New TTC Thread

[WDWAurora]

Allison, try checking the dr.'s office website for a release. Some of them put it on there. Otherwise, I'd have him write something like "I, Mr. skuttle, hereby grant XYZ Dr's office permission to release any and all medical information to my wife, Ms. skuttle. XYZ has my permission to discuss any and all medical conditions and concerns of mine with her. Please do not hesitate to contact me at 222-444-8888 with any questions or concerns." I read a lot of medical releases!

I discovered something today that is hard, but stupid. Buying feminine hygeine products! I put it off until the very last second, buy the smallest quantity possible, which means I inevitably have to go back the next month because there aren't enough left over, and it feels ike admitting failure. It's humiliating, and it's not like anybody really knows but me! I felt like an idiot!

I go in tomorrow. Hopefully I'll get some answers. I'm not sure if it's better to have them find nothing wrong with me, or if it would be worse to have them find something. Ugh.

 

[TAKitty]

I discovered something today that is hard, but stupid. Buying feminine hygeine products! I put it off until the very last second, buy the smallest quantity possible, which means I inevitably have to go back the next month because there aren't enough left over, and it feels ike admitting failure. It's humiliating, and it's not like anybody really knows but me! I felt like an idiot!

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This is actually pretty funny to me because I feel the same way! The last time I went to the store they were having a sale so I got 3 packages worth. My dh joked that we won't run out. I told him that I am going to need them for a long time so I should stock up. (I was feeling bad). Some months I have told myself that I am done buying pads because I won't need them again...I always end up needed them.

 

[skuttle]

This is actually pretty funny to me because I feel the same way! The last time I went to the store they were having a sale so I got 3 packages worth. My dh joked that we won't run out. I told him that I am going to need them for a long time so I should stock up. (I was feeling bad). Some months I have told myself that I am done buying pads because I won't need them again...I always end up needed them.

Look at it this way. After you give birth, you'll need the pads because you'll bleed for a while. So just think that you're buying them now for after you deliver the baby because you make not think of it 8 months later.

Okay, not the same, I know..but it was worth a shot!
I always go through the same thing every month too. Except now this month I also have a bunch of unused HPT. After I got a very faint BFP (fainter than the first) I ran to the store and bought about 4 different brands...only to go to the bathroom to use one and find out that I was bleeding.

 

[TAKitty]

I ran to the store and bought about 4 different brands...only to go to the bathroom to use one and find out that I was bleeding.

I have done this before too .

Sorry about the doctor appointments/phone calls/ignorant people, etc. .

 

[KristineN]

Hi ladies....

I used to be on this thread awhile back (Elaine was still pregnant) I was hoping to find good news here.

I got pregnant twice and had early miscarriages both times (They actually thought they were ectopic. The first one on my 40th bday...the second time at WDW while on vacation!!! Needless to say...what a crappy process for all of us, huh?!

I am not sure what my future TTC plans are...I have finally reached the point of being completely mentally drained. But who knows what tomorrow brings....

 

[D&DDisney]

Well, they must have felt sorry for me. Instead of having a prenatal visit on Tuesday, I'll still be going in but to have my annual and bloodwork done after the chemical pregnancy. I cried the whole way home. I never really let myself cry after I realized this pregnancy wasn't going to happen, so I think I really needed that. I forgot to ask what the signed note from my DH needs to say so that I can get a copy of his results (I was concentrating too hard on not crying while talking to the nurse!). Anyone have any ideas? She asked if I was still on the Metformin...I quit that over the summer when I decided I was "over" TTC. I hope I don't get fussed at for that. And I hope I don't get fussed since my DH hasn't had his follow-up yet. Hopefully she understands that I was just fed up with it all and needed a break from it all. I'm going to try not to think about it until 1:30 on Tuesday so that I can enjoy my weekend. God help me if someone in the group of girls going to the concert is pregnant.

Anyone who yells or scolds a woman going through infertility for something she did or didn't do is NOT a good Dr. or RE or whatever.
Its okay to cry. Even here as you post. We understand completely!

Its funny that you mention buying the feminine products, because that is exaclty what I am thinking each time I buy some. Will this be the last time for a while??? This week there was a sale and I had a coupon (double coupon day too) so I got 2 big boxes for almost nothing. As I was putting them in the cart, I wondered if I'd use them all or if I'd get to pack them away for a while. Sigh*** Glad I'm not the only one.
As for buying pregnancy tests, I just don't any more. If I'm late, I just make myself wait 1 week (which is super hard to do). I've been burned too many times with buying and then feeling AF come almost instantly. Or, seeing the BFN which just depresses me all the more. Even taking OP tests and getting a negative depresses me. I have this fear of single lines! LOL

 

[D&DDisney]

Hi ladies....

I used to be on this thread awhile back (Elaine was still pregnant) I was hoping to find good news here.

I got pregnant twice and had early miscarriages both times (They actually thought they were ectopic. The first one on my 40th bday...the second time at WDW while on vacation!!! Needless to say...what a crappy process for all of us, huh?!

I am not sure what my future TTC plans are...I have finally reached the point of being completely mentally drained. But who knows what tomorrow brings....

Welcome back KristeN! We're here for ya whenever you need us.

 

[vetrik]

Skuttle - I'm so sad for you. That must be awful to go through. I hope they're able to give you some more information at your appointment next week.

WDW Aurora - I hope you also have a good appointment today! I know what you mean about not knowing what would be better - I've often thought that it might be easier for me if I got to that point to know that something was the cause of any problems if we have them, rather than not finding anything and still not being able to get pregnant.

I posted a little while ago about my aunt and uncle who unexpectedly got pregnant at 40 when they thought they weren't going to be able to have any kids. She had a beautiful baby girl yesterday, and everything went perfectly. I went to the hospital to see the baby yesterday - she's so cute! I'm so happy for them!

DH and I had a plan for a long time to start trying in May of this year. Then my brother's girlfriend accidentally got pregnant, and they had a little boy in June. I had fleeting thoughts about not having the first grandchild (my brother is quite a bit younger, and was not settled at all, so it was a shock). but they passed quickly and I've been really happy for them. Now my aunt has a little girl, and I'm finding it a little harder to deal with. I have a small family and there aren't many girls in my family. I'm really close with my mom and my grandmother (we have several special "Daughters' Days" every year). I dream of having a little girl and carrying on those relationships. My mom even has a special present tucked aside for the first baby girl born in the family (I was the last one, and I'm 28!). Now this baby is going to get it. I know it's stupid because I don't regret waiting to have kids, there's no guarantee I'll ever have a girl anyway, and I know if I ever do have a girl there will be plenty of special things for her too. It's just weird little feeling I have that I can't vent about with anyone in real life. Plus I feel guilty about wanting a girl so much (I know if I get pregnant I'll be thrilled with a boy too!).

I'm feeling pretty positive this cycle, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I am either 1-2 days DPO now. This was my first month with the Clearblue Easy fertility monitor, and I did get peak days (although I didn't get any high days), I had EWCM for the first time since the ectopic, and we did a BD marathon every day during the fertile period this month since every other day didn't work so well for us the last couple months.

 

[WDWAurora]

vetrik-One thing to remember with the monitor is that it's still getting used to your levels of hormones. I wouldn't be worried that you didn't get high days this time. It's great that you got peak! Isn't that reassuring?

I feel sort of the same way with family issues. I don't have a mother, so to speak, because mine has dementia. So I had high hopes for having the third grandchild, and first granddaughter, on DH's side. Well...now (after next Friday) two girls will have been born, one in June and one now. So...it feels like since it will be the fifth, at best, it won't mean much on their side, and there isn't a mom-like figure for me for it to mean something to. THAT is the kind of stuff that makes me struggle through this.

Well, DH and I went to the doctor today. Let me tell you, he's impossible to live with now after the report she gave him! Apparently normal sperm count is like 20 mill, his is 150 mill. Normal mobility is 50, his is 64. He could NOT stop grinning. It was hilarious. He keeps bringing it up now, too. The doctor told me I could skip to IVF if I wanted, which of course I don't since no way can we afford it. Now I'll be doing 3 more injections monthly, along with something, to make me prepare multiple eggs (I've had one or two ready the past 3 months). I have to go to a class to learn how to administer the injections. She said it wasn't much different than the ovidrel, which wasn't so bad. She doesn't want us to do anything with a large risk of high order multiples since we're pretty young. She thinks that we'd be likely to get high order since everything, other than my irregular cycles, is normal. After this attempt, she recommends IUI, which will cost around $1000. Ugh. I think we're preparing ourselves to have to spend that, butit jsut doesn't seem like that would be all that effective since there isn't a sperm issue.

Another thing that we talked about was my weight. At some point, the doctor said "since you're small...blah blah blah." Um, what? You missed me ballooning from a size 6 or 8 on the pill to a size 12 now. While I know that isn't massive or anything, it's a huge gain and much larger than I should be. She said that I should probably drop most refined sugars from my diet. Basically, it's all related to the irregular periods. So no more sweet tea, which is killing me. I had dropped off artificial sweeteners, but she indicated I could have those, so...I'm probably going to starve and be completely miserable.

 

[TAKitty]

vetrik-One thing to remember with the monitor is that it's still getting used to your levels of hormones. I wouldn't be worried that you didn't get high days this time. It's great that you got peak! Isn't that reassuring?

I feel sort of the same way with family issues. I don't have a mother, so to speak, because mine has dementia. So I had high hopes for having the third grandchild, and first granddaughter, on DH's side. Well...now (after next Friday) two girls will have been born, one in June and one now. So...it feels like since it will be the fifth, at best, it won't mean much on their side, and there isn't a mom-like figure for me for it to mean something to. THAT is the kind of stuff that makes me struggle through this.

Well, DH and I went to the doctor today. Let me tell you, he's impossible to live with now after the report she gave him! Apparently normal sperm count is like 20 mill, his is 150 mill. Normal mobility is 50, his is 64. He could NOT stop grinning. It was hilarious. He keeps bringing it up now, too. The doctor told me I could skip to IVF if I wanted, which of course I don't since no way can we afford it. Now I'll be doing 3 more injections monthly, along with something, to make me prepare multiple eggs (I've had one or two ready the past 3 months). I have to go to a class to learn how to administer the injections. She said it wasn't much different than the ovidrel, which wasn't so bad. She doesn't want us to do anything with a large risk of high order multiples since we're pretty young. She thinks that we'd be likely to get high order since everything, other than my irregular cycles, is normal. After this attempt, she recommends IUI, which will cost around $1000. Ugh. I think we're preparing ourselves to have to spend that, butit jsut doesn't seem like that would be all that effective since there isn't a sperm issue.

Another thing that we talked about was my weight. At some point, the doctor said "since you're small...blah blah blah." Um, what? You missed me ballooning from a size 6 or 8 on the pill to a size 12 now. While I know that isn't massive or anything, it's a huge gain and much larger than I should be. She said that I should probably drop most refined sugars from my diet. Basically, it's all related to the irregular periods. So no more sweet tea, which is killing me. I had dropped off artificial sweeteners, but she indicated I could have those, so...I'm probably going to starve and be completely miserable.

We all have such different stories. My dh only had 4 million at his appointment so he is on meds. I am considered 100% normal so I am not taking meds.

The point of the IUI is to by pass all of the problem areas and deposit the sperm right by the egg (so they hope). With that many sperm I am sure one will find the egg! My IUI's cost about 700 a month. At first I was very upset because I want to get ahead in life etc. But when I added up the entire cost it isn't that much. They say that after six IUIs if it doesn't work by then it is not going to work for you. So it is less than 1/3 of a new car!

Now if you are even thinking about IVF you should not "waste" as much money for IUIs and only do a few. Since dh is against IVF we are doing all six.

What did you doctor say about being small? I am a size 2 or 4 and my doctor didn't say anything to me about my size. The only time it came up was talking about IVF and multiple births.

I understand about feeling left out from family. My dh's family has six grandchildren and two are from my dh. I feel like they don't really care at all if we have one together. I have a mom, but she is kind of self centered (but I still want her approval which is why I am taking her to Disney in Dec. ). She is busy worrying about my younger brother and sister (in college and 19 in military). My dad's family is all dead, including my father. I feel like I am the last to carry on his side of the family and that might not happen.

Tracie

 

[skuttle]

Courtney....your DH's results are great! Congrats that you don't have that to worry about!! I can only imagine how proud he is! LOL! Good luck with the next round of treatment. Hopefully you won't have to deal with IUI! IUI is about as far as we plan to go as well. I'm so very sorry about your family situation...I am sure it only makes things worse.

TAKitty...what does Clomid do for guys? Also, does your DH have any side effects from taking the Clomid? I casually mentioned to DH that I am going to the Dr on Tuesday and will need him to sign a note so I can get his results that way during Christmas break he can go for a follow-up. He said "okay." It took him SO long to agree to do the follow-up, since I didn't do it right away I was afraid I lost my chance!

I'm heading out to the NKOTB concert tonight to celebrate my 30th. I'm really looking forward to it. My only fear is that I drink too much and cross over so the "sad and depressed" drunk person and start blabbing about TTC! I rarely drink so it may not take me much! My friend that flew in from Florida for the concert is really excited about going out on Bourbon Street after the concert...I think I'm too old for this. A couple of Margaritas and I'm out.

 

[momsully]

Just checking in from California to see how everyone is doing. I keep hoping for some happy news on this thread.by

Allison - have a great birthday concert. My birthday was yesterday and youngest DS was 7 on Wednesday so we celebrated with Mickey. I have to admit I really don't like Disneyland when compared to Disney World. We usually go to Disney World once or twice a year, this is the first trip to CA in about five years and I am really disappointed and probably won't be back any time soon. We are headed to Sea World tomorrow and then Legoland Monday which the boys are really excited about.

My DH has never been willing to get checked, and since I have been pregnant they think the problem is just OLD eggs. I filled the prescription for Clomid and it is sitting in my bag, I just need to decide to start it but I may wait until the first of the year.

Vetrik - Was the Monitor easy to use? Do you have to use it at the same time every day? I bought one on ebay right after my miscarriage and still have not taken it out of the box...

Positive thoughts and baby dust for everyone!

 

[TAKitty]

TAKitty...what does Clomid do for guys? Also, does your DH have any side effects from taking the Clomid? I casually mentioned to DH that I am going to the Dr on Tuesday and will need him to sign a note so I can get his results that way during Christmas break he can go for a follow-up. He said "okay." It took him SO long to agree to do the follow-up, since I didn't do it right away I was afraid I lost my chance!

The Clomid is supposed to increase his numbers. For an IUI you should have 10 million post wash. After they wash them 1/2 die. Our first test dh had 4 million prewash. The Clomid is not FDA approved in men. Some men report that it works, but for others it does nothing.

Dh just last night said that he thought the meds gave him no side effects. He has been on a half pill for a month. It does take 3 months until we may see results.

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY

 

[D&DDisney]

Happy Birthday Momsully!

That's really funny about the men feeling "good" about themselves if they have many strong little men. Such an ego booster. Still glad you got good news there. Don't feel like its all you Aurora. Both me and my husband checked out fine and still we had a problem. Sometimes its just unknown and that's the most frustrating.

Skuttle - How was that concert???? Are you hung over?

 

[skuttle]

Hi girls! We had a GREAT time at the concert! It was SO much fun. The did all the old favorites and even did the dances to go along with it. LOL! It was really a lot of fun. I'm not hung over, just really tired. We didn't get to the hotel room until around 3:30am. I can't tell you the last time I was up past 11 much less 3:30!

 

[WDWAurora]

momsully-I'm not vetrik, but I've been using the monitor for about 6 months now. When you start the monitor on the first day, the time you set it needs to be approximately the time you want to test. You get a 6 hour window-3 hrs before the time you set it, and 3 hrs after. Your first month, you will have to start testing on day 6, and then after that it may be day 9, depending on your timing. You test for either 10 or 20 days straight. It's not so bad if you can remember to do it! It's supposed to be first urine, so for me, I would set it at 6:30, then have to test between 3:30 and 9:30. So if I had a middle of the night urge to pee, I'd have to make sure it wasn't time to test, and if it was, turn on the lights and pee on the stick. Not difficult, just mildly inconvenient. I'm taking this month off, from all of it, before I start the next series of drugs.

TAKitty-The reference to my size was in a conversation about the problem, which seems to be my irregular periods. She was saying that I didn't fit the profile very well for PCOS since I'm "a small person." At that point, I disagreed, based on my weight gain and previous size. She told me to go almost south beach diet and decrease my carbs and refined sugars, which may kill me. I'm a little surprised she mentioned PCOS since I had no cysts when I was checked. Maybe I don't understand what it is? So your size isn't a problem, she was saying that the fact I was small was good, but I SO have to lose some weight.

skuttle-Glad the concert was fun! We kind of want to go. I love their new album, and I loved the old stuff!! I also kind of want to see Dolly Parton, who will be nearby soon. What can I say, she's sort of a hero!

 

[Jen_in_NH]

Has anyone ever used the progesterone suppositories? I've never had them before, but this month, the doc wanted me to try them. I go for my beta on Wednesday, and I've been feeling really tired and nauseous.
1. Is that a side effect of the progesterone?
2. Will the HCG trigger still be giving me a false positive if I decide to POAS a day early?

Help!

 

[WDWAurora]

I did the ovidrel trigger 3 times, and they told me to wait 16 days after it for risk of a false positive. I haven't had to do the progesterone. Hope that helps!

My diet is killing me!! If anybody had any low carb advice, I could use it!

 

[KristineN]

I use the progesterone suppositories each cycle.....yes, it can make you tired, nauseated, sore ****s etc....it unfortunately mimics pregnancy symptoms.

The HCG on average metabolizes out at a rate of 1000 units per day.....if you are very thin, it can take longer....

GOOD LUCK!!!!!

Has anyone ever used the progesterone suppositories? I've never had them before, but this month, the doc wanted me to try them. I go for my beta on Wednesday, and I've been feeling really tired and nauseous.
1. Is that a side effect of the progesterone?
2. Will the HCG trigger still be giving me a false positive if I decide to POAS a day early?

Help!

 

[skuttle]

Well, I had my appt today. I didn't cry. I'm very proud of myself for that!

She drew blood to check my HCG just in case since I haven't taken a HPT since my period ended. I know that's going to be totally negative. She said next time I get a BFP to come in right away for blood work. She's also going to check my thyroid since I haven't had that done yet.

She gave me a new Rx for the Metformin and said I should continue to take it as long as we are TTC because it could help.

Other than that, not much to do until DH goes for a follow-up.

She said the good news is that I'm ovulating and DH obviously has some sperm. But nothing more she'll do until DH goes for a follow-up so we can see where things stand with him.

Ever since getting the BFP, I have felt a renewed urge to TTC again. I think I needed all of those months off. I'm ready to start the meds, and diet and exercise again. Okay..maybe a bad idea to start the diet and exercise a month before my thanksgiving trip to WDW!