I think I may have had a relapse last night... Not so much a food relapse as an emotional one.
I took my daughter clothes shopping... She REALLY needed some shorts for a quick vacation to the lake this weekend and I finally relented.
While we were walking around, I was thinking everyone was looking at me... and not in a good way. I kept feeling like everyone around me was thinking "Look at that Fat WOMAN... What is SHE doing HERE?" or "She doesn't belong in this store... She's TOO FAT" or "Fat people are DISGUSTING"![]()
It really effected my whole shopping experience and the time with my DD![]()
On the way home, my DD noticed something was wrong and asked me what was the matter... When I told her basically what was wrong, she laughed and said "Mom... You were one of the thinner Mom's there!"
I STILL think of myself as weighing 250+ lbs and a size 22/24. I have to look in a mirror and see my 12/14 body to believe it. And even then, I feel like the FAT person.
I just needed to tell someone THAT. It helps to write it down and or verbalize it. Then it seems less... I dont' know... BIG?![]()
Thanks to all you guys for being here.
Hey Janis,



