What a story about your son, he truly is a miracle! Don't call yourself a quitter. You are a winner, a winner for your son.
Vent alert:
I went to the zoo with my mom yesterday and it was fun. Until she started hauranging me about going to her church....again. I choose to go off and on with my cousin to hers, a very liberal, open-minded church that accepts everyone. At my moms, I got judged openly for marrying a man who is half-Japanese and now, they need younger people to come back to help build it up....gee...I wonder why they all left?
I just finally told her I had no interest in going there with her again and she says I hate God. I don't hate God, but I don't understand him at all for doing this to me. My mom is one of these people who thinks if you pray hard enough, your problems will just magically dissapear. Well, I've been praying for my Epilepsy to go away for over a decade....nothing. I'd never tell her this; I consider myself to be Agnostic. I do believe in God, but not organized religion.
So, then she says, "If I had it to do over again, I never would have had you since you've suffered all your life with disabilities and it's made you bitter." If she wasn't my mom, I'd have slapped her. She always thinks I'm better off without a kid to "ruin my marriage like I did hers." Ah no mom, you did that on your own by never letting dad into your heart, that's what I want to say so bad.
She's the one that's bitter. She had a good man in my dad and chose to throw him away (they're seperated) so she can have a pathetic on and off again relationship with this idiot loser freak who only comes around when he needs $$. She and I have a love/hate relationship since I have always been closer to my dad and his family.
Am I angry about this possible infertility crap? Yes. But I refuse to let it beat me. And i refuse to let her get me down either.
Anna
I just can't believe your mom would say that to you, wow.
Anna,
I am sure you realize how mixed up your Mother's thinking is and SHE has a lot of issues that she needs to work out (but will never happen).
However, I know those words must hurt a lot since they even hurt me by reading them and she is not my mother! Ouch.
*hugs* and good for you for being so strong and not giving up.
I definitely agree with Kiki.
Well I sort of have a gut feeling I am not pregnant. 4 1/2 days left of the TWW, but I feel fine...great in factAnd I don't have that little inkling that there is something inside me- but haha, when I do have that it's not like I am right!
Rachel-
Anna- Sorry about your mom, sounds like you have a good Dad and husband who you can lean on
Esbrick- I am glad IVF will be covered for you!
Kiki mouse- I hope that baby is doing well!!!
I might sneak in one HPT before we leave because I would rather find out now than when AF arrives during 10 hours of flights...then if I was pregnant I could surprise my husband at our first stop in Ireland. I hope the luck of the Irish os on my side!!!
Wishing you all LOTS of baby dust and hopefully I can check back in before we go- if not I want to see lots of BFP's when I return!!!
I do hope the luck of the irish is with you!!!!
This is great. Wait am I actually excited for you that you are going to need shots? LOL this TTC thing is crazy
Did you ever think there would be the day you were excited for injections 
So much better than the cold snowy days we've been having! 
I will call my RE's office tomorrow and get going on the clomid for this cycle and get my U/S scheduled and IUI. Here we again again...... I hope this is the perfect combo for me! For some reason I doubt that ...lol..... But I have seen wierder things happen
Hope everything is going well for you.
we were devastated. We were really hoping for a much better count this time. Not WORSE!! So we talked about IVF and DH going to the urologist. We opted for DH to go to the urologist just to see if there was anything that might help him. They gave us the option of going fwd with the IUI Or not but encouraged us to since they have seen success with that low of a count before, it's just rare. So we went ahead and did it. I've just gone through this 2ww like nothing is going to come of the IUI and it's actually flown by. DH and I have discussed IVF and our options a LOT! At one point last week we actually decided it would be best to put IVF on the back burner while we paid off some credit cards so when we did do IVF we would afford a loan payment and a baby. This made me so upset and I called my Mom to tell her. I was crying so hard I couldn't breathe! It was just a really stressful week last week. I went through the rest of the week trying to prepare myself more for a bfn and having to wait again but my Mom called me on Saturday with fantastic news! I can't say exactly what is going on because there may be eyes that don't need to see all the information on here but they found a way for us to do IVF NOW!! I was so so SO happy and thankful!!! So we have been researching our current clinic on IVF and another one that was offering a 2 cycle bundle plan last year. So far, my clinic hasn't been impressing me. When I had my u/s before this last IUI I called the same day to see how thick my lining was since I forgot to ask. Well, I didn't get a call back for a week and a half!! Can you believe that???? I called both clinics yesterday. Emory (my current clinic) and GRS (the new clinic). GRS called me back w/in an hour and told me that they are still offering the 2 cycle program. Basically you pay for one IVF (meds are not included) and if the first IVF doesnt work and you have frozen embryos you get an FET cycle for free and then if that doesnt work and you have no more embryos left you get a fresh IVF cycle for free. So Im guaranteed at least 2 fresh IVF cycles for the price of one which I think is fantastic!! So I called back to the scheduling office and made a consultation appointment which is on this Thursday at 1:30pm!! When I made my consultation appt with Emory to discuss IVF they couldnt get me in until April 27th!! Seesh!! Plus, the dr at Emory never called me back yesterday. Im so mad at them at this point Im just over giving them any kind of money for any kind of treatment! So I canceled Chris urologist appt since it overlapped with our consult at GRS and were just gonna go to GRS and see how we like them. So far I already like them way better than Emory. I mean, I even got an email from GRS yesterday. Normally medical offices dont do that. And they have all the employees (medical staff included) information on their web site. Extensions and email addresses. I love it! I like feeling like I can get in contact with who I need to, when I need to. Oh and you want to hear something ironic? The Dr at Emory I have now is the director of that department. Well, the Dr I have a consult with at GRS used to be the IVF Director at Emory and is now currently the Director at GRS and shes a professor at Emory University still. I just thought that was a little funny. Go from one Emory director to the next LOL Im for sure going to have to ask her why she left. So there's what's going on with me. Sorry again that I haven't been around much. LIke I said, just a really stressful last week and a half and I haven't really wanted to think about IF lately. I'll come back on Thursday to check on everyone and to update after my consultation with the new dr.
