In Search of My Body....Not the One I ATE! Vol. 5: Goddesses are Always on Top!

[goofyfan-12]

Kelly and LisaPR - congrats you big losers your!!! Awesome news.

Stacey - I am sure your weigh in tonight will go awesome! Have faith...

Erika - Hope your mood gets better. Spring is only 21 days away you know.

Liz - Sadly, no real news to report here. Life is just kind of trucking along. Work, gym, sleep, repeat. That about sums my daily life at this point. I have another Odyssey tournament this Saturday, but it is my local tournament so no travelling. I may head to Boston next weekend to go to a golf expo and hang out with my friend Tom. I may even get to meet the new girlfriend while I am there. She sounds very nice and he sounds incredibly happy so that is cool. We'll see. Sorry my life is dull this week, but can you refresh my memory about someone giving up their parking space to a certain rock god. Now that is an interesting day in the life.

I won't be near my computer for the majority of today, so have fun without me while I am gone. After work, I am off to a doctor's appointment, then on to get my hair cut and then finally to my training session. I figure I should be ready to crash as soon as my feet hit the porch of my house, but I'll check in before I do.

Paula

PS - Erika - I am off to see my GYN today which got me thinking - have you made that appointment yet?

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Erika - That blows! Maybe your run will invigorate you! I would be depressed to at this point in Maine. It's still deep winter there.

Paula - Gracious you DO have a busy day!

Kelly - on the loss!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Kelly - super great on the loss!

Paula - Sorry it's a busy, blah day. Hmm. Let's see if I can drum up another run-in with a celebrity for you.

Lisa PR - Welcome back!

Kat - Great god staying on track!

Sunny, please let us know how it goes at WW, okay?

I am recommitting every week but this is very hard for me. And again, I swear I lost a ton and it felt easy, whereas this feels hard. Hmm.

Lyz - I am having your kind of day. A quick email to get out and then heading to my mom and dad's. We will go to Target and shop and have lunch and Em and I will probably stay for dinner. Should be a nice day.

I just booked tickets for my mom and I to see Guys and Dolls on Broadway. Bucket list, you know. She is all about doing these things, so we are just going full steam ahead!

Erika - I feel you. I so do.

 

[lisaviolet]

Lisa!!!!!

Good to hear from you. Congrats on your weight loss.

You too Kelly.

Lyz - on him loving me. The irony is he had me , in the beginning not now that I've heard more, in the sense that I know life is not black and white. What he did was disgusting and maybe the ultimate end of his marriage but I truly believe that all of us can become lost and have "stuff" going on that can produce some awful behaviours - some awful choices. Would I ever do what he did? No. Is it disgusting? Yes. One of things I did for my friend early on was not do the "what a pig" "leave him now" as all around her were doing - I just let her talk and did let her know that she was my friend and I loved her and this was her life, her family, her children, her husband - and that what ever she decided I would not judge and I would be by her side. He didn't want the baby - second. So it produced so many feelings. But don't want a baby and someone else does - wear a condom. Wear a condom.

And he's not an easy person to like. I was their Maid of Honour geez ten years ago. I travelled hours and hours to get there. We get there. He's working on something. Some weather issues. So we pull up. He greets me with "you can't park there" and goes back to what he was doing.

Once I called my friend on her birthday just after 11 o'clock. He wouldn't put her on the phone and was pissed that I called so late (it was my anniversary and a weekend) (the excuse - they had been having crank calls - thought when he picked up the phone that it was another and was irritated)

So says a lot that I can still not pounce.

His latest is that his five year old daughter says "Mommy Daddy is looking at pictures". (He was there visiting) So my friend goes to check it out and it's their wedding picture album. She asks "why are you looking at those?". His answer, "well I looked at ____________(the new honey) pictures too and we are trying to get ideas for our wedding. I am not kidding I thought I was going to vomit. Really. Vomit - literally. Is that not the most sociopathic thing you have ever heard?

Erika - I'm so sorry you're low. Please, please ignore all my emotional rambling - I'm very emotional these days. Please take good care of you. Hopefully, probably it will pass soon.

Liz - It's probably hard cause you're almost there. You're almost there Liz.

 

[lisaviolet]

Kelly and LisaPR - congrats you big losers your!!! Awesome news.

Stacey - I am sure your weigh in tonight will go awesome! Have faith...

Erika - Hope your mood gets better. Spring is only 21 days away you know.

Liz - Sadly, no real news to report here. Life is just kind of trucking along. Work, gym, sleep, repeat. That about sums my daily life at this point. I have another Odyssey tournament this Saturday, but it is my local tournament so no travelling. I may head to Boston next weekend to go to a golf expo and hang out with my friend Tom. I may even get to meet the new girlfriend while I am there. She sounds very nice and he sounds incredibly happy so that is cool. We'll see. Sorry my life is dull this week, but can you refresh my memory about someone giving up their parking space to a certain rock god. Now that is an interesting day in the life.

I won't be near my computer for the majority of today, so have fun without me while I am gone. After work, I am off to a doctor's appointment, then on to get my hair cut and then finally to my training session. I figure I should be ready to crash as soon as my feet hit the porch of my house, but I'll check in before I do.

Paula

PS - Erika - I am off to see my GYN today which got me thinking - have you made that appointment yet?

How is he doing Paula? Health.

I know you are happy for him. You have a big heart Paula. But you must have some feelings about him having a new girlfriend, eh? Feelings are feelings.


Just thinking outloud.

 

[lisaviolet]

Nancy - I'll see if I can find a black dress. Do we at least get to wear cute shoes?

Tonight is my WW weigh in. I've been much better this week. No emtional eating, so I have high hopes for a loss.

It is 61 degrees here this morning, makes me think spring is right around the corner. Max (my dog) and I spent some time on the deck this morning it felt soooo good.

Hope everyone has a great day!

Sunny can't wait to hear.

Morning all - checking in for a minute before work!

Gym and tracking is going well, not looking forward to weigh in tomorrow as I am tired of being disappointed, but we will see!

E - it just breaks my heart about Karen

Everyone have a great day!!!!

Hang in there Stacey. How is the house hunting going? Forgive me if I've missed something.

 

[lisaviolet]

Also Lyz - I did play a part. I typed out a long email to her without even thinking - it just flowed about the honey not being all that and how this was about him, his choices etc. It just hit me one day that he not only left but was trying to put his sh!t on her. And I was mad. Anc clear. Typed in no time.

She said she actually carried it in her pocket for awhile and pulled it out when she was low.

And so he comes that same week - emailing her how he made a mistake and loves her and how he was going to move home and live in the basement (had gone back and forth already at this point came home and left again) said without a question to her about it - this is what I wiill do. Like a done deal. And she was prepared and simply gives guidelines about what was going to happen IF they ever worked on their marriage. Simple things. Live on your own for now. Go to therapy to look at why this happened. Simple things. And suddenly he's changed his mind again when he hears her. "We can't afford that!" We. Won't commit to maybe working on the marriage now that she has terms.

Personal power. Sometimes life is all about taking your personal power back. He thought he had it all figured out. But he had no idea his wife has some clarity back and had her own terms. Loved it.

I so hate posting all this here. Feell guilty a tad. But then again I need some safe place to release so I can be recharged for her.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I so hate posting all this here. Feell guilty a tad. But then again I need some safe place to release so I can be recharged for her.

Eh, she'll never know.

That's awesome you typed a letter that she carried for strength!

And I loved reading that she took her power back.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Still here, still blah. Going snowshoeing with the second grade now. Maybe that will help. Then for a run.

 

[zigzagzerr]

Sounds like we're all ready for spring, huh? Many good wishes being sent out to those of you in the dumps today.

I had another pain in the bummock migraine today, but I am determined to not let it ruin everything. I still have many more hours of work to get through and then my aerobics class -- don't these headaches understand that I AM BUSY?!!!

This has been a good week for me with food and exercise -- hoping for a pretty number tomorrow. If not, I'll change up my exercise for next week. I've been continuing to be careful with the calf muscle as it's still kinda sore.

Have a good day, everybody, and hang in there!

 

[goofyfan-12]

How is he doing Paula? Health.

I know you are happy for him. You have a big heart Paula. But you must have some feelings about him having a new girlfriend, eh? Feelings are feelings.


Just thinking outloud.

Health wise, he is doing great. He has lost about 30 pounds thanks to his diet changes (totally hate him for dropping 30 pounds so easily, but what can you do - he is a man). He is getting ready to head back the gym which is great.

I am very happy that he has a girlfriend now. In the end, I just want him to be happy and at least for now, she is making him happy. Am I a little sad that he doesn't see me that way - yeah, a little, but I am becoming more and more ok with that. He is still my friend and I am thrilled with that. If he can find some happiness with her, then why shouldn't he go for it. Now I can torture him with my attempts to find love (which he is totally supporting me on right now so that is cool). Now, if only he had a cute friend to hook me up with life would be good.

Gotta run to my next meeting.

Spring is coming folks - really!!!

 

[DisneyGalUK]

Paula and Lisa - Just because.
Lisa - I think its great that the email you wrote your friend has given her the strength to take her life back. Really great!

Well I was angry 5 minutes ago because I was watching my football team get beat by a comedy own goal, but they've just equalised so all is good again

Todays food:

Breakfast - Bran Flakes - 1.5 points
Skimmed Milk - 1 point
Snack - WW Blueberry Bar - 1.5 points
Lunch - Spaghetti in Tomato Sauce - 3 points
WW Yoghurt - 1 point
Sugar Free Jelly - 0 points
Snack - Sweet chilli and sour cream Snack-A-Jacks - 1.5 points
Apple and 2 satsumas - 1 point
Dinner - WW Chicken & cajun tomato salsa with wedges -5.5 points
Broccolli, carrot, sweetcorn - 0.5 points

Total - 16.5 points
I think I might have a WW bar whilst im watching Greys anatomy - they've got a new flavour, Black Forest - very chocolaty! That will take me to 18 points, which leaves me 2 points to play with. I think I will save them and use them tomorrow if need be - its my day off work and I tend to mindlessly snack when im at home. I am spring cleaning though so it should keep me busy!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Paula and Lisa - Just because.

Kelly - thanks for the hugs.

Enjoy the yummy chocolatey goodness...

 

[RodK1975]

Isn't that an oxymoron?

Why YES! I believe that does qualify as an oxymoron.

And you live where exactly?

I live in southeastern North Carolina. It's small and rural and back in the 40's and 50's it was really poor around here. My grand parents were tenant farmers and only had about a 4th grade education, very poor. But, my dad and most of my uncles and aunts were able to grow up and get educations and so forth.

That's probably a ton more than you wanted to know!

I am recommitting every week but this is very hard for me. And again, I swear I lost a ton and it felt easy, whereas this feels hard. Hmm.

I'm dealing with something similar, Liz. I got off my plan during Thanksgiving and Christmas and I've not been able to get myself back on good. I start back every Monday but I fail mid to late week. Once I get myself back and have a solid successful week, I'll be able to maintain it. It's just so HARD for me to get myself to have a successful week. Sigh.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

PS - Erika - I am off to see my GYN today which got me thinking - have you made that appointment yet?

Good question.

I just booked tickets for my mom and I to see Guys and Dolls on Broadway.

Hello!?! That's what we just saw last week! It was a ton of fun. Just wait till you see the costumes those Hot Box Dancers wear! We can't quite get away with *that* in high school

I had another pain in the bummock migraine today, but I am determined to not let it ruin everything. I still have many more hours of work to get through and then my aerobics class -- don't these headaches understand that I AM BUSY?!!!

Hope your head is feeling better! It's so hard to be "on" when you have a headache

That's probably a ton more than you wanted to know!

Nope. Not at all, actually. I find it quite interesting! I knew that there had to be some reasonable explanation for your lack-of-electricity story.


Gotta make dinner. And sew costumes. More costumes. I love those kids. That's why I do it. So that's what I keep reminding myself.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

That's probably a ton more than you wanted to know!

I'm dealing with something similar, Liz. I got off my plan during Thanksgiving and Christmas and I've not been able to get myself back on good. I start back every Monday but I fail mid to late week. Once I get myself back and have a solid successful week, I'll be able to maintain it. It's just so HARD for me to get myself to have a successful week. Sigh.

Well, like Nancy said, there's no such thing as TMI. Well. There is. But not background, history, etc. That's all good.

That's what I need, too. One good week. I started again yesterday, and went to Bunco and drank three glasses of red wine. Not a disaster, but I paired them with some lowfat dip, fruit, and chocolate covered strawberries. Again, not awful, and all tracked. But still!

I do feel like this is crunch time, and it's really so much about what I can live with forever. My old shedding weight is gone, and this is reality, going forward. So it's harder won. I will, apparently, have Bunco and chilli cook-offs (Saturday, my house) and dinners out with my mom and dad (tonight, got steamed veggies and crabcakes). It's life. I'll have vacations and trips and all that. I'm almost over the peanut butter cup/candy thing, it's now living within my range for daily food consumption, hunger, boredom, social life all colluding.

But I do have to see how far I have come. A lot of weight gone.


Nancy, you never gave us a full report of Guys and Dolls. Of course I know you went! I remember! (These are for you, from Emily, who is sitting here, at my parents' computer.)

 

[RodK1975]

Sigh, yes Liz, I feel your pain.

I'm not sure about anyone else here, but I tend to use a slip as an excuse to fall off the wagon. I'll do great, then eat a small piece of cake at work or something. Then, I get home and I'm hungry and I'm like, "Well, I screwed up and ate that cake so I'm screwed for today anyway, so I might as well eat this mac and cheese. Blah, blah, blah, blah." On and on it goes into a downward spiral of over-eating immediately to be followed by regret, mental ridicule and an unhealthy dose of self-flagellation and depression. It's a vicious cycle.

That successful week sure would help me get my motivation back in order!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Roddy--I can definitely relate to that. That has always been my issue. And sometimes I will even fall off before I fall off. Let me explain. Say it is a Tuesday and I know that on that coming Friday I am going to be at some event where I am going to eat and drink a lot, etc. Basically just be OFF. On Tuesday I will start saying, "Well, since I am going to pig out on Friday, there is no sense being good before then..."

I don't know the secret to getting over that. I know that you should just do it one meal at a time or whatever. Just because you blew the morning doesn't mean you have to compound the damage, etc. But it never seems to work that way for me.

Right now I am just in the state of being ON. But it is very fragile. I didn't do great on Tuesday or Wednesday, but I managed to be ok. At the very tippy top of my calorie range. And I didn't let it throw me. Back to doing ok today. But it is fragile, for sure.

Keep posting here...we'll help you flip that switch!

 

[SunnyB1066]

WW weigh in was good. I'm down 3.8 pounds for the week. I've kept up with tracking and getting my water in.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Sigh, yes Liz, I feel your pain.

I'm not sure about anyone else here, but I tend to use a slip as an excuse to fall off the wagon. I'll do great, then eat a small piece of cake at work or something. Then, I get home and I'm hungry and I'm like, "Well, I screwed up and ate that cake so I'm screwed for today anyway, so I might as well eat this mac and cheese. Blah, blah, blah, blah." On and on it goes into a downward spiral of over-eating immediately to be followed by regret, mental ridicule and an unhealthy dose of self-flagellation and depression. It's a vicious cycle.

YES!!!! OMG Yes. This is me for 3 years now.

Sunny, that's an awesome weight loss!!! Good for you!!!

I am making a true blue effort to get to bed by ten pm. I do much better in the morning and might actually work out, but I am a night owl, so it's a struggle.