My heart is broken mini update post 243

[Tiggerlover91]

Good lord, hubby and I drove that highway MANY times and NEVER tried to pass. It just wasn't worth it.

Sorry just doesn't cut it, but what else can I say. I have a son and cannot imagine my life without him. Please keep your faith and just know it can and does get easier. Be blessed.

 

[Trish Bessette]

I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my heart and prayers. Please find comfort in those of us here who truly ache for you and wish there was more we could do.

 

[ckay87]

I don't know how you go on, sweetie, but you will, for him. God bless you; I am so sorry for your terrible loss. I hope that driver is punished for this murder.

 

[AlaskaMOM]

These past few days have been the hardest in my entire life. We have finally decided the details of AJ's service.

His obituary came out today, here's a link
http://www.peninsulaclarion.com/stories/081109/obi_480033456.shtml

I do have to say that in this tradgedy we have been blessed by the love and support of our whole community: just this morning a local landscaping company planted a big beautiful dark red canadian cherry tree in our yard in his memory, friends have been bringing food and vehicles and doing shopping, and flowers, oh so much

But I still can't help myself from drifting off into the land of what-if's

 

[powellrj]

Thank you for taking the time to share the update and the obituary. I have thought of you often this week and hoped that you were getting through all of this. I am so sorry that you are going through this.

 

[Poohlovr]

My heart is breaking for you. I am offering up prayers for comfort and to get you through this time.

 

[ChrizJen]

I just came accross this thread. I'm sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine. Hang in there. It sounds as though you have a great support system.
Thank you for sharing your son's obituary. It sounds like he was a great kid. It's so difficult to see the rhyme and reason to the whole universe when a tragedy like this happens. Again, I'm sorry for your loss.

When you feel up to it, and if you feel like it may help, I would love to hear stories and memories you have of your precious son.

 

[Serena]

I just cannot imagine how you feel. I wish I knew what to say.

 

[Luv2Scrap]

These past few days have been the hardest in my entire life. We have finally decided the details of AJ's service.

His obituary came out today, here's a link
http://www.peninsulaclarion.com/stories/081109/obi_480033456.shtml

I do have to say that in this tradgedy we have been blessed by the love and support of our whole community: just this morning a local landscaping company planted a big beautiful dark red canadian cherry tree in our yard in his memory, friends have been bringing food and vehicles and doing shopping, and flowers, oh so much

But I still can't help myself from drifting off into the land of what-if's

Thank you for sharing this with us. The tree in your yard sounds beautiful!

 

[TnTsParty]

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

 

[terri01p]

I feel overwelmed for you, oh goodness our children, our lifes...Godspeed to you and also to this young lady that will be having his child. So sad, so tragic.

 

[raysnkaysmom]

These past few days have been the hardest in my entire life. We have finally decided the details of AJ's service.

His obituary came out today, here's a link
http://www.peninsulaclarion.com/stories/081109/obi_480033456.shtml

I do have to say that in this tradgedy we have been blessed by the love and support of our whole community: just this morning a local landscaping company planted a big beautiful dark red canadian cherry tree in our yard in his memory, friends have been bringing food and vehicles and doing shopping, and flowers, oh so much

But I still can't help myself from drifting off into the land of what-if's

What a touching obituary...and how beautiful of your community. I have thought about you alot, and hope you are coping as best as can be expected....
When you have his service, I hope it gives you some sort of 'peace'.....

 

[PaulaSue]

I have been thinking of you and your family since your first post.

 

[disneymarie]

These past few days have been the hardest in my entire life. We have finally decided the details of AJ's service.

His obituary came out today, here's a link
http://www.peninsulaclarion.com/stories/081109/obi_480033456.shtml

I do have to say that in this tradgedy we have been blessed by the love and support of our whole community: just this morning a local landscaping company planted a big beautiful dark red canadian cherry tree in our yard in his memory, friends have been bringing food and vehicles and doing shopping, and flowers, oh so much

But I still can't help myself from drifting off into the land of what-if's

Thank you for posting the link.
What a beautiful son, I know how hard it is. I think of your family so often during the day. If you need anything, an ear a vent, feel free to PM.
Dianne

 

[Disney-Kim]

I can only say take one day at a time.

that is all you can do to get through.

I am so sorry for your loss

 

[AlaskaMOM]

we had a service for AJ on wed and it was just family and close friends, about 20 people. They had him there. just to say goodbye, but i didn't want to say goodbye....

Then yesterday we had his celebration of life, and there were so many people, everytime i was breathing again, without tears and snot running down my face someone else would come and hug me and it starts all over.

my family is starting to leave to go home, they all live in the lower 48, by tomorrow they will all be gone, then it's just the 3 of us left.

School starts for me on Monday, my principals said take as much time as i need, but i don't know should i stay home crying all day, or should i try and keep busy, and cry on and off at school??

we are still trying to find out where the possessions that were in the car are. all we get are phone trees and messages. But my sister did call and get his wallet from the hospital, they are shipping it down from anchorage

I don't know what to do. DH is being so strong for me, but I hear him crying in his sleep, so I know he needs me to be strong a little for him.

I never knew I could hurt so much..

 

[Mom2Nick]

Is your family going for grief counseling? If not PLEASE look into that right away.

As for school - Honestly I think you should go. How old are your students?

I think going will force you to put on a brave face for the kids, it will keep you emotionally and physically busy. YES you will cry and you need to brace for that and your co-workers will be there to ask questions and comfort which will make you cry as well. But not going and just staying home is NOT the answer. All it will do is make you wallow which is never a good thing.

 

[AlaskaMOM]

Is your family going for grief counseling? If not PLEASE look into that right away.

As for school - Honestly I think you should go. How old are your students?

middle and high school aged kids.
also worried about youngest DS is starting high school the following Monday. He is so quiet, (stoic i think) and I think he is more worried about me than himself.

I haven't gone to the grief counseling, but I know it's something I need to do at some point. (probably sooner than later)

 

[Mom2Nick]

middle and high school aged kids.
also worried about youngest DS is starting high school the following Monday. He is so quiet, (stoic i think) and I think he is more worried about me than himself.

I haven't gone to the grief counseling, but I know it's something I need to do at some point. (probably sooner than later)

I would look into counseling asap! Your children and husband need to go as well. Tragedies like this hold the power to destroy people and in it's wake marriages and families crumble. Don't allow this. Fight for yourself, your husband and your 2 other kids.

I am glad your students are older. They will understand and will come through for you.

Good luck Monday.

 

[CJ's Mommy]

OMG how horrible! I am so sorry for your family. I don't know HOW you will get through this, but I know you WILL.

I have to agree with the pp's on the counseling. Get into it right away. It will help.

Again, I am so sorry. This is just so sad. I wish there was something that could be said to ease your hurt, but I know there just isn't. I am so sorry.