I wish we had the snow you guys in the East Coast have...we just have bitter cold...no blizzard here for a loooong...time....
So I just survived a hard day...emotionally doing some testing that was difficult...I have a splitting headache and heading to bed...
I also survived 3 hours at Khols dept store with Carsyn. She found a bunch of clearance shirts for her trip...and a swimsuit. Guess who picked it out?
She wants her breasts to be smushed together and that is not how her breasts are...morewider set so they do not have that squished cleavage look she wants. I told her she is built like me and unless she spends $200 or more on one with side padding and a made to fit look...it aint happening. She was honest about her weight concerns...I said trying on clothes in a full mirror is sometimes the reality of where your body is and motivation for where you want it to be....she said..
We need to go shopping every day then!
Honestly..watching this beautiful 14 year old try on suits and shirts and not like what she saw...made me sad for her but instead of crying or feeling guilty....I just said...it is your mouth and your responsibility to control what goes in it as much as you control what comes out of it.
It made feel really good that she is becoming aware of choices that she makes as a young adult and the consequences for those choices. I never had a weight issue at all at her age....maybe it is better she realizes now she is 20 pounds too heavy because...when it hits you as an adult who never had a battle...you do not know how to handle it. It's like going to a battle un-prepared.
My mom never talked to me about my weight...she was obese and I was 112 pounds as a Sr in high school. I was allowed to eat anything and never educated about the long term ramifiacations and what would happen when my metabolism shifted, my exersize output changed and my body had babies. I just one day looked in the mirror..and knew I had not changed anything...and here I was...overweight and full of excuses.
I love Carsyn. She is really a funny girl and I am proud to call her my daughter. She makes good choices about her grades, drinking, boys and moral ethics that have long term consequences...I now need to instill in her the healthy eating ones.
I had tried before...but she took it as a control issue...not a concern issue...
So I am sorry for the rant...it was just a great ending to a stressfull day and I needed it to end on a positive note...and it did...just with my daughter and I...and knowing she is okay...both inside and out...and she is understanding that I am her best friend...always will be....even when the mirror isn't hugging her....I will.
Good night guys...I hope you all feel the love for yourselves tonight you deserve...regardless from where it is derived from.
I started to be overweight around 4th grade or so and I think I ate a lot because my mother and father were constantly pushing me to lose some of my weight... Constantly we were on diets... and to me I think I ate just to get them... I used to hide food in my room and eat when they weren't around. I can still remember my dad making cracks at my mom that she was getting too heavy and the most she ever was, was maybe 140 at 5'3... never huge by any standard. I remember getting so mad at that...
Awww Dawn.
I was at least 20 lbs too heavy at her age too. I spent all my teen years chubby. It is a hard thing. I lost it in college but have battled it ever since.
I am proud of myself tonight because I got up off my butt and did the mini stepper for 30 min, at 11PM. I was going to skip and chalk it up to an "off" day but managed to motivate somehow.
Right now I am snuggled up on the chaise lounge with a sleeping kitty on my lap, purring under a blanket.
Food for today:
B: Coffee, 100-cal pack blueberry muffins
L: South Beach Grilled Chicken Caesar Wrap Kit (230), salad w/ cucum ber, onion, bacon and reduced fat blue cheese + 2 Tbsp light three cheese ranch (140), 6 medium strawberries (20), cottage cheese (90)
D: 8 oz leftover pork (120) wrapped in a pita (60), 1 cup raw cauliflower (25) and 1 serving ff pringles (70) w/ dip made of 8 Tbsp ff sour cream + 1 serving onion soup mix (100)
S: 1 cup trader joe fiber cereal (100) + 1/4 cup milk (20)
Total for the day, ~1100. Water, 80-100 oz (not really sure? at least 80). Exercise, 30 min on mini-stepper, 50 crunches on floor, 50 crunches on ball.
Hope everyone had a great day!!
Sorry I missed ya on AIM... I was watching the Incredibles on tv and was in bed...
229.6 this morning!!! Hopefully I don't creep back into the 230s this weekend. TOM just surprised me with a surprise visit this morning so I don't know what that will tell for my weight. This also means I've lost just barely over 25 lbs!! I may be able to lose my 10 for the month still!
I hope everyone has a good day!!!
Sarah
that is soooo freakin awesome... I usually get maybe 10 a week... So look at the postive also. Also, besides angry or what have you how do you feel? Do you feel better having worked out? I know when I work out hard I feel so accomplished even if I don't lose weight... Believe me I get peeved but I also reflect and see what I did accomplish that week whether it was eating better, drinking more water and doing more distance on the elliptical... and hey maybe this was a good thing for you because it helped you decide to go to ww which might help more. 
Sarah
Major props to MIL for dealing.
) The reason I ask is this: Your body has a funny way of becoming accustomed to the workouts you do - and needs to be "shocked" every now and then. 
I have trained for and ran 2 half-marathons and 1 full marathon - I gained weight with each one because while I was running like a crazy woman, my body was adapting so that I had the endurance to complete those runs. I didn't have (or make? 
