In Search of my Body...Not The One I ate...#3 "Crowning Goddesses As We Go"

[SeptemberGirl]

Sorry guys - but I won't. (But I will of course cheer you all on). I know myself. One food - I don't look at - never have with my weight loss. And two - I'm an obsessive personality. And the less I look at things in general the better I do and the happier I am. I am really that obsessive. Unfortunately.

I get this, Lisa. You do what works for you best. And obviously you know. Look at all your success!

And here's where I am at -

Yesterday was our last BL weigh in. I'm taking a break. The scale will always make me more successful. Well - true and untrue. I didn't have a scale for the first half of the 78 pounds (I added this week's loss Liz ) and did fine. But it was years and years to lose. The last 40 have come this year alone because of the scale. But it makes me obsessive. And I pick mental health and happiness first. I haven't been able to learn from Liz. I haven't. I wish I didn't put everything into the numbers but I do. And my emotions are attached to a loss.

So no scale for a month or two. It left the house Friday morning.

This is so smart. I'll tell you, if I don't weigh in, I throw the towel in. I HAVE to weigh in. But again, we do what works for us.

Exercise -

I think I was at a higher loss these last two weeks because of a heavy exercise schedule. I am always six days on and two days off. However in the last month I think three of my six day rotation choices were intense. Hour long intervals with hour cardio in between days. Jillian was one week. But the rest were rotated like that. And I feel spent. Overtrained. Lethargy. Fogginess. Achy (not normal workout aches). Not the usual pump you up feeling from exercise.

I got your email, and I need to get back on a training schedule. I have been lax in this area, too.

So this is a long post. And where I'm at. So keeping on everything. Eating everything. Only foods I adore - healthy or crap - and trying to eat consciously. Emotional eating seems to be gone now from all my emotional work. I want to question that with paranoia but I think I'll just say Thank God. You take that out and it's a friggin' a lot easier to manage. So attempting conscious eating and exercise, same old, and where I end up is where I end up.

I have been emotional eating, and it's funny. I need to deal with this. It's like I needed to emotional eat to know I"m not over all of it, yet.

Thanks for listening everyone,

Lisa

Anytime!

Same here. I got home from my trip a week ago today. Just am not "feelin' it", kwim?

Yes. So not feeling it. But I don't want to backslide.

I agree completely. And also, I believe that everyone's body acts/reacts differently - so what works for one, may not work for another. The big *trick* is figuring out what works for YOU. For me...I need to track. I am a "mindless" eater. Just graze without thinking...so I need to pay close attention to what the hand is putting in the mouth and if the hand is forced to write it down on paper....well, then...hopefully it will think before acting

I need to track because if I don't, I go overboard. I need to learn hunger signals, or at least pay attention to them!

One of the girls that I've worked with for 6 years is graduating from college tomorrow. A semester early with a double major! Party at her parents house tonight. I gotta go. Just gotta. For several reasons. The most important, of course, is 'cause she's fabulous and I love her to pieces. But...almost equally as important.....they are MEXICAN. Yep. the food is AMAZING and tequilla abounds ...and I soooo need to re-live some of my vaca right now

How is the party??? Tell us all!!!

Kat - I was very bad Friday and Saturday. Very, very bad. Must get back on track!

Lyz - One is perfect? Although we have odd numbers?

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Stacy - Are you allergic to chocolate? Because that is so, so sad.

Tracking today, thus far...

We have Chinese food, cookies, blender drinks, popcorn, did I mention cookies? in our house.

So for lunch, I had...

1/2 cup white rice
! cup of veggies with shrimp
1 egg roll
1/8 cup - meaning two small pieces of sesame chicken

The egg roll was my indulgence. The veggies are all steamed, and no sauce on them. The rice - well it's not brown, but at least I turned down the pork fried. The sesame chicken was for taste, and now I am throwing it out. So I don't eat it.

I am drinking tea, too, instead of hot chocolate. Trade-off.

After two days of indulgence, I need a pat on the head. Good Liz! Back to making smart choices!

I will keep posting my food. To keep me honest!

 

[BrcsDisneyPrncs]

Nancy – your trip sounds just wonderful! “nce upon a time, there was a cow" (turn the page) That cow was very happy until one day it became a STEAK that I ate for dinner" If I heard someone telling that story I probably would have wet myself!

Erika – Yikes, “Rock me Steven” , Poor J having to lay ppl off, it isn’t his choice and crappy that he is put in that position, and I understand you are very particular about your tree, however I think it looks beautiful!

Steph – I love your village! I inherited a huge HUGE (as in it used to take up an entire room) village when my Grandfather passed away this year, unfortunately, I don’t have enough room to put it up….. Can’t wait until we buy a house (next 2 years or so) and I’m able to put it up

Kat- Erika is the energizer bunny….why does that NOT surprise me!

I LOVE THE GODDESS CROWNS!

Liz – I’m sorry you are/were all sick!!! I hope you are feeling better! Also, I’m not allergic to chocolate, I almost wish I was, because then I never really would have had it, so I wouldn’t know what I was missing. The problem is I have some bad stomach issues, and that is on the list of things that sends it in to a tizzy (chocolate, alcohol, nuts, seeds etc). So I can’t eat it without getting sick…… Similar to an allergy, but I didn’t start having the problem until I was 21 (boy do I miss me some chocolate….)

Everyone – Those weight loss totals are awesome, congratulations!

Hope everyone who got nailed with that Ice storm has been sufficiently dug out. We got lucky, nothing really happened out here.

 

[BrcsDisneyPrncs]

Ok, i'm officially caught up, took a few hours, but i'm there

My computer only had to be restarted 5 times, so not bad

I went way down hill with the weight loss for a while, stopped caring, started eating, stopped working out, and justified it all by telling myself i was too busy....... I had a good, long conversation with my doctor (we are planning on kids in the next 3-5 years). I told her to give it to me straight, and she said the likelihood of me being able to conceive successfully are slim in my current state (hormones are all f'ed up, and some other things going on) but that if i can drop some of the weight, I may be able to avoid that heartbreak when the time comes, and avoid fertility treatments. Well, that was the swift kick i needed. That was 10 days ago, i'm currently down 8 lbs. I haven't even worked out in those 10 days, it is just between the water weight and cutting out the snacking and senseless eating. I have my workout days scheduled for this week, and i'm ready to be back on the wagon.

I booked our flights for our May vacation, i'm hoping to have some significant loss before then, i'm crossing my fingers. So we'll see. Starting over, I made a follow up appt for 3 months from now, so i'm accountable to someone other than myself at this point. Which is a big help, i can make excuses for myself all day long, trying those excuses with my Doc wouldn't be so easy....

And speaking of back on the wagon.... my treadmill is calling me, check in later!

 

[HockeyKat]

Stacey, wow I am impressed that you read all of that!! We have been super chatty lately for some reason.

Thanks for checking in with us and letting us know what has been going on. I know when I am not "on the wagon" I sometimes let the thread go too... I do read but I don't always post because I am ashamed of my lack of willpower. This eating healthy thing is HARD!!

Liz, Chinese food was Fri night's badness. Wow to the passing up the fried rice... mmm fried rice...

Lyz, have a great trip!


After two solid days hanging out on the chaise lounge, the cold has subsided to a few sniffles.

Today I am going to try and eat healthy things but not really track... lunch was a breakfast burrito made with egg beaters and 2% cheese, and dinner is spaghetti and meatballs.

Hopefully tomorrow I will feel better enough to start working out.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Just saying hi since I haven't posted all day. 2 holiday parties today, so I can cross those off the list. I wasn't bad in terms of food at all. However...um, pomegranate martinis = yum!

I will likely be offline till tomorrow morning. Sunday night is family game night.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi gang...

You all are going to force me to go out and buy Twilight aren't you.... it does seem to have taken over the board this week.... I'll take a look at the book when I finish the book I am reading.

I made it back from Boston and the ice storm didn't affect me too badly. (Erika - glad you and the family are doing all right... my sister lost power and camped out at my parents' house for the weekend). There were a number of rest areas on the Mass Turnpike with no power so it made stopping for a bathroom kind of interesting... We lost one tree in the backyard, but thankfully no serious damage was done. Just cleanup work was required.

Eating wise, the weekend was pretty good. I didn't go overboard and only ate 1/2 my portions at the restaurants. Now, like Liz, I just need to stop overindulging thinking that I am still on vacation. I have my JC appointment tomorrow night so that should whip me back on track.

I am still working on the trip report and am uploading photos to post. I hope that I can have this up and running by the end of the day tomorrow. This week is a crazy one with three holiday parties so I am not sure when I am going to be home at this point.

From the sounds of things, we may all need to recommitt to our programs. Let's make that be our holiday gifts to ourselves. The gift of good health and a committment to ourselves...

OK - off to get some sleep... the driving has wiped me out.

Talk to you all tomorrow,
Paula

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hey everyone, i refuse to claim thread bankruptcy, i'm starting back where i left off, so this will take a while (and seem like old news for everyone).

Yaay, glad you are not claiming bankruptcy.

I am typing this in WORD and saving every two seconds as the computer is still spastic.

That is MISERY!

Lyz - One is perfect? Although we have odd numbers?

Yes. Even though it is odd, it's perfectly normal. Like 2 normal. If you are going to have 3, then have four.

1/2 cup white rice
! cup of veggies with shrimp
1 egg roll
1/8 cup - meaning two small pieces of sesame chicken

The egg roll was my indulgence. The veggies are all steamed, and no sauce on them. The rice - well it's not brown, but at least I turned down the pork fried. The sesame chicken was for taste, and now I am throwing it out. So I don't eat it.

I am drinking tea, too, instead of hot chocolate. Trade-off.

After two days of indulgence, I need a pat on the head. Good Liz! Back to making smart choices!

I will keep posting my food. To keep me honest!

Way to jump back on it. And on a Sunday too!

I went way down hill with the weight loss for a while, stopped caring, started eating, stopped working out, and justified it all by telling myself i was too busy....... I had a good, long conversation with my doctor (we are planning on kids in the next 3-5 years). I told her to give it to me straight, and she said the likelihood of me being able to conceive successfully are slim in my current state (hormones are all f'ed up, and some other things going on) but that if i can drop some of the weight, I may be able to avoid that heartbreak when the time comes, and avoid fertility treatments. Well, that was the swift kick i needed.

Stacey - that was very honest of you and your dr.

Wow to the passing up the fried rice... mmm fried rice...

Word.

Kat-did you decide to put up a tree or not?

From the sounds of things, we may all need to recommitt to our programs. Let's make that be our holiday gifts to ourselves. The gift of good health and a committment to ourselves...

Good idea Paula. Gift to ourself. Healthy and happier.

EriKa - I forgot to mention your pics. Your tree is very pretty, even at 8'! (overachiever) The ice pics. Ohhh, chills.

I am officially Twilighting. Mol (blessedly) finished the book over the weekend. I am on the second day of school Liz. (This has to be the worst time to start an all consuming book. I leave town on Wednesday. I have to be on my game for the next two days!) I don't have a clue what this book is about. I didn't even read the back cover. I just know it involves some handsome vampire. I am reading this book solely on Liz and Amy's obsessive recommendation. (Oh and 4(?) weeks ago I promised Liz I'd read it. xxoo)

Amy - how goes Disney World?

Off to bed. I am so freaking tired you wouldn't believe it! See you in the am.

 

[amykab]

Hey girls.

WDW was fun! (of course). I'm tired. I made okay choices for food, but drank ALOT around EPCOT today. (Erika,Liz, Kat, did you have the glow wine in germany??. Yum.) Lots and lots of walking both days. My parents were so glad to escape the frozen north.

My parents are here until Thursday. And then Saturday I leave for NC. Lots to do.

My mom and I are going shopping for new vera's tomorrow.

all t-shirts at WDW were 40% off as were all the xmas ornaments, I got some nice ones.

I will post some disney pics tomorrow.

I mentioned to my family this weekend that I am pretty much in for Goofy 2010 and they were pretty much like .

Cheers,
Amy

 

[HockeyKat]

Amy, glad you had a good time. 40% off!! We missed that... Oh, and somewhere in that trip I think that I told E I would run a 5K. I believe that is where either she or Liz told me that was the point at which I lost my mind.


Lyz, glad you are joining us on the dark side. And we decided, no tree. Christmas is going to be at his brother's this year and with the 7 month old kitten, it would like be a struggle at best.


I am slightly buzzed. So shouldn't drink on a school night, but oh well.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Mornin' all! Rise and Shine


Welcome Back Stacey!

And Lyz - NO. I'm NOT having a 4th child I'm so done with that!

Oh...I have to tell you, Lyz, that I laughed right out loud, ALONE, in the Victoria's Secret "Pink" store yesterday. We were out shopping, and I popped in to use my $10 coupon - bought some underwear for DD....and felt like an idiot as I was snickering my way thru the store...

My day/week/life is so busy right now - I'm sure you can all relate (except you freaks of nature who finished your Christmas shopping before Thanksgiving ). Instead of being overwhelmed, I've decided to take a different angle here.

I'm calling it the WDW approach. You know...what parks are we going to do, what rides, what shows, what food, etc. How much time to we have. Make a plan and GO FOR IT - then, sit back at the end of the day and pity (and yes, mock ) those who try to hit WDW without a clue.

I've made my lists, mapped my path, gathered my coupons, etc....I'm hitting the gym, then I'm off an running for a marathon day of shopping. Credit Card melt-down is on it's way. But I'm determined to get a vast majority of my purchasing done today. With a smile. and a sense of "I can BEAT this system" and OWN that mall....just like I do at WDW.

And tonight - I'll tell you about how I went to look at an end table yesterday, and wound up with a price for a new sofa, chair, ottoman, coffee table, 2 accent tables, and yes, that one end table that I was after in the first place....

 

[lisaviolet]

Love Mexican food. Yum.

Oooooh me too. Me too,

Hey everyone, i refuse to claim thread
bankruptcy.:

Hey Stacey.

of sesame chicken

MMMMM. ummmm Yum again. Was it good Liz?

I booked our flights for our May vacation, i'm hoping to have some significant loss before then, i'm crossing my fingers. So we'll see. Starting over, I made a follow up appt for 3 months from now, so i'm accountable to someone other than myself at this point. Which is a big help, i can make excuses for myself all day long, trying those excuses with my Doc wouldn't be so easy....

Stacey. Good for you for facing it head on. Outstanding. That's major.

Stacey, wow I am impressed that you read all of that!! We have been super chatty lately for some reason.

I know eh Kat!

Just saying hi since I haven't posted all day. 2 holiday parties today, so I can cross those off the list. I wasn't bad in terms of food at all. However...um, pomegranate martinis = yum!

I will likely be offline till tomorrow morning. Sunday night is family game night.

Parties. Parties. Parties. Fun?

Hi gang...

You all are going to force me to go out and buy Twilight aren't you.... it does seem to have taken over the board this week.... I'll take a look at the book when I finish the book I am reading.

I made it back from Boston and the ice storm didn't affect me too badly. (Erika - glad you and the family are doing all right... my sister lost power and camped out at my parents' house for the weekend). There were a number of rest areas on the Mass Turnpike with no power so it made stopping for a bathroom kind of interesting... We lost one tree in the backyard, but thankfully no serious damage was done. Just cleanup work was required.

Eating wise, the weekend was pretty good. I didn't go overboard and only ate 1/2 my portions at the restaurants. Now, like Liz, I just need to stop overindulging thinking that I am still on vacation. I have my JC appointment tomorrow night so that should whip me back on track.

I am still working on the trip report and am uploading photos to post. I hope that I can have this up and running by the end of the day tomorrow. This week is a crazy one with three holiday parties so I am not sure when I am going to be home at this point.

From the sounds of things, we may all need to recommitt to our programs. Let's make that be our holiday gifts to ourselves. The gift of good health and a committment to ourselves...

OK - off to get some sleep... the driving has wiped me out.

Talk to you all tomorrow,
Paula

Hey Paula. Can't wait for the TR.

Hey Amy!

 

[lisaviolet]

Liz "This is so smart. I'll tell you, if I don't weigh in, I throw the towel in. I HAVE to weigh in. But again, we do what works for us."
Oh Liz. Don't think I'm not scared sh!tless about this decision to lay off for a couple of months. Honestly with all the changes I'm implementing with my exercise I expect a slight gain or a plateau.

There's rumblings that a new BL is starting in January. And I'm already going, "hmmmm".

 

[lisaviolet]

Hey girls.

WDW was fun! (of course). I'm tired. I made okay choices for food, but drank ALOT around EPCOT today. (Erika,Liz, Kat, did you have the glow wine in germany??. Yum.) Lots and lots of walking both days. My parents were so glad to escape the frozen north.

My parents are here until Thursday. And then Saturday I leave for NC. Lots to do.

My mom and I are going shopping for new vera's tomorrow.

all t-shirts at WDW were 40% off as were all the xmas ornaments, I got some nice ones.

I will post some disney pics tomorrow.

I mentioned to my family this weekend that I am pretty much in for Goofy 2010 and they were pretty much like .

Cheers,
Amy

Have fun Amy!

Mornin' all! Rise and Shine

Oh boy. Chipper woman!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Oh, and somewhere in that trip I think that I told E I would run a 5K.

Kat - !!!!! You can't say things like that to EriKa. She's intense man. You are screwed now.

Lyz, glad you are joining us on the dark side. And we decided, no tree. Christmas is going to be at his brother's this year and with the 7 month old kitten, it would like be a struggle at best.

Figured. Guess you'll just have to post pictures of the kitten instead.

I am slightly buzzed. So shouldn't drink on a school night, but oh well.

Mornin' all! Rise and Shine


Welcome Back Stacey!

And Lyz - NO. I'm NOT having a 4th child I'm so done with that!

I'm just sayin'.

Oh...I have to tell you, Lyz, that I laughed right out loud, ALONE, in the Victoria's Secret "Pink" store yesterday. We were out shopping, and I popped in to use my $10 coupon - bought some underwear for DD....and felt like an idiot as I was snickering my way thru the store...

Glad you find my life amusing.

My day/week/life is so busy right now - I'm sure you can all relate (except you freaks of nature who finished your Christmas shopping before Thanksgiving ). Instead of being overwhelmed, I've decided to take a different angle here.

I'm calling it the WDW approach. You know...what parks are we going to do, what rides, what shows, what food, etc. How much time to we have. Make a plan and GO FOR IT - then, sit back at the end of the day and pity (and yes, mock ) those who try to hit WDW without a clue.

I've made my lists, mapped my path, gathered my coupons, etc....I'm hitting the gym, then I'm off an running for a marathon day of shopping. Credit Card melt-down is on it's way. But I'm determined to get a vast majority of my purchasing done today. With a smile. and a sense of "I can BEAT this system" and OWN that mall....just like I do at WDW.

Sounds like an excellent plan and alot of fun too. Have I told you how I like to shop?

And tonight - I'll tell you about how I went to look at an end table yesterday, and wound up with a price for a new sofa, chair, ottoman, coffee table, 2 accent tables, and yes, that one end table that I was after in the first place....

"eh Kat!"

"eh" - that cracks me up!

Liz Oh Liz. Don't think I'm not scared sh!tless about this decision to lay off for a couple of months. Honestly with all the changes I'm implementing with my exercise I expect a slight gain or a plateau.

There's rumblings that a new BL is starting in January. And I'm already going, "hmmmm".

I guess I didn't notice the no scale decision was for a couple months. Gulp. I need number results.

all t-shirts at WDW were 40% off as were all the xmas ornaments, I got some nice ones.

OHHH, I hope they are discounted when I arrive. I'll do anything for a discount, as has been documented.

Checked the weather in Orlando for this next week. 78-81. Good swimming weather, a little warm for park touring.

 

[lisaviolet]

Well,

I'm very stressed.

I have no Christmas decorations up. And I love Christmas. I don't because I'm putting the unit on the market any minute.

That saddens me to no end. I want to stay in my neighbourhood downtown. However, it's gone nuts here. (New pre-sale condos have signage that says condos from the 300 000s - which means a tiny tiny one is 300 000 plus. )

I need a one bedroom plus den so Jean and I could have our own rooms. (Which is fine folks - we can't afford this city on our own and I'm happy). And that would be somewhere around the 300 000 mark resale.

So I'm down. I'm down downtown.

So we're looking in burbs. I don't want burbs.

We looked at this tiny tiny house yesterday. And we go in and it's sold (on condtions). It's only about 600-700 sq. feet but lovely. Here it is -

http://www.realtor.ca/propertyDetails.aspx?propertyId=7683374

And if that was in the city city it would be 600 000 easy - no guff. It's in an area just outside the limits.

*** There's a spot to change the measurements from metric to imperial. I always change it too.

I'm trying to be near my parents for my mom (and my dad's mental health) but we're also looking at a resort town (Collingwood, ON). That would add a half hour to them. So torn.

But I am a downtown city girl. So if I can't be downtown I want to be in a town as a second choice. So we're looking at this development. The Bluewater model - semi. The actual show home is outrageously priced - that's why there are three different prices listed.

http://www.devonleighhomes.com/v2/communities/collingwood/inventory.php

We might rent for awhile too. But that would suck. Renting is more than our mortgage here. And we first bought ten years ago so big change.



This too shall pass.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Lisa, I love the little bungalow. Adorable. Nice deck in the back!

The new one is very nice, too, of course. Wow, moving out of the city. That's a big thing.



Weight - I weighed in this morning and I am 167. How is that possible? Seriously. I'm not totally on plan but I'm not eating EVERYTHING in sight. WTH? Maybe I just need to drink more water, process some stuff out of my body? Because fine if I am 161 on Wed, but 167??? Hells no. I'll wire my mouth shut first!

 

[lisaviolet]

Weight - I weighed in this morning and I am 167. How is that possible? Seriously. I'm not totally on plan but I'm not eating EVERYTHING in sight. WTH? Maybe I just need to drink more water, process some stuff out of my body? Because fine if I am 161 on Wed, but 167??? Hells no. I'll wire my mouth shut first!

Hang in there Liz. This is kind of TMI. But sometimes when I eat something that just doesn't sit well - not digesting - the scale can be nuts.

So hang in there.

Yeah, the bungalow was so cute. Country backyard - huge and it's on this quiet street. But two seconds and you're at a major intersection.

 

[lisaviolet]

Lyz - so excited about your trip. It's making me smile.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Lisa - I like the little bungalo too. Ah-dorable. Sorry you have to make all these decisions. Will your condo sell quickly?

Liz - what the heck? That's crazy! Did you step on again to double check the number? Maybe it was off.