When Did I Get Voted Off of Skinny Island & Why is This Fat Shadow Stalking Me?

[stitchfan23]

Originally Posted by luvsJack
I know that I have a very bad habit of thinking "when I am thinner, I will . . ." or "when I have more money, I will. . ." But you know, the time to do whatever it is, is now! We may not have later or someday but we do have now!

So, I pledge to myself to continue this journey to lose weight and to be healthier; and to also re-evaluate other parts of my life and make sure that I am where I want to be and doing what I want to do.

So sorry to hear about the loss but I agree with your commments. It was these feeling exactly that made me open my own business 7 years ago. Is it hard? Yes. But I am living my dream and doing something that I love. If I had waited until I had more money or solved all the other obsticals I would never have done it.

 

[njtinkmom]

Thanks for all your well wishes. It is a very trying time for me and I appreciate all your support. You guys are the best!

 

[ancestry]

Yesterday on Facebook, the brother of a guy I went to school with posted that his brother was missing and was asking for contact if anyone saw or heard from his brother. Today he posted a very sad update. They found his brother dead. I don't have any other info (I wasn't close to either of them in school and had not kept in contact after school, had only seen a few posts by them on Facebook) but his death has really made me stop and think about my health and what my weight is doing to it; but its also making me think about life. I keep thinking about this guy and and the fact that he was living his dream. He didn't get out of school and start thinking "someday I will . . ." He just started doing it and from what I can tell, continued until his death. Thank goodness, he was able to do what he really wanted to do in the present and didn't waste time saying "someday".

Sorry to hear about that! Very sad. Your reflections are very insightful.

 

[Dizneydawn]

I wanted to post this separate of my reply to all you guys.

Dan and I made a contract today to ourselves and what we will do when we are 6 pound under our lowest weight since we have been together.

I really want his support but commitment to this weight loss as well. I know I need to do it for myself but in the back of my head part of me thinks - well if he is not healthy and I am - we will not be living the same life so what's the point.

Anyway, one thing I really loved about our relationship was tracking together, walking together and holding each other accountable.

So we have a plan - short term goal and rewards and here is something great for today.

Dan had been teaching the past few days and Panera catered the food. That meant leftovers and he brought them home.

He was going to have a Pumpkin Muffin. I had made him a huge omelet, measured everything and he was still hungry. Said he was going to eat it and then figure out the calories to add into sparkpeople.

I said, "I thought we were just talking about measuring our food. You have no idea what is in that muffin."

His response was he has a ton of calories. That is true at 6'6 and 340 he has a lot. 1900-2250 a day. His carbs should be 242 - 349. Fat should be 48 - 84 and protein 60 - 188.

But - it is easy to be okay in calories and sky high in fat or carbs.

So begrudgingly he listened.

We looked it up.

This is for one Pumpkin Muffin
Nutrition Facts
Serving Size 6 oz (167.0 g)
Amount Per Serving
Calories 530
Total Fat 20.0g
Saturated Fat 4.0g
Cholesterol 30mg
Sodium 430mg
Total Carbohydrates 82.0g
Dietary Fiber 2.0g
Sugars 47.0g
Protein 6.0g

Can I admit I ate one the other day!!!

Just strikes home again the balancing act food is and how much I need that reminder and kick in the shorts and why I cannot be shocked at the scale when I eat blind.

I also need that push from Dan and will push him when I see him doing something destructive.

Anyway - I will respond to everybody who has written - I know some serious subjects were brought up so thought hey deserved a separate post!

 

[Anna114]

That's so awesome that you and your husband are taking this journey together! It's great to have that kind of support. My husband and I are doing it together, also. It makes it so much easier when you are not making two meals or watching your family eat something while you sit there with a carrot stick. The last time I lost weight I did it my self and it was a very lonely journey. By the way an OMG for that muffin! 82 carbs of freakin' yikes. That would be my carbs for the day plus 5 grams into the next day.

 

[Stacybaeasm]

We have not been a talkative group this weekend. I hope it means everyone was outside enjoying the wonderful weather! And here's hoping we all have a great weigh-in tomorrow.

 

[gellybean]

It's okay I have broad shoulders blame me all you want. Up here in Canada we only have 2 plus size stores (and they are owned by the same company) and are expensive (but the clothes do last) and Sears - Sears here is terrible compared to yours. Excuse me but I am 35 years old, I don't want to dress like my Grandma! Oh and Wal-Mart but I find that they fit small - more like Junior sizes.

I started ordering from JC Penney just before Christmas and love everything I have gotten. Hubby says he is going to call them and ask them to please not send me any more coupons. I have a coupon for 20% and usually it doesn't count on Outlet stuff but this one did

Hope you like your clothes!

Glad you have broad shoulders and can take it cus I totally blamed you when I told my husband.

That sucks that you only have two plus size shops in Canada. We have a lot more now than we did 10 years ago, that's for sure. I hated being a plus size teen. It kinda makes me mad in a way that they have so many more options and I seem to be about 5 yrs too early. I was too early for a cute prom dress, had to buy an old lady dress. Now they have a ton of cute ones. I was too early to have many choices for a wedding dress, and I've worn two of them. Now they have gorgeous ones. Oh well!! Just another reason to get to skinny island!

I had a moment of weakness today and it was disastrous. A new frozen yogurt place opened next to the local post office and I don't even know why I decided to walk in. All I know is that I walked out five minutes later with a frozen pineapple yogurt that tasted like the Dole Whip you get at Disney and I couldn't stop eating it!

So I ate the whole cup I have no nutrition info on it, but I'm guessing it's easily two day's worth of sugar allowance for me in that little cup. I'm so mad at myself right now because it sent my blood sugar skyrocketing for the first time in weeks. I really want to go the gym again, even though I already spent my usual hour there this morning. But I'm scared to go outside right now due to a tornado watch in our area and the weather radar showing a strong system moving toward us within the next hour. WHY, why today, of all days!!!

Okay, I'm done venting. I just hope there won't be any real tornado heading this way.

Hang in there!! Just remember, it's not reasonable to expect yourself to stay perfect for the rest of your life. It's what you do when you get off track that defines your ultimate success !!

Congratulations!!! Every small victory is worthy of

Thanks!!

Hi guys sorry I have not been around for a while... I have soooo much stress right now I can't focus anymore. You see my ex and I have joint custody and he is a real jerk to the kids and they don't want to live with him anymore so I am in the middle of a court custody battle. He is fighting it (only for the child support I pay him) and the kids are dealing with this terribly. He just submitted testimony against me full of terrible lies - I hope the court sees through his evilness - but he is one of those charismatic types that can put the charm on so no one sees his awful side. The kids see it though and bear the brunt of it. It is an awful awful situation. I went to the doctor and was put on an anti anxiety med which means that weight loss is almost impossible. So I am stuck right now. I will follow along and cheer on your victories and hopefully one day I will be able to focus on me again, for right now this consumes me. My court date is April 23rd - pray that it turns out well for the kids, it is about them not me or my ex. He of course does not understand this. Sorry to vent here.... Think happy skinny thoughts!

So sorry you are going through this and with such bad timing! We're here if you need an ear! or 40.

Worst Salad

On the Border Grande Taco Salad with Taco Beef and Chipotle Honey Mustard Dressing
1700 cals 124 g fat (37.5 g sat) 2620 mg sodium 86 g carbs

Greasy ground beef, shredded cheese, and a massive tortilla bowl lend this taco "salad" the caloric helf of 8 1/2 Taco Bell beef tacos! The only way to escape unscathed at On the Border is to use the Create Your Own Combo option on the menu; this salad-taco plate is the best meal you could hope to have -- just be sure to skip the rice and beans.

Eat This Instead!
Mexican Chopped Salad and a Crispy Chicken Taco
450 cals 26 g fat (7 g sat) 1120 mg sodium 40 g carbs

This reminded me of when me and several coworkers decided to get a take out Taco Salad. I dont' know if any of ya'll have "Ward's" fast food places but there are pretty popular down here. Well, that is where we sent someone to pick up the salads.

The salad came in one of those styro take out trays. The lettuce and other veggies were all in this container. In another small round container was the chips and cheese and in second small round container was the taco meat. OMG! We opened the little container of meat and there was at least 2 inches of pure grease sitting on top of it!! I just could NOT eat that and ended up throwing the whole thing away! It made me wonder how many times we eat something with that much grease in it but we don't see it?

It's amazing what we can eat if we don't see what goes in it! I get grossed out when I chill foods as leftovers and then see how much fat was really in it!

Today was ok with food, good with exercise and I got a bit of a shock that is really making me think about my choices and where I want to go from here.

Yesterday on Facebook, the brother of a guy I went to school with posted that his brother was missing and was asking for contact if anyone saw or heard from his brother. Today he posted a very sad update. They found his brother dead. I don't have any other info (I wasn't close to either of them in school and had not kept in contact after school, had only seen a few posts by them on Facebook) but his death has really made me stop and think about my health and what my weight is doing to it; but its also making me think about life. I keep thinking about this guy and and the fact that he was living his dream. He didn't get out of school and start thinking "someday I will . . ." He just started doing it and from what I can tell, continued until his death. Thank goodness, he was able to do what he really wanted to do in the present and didn't waste time saying "someday".

I know that I have a very bad habit of thinking "when I am thinner, I will . . ." or "when I have more money, I will. . ." But you know, the time to do whatever it is, is now! We may not have later or someday but we do have now!

So, I pledge to myself to continue this journey to lose weight and to be healthier; and to also re-evaluate other parts of my life and make sure that I am where I want to be and doing what I want to do.

Well said! We can't wait for life to begin around us, regardless if we are in our ideal station in life, be that station physical, monetary, etc. Life is meant to be lived!

So sorry to hear about the loss but I agree with your commments. It was these feeling exactly that made me open my own business 7 years ago. Is it hard? Yes. But I am living my dream and doing something that I love. If I had waited until I had more money or solved all the other obsticals I would never have done it.

WTG on living your dream!! I just need to figure out what my dream is!

I wanted to post this separate of my reply to all you guys.

Dan and I made a contract today to ourselves and what we will do when we are 6 pound under our lowest weight since we have been together.

I really want his support but commitment to this weight loss as well. I know I need to do it for myself but in the back of my head part of me thinks - well if he is not healthy and I am - we will not be living the same life so what's the point.

Anyway, one thing I really loved about our relationship was tracking together, walking together and holding each other accountable.

So we have a plan - short term goal and rewards and here is something great for today.

Dan had been teaching the past few days and Panera catered the food. That meant leftovers and he brought them home.

He was going to have a Pumpkin Muffin. I had made him a huge omelet, measured everything and he was still hungry. Said he was going to eat it and then figure out the calories to add into sparkpeople.

I said, "I thought we were just talking about measuring our food. You have no idea what is in that muffin."

His response was he has a ton of calories. That is true at 6'6 and 340 he has a lot. 1900-2250 a day. His carbs should be 242 - 349. Fat should be 48 - 84 and protein 60 - 188.

But - it is easy to be okay in calories and sky high in fat or carbs.

So begrudgingly he listened.

We looked it up.

This is for one Pumpkin Muffin
Nutrition Facts
Serving Size 6 oz (167.0 g)
Amount Per Serving
Calories 530
Total Fat 20.0g
Saturated Fat 4.0g
Cholesterol 30mg
Sodium 430mg
Total Carbohydrates 82.0g
Dietary Fiber 2.0g
Sugars 47.0g
Protein 6.0g

Can I admit I ate one the other day!!!

Just strikes home again the balancing act food is and how much I need that reminder and kick in the shorts and why I cannot be shocked at the scale when I eat blind.

I also need that push from Dan and will push him when I see him doing something destructive.

Anyway - I will respond to everybody who has written - I know some serious subjects were brought up so thought hey deserved a separate post!

Proud of you and Dan for making a contract to keep each other accountable. DH and I need to do that. I'm waiting for this new diet to come in for me to decide if it's gonna be something I can stick with or not. I've been thinking of doing South Beach. I think I need something more structured. I don't know. I keep wracking my brain for what the right answer is. I just don't feel like I'm on the right path yet.




I totally blew it this weekend. Ate way too much yesterday. Turns out if you stock the house with a bunch of food for the weekend, there's more food to eat on the weekends. I still need to figure out what triggers me to eat so much on weekends. I was thinking about it, and I remember doing the same thing when I was a kid. Saturdays always meant baking cookies, or cupcakes or sitting down and pigging out on chips and dips. Gotta revamp my definition of Saturdays!

Hope everyone's having a good weekend. I'll try to get out some Eat This Not That's tonight!

 

[Duchie]

We have not been a talkative group this weekend. I hope it means everyone was outside enjoying the wonderful weather! And here's hoping we all have a great weigh-in tomorrow.

We've had a really fun weekend around here. We had volleyball yesterday morning. My two younger kids play on two different teams and DH coaches them both. The older kids lost all 3 games, but the younger kids won all 3 so it was all good.

Then we took the kids to see "Alice in Wonderland" at the Alamo Drafthouse. In this theater they took out every other row of seats and replaced them with tables so you can order food and drinks while you watch the movie. It normally caters to adults so the kids don't get to go often. But since this was a PG movie they were allowed, so it was a huge treat (the kids REALLY love going here.)

After that we shopped for tile for the dining room/hallway. Not normally a big deal, but this time DH and I agreed on something we both like! Now THAT is huge!

Today has been just as busy running errands everywhere, working in the garden, and getting things ready for the Scout meeting. I'm looking forward to slowing down enough to maybe watch some TV tonight.

So yeah, we've had a busy and fun weekend. I don't even really care what the scale says tomorrow.... I'm just enjoying the day today.

 

[luvsJack]

Busy, busy weekend here. Finished planting the garden (can't wait for all those fresh veggies!), went shopping for supplies for ds's wedding reception, visiting in-laws today, dgd stayed over night and went with us today.

Spent a lot of time catching up with old friends. Since our former classmate's death, I think everyone is just wanting to reconnect. He is not the first classmate we have lost but his death seems to have really effected most of us. Maybe we are just all at a age that we have to realize our own mortality.

I think I have done ok. Haven't tracked everything but did exercise a lot. A lot of walking, needing some alone time to reflect a bit. Between last week being Easter and my hormonal munchies this week, I am just hoping to break even. I may have had a slight gain but am thinking that the last couple of days would have taken me back to even. Since I am already doing better, I know that next week will be good.

 

[Anna114]

So I lost my Easter weight! I will only break even tomorrow but that is OK. We had a great weekend here on Long Island.

Having lost 45 pounds it was so much easier to garden. I attended to my roses for over 3 hours today. I mentioned to my husband I could not have lasted that long last year. He said that it's so nice to bend over and not lose his breath .

The good and bad of it..... I love to lose weight, I hate to clean out my closet. I have two huge garbage bags of clothes to give to St Vincent De' Paul Society.

I hope that all of you had a positive food experience this weekend.

 

[hanutedmansionmomma]

-1 this week

slowly but surely...

been busier, drinking more water, eating less more consistently

One binge yesterday with macaroni salad. I guess that's got to go on the list of things I can't have in the house! Back on the wagon today.

Can't wait to check in later and see how everyone's doing!

 

[Duchie]

Good morning everyone!

This week I was -5 lbs

Hope everyone else is having a good Monday!

 

[Anna114]

Great loss the two of you! I hope everyone is taking a loss also.

 

[GoofyWife]

Glad you have broad shoulders and can take it cus I totally blamed you when I told my husband.

I totally blew it this weekend. Ate way too much yesterday. Turns out if you stock the house with a bunch of food for the weekend, there's more food to eat on the weekends. I still need to figure out what triggers me to eat so much on weekends. I was thinking about it, and I remember doing the same thing when I was a kid. Saturdays always meant baking cookies, or cupcakes or sitting down and pigging out on chips and dips. Gotta revamp my definition of Saturdays!

Weekends are hard for me too .. I got in the habit of making a big breakfast on the weekends, especially Sundays or else a big dinner and we have the tendency to pick up more take out food on the weekends or if we do have to go grocery shopping, my husband picks up cookies and cakes that he likes. Trying to break these habits and treat the weekend meals like the meals I prepare on the weekdays.

I'm down 1 pound although I didn't send in my weight last week - I had ended up gaining 2 lbs. over Easter weekend, so I really lost 3! too bad I gained the two in between

Also, why is it I can walk past the candy bars in the supermarket without a second glance, but let a holiday come by and all the candy is wrapped in pretty colored foil and I'm like a pig sniffing out truffles for the pretty, pretty candy?

 

[Stacybaeasm]

Good morning everyone. It looks like people had some great losses this week. Yay!!!!! I am down -.8 from last week but since I had a gain last week, I am really only down -.1 Overall. Oh well, a loss is a loss is not a gain and all that. I feel pretty good though because I got 5 days of workouts in this week. For the first time, I realized that Saturday and Sunday could not be days off but should be treated the same so off I went to work out.

We will see what this week brings. My birthday is tomorrow and I know there will be some cake. But, instead of ordering in a pizza (my usual dinner on my birthday) I bought a lovely steak and a baked potato to make tomorrow. Hopefully that will help balance the cake!

 

[luvsJack]

I am +1

But with all my munchies last week, I will take that and run with it. Actually some of that 1 pound my still be water retention. Planning a cup of warm lemon water before bed tonight.

This week is already starting better--NO cravings! Got up late this morning so didn't get my morning workout in but already got it covered--just going to double up this afternoon.


Dawn, thats great that you and Dan are working together on this. It is always good to have someone to motivate you and that you are motivating (that will really keep you in check!) Dh could certainly use some healthier eating but he doesn't have an ounce of fat on him, add that to his love of good old country (read: fat laden) cooking and he is just not much of a motivator for me. It helps that dd wants to eat better and be healthier so she helps me out.

 

[Mndisneygirl]

DOWN 1.5!!

I'll take that! I tried really hard and on Thursday went out for pizza before the Bon Jovi (!) concert. So I knew I had some ground to make up after that. Sunday was a weird eating day. I sort of didn't have well planned meals and ate a bit randomly. Mostly healthy stuff, but a couple handfuls of M&Ms mixed in. I really wasn't that hungry. Lots of time playing outdoors and gardening (Well pulling weeds), so that might have helped.

My boss said the best thing to me this morning! She told me I need to buy new clothes because my pants are falling down! Yea!!
Have a great week everyone!

 

[ancestry]

-2 for the week. -15 total.

However between being sick and injuring my neck my exercise has been minimal. I've tried to keep up with walking and did 4.5 miles yesterday. However I fear that the weight loss is either going to stop or I will start gaining because I've been out of the gym for so long. The chiropractor did clear me this morning to return to the gym but I do have to avoid a couple of the weight machines. I'm going to try to go back starting tomorrow.

 

[stitchfan23]

I think my Wii Fit board might actually be a male with a women's voice. I spoke really nice to it before I stepped in it this morning and it says that I am -2.2lbs

Didn't have a great meal last night. We were working on taxes (an hour or two my hubby says) from 2-6:30 and we are still not finished. Hubby is an accountant you would think he would know how long it would take. Oh well it is my business taxes that are taking the time so I can't complain. At 6:30 I didn't feel like cooking so we picked up something. Not terrible but not the greatest either.

So happy to hear that everyone is doing well this week. Even those with gains are admitting to their shortfalls and know what they need to do this week. Congratulations on owning it and for still being here. I really enjoy reading all the threads as it keeps me motivated

 

[Leash]

Not so great +1 for the week but I think part of that is due to a certain monthly visitor (and nothing to do with the brownies I made this weekend). So overall -1, I seem to be stuck within a couple of pounds of my starting weight. It seems like if I am really good all week I don't lose but if I'm really bad all week I don't gain. I am really putting a lot of hope in starting to walk everyday, I think if I seem to be holding steady in terms of diet then adding that exercise will kick start the weight loss. The only problem is that we are having a horribly windy spring so far and I just cannot go outside in the wind with my allergies so hopefully the wind will die down soon.

Congrats to everyone wether a gain or loss, at least you are trying!