Lisa's Wish Journal - Now we have gone Dopey.

[Amy&Dan]

Lisa, I am so sorry about your mother in law. I can only imagine how frustrating its been for your husband to be so far away. I am praying for you all. I know how hard this is for you all.

And when life gets beyond hard, a little joy finds it way in, that is such great news your dd was chosen student of the month! Its an honor and the timing was perfect.

See you soon friend.

 

[eyor44]

Amy and Tracy, thank you.

MIL passed away this afternoon (Tuesday) about 4:15. We were all there, even the kids.

Out of the blue this afternoon DD mentioned going to visit Memu (MIL) tomorrow. When I talked to DH after we got back to the house, he told me she was going down fast. I asked the kids if they wanted to go today and they did. We got there and her breathing was very rapid and shallow. After a few minutes, DD mentioned being hungry and wanted ice cream. They have an ice cream palor in the home. DH took her down and when they came back, DS and I went down. We all brought our ice cream back to the room and were sitting there laughing and eating. As soon as the last one got done, there was a sudden change. I mean you could tell it in the room, something was different. DS was sitting at the foot of the bed and was like "UHHH, hey, something is going on." DSIL and FIL went to the bed and I took the kids out. After they made sure she wasn't struggling, we let the kids come back in for just a minute. She was very peaceful.

Call us all crazy but we really think it was all of us, with the kids, sitting around, eating ice cream, having a good time. She was a part of it one last time and ice cream was her favorite food.

 

[toystoryduo]

Oh Lisa,

My friend, I am so sorry for your loss. We will be praying for your family. If there is anything that we can do, please let us know.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Oh Lisa, I am so sorry about your mil. I am a firm believer that people will often die when they feel the time is just right. I think the family being there, together, sharing ice cream and a good time was just the ending she wanted. I am glad you all made it in time, even though it is so hard, its probably comforting to have been with her.

Take care of you and the family Lisa, we are all praying for you and sending lots of hugs and good thoughts to you. Safe trip home and hang in there through the next days and weeks.

 

[toystoryduo]

Praying for you and your family, Lisa.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Lisa, just stopping in to give you a big hug. Miss you and hope you are doing okay.

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Lisa,

How are you, sweetie? I hope you're doing okay. I've been praying for you and your family. We miss you!

 

[eyor44]

Amy and Tracy
Thank you both so much. Sorry I have not been around. I am so many things going on and am very overwhelmed right now. Between home, work, money, walking, kids, etc........ I should be jumping for joy right now since we leave in just over 30 days for DW, but I can't even get up enough enthusiasm (?) to start on the girls clothes for the trip. and I have to get busy soon. I did pull out the material yesterday, but that was it.

Two days after we got home from NY DH had to go on a business trip, so that left me doing everything for the kids, plus work was incrediably busy with a new travel program started that wasn't working properly, serious budget issues and my trying to catch up. The weekend was very busy and not a moment to myself.
This morning when I got up I just couldn't face another day surrounded by people all wanting me to solve their problems. I bailed and went back to bed, something I could not afford to do, but at the moment I just didn't care.

I think even though I fully expected MIL's death and know it is for the best (she has had no quality of life for 4 years) it still got to me. Plus DH's brother was very mad at everyone, so that didn't help at all. That was some drama we could have done without. There are some issues that need to be worked out and I am confident that they will, but it just didn't help at the time. Sometimes you have to make some hard choices and then live with them. I really think DBIL is regretting that he didn't come before MIL passed.

Today my boss is having surgery (gall bladder removed) and I think that is bothering me also. He has some other health issues and smokes heavily. Yes, I am worried.

Good news to report.
DD got all A's on her report card.
I have gotten a couple more GC's and checks for the trip.
Oldest DS finally heard back about the income tax that he didn't file for 2006. We finally got it done and in and they actually sent him a refund. so, little things are good.
Our Navy Ball was Saturday night and despite a couple minor issues it went very well. I was relieved when it was over.

I am hoping that today we can all get back on track with our schedules. DD has dance today and then I'll bring her home to DH and hopefully get out to the track. No rain in sight and while it will be chilly (mid-50s) I hope to get 3-4 miles in. I have really missed my walking.

I hope everyone has a great day today. I feel much better after "talking" with you all. Thanks for being here.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Lisa, first of all, sending you this: You have had a rough couple of weeks and its always hard to get back into the routine. So give yourself some time.

You weren't on my old journal but I am sure you have gotten the idea, that I was a caregiver to my mom for over six years. The last couple of years of her life, she had very little in the way of a quality of life, just like your mil. And even though we knew her time on earth was slipping away, and even though it was in some ways a relief to not have her suffering anymore, it was still a huge loss that left the whole family reeling when she died in January of 2008. I now realize that no matter how "expected" a death is, its never something you can prepare for. And families, I think all of them, have things/issues that come up in the days and weeks afterwards. My sister just like your bil had to deal with her choices and she didn't make it very easy for the rest of us. It takes time, and this is still very raw and new for your family. So its okay to feel depressed and overwhelmed. I am so glad you have your trip to WDW in the future but with still a bit of time to get ready for it. And you will!

I am glad you got ds' income tax thing worked out and that the Navy Ball was a success (is your husband in the Navy?) and that is great news that dd got straight A's! You must be so proud!

I hope you get the walk in, I think it helps. And good job going back to bed! You listened to your body and if it needed some more rest, good job giving yourself what you needed!

I hope your boss did well with his surgery. He's lucky to have you.

I am keeping your family in my prayers. You have a lot going on and its not easy to lose a loved one and deal with that in the midst of dealing with the rest of your life! Just take it one day at a time.

 

[eyor44]

Thank you Amy, I really mean it for all of your kind words and understanding how I feel.

I did get to walk last night. I was able to get 4 miles in and it felt so good. Plus I was worried that I would be slow since it has been three weeks since I have really walked, but I was able to keep my pace. Very happy about that. Then I went home, had a bit to eat and DD and I went to bed early. I mean real early for me. 8:30pm. We did her reading and then watched some of Snow White.

Amy, no DH is not in the Navy. We both are civilians working for the Navy. I am an office administrator (translation: Momma to 55 men) and DH is the IT program manager (controls the $$ for IT purchases). I volunteer for the Navy Ball committee every year and the Special Events and Activity Committee for the command.

 

[eyor44]

Got in 30 minutes of strength training this evening.

and while I wasn't going to walk tonight, I was feeling guilty of not taking Roo out as much as I should, so she and I just did about 1.5 miles. She was so happy to get out.

but when I weighed I have gained 3.1lbs.

I feel much better this evening. I had chicken soup for lunch and I started feeling better right towards the end of eating. I guess chicken soup is good for you when you are feeling bad.

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Lisa,

I'm getting ready to head to bed soon, but I wanted to stop by and send a and some your way. I'm praying for you!

 

[toystoryduo]

I am keeping your family in my prayers. You have a lot going on and its not easy to lose a loved one and deal with that in the midst of dealing with the rest of your life! Just take it one day at a time.

Sending a gentle your way, Lisa.

I agree with Amy. You have been through a lot lately, in addition to the day to day stuff that you have to deal with. Take it one day at a time and please be easy on yourself, okay?

Keep up the good work with your workouts! That will help you alleviate some of the stress as well.

I'm praying for you!

 

[eyor44]

Hi Lisa,

I'm getting ready to head to bed soon, but I wanted to stop by and send a and some your way. I'm praying for you!

Thank you Tracy. I'm feeling them. I feel so much better, about everything.

and I am trying to take time for me. Well, at least for my health. I have started going to bed earlier. I miss my quiet time on the Dis, but at the moment I need more sleep.

 

[toystoryduo]

Thank you Tracy. I'm feeling them. I feel so much better, about everything.

and I am trying to take time for me. Well, at least for my health. I have started going to bed earlier. I miss my quiet time on the Dis, but at the moment I need more sleep.

I'm glad that you're feeling better about everything, Lisa. Be sure and get as much sleep as you need...The DIS will be here when you're ready. :

 

[eyor44]

Thanks Tracy
Just wanted to log on real quick to say YAY!!!!!! we got our Disney package with all the info in the mail today!

Now, I'm excited.

Today was suppose to be my rest day, but DD had soccer practice and I decided to walk the field while they practiced. Got two miles in.

 

[lovinaz]

I am so sorry to hear about your MIL. I am glad you and your family were able to be there with her.

Kudos to you for walking during soccer practice! I could (and SHOULD) do that 2x a week during DD's practice, but instead I have been running errands or reading Harry Potter (I'm only halfway through #7, I know, I'm way behind!)

Keep up the good work! And thanks so much for stopping by my journal, it means a lot to me.

 

[toystoryduo]

Woohoo!!! Let's hear it for Disney paperwork!!!!

Great job getting your 2 miles in!!!

I hope you have a nice weekend!

 

[eyor44]

Amy! thanks for popping over here. Hello Tracy!

Today was a good, busy day at work. Productive and I was able to leave on time with the knowledge that everyone traveling this weekend has their flights and all in order. Last week was a nightmare, but this week, while crazy, ended much better.

No exercise today. DH and DD were getting out the Halloween decorations and decorating while I was getting out my material to see what I can use for this trip and make a list of what I need to get. Receiving those Disney documents light a fire in me. Yesterday I made a list of what all I would like to make for the girls and today I was matching up material and looking over patterns. You should have seen DH's face when he walked in the door and saw the dining room table. Half way between & Kind of funny. I just ignored him.

Tomorrow we have DD's soccer game in the morning and then a pumpkin carving party in the evening. Some friends have had this party every year for a long time. They took a break for a few years when the DH got cancer. But they started back last year, and we weren't able to attend. This will be DD's first time attending and she is very excited. The party is actually quite simple. Each family brings a pumpkin (or 2) to carve there. We have a time limit and when it is up, we put all of the pumpkins together and then there is judging and prizes. Then we all go out front and take a group picture and then family pictures. It's fun to go back every year and look at the past pictures.

Sunday will be church, if we go, DH is golfing, I have to clean the dance studio and then Gram and my DNs will come for dinner. Plus all the usual stuff. Busy weekend.

But I hope everyone has a great one.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Lisa, I am so glad you are feeling better. Good job with that walking during soccer. You have one busy weekend, but that pumpkin carving party sounds so fun. I love this time of year!

And very big congrats on getting those Disney documents in the mail! That makes it so real! Your trip is so close and that is going to be such a great time to go. Have you been during the holiday season? I am pretty sure most everything will be decked out for Christmas.

Have fun with your sewing (man I envy you that skill). I had to laugh at your husband's reaction to the new look of the dining room and your reaction to his reaction!

Have a great weekend!