea from the meds/patch they give me...and a physical therapist..and then the kidney bag will be tried..and then an interstem surgery...so no real concrete decesions...just a try and wait and see method...which is horrrible...and frusterating...that is my medical update...

I am sorry you and your family are going through this...but I get the part that is scared and frusterated within her.....I am tired of trying things that don't work and she is farther down that pike than me...her mortality is very real to her I am sure...and facing that is scary...when you can live in denial..there is some comfort.../COLOR]

Steph, I was the same way when I lost weight. I'd get the chill, deep in my bones and couldn't shake it. (Course I fixed that by gaining 40 lbs, but I don't recommend that. I'd rather be chilly.)

You are soo funny...I knew I shoulda beeen born an Eskimo!!! They are accepted and love their fluff...

I so know this isn't true. And you'll be annoyed with me for saying so. But sometimes your life seems like a story book.

It's got so many good points. Your smart, beautiful and healthy. Very independent. A husband who helps, a ton. (I know that is qualified by the fact that he's OCD, but who gives a crap. He's freaking doing the dishes.) J is a good man. Your kiddo's are smart and beautiful. Got your bohemian parents right in your little pocket. You ARE the llbean catalog. You got it babe. I know, that what you have was hard fought. And I know it's far from perfect. (Farther than I can fathom.) But sometimes it looks that way.

Lyz - I totally get this...I look at many of your lives...esp E's on days and go...I suck...but then...I have my 3 kids and Dan and there are some people who do not have that...so I try to wash myself in these thoughts...cause so many times..I really think it sucks...

and yes...E is like the poster girl for that catalog that whats her face from Seinfeld used to work on...she can come out of a porta crapper or hole dug in the earth and look like it is natural...I would look like I just sh!t in the woods...

My Disney trip is in 4 weeks. I still only have half of my ADRs...and again, I can't even manage to sit down and plan the trip and make the reservations. WTH is that about? I mean, I love planning trips. But I just can't muster up the energy to do it. And I feel like that with everything right now, thus the tv in the middle of the day for the kids.

So anyway, thanks for your sweetness b/c I really needed it today.

Everyone else--I am not ignoring you. I will respond to everyone. I am just a bit self-absorbed at the moment and am treading in murky waters.

Thanks for the insight on your bad days...cause I am not as ready as I feel I need to be for our trip either...and it scares me a lot...and I feel like I am letting the kids down by not being able to foccus on it...but right now...it is all about me and the bills and the medical crud...not fun...

I am glad to know that your life is not perfect and sometimes you flounder too..maybe you just mask it better than some of us...

But we are going to Cancun for a week right after Thanksgiving - just the 2 of us...

Good lord...just the 2 of us??? what will we talk about!

Jealous...love me some Isla Mujeres...right outside of Cancun..you gotta go...heaven one earth..and as opposite of Cancun as possible...way layed back...

Hey Dan,

I have been thinking about your post a few pages back. I've stopped unpacking groceries and sat down here to type this out to you, because I so believe it to be true.

You asked a good question, about difficult relationships, and your kids. In my book, Dan, the best gift a dad can give his girls is respect for their mother. No matter what has transpired between you and she, she is still the mother of your children. And those children are girls, and they look to their dad, consciously or unconsciously, for cues on how men should treat women. They will base their knowledge and choices on you, their greatest example.
Thank you Liz for pointing this out to him...I think sometimes he forgets that he is okay because he is doing the right thing...
So even though it is hard, even though you have been hurt, even though you feel attacked, show your ex wife respect. Whatever she says in front of those girls of yours shows her character, not yours. Be loving when you want to be hateful, and silent when you want to attack back. They will not think, my dad is weak, or my dad is what my mom says about him. They will grow to adulthood, and think, my dad treated my mom well even when my mom treated my dad badly; thus, men should treat me with kindness and respect.

Exactly..I think that we are teaching all of our kids by our actions...and how we handle ourselves in the tough times speaks vloumes..beacuse we are watched more closely...
You can discuss what their mom says with them later, privately. You can ask them how it makes them feel, and share your feelings. You can ask them if they want to know what you think about what their mom says. Open dialogue. In this way, you can address it without attacking back. Think of how relieved they will be to have an adult who calmly discusses feelings and issues without defending themselves or posturing. When you are in the right, you have no need to defend yourself. When you are in the wrong, you own it. This is an amazing example and a set of tools for living and communication your girls will not get elsewhere.


That's my 2 cents, for what it's worth.


Okay, back to the groceries!

Again..great word choices...

This is truly the best post in all 400+ pages of this thread. It is so true. Your girls will look to you as an example of how men should treat women.

We often hear about the cycle of abuse (and please do not think I am saying that there was physical abuse in your home...I am just pointing out how people get stuck in cycles). A young girl grows up in a house where the father beats the mother. And even as a young child and then a teen, she hates her home life and can't wait to get away from it. And then people are stunned when she grows up and marries an abusive man herself. It is because this is what she knows. It is what she grew up with; and even though horrible, it is her comfort zone because again, it is what she knows.

This pattern extends far beyond physical abuse. It happens with words and verbal abuse, it happens with patterns of disrespect and dishonesty, and it even happens with food. If young girls grow up seeing the male figure in their life being disrespectful to the female figure in their life, then that is what they will seek out (unconsciously) as adult women. Similarly, if they see the adults in their lives medicate their emotions with food, they will do the same. Or if they get "rewarded" with food, then they will continue to reward themselves that way once on their own. And thus the cycle of obesity.

But as Liz said so well--they look to their dad, consciously or unconsciously, for cues on how men should treat women. They will base their knowledge and choices on you, their greatest example.


You are their primary example of how men behave toward women. So when you think about how to act and react to the situations before you, do so with that in mind.

I think that sometimes it is so easy to get slogged down in the crud..that you think flinging sh!t is the only eway to compete with the sh!t being flung at you...

At the end of the day..ya still smell as stinky..cause the pooh is still on you...regardless if it was thrown with good intention...

And E - right about the cycles...whether it is weight loss or weight obsession...boys or girls...it is all about role modeling reality..and how we successfully get through the imperfections...

I hope to finally get caught up tom...

Treyner liked Dana College - it is just not for him...not challenging enough soccer wise at all...at the same level he is now - but good news...after talking to the art prof - he is sure graphic design is his muse...so I am gratefull for that -

gotta go - talk more tom...

 

[3DisneyKids]

Thanks for the update, Dawn. Glad to see you back and posting!

And no, my life is not perfect. I stay up till all hours of the night working and thus get little to no sleep. I have weight that will not budge no matter what I do, seemingly. And yes, I know it is only a few pounds, but I really don't think that matters. When you work and work and work at something and don't see results, it just plain sucks. And let's not forget the OCD control freak I share space with... Let's see....my house is a disaster (yes, really...I mean, I pick it up every day and it is still just chaos!), I am chronically behind at work...and on and on.

I have said this to others before, but please do not think that my life is a breeze. It doesn't come easy to me. Ever. And P.S. I didn't get a run in today. Or any workout at all for that matter. It get away from me once in a while, too.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hey gang...

Stuck in a first aid class tonight and my internet connection went down this afternoon at work... but all was not lost...

I lost 2-1/2 pounds this week....

Needless to say, I am thrilled....

so the moral of the story is this...

new exercise DVD's: $35.00
swim class: $50.00 / 12 classes
food: $100.00

learning how to deal with emotional issues without eating it away: priceless....

Thanks again for all of the support... you all are the best!!!!

Paula

PAULA! Two words...

GODDESS CROWN!

So happy for you! What a great loss!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Thanks for the update, Dawn. Glad to see you back and posting!

And no, my life is not perfect. I stay up till all hours of the night working and thus get little to no sleep. I have weight that will not budge no matter what I do, seemingly. And yes, I know it is only a few pounds, but I really don't think that matters. When you work and work and work at something and don't see results, it just plain sucks. And let's not forget the OCD control freak I share space with... Let's see....my house is a disaster (yes, really...I mean, I pick it up every day and it is still just chaos!), I am chronically behind at work...and on and on.

I have said this to others before, but please do not think that my life is a breeze. It doesn't come easy to me. Ever. And P.S. I didn't get a run in today. Or any workout at all for that matter. It get away from me once in a while, too.

E - you are a blessed woman - control freak and all...and I can understand how frusterating it can be to have a few nagging pounds that won't get gone...you work out..and do the right things more than I probably ever will...and truthfully...you deserve success more than almost anyone I know...because you work for the things that are important to you...and you sacrifice sleep and alone time to make sure that the people and work you do is not sacrificed..and that is why I admire you...

You just emulate all things good that most of us want...the difference is what you are willing to give and give up...and again...we all respect that...even when our green eye gets the best of us...and looks only at the positives you have..not the hard work you do to get to that place...

You are awesome E - and I am proud of you every day - even when I do not tell you that daily...

so again - Thanks for sharing your life with me - it makes me strive to be a better woman...for the right reasons...


Paula - Skinny R US!!!

 

[MunkyMe13]

Hey gang...

Stuck in a first aid class tonight and my internet connection went down this afternoon at work... but all was not lost...

I lost 2-1/2 pounds this week....

Needless to say, I am thrilled....

so the moral of the story is this...

new exercise DVD's: $35.00
swim class: $50.00 / 12 classes
food: $100.00

learning how to deal with emotional issues without eating it away: priceless....

Thanks again for all of the support... you all are the best!!!!

Paula

Congrats!!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Good morning! Wow, did my kids have a hard time getting up this morning. It was DARK here. So far north and all. It is going to be tough until we do the clocks.

Ok, more vacation planning today and a double work-out since I missed yesterday.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Paula - A loss. A loss. Ding Ding Ding. Yaay for you. And your card analogy - hi lar ious!

Dawn - yaay for you. A. losing weight and b. back to posting. I missed your funny and honest take. More please.

E - yes, she is way more willing than I to put in the hard work. At the end of every day I say "screw it" and she's still up working.

Sarah - I wonder what new muscles will hurt this morning.

Ok, trying my darndest to get my house straighted up, like 6 loads of laundry to fold, workout and shower before 10am!

Later taters.