I agree that bf gets much easier as time goes on, so if you can stick with it in the beginning, it does make life a bit easier later on. My SIL bf/ff for the 1st 6 weeks, then went back to work and switched to only ff. We went to WDW together last May when Madison was 3 months and my nephew was 8 months and I will say it was much easier for me to just be able to takes some diapers and wipes and go than to also bring bottles and cans of formula and bibs (he always dripped the formula on his clothes). She used the ready to feed stuff, so I guess that's harder than if she used powder, but she had to lug heavy cans around, then buy the single serve size for traveling in the parks. He still took a night feeding so she had to warm the bottles at 3am, which was not fun.
When I looked at all that, I was glad I had persevered with the bf. I had a really hard time in the beginning too. Madison lost a pound of her birthweight and we had to supplement. Though I wanted to bf, I was ff so I had nothing against it so it wasn't a big deal to me. In fact, even after the dr said we could stop supplementing I would still give her formula before bed at night in hopes she'd sleep a bit longer (never really worked though, she always woke up every 1.5-2 hours too-that lasted till around 4 weeks, then she'd sleep 3 hours at a time at night, but still did the every 2 hours thing in the day till about 6 months). Well right after my milk supply finally came in, I got double mastitis, and despeite the fact that they say to feed more frequently and it will help, nursing her hurt like crazy, so I went to pumping exclusively and bottle feeding (had been using a supplemental nurser in the beginning cause the lactation consultant warned about nipple confusion, but that was so frustrating for me so I gav up and went to bottles). For about 3 weeks I'd feed her a bottle with one hand and pump with the other (thank gosh I bought an electric pump!), and I had to do this at every feeding, even the middle of the night ones. It was insane and when I think about it now I wonder why I didn't make my husband give her the bottle while I pumped, but at the time it just seemed like I did what I had to and survived. He didn't take off any days except a half day when she was born, so I was on my own from the beginning so I guess it didn't occur to me. Well once the mastitis started to clear up, I started making milk like crazy-pumping out 4oz. per side, per feeding. So I'd get around 8oz. every 1.5-2 hours, and if I didn't pump after 2 hours, like if Madison slept a bit longer, I'd be in so much pain. So even when she slept, I was up pumping. I was still using formula and breastmilk, so I was freezing lots of that pumped milk (which was a complete waste as Madison hated the thawed breastmilk). Eventually it began to hurt less and less when I'd nurse her, so I was pumping less and nursing more each day. Luckily she never had nipple confusion, and by 3 months definitely preferred me to a bottle so around that time I stopped pumping. I had been slowly reducing the pumping from about 7 weeks on, but I would say around 3.5 months the only time I'd pump was if I was very, very full and in pain, or if we were going to fly somewhere so I'd have a bottle for the plane (we always kept her in her carseat for takeoff and landing). Aside from the fact that she preferred nursing to a bottle, I did too cause it was much easier for me so I stopped the formula completely. (I really stopped it after about a month or so, but then never used any again after about 3 months, excpet one time at 7 months to try to mix it with her cereal, but she gagged and vomited so that was the end of that.)
Also, I could never use a manual pump, I wouldn't get any milk out, but with the electric pump (I have a Medela Pump in Style Advanced) I'd get at least 4oz. per side. So if you aren't having luck with the manual pump, don't worry too much cause I think that's pretty common.
So my point is, I know it took me long to get there, if you think bf is something you'd like to do, don't give up on it too fast. Once you get past the rough beginning, it's a breeze, and much easier than ff IMO. Of course, I do have the problem of how to totally wean Madison now (she only nurses once a day, when she 1st wakes up in the morning), but my nephew will be 2 on 9/2 and is still a bottle addict, so I think that can be the case either way. Good luck to all of you new mommies!
sorry about what's going on. Maybe you can talk with your son's teacher and see if there's something you can do so he doesn't have to go to developmental kindergarten if you don't feel that's the best place for him. And don't worry too much about getting Aidan on a schedule. He'll be there eventually since you have 2 other kids who are on schedules of their own so it's bound to happen with him too. If you don't feel comfortable letting him cry at night, then don't. It's not good for you and him if it's not what feels right to you. I think you said he's your last baby so if it doesn't bother you to get up with him right now, then go ahead and enjoy the time alone with him. He's only 2 months old so don't worry about it yet. And look at it this way, Madison is on a 'schedule' and what good does it do for her-she still wakes up an average of 4 times a night!
I was ready to give up after a week because it hurt so bad, then I was using a nipple shield and it took forever for him to eat because half the milk dribbled out of the shield. It wasn't until he weaned off the shield at 8 weeks old that I actually started to enjoy BFing. Now I love it - so easy and convinient! But in the beginning.... It was hard!!
I wouldn't have done it if it weren't easy, KWIM?) Hang in there! We're rooting for you! 
