I think I may have had a relapse last night... Not so much a food relapse as an emotional one.
I took my daughter clothes shopping... She REALLY needed some shorts for a quick vacation to the lake this weekend and I finally relented.
While we were walking around, I was thinking everyone was looking at me... and not in a good way. I kept feeling like everyone around me was thinking "Look at that Fat WOMAN... What is SHE doing HERE?" or "She doesn't belong in this store... She's TOO FAT" or "Fat people are DISGUSTING"![]()
It really effected my whole shopping experience and the time with my DD![]()
On the way home, my DD noticed something was wrong and asked me what was the matter... When I told her basically what was wrong, she laughed and said "Mom... You were one of the thinner Mom's there!"
I STILL think of myself as weighing 250+ lbs and a size 22/24. I have to look in a mirror and see my 12/14 body to believe it. And even then, I feel like the FAT person.
I just needed to tell someone THAT. It helps to write it down and or verbalize it. Then it seems less... I dont' know... BIG?![]()
Thanks to all you guys for being here.
Hey Janis,
I know how you feel. I do the same thing when I'm shopping with my mom or cousins. I feel like I don't belong in those stores. I look in the mirror and still see the person who was almost 290lbs and barely fitting into a size 28!
I think I will see that person for a long while. It is a mental thing that we need to get over. Just know, you are not alone on this at all!!

Heading to two cookouts, one on the 3rd and one on the 4th then we are going to stay at DH's uncle's beach house for the week.
Hope everyone has a good 4th!
But, the last two weigh ins have been losses, so I'm hoping the trend will continue. 
Still down 10 though! Went to the Dr last week and was told I need to lose weight. I am in danger of becoming diabetic otherwise. So...back to the online tools I go. And hopefully here for support as well. 

So I am going to gather them all up today and take them into work tomorrow. I work on the weekends 630a-3p so the hours aren't as bad. Ok, I must go get laundry together so I can get that done before this afternoon. Good luck today everyone