Beth's Journal-Bring It!

[Tera]

Hi Beth - Sorry it's been a few days since I've visited. We leave in a few days for our trip and I'm busy getting stuff ready.

Sorry to hear about your sister. I'm sure they are going through a rough time and hope they get through it okay.

14 kids for Katie's birthday? Wow... you ARE a daring woman That sounds like a great party. You better post some pictures.

Keep up the great work with staying OP. I know it's got to be hard with everything else that's going on in your life. Keep up the great work!!

 

[Strings]

I got cancelled forthe 1st four hors of my shift last night. Won and I ended up going to Mountain Jack's for a wonderful dinner. I hen came home and cleaned all the windows on the lower floor. (I had already had my Starbucks) Work was uneventful.

I woke up to the police at my front door. Yep, that is right. There is just so much drama in my life. Won had put our old couch out at the curb. Monday is the yearly "Throw away anything that isn't toxic and could crush a human being" pickup. The neighborhood kids had decided to use it as a fort. It was so noisy that a neighbor called the police. I got a lecture. Please note they are not my kids. My kid is 150 miles away. I am also in my pj's. UGH! The guy had a stick up a place it did not belong. He gave me a warning. If the problem persists he will give me a noise violation ticket. Needless to say, I was unable to go back to sleep. Instead, I scrubbed the wlls ad floors of the main floor. Now, I am off to work for some relaxation.

Weighin was 198.5. I am back in Onederland thank God!

Thanks for the thoughts and praers for my sister. It is hard. (I have had multiple miscarriages), but I really think that God was involvd here. Now is not a time for them to have more children. Josh is in school, nd his job is not secure, Camden has health issues, and Cam isn't even a year old. All of that is looking at it logically, and doesn't make it hurt less.

Ok, off to work.
Beth

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hi Beth--
i am so sorry i ahvent stopped in for awhile..hope everything is going well for you...congrats on being back in onederland!!

 

[mking624]

Oh my word Beth...that's outrageous about the police. I would have had a VERY difficult time keeping my mouth shut if it wasn't even my children who were doing that. Ugh, sorry you had to go through that.

I am still praying for your sister. My husband and I struggle with infertility and know firsthand how incredibly painful it is not to have that child growing in you through birth.

 

[Strings]

Well, I made it to most of the journals. After this I am going to bed.

I have completley fallen apart. What is it about a family get together for me to fall back into my destructive patterns? It wan't a horrible brunch. It was just the usual comments from my sister. My Mom asked how I was doing, and Marnie would throw the fact that I had my surgeries weeks ago, she is the one who just lost her child. I know she is suffering, but the hostility is so old. We're adults. When will she move on. It makes me tired. Combine that and exhaustion, and I have been on a 36 hour binge. I did go to the Y and spent some time on the glider. I took it easy, but it was good to move.

I had a post surgery check up, and everything looks good. My hemoglobin is still low, but improving. I have to wat 1 more week before I can do a full workout. I miss lifting. I have lost a lot of muscle tone.

Tomorrow is a new day. I am committing to at least 1 week of induction. Time to get myself back on track.

Tomorrow is another busy day. I am stopping to pick up a bday gift. Take Katie to dance class. The we drive to Jackson to visit the puppy. Grocery shopping. I am not sure about dinner. Won is going to have to work late. This new job has made him happy, but he rarely gets home before 645. Katie misses her daddy, and I miss the break. I am not sure if I will make it to the Y tomorrow.

I am off to bed.
Beth

Oh, I forgot that I bought tickets to MVMCP December 6th with a PS at LTT for 5PM. I wll try to change it to CP at the 90 day mark.

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Beth!

I'm sorry that the last few days have been challenging Sending some and prayers your way for a much-improved week ahead.

Take good care of you!

 

[DoeWDW]

for you, Beth.

Can't believe you had the police at your door!

I also can't believe your sister's petty behavior. I know when my brother and I are together, it is really easy to fall back into the old ways of communicating when we were kids. It's hard to remember that we're all grown up now and can change our way of relating to each other. Maybe Marnie just can't let go of those old patterns of relating to you. Hopefully time will help.

Take care of you today!

 

[DznyDreams]

. . . Tomorrow is a new day. . .

AMEN to that! Here's a little PD for your new day... Good for you for getting right back on track after those tough days! (I'm really sorry about your sister's attitude toward you. I know that didn't feel good at all. )

As I was reading through your latest post, it actually started to sound like my own. I have a Katie too, and her daddy works in a hospital from 6am-6pm (he's a respiratory therapist). Anyway, every day around 4:30, I hear the same question . . . "Mom, when's Daddy coming home?" I could set my watch by it!

Isn't it exciting to know that your MVMCP tickets are on the way!! WOO HOO! I haven't purchased mine yet, but I will soon! (I will be there the week after you.) Fun times are headin' our way!

 

[plutosmyfav]

Beth

You sure have had a tough time. Family stress is so hard on the diet. I really feel for you. Try to be good to yourself. Pamper yourself and remind yourself that you are worth the time and effort it takes to be healthy. I hope you can get back to your full workouts soon. I know the lifting will help elevate your mood as well as get your muscle tone back. You'll be surprized at how quickly you get right back to where you were. I hope you can put some distance between yourself and your sister for now. She may be hurting, but you don't need to be the punching bag.


Sunny

 

[DisneyEnthusiastic]

Beth..I'm so sorry that I haven't been by in awhile...I'm sorry so much has happened to you and your family. I can totally relate to the self destruction. Why do we do this? The party sounds wonderful!

Keep your spirits up and take one day at a time. You are an amazing woman with so much going on.

Take care..Gail

 

[LAinSEA]

Beth:

I'm sorry to read about your sister and her loss. You'd think the two of you could relate to each others losses and sorrows a little (well I know you've tried and been there for her...why does it always have to be a competition between sisters anyway?).

With two premies on my sis's experiences and my inability to become pregnant (at 41 I'm over it), you do have to wonder if a higher power doesn't know something we don't. Accept the precious gifts you have been given and do your special best for them. You are a great example of that.

Cops at the door...seriously, how can they blame you for noise when the couch is ready for pick up (we missed our day for extra garbage due to the wedding...a trip to the landfill is now in order).

I do hope the party and puppy is a success! Pupcorn, cute name, but he'll grow a little larger. How about Cornelius and pupcorn for short?

do take care and you don't need to do any more emotional eating...I've done that for everyone on this forum the past 5 days!

-Laurie

 

[DoeWDW]

Sending your way, dear Beth.

 

[Strings]

Hi There,

We have been having major issues wth comcast. This is the 3rd time I have tried to post this. Modem keeps going out.

The ast 2 days have ben good. I have been OP. No exercise, but I've been productive. I need to really look at my schedule for the next 2 weeks. I work F, S, S and Wednesday(mandatory OT). I am also throwing this party for Katie. I know that I will be the one doing 99% of the work. It is fact. I think I will be happy to Tomorrow, Friday, Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

We saw the puppy yesterday. Thankfully, Katie didn't have a reaction to him. She has decided to call hi PEZ. We went to get get the collar and tag engraved today.

Schedule for tomorrow...
Get up and start laundry.
go to Y for 45 minutes of cardio.
Grocery shopping.
Set up playroom.
Mom comes over for dinner.

Ok, I am off to bed. I'll be arund journals sometime tomorrow.

Tke care,
Beth

 

[lulu201]

Hey, Beth . I was thinking about you this morning when I put some s.f. hazelnut syrup in my coffee. Sounds like this things are busy with you, as usual. Have a great party this weekend, OK?

Love ya,
Erin

 

[mking624]

Hi Beth!!

Wow, you sound busy lately!! Take some time to rest and rejuvinate, ok? Have a fabulous party!

 

[Strings]

Ok, I got everything done. I was op, and I am utterly exhausted. I am going to bed. Yes, it is before 9pm, and I am going to bed. I need the rest before my marathon of shifts.

Take are everyone and have a great weekend,
Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Good for you for knowing that you need rest and heading to bed early!!

I hope all your shifts go well this weekend, and that you have a very happy Mother's Day.

I forget if Katie's party is this weekend or next weekend - sorry. I'm hoping it is next weekend so you have more time to prepare.

 

[Strings]

Thank God the party is next week. Things are starting to come together. I only did 30 minutes of walking this morning. I ordered the balloons, (Yeah, they were 50% off) ordered the fruit and veggie trays. I picked up a present for one of her friends. I put together the goody bags and cut the lily pads for the obstacle coarse. All that is this morning. After lunch, we are napping. I head to work.

Off to journal.
Beth

 

[lulu201]

Geez, I'm sorry--I thought the party was this weekend. It sounds like you're so organized, though, you could have it this weekend if you needed to!

Have a good night at work, Beth, and a happy Mother's Day!
Erin

 

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Beth,

I am mostly dreading kindergarten (for DS that is!). He's in a private preschool now that I really like and trust. He'll be going to the public school for kindergarten. It just seems so big and all those great big elementary school kids seem so scarey! I want to keep him little. It just feels like such a big step. Plus he will have to stay for afterschool care, too. I have been so worried about it all.

I'm glad your party plans are coming along. Its going to be great!

Sunny