Commando v. Casual - The Innate Planner Battles the Inner Pirate - 2-8 P22

[Mndisneygirl]

I haven't been here in a while but I've read the updates (thanks for the links). Very nice. Love what you've done with the house too!

 

[TarzansKat]

I haven't been here in a while but I've read the updates (thanks for the links).

(You're welcome.)

Actually I find that if I link everything, I seem to get more readers, and I know I love it when I can just blaze through a trip report like that.

Very nice. Love what you've done with the house too!

Thank you very much!

 

[shannn]

Did it! Started a trip report. (Link in my siggie )

 

[TarzansKat]

Did it! Started a trip report. (Link in my siggie )

I'm so proud of you.

And I'll be there in two shakes!

 

[jenjolt]

WOW those pictures are amazing!! You and MJS did some great work!!! VERY VERY impressive!!

Love the little Disney touches!!

 

[TarzansKat]

WOW those pictures are amazing!! You and MJS did some great work!!! VERY VERY impressive!!

Love the little Disney touches!!

Thank you very much!

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

Hey Miss Thang. I'm here.

 

[TarzansKat]

I so wish I was feeling like Miss Thang right now.

More like Miss Tired.

Happy you're here!!!

 

[jenjolt]

I so wish I was feeling like Miss Thang right now.

More like Miss Tired.

Happy you're here!!!

LOL can we share that title LOL!!!!!!

I'm exhausted this morning and not sure why LOL!!!!

 

[TarzansKat]

Hey, folks. I'm sorry there hasn't been the consistent weekly updates like I had going on before. I've had a really rough week. One of my dear friends just lost her mother, and I went to the memorial service last night. Since I didn't want to bring the kids, I waited for MJS to get home, and went by myself. I'm never sure whether or not it's a good idea to do things like that by myself, but I am determined to be there for my friend.

I feel so badly for her. There's a lot of circumstances surrounding this loss...aren't there always, I guess...and so I'm trying to be the best friend I can right now.

Selfishly, any time I experience, or someone close to my experiences a loss, all I can think about is my mom.

And I've been having a really hard time, and thinking about her a lot these past couple of weeks.

We're preparing for Squirt's first birthday, which is the 26th, and I can't help but think that this is one more thing we're doing without her. My family has been so supportive and helpful in planning his party, which is the weekend after his birthday, but I can't help but want my mother.

Actually, there have been a lot of times this week that I have wanted my mother. It doesn't negate being grateful that I had her...actually, I feel very blessed to have had the relationship that we had...I would just like some more of it, thank you very much.

I thought...rather mistakenly...that once we got past a year, things would get easier, and I'm afraid that they really don't. Because all I can think about it is how much she would have loved to plan Squirt's party with me. How much she would have spoiled him just like she spoiled Nemo. How much I miss her, and how much my heart aches for the son that will never get to know her in person, only through us.

And we can keep her memory alive, and it's wonderful, but I still miss her so much. And it's times like this, times of great transition, that no matter how long it's been since her passing, I feel it the most.

Squirt will be one. He's starting to self-wean, so we won't be nursing much longer. I just can't believe this year has gone by so quickly, and although I'm sad, I can recognize the many blessings that we've had. We have been very lucky, we have been taken care of.

And I will be okay. I know that.

So, anyway, I'll try to get another chapter up before his birthday, because I have a feeling next week will be a little crazy pulling everything together. Just wanted to let you all know where I'm at right now.

 

[TarzansKat]

LOL can we share that title LOL!!!!!!

I'm exhausted this morning and not sure why LOL!!!!

I just noticed that you have a cruise ticker!!! Are you pre-tripping that?

 

[jenjolt]

Awwwwwww...Kat...I'm thinking and praying for you and for your friend! I'm sure you are being exactly what she needs you to be right now...there!!!! That will mean a lot to her and to you!!!

Happy 1st Bday for Squirt!!!!

 

[jenjolt]

I just noticed that you have a cruise ticker!!! Are you pre-tripping that?

Not yet LOL!! I am trying to keep up with my last TR and Oct LOL but after that YES Ma'am I'll send you a bat signal LOL

 

[Lady Lallie]

I'm sorry you are having a tough time right now. Don't feel pressure to post on here, we will be waiting when you have the time.

 

[TarzansKat]

Awwwwwww...Kat...I'm thinking and praying for you and for your friend! I'm sure you are being exactly what she needs you to be right now...there!!!! That will mean a lot to her and to you!!!

Thank you. I'm trying anyway.

Happy 1st Bday for Squirt!!!!

Thanks!

Not yet LOL!! I am trying to keep up with my last TR and Oct LOL but after that YES Ma'am I'll send you a bat signal LOL

Bat signal will be appreciated. Especially in this house.

I'm sorry you are having a tough time right now. Don't feel pressure to post on here, we will be waiting when you have the time.

Thanks, LL.

 

[pooh'smate]

Kat, just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you during this difficult time for you. Also I just wanted to let you know part of the reason I joined the gym is because of you, Tink, LL, and Jen. I want to be healthy and all of you encourage me even though you didn't know it.

 

[TarzansKat]

Kat, just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you during this difficult time for you. Also I just wanted to let you know part of the reason I joined the gym is because of you, Tink, LL, and Jen. I want to be healthy and all of you encourage me even though you didn't know it.

Thank you so much.

And I'm so happy for you joining the gym! You know, I really got into running because of the DIS. After my mother died, I just needed to do something, and running became it. Whenever I have a weak moment, I think, I can do this. And somehow, I do.

 

[pooh'smate]

Thank you so much.

And I'm so happy for you joining the gym! You know, I really got into running because of the DIS. After my mother died, I just needed to do something, and running became it. Whenever I have a weak moment, I think, I can do this. And somehow, I do.

One of the things I learned on my tour is that this gym is really into marathons so they have trainers here who will train just for that. I really want to run a race at Disney.

 

[TarzansKat]

One of the things I learned on my tour is that this gym is really into marathons so they have trainers here who will train just for that. I really want to run a race at Disney.

That's awesome. You know if you "like" the runDisney website on Facebook, you'll get tips from their trainer on how to train and things like that. You might like that also.

 

[Mndisneygirl]

Hey Kat - just don't you worry about updating! We are here and this is your TR, so you go at whatever pace works. I leave mine go for 2 weeks sometimes, then come back and do 3 updates in 2 days!

I hope you can help your friend and you both can help each other. I'm sure it is a very difficult thing (can't say firsthand) so just know that we support you!

Happy Birthday Squirt!! I bet that year flew by, didn't it! I didn't nurse that long but I remember it being sort of bittersweet when we were done with that phase!