New TTC Thread

[RachaelRol]

Morning! I spoke with the IVF Insurance lady at the RE's office yesterday so I am approved insurance wise which is fantastic! I also left a message with the schedule coordinator as well. I am hoping that we can get in sooner rather then later. Fingers crossed ya know! It will mean 2 or 3 days off in the next couple of months so I need to speak to the boss about that too.

E: It'sbeen such a long road for you, I hope this is a once and done! I am very excited that you are moving on to IVF. Keep you in my thoughts and lots of pixie dust your way.

 

[RachaelRol]

KG, I would probably pack more than 2....so you've shown good restraint!

We waited over an hour and a half to see the dr this morning. Our appt was at 9:30 and we didn't see him until after 11. I was pissed but just hoped that they wouldn't charge us too much (it was $215 for our initial consult before all our IUI's etc).

Well...we walked out WITH a "sample" (300 iu) of Gonal F and the pen to put it in -- which will be the injectables I'm going to take -- and.....

*drumroll please*


The receptionist said it was $20 for today!!!!!!




We already have a $315 credit on our account so this means that we still have a $295 credit left to go towards the cycle!!! (we found out about the credit on last visit, and are not 100% sure where it came from, but we'll take it!!)

The cycle will go something like this: I'm still on the birth control pills -- I take those until the 31st (next Wednesday). They expect my AF to start a few days later, and then I have my baseline ultrasound (and bloodwork) on Monday the 5th at 11 am, which should be CD 3 or 4. Assuming everything looks fine, which it should especially after BC, I will start my Gonal F injectables that same day. I'm taking the lowest dose, of 75 IU a day. I'll take it for 4 days, and then go in for a follicle check on Friday the 9th (Thank God I'm off that day already). If they seem to be growing quickly, I'll have another check that Saturday as well. Otherwise, I'll be back in Monday the 12th for another ultrasound. (I may or may not need more meds, and if I do they will order them on the 9th when I go for that first follie check). And then possibly another follie check Tuesday and/or Wednesday, etc. There could be every day checks after that. I'll be on a different trigger this time (probably Pregnyl, whereas I was on Novarelle last 3 IUIs) and will take it whenever my follies are ready. The IUI will most likely take place between that Wednesday to Friday. (April 14th, 15th, or 16th)

We are shooting for 4 follicles this time! 3 would be an okay number but since we're spending all this extra money and this is the 4th IUI, I want to really get aggressive. The RE said "4 or more" would be fine for me...yeah!!!

Also we are going with a different donor than what we had. Maybe this other one just wasn't working.

So we are upping the ante' here and I'm very excited!!!

Cher: Yay for you! Hopefully this new donor and approach will do it. Really there has to be more good news here soon!

 

[RachaelRol]

Morning ladies,

I hope everyone else is doing well. I am in the TWW, it will end when we are on vacation, so I have packed two pregnancy tests... just in case!

This weekend we ran into a friend and she told us that her husband was just diagnosed with testicular cancer (and only 28!). The outlook is good I guess...but it was pretty obvious that they won't be having kids. My husband and I both felt sad for them and a little guilty for doing so much pouting- at least we are both healthy. It is hard how life can be so unfair.

Wishing us all lots of luck and bouncing babies 9 months from now!

Good luck to you in the TWW. I certainly would have packed one pregnancy test for every day of my trip! Awesome display of restraint.

I did want to tell you that while sad and unfair about your friend, you shouldn't feel guilty about pouting. I'd feel guilty too BTW, but your heart is in the right place and it's okay to want to be healty and have a baby!

 

[RachaelRol]

Eilis!! AWESOME news about your insurance coverage!! If it were up to me....EVERYONE...well all sane women.. would get healthcare coverage on infertility:!!


AFM----

I'm starting to recover from my IBS episode Still NO period....last time I tested was Wed AM ?? ......... Anyway....I i decided I am NOT going to test again until Monday if I dont start my period. Today is CD33......according to last month, I am on a 30 day cycle....BUT I have had 35 day cycles...so I am not getting THAT excited about being somewhat late. My body is a cruel and unusual piece of equipment ....it likes to trick me alot

Hi T! You are not out yet! Try to stay positive. You have much nicer words for your equipment than I do for mine!! But seriously, you are in my prayers and I hope you get a BFP on Monday.

 

[RachaelRol]

Amen sister!!! You tell them. Just because you CAN reproduce, doesn't mean you SHOULD!!!

I'm officially out today!! I give up. This is crazy. Just doesn't get any more textbook than this. WTH is going on here????
I'm just gonna go sit in a chair, drink and complain.

I'm so sorry D! Enjoy the drink and complaining. This stuff is such a PIA that we are all entitled to drink and complain and eat and shop to feel better. (for a little while anyway.)

When is your next Dr appointment?

 

[RachaelRol]

As for me ladies, I am done. I just can't go through this emotionally.

I mean it was bad. I was depressed, laying around, not focused, etc. I know the meds caused some of it, but some of it was just the stress of it all.

I wanted another child so badly, but I believe it is not meant to be for me. We've considered all of the options and just can't.

I've always wanted to know what caused this "I" word in me. And now I do, diminshed ovarian reserve which I may have always had, so my son truly is a miracle.

He was 10 weeks early, had a collapsed lung and nearly died on his 3rd day of life. He spent 38 days in the hospital and is truly a miracle and above all healthy. Reason for his early birth was me. I developed severe preeclampisa and HELLP syndrome and nearly stroked out so he had to be delivered early.

One thing I never wanted to do was compromise the quality of mom I am to the son I already have in hope of I child I don't. Not sure if this makes sense to you.

I can say I tried everything I was comfortable with and I hate being a quitter. I really hate losing and being a quitter, but I tried, I loss and now I quit.

I won once and that was the greatest victory ever!

I'm still going to hang out here. Not asking you all, just telling you like it is. I hope and pray you all get your miracles.

Rachael

 

[esbrick]

As for me ladies, I am done. I just can't go through this emotionally.

I mean it was bad. I was depressed, laying around, not focused, etc. I know the meds caused some of it, but some of it was just the stress of it all.

I wanted another child so badly, but I believe it is not meant to be for me. We've considered all of the options and just can't.

I've always wanted to know what caused this "I" word in me. And now I do, diminshed ovarian reserve which I may have always had, so my son truly is a miracle.

He was 10 weeks early, had a collapsed lung and nearly died on his 3rd day of life. He spent 38 days in the hospital and is truly a miracle and above all healthy. Reason for his early birth was me. I developed severe preeclampisa and HELLP syndrome and nearly stroked out so he had to be delivered early.

One thing I never wanted to do was compromise the quality of mom I am to the son I already have in hope of I child I don't. Not sure if this makes sense to you.

I can say I tried everything I was comfortable with and I hate being a quitter. I really hate losing and being a quitter, but I tried, I loss and now I quit.

I won once and that was the greatest victory ever!

I'm still going to hang out here. Not asking you all, just telling you like it is. I hope and pray you all get your miracles.

Rachael

Hey there Rachael. What a hard decision you have made and I know you have struggled with it. I am glad you are going to stick around and I appreciate all your pixie dust and prayers any day. Remember you can always change your mind

Thanks for sharing with us and we will still be here when you need us.

Eilis

 

[Kennywife]

Vent alert:

I went to the zoo with my mom yesterday and it was fun. Until she started hauranging me about going to her church....again. I choose to go off and on with my cousin to hers, a very liberal, open-minded church that accepts everyone. At my moms, I got judged openly for marrying a man who is half-Japanese and now, they need younger people to come back to help build it up....gee...I wonder why they all left?

I just finally told her I had no interest in going there with her again and she says I hate God. I don't hate God, but I don't understand him at all for doing this to me. My mom is one of these people who thinks if you pray hard enough, your problems will just magically dissapear. Well, I've been praying for my Epilepsy to go away for over a decade....nothing. I'd never tell her this; I consider myself to be Agnostic. I do believe in God, but not organized religion.

So, then she says, "If I had it to do over again, I never would have had you since you've suffered all your life with disabilities and it's made you bitter." If she wasn't my mom, I'd have slapped her. She always thinks I'm better off without a kid to "ruin my marriage like I did hers." Ah no mom, you did that on your own by never letting dad into your heart, that's what I want to say so bad.

She's the one that's bitter. She had a good man in my dad and chose to throw him away (they're seperated) so she can have a pathetic on and off again relationship with this idiot loser freak who only comes around when he needs $$. She and I have a love/hate relationship since I have always been closer to my dad and his family.

Am I angry about this possible infertility crap? Yes. But I refuse to let it beat me. And i refuse to let her get me down either.

Anna

 

[soontobewed07]

Rachel- I'm sorry it is so hard. We are here anytime you need to talk.

Anna- Oh Mom's I would have told her how you felt after all it seems she told you how she felt. It's not right for anyone to hurt you that way.

 

[KiKi Mouse]

Anna,

I am sure you realize how mixed up your Mother's thinking is and SHE has a lot of issues that she needs to work out (but will never happen).
However, I know those words must hurt a lot since they even hurt me by reading them and she is not my mother! Ouch.

*hugs* and good for you for being so strong and not giving up.

 

[Kennywife]

to you guys.

Oh Kiki, how's the baby? You must be so happy.

I've decided I'm gonna take this head-on. I'm actually a little bit excited to tell you the truth. I'm going to go and find out how everything is and what needs to be done, our options. Kenny said he would go with me. First thing is to find out about my fibroids and what can be done about them.

My dx (both neuro and gyno) have told me if I could get my periods to get better, my seizures would clear up since they are related. So, getting this taken care of could help me in more ways than one!

Kenny (he's such a sweetheart) has been so good through all this. He said that this summer, after we maybe have an idea of what's to come, we may go away to Vegas/DL for a weekend just to clear our heads and relax. He's getting his gold star. I've decided not to go to D-Land next month on the b-day work trip. I'm gonna go in June to WDW since that's scheduled already. I want to find out about this first.

My dad and g-ma are supportive too. Daddy said he'd be there to bring me my fave snacks and Disney memorabilla.
Now my mom, she tries, but it all comes out about HER. She turns everything into "if I had it do over again...." crap. I've told her how I feel over and over again, she never listens to me. Next time she starts it, I'm gonna tell her I don't want to hear her negativity anymore. I don't care how much she whines and boo-hoos. I have more on my plate than her feelings right now.

Thanks guys for listening. You're the best. Hugs to you Rachel.

Anna

 

[D&DDisney]

I'm so sorry D! Enjoy the drink and complaining. This stuff is such a PIA that we are all entitled to drink and complain and eat and shop to feel better. (for a little while anyway.)

When is your next Dr appointment?

We've only been trying the natural way. Too chicken to have tests and go through all that "stuff" again. We told ourselves if it didn't happen on its own this time, it wasn't meant to be. However that doesn't help the hurt. Just feel like I can't temp fate and "be careful what you wish for" cuz it has backfired on me in the past.
You have made a very hard decision but I can relate to a lot of what you said. We too relish our one pregnancy and will always treasure that.
We'll always be here for you to vent or lean on. Don't be a stranger. We'd miss you too much.

Anna - That is horrible what your mother said to you. WE are glad you are here. (Well, not here on this thread but here on earth - if you know what I mean) . I hear you on the God thing. So hard to understand why its not part of "his plan" for us to have children or go through all this pain. Don't think I'll ever come to grips with that.

 

[TandT]

As for me ladies, I am done. I just can't go through this emotionally.

I mean it was bad. I was depressed, laying around, not focused, etc. I know the meds caused some of it, but some of it was just the stress of it all.

I wanted another child so badly, but I believe it is not meant to be for me. We've considered all of the options and just can't.

I've always wanted to know what caused this "I" word in me. And now I do, diminshed ovarian reserve which I may have always had, so my son truly is a miracle.

He was 10 weeks early, had a collapsed lung and nearly died on his 3rd day of life. He spent 38 days in the hospital and is truly a miracle and above all healthy. Reason for his early birth was me. I developed severe preeclampisa and HELLP syndrome and nearly stroked out so he had to be delivered early.

One thing I never wanted to do was compromise the quality of mom I am to the son I already have in hope of I child I don't. Not sure if this makes sense to you.

I can say I tried everything I was comfortable with and I hate being a quitter. I really hate losing and being a quitter, but I tried, I loss and now I quit.

I won once and that was the greatest victory ever!

I'm still going to hang out here. Not asking you all, just telling you like it is. I hope and pray you all get your miracles.

Rachael

Hi Rachael-

I totally understand where you are coming from. I have been at that fork in the road many times. Why I decide to keep the madness going is beyond me My husband always asks me... Why can't you just be happy with just the two of us? That is very hard to explain to a MAN As women, we are programmed to have that desire to have children....its just the way it is. We feel less of a woman if we cannot bear children...At least that's how I feel..
That is amazing what you went through with your first child....WOW...what a MIRACLE!! You seem like a very strong woman and I think you are making a good choice focusing on your child. Who's to say that you wont change your mind down the road Lots of blessings to you and your family!!

 

[Kronk's girl]

Well I sort of have a gut feeling I am not pregnant. 4 1/2 days left of the TWW, but I feel fine...great in fact And I don't have that little inkling that there is something inside me- but haha, when I do have that it's not like I am right!

Rachel- , stick around as long as you want! And cherish every moment with your son, I am sure he is one lucky kid!

Anna- Sorry about your mom, sounds like you have a good Dad and husband who you can lean on

Esbrick- I am glad IVF will be covered for you!

Kiki mouse- I hope that baby is doing well!!!

I might sneak in one HPT before we leave because I would rather find out now than when AF arrives during 10 hours of flights ...then if I was pregnant I could surprise my husband at our first stop in Ireland. I hope the luck of the Irish os on my side!!!

Wishing you all LOTS of baby dust and hopefully I can check back in before we go- if not I want to see lots of BFP's when I return!!!

 

[WDWorBUST]

Rachel - I can only imagine how difficult a decision that was for you.

Anna - Which RE are you going to?

KrongsGirl - Good luck!

 

[tinatark]

Not TTC, but I have some questions about Provera... and thought you girls would be the most knowledgable!

Our family is going on a cruise this week - April 3-10.. I'm supposed to get AF around the 1st - my friend is a nurse practictioner - gave me a 10 day script for Provera to delay my friend. I thought I would start it this Wednesday, take the last dose next Friday - any experience on how long after that I should get a visit?

What if I get my visitor early? Will the Provera make it stop?

Thanks for the info!

 

[MommaSnowwhite]

Rachel- I tottaly understand. I wish you luck and peace in your decision.

Anna- Hugs! I'm sorry your Mom is a jerk!


We leave for Spring break in 3 days. I expecting AF during our trip. I have so much to do that I haven't thought about it much - I guess that is good. We are planning on starting Clomid nest month.

 

[WDWAurora]

tinatark-When I would take provera, AF usually showed between 2 days and 1 week after finishing the last pill. Based on your timing, I would probably go stocked with supplies, just in case, because I'm not sure how well taking it to delay AF will work for someone with typically normal cycles. It may be that your cycle is already too far along, or something, but like I said, I really have no idea. Just be prepared, but I think your timing would work in theory.

 

[esbrick]

Vent alert:

I went to the zoo with my mom yesterday and it was fun. Until she started hauranging me about going to her church....again. I choose to go off and on with my cousin to hers, a very liberal, open-minded church that accepts everyone. At my moms, I got judged openly for marrying a man who is half-Japanese and now, they need younger people to come back to help build it up....gee...I wonder why they all left?

I just finally told her I had no interest in going there with her again and she says I hate God. I don't hate God, but I don't understand him at all for doing this to me. My mom is one of these people who thinks if you pray hard enough, your problems will just magically dissapear. Well, I've been praying for my Epilepsy to go away for over a decade....nothing. I'd never tell her this; I consider myself to be Agnostic. I do believe in God, but not organized religion.

So, then she says, "If I had it to do over again, I never would have had you since you've suffered all your life with disabilities and it's made you bitter." If she wasn't my mom, I'd have slapped her. She always thinks I'm better off without a kid to "ruin my marriage like I did hers." Ah no mom, you did that on your own by never letting dad into your heart, that's what I want to say so bad.

She's the one that's bitter. She had a good man in my dad and chose to throw him away (they're seperated) so she can have a pathetic on and off again relationship with this idiot loser freak who only comes around when he needs $$. She and I have a love/hate relationship since I have always been closer to my dad and his family.

Am I angry about this possible infertility crap? Yes. But I refuse to let it beat me. And i refuse to let her get me down either.

Anna

Wow! That is quite a conversation with your Mom. To be honest I go 2 ways on this. First off if she has no problem saying those aweful things to you then she should't blame you for saying things back to her. If you can't stand the heat stay out of the kitchen. The other thing is maybe you just need to have a conversation with her and tell her that life is to short to be told that I ruined it for you or that you ruined it for me. Last time you checked you lived a pretty nice life and although not perfect it's still a gift. So ask her to make a deal to agree to disagree. She may have her judgements about how you live your life, and you may have yours about how she live hers but neither of you is going to change so you may as well choose to make eachother miserable or happy. Then ask her what her choice is. If she chooses to be miserable then you may want to limit your time around her until she realizes that being toxic to those around her is going to bite her in the keaster some day. We have enough going on in our lives without the added pressure. Life is to short to be told you're not enough. . . I think you are and I'm glad you're here.

Eilis

 

[esbrick]

Well I sort of have a gut feeling I am not pregnant. 4 1/2 days left of the TWW, but I feel fine...great in fact And I don't have that little inkling that there is something inside me- but haha, when I do have that it's not like I am right!

Rachel- , stick around as long as you want! And cherish every moment with your son, I am sure he is one lucky kid!

Anna- Sorry about your mom, sounds like you have a good Dad and husband who you can lean on

Esbrick- I am glad IVF will be covered for you!

Kiki mouse- I hope that baby is doing well!!!

I might sneak in one HPT before we leave because I would rather find out now than when AF arrives during 10 hours of flights ...then if I was pregnant I could surprise my husband at our first stop in Ireland. I hope the luck of the Irish os on my side!!!

Wishing you all LOTS of baby dust and hopefully I can check back in before we go- if not I want to see lots of BFP's when I return!!!

Where are you going in Ireland?