Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[DoeWDW]

It's 1:30 PM and I'm doing very well. I hear the EVM voices off in the distance but I am NOT throwing away a day and a half of no cheating!!! EVMs are EVIL!!

I've stuck to my food plan so far and I walked at lunchtime. I'm finishing 32 oz of water so I've got another 32 oz to drink in only a few hours - I'd best get moving on that goal!

I think I'm starting to feel like the "old" healthy me again!

 

[sharoncity]

Hi Doe! Looks like you are doing a great job getting back OP! Good for you!
BACK AWAY FROM THE EVM AND NO ONE WILL GET HURT!! I am fighting the same fight today. I am hungry! I'm off to lunch now so I don't get into the wrong stuff. Hang in there Doe, I know you can do it!!!
Have a great day!
TTFN-
Sharon

 

[septbride2002]

BACK EVM! BACK! crack of bull whip STAY AWAY FROM OUR DOE!

~Amanda
"EVM tamer"

 

[Auntmeme]

Hang in Doreen! You are super woman- the EVM is no match

Keep the faith and you'll make it through all your goals. Today is gorgeous so make sure to get out and walk. How's the pilates going? I was thinking 2 gallons wasn't enough water but sometimes I'm forcing that last glass before bed and then have to get up halfway through the night to tinkle. I'm going to try to have most of it down by the end of dinner. Are you able to drink it all each day?

I know it's been tough for all of us lately, most be a full moon or something. Anyhow, have a great Tuesday

 

[CourtasanSatine]

thanks for checking in on my journal,I'm just leaving a and will be back once I call DBF

 

[honeymo78]

Just stopping in to say hi. Keep up the great work. I'm so glad youre out of the d-zone and back on the healthy track.

 

[lulu201]

So, how'd yesterday go, Doreen? With Amanda around, that EVM doesn't stand a chance, you know. She certainly has many talents! Call her today if that EVM looks at you funny.

How are things at work? Are you taking your tasks one by one? If we can take our healthy living goals one by one each and every day, we'll be feeling good and accomplish all that we've set out to achieve. Let's do it today, Doreen! We'll worry about tomorrow later. . .all we have to try for is this moment.

Here we go, onward and downward, together.:happy1:

I'm going to blow dry Mickey's paws. . .

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

Good morning World!!!

Yesterday:
1. Pills - 2/12
2. Water - 2/12
3. Food - 1/12
4. Exercise - 2/12

I'm going to celebrate since I met 3 of my 4 goals yesterday. I evaded the EVM thanks to Amanda! However, when I got home, things went awry. I had a good plan (Wendy's after the recital) but we ended up not going to the recital, which threw everything off. They do the same recital 2 weeks in a row and DD wanted us to skip last night and go next week, so we respected her wishes. I was very tired and feeling overwhelmed and there are too many goodies in the house at the moment. I caved in with ice cream and potato chips.

I'm moving on - it was one slip in an otherwise very good day. The scale is down a pound to 134 (it was up to 135! ). I need to manage the stress better somehow.

Today:
1. Meds & vitamins taken.
2. 16 oz of water almost gone - 48 more oz to go.
3. Food - B = apple w/ PB, L will be my burger w/ mustard & mayo, S will be an Atkins bar, D - here we go again! We have to get hair cuts tonight and then DS goes to play rehearsal. Where does dinner fit in?
4. Exercise - walk 15 minutes during lunch hour.

I'm feeling overwhelmed in practically every area of life at the moment. I am through the D-Zone for the month, and usually I feel my spirits lifted by now, but I'm still struggling. This is a common pattern for me during this time of year. I MUST spend some time making lists of tasks in each area and breaking things down to a manageable level, even down to putting each task on the calendar, so I know that I can get it all done. I think I may do that during work hours today (gasp!!). At this point, I'm paralyzed and not getting ANYTHING done, so this will help me be more productive at work and everywhere else. I can also look for things to delegate to my DH and kids. There is no reason for ME to do it all. They'll help if given specific tasks, but without direction from me, they don't seem to even know how to help me.

I'll be back later to report how it's going. I have a plan. In the past I would have been sucked into the black hole of depression and when I'm there, I am not capable of creating a plan to help myself. So, I'm coping better now than I have in the past and that thought alone is giving me comfort and confidence.

I'm also not giving up on my healthy living goals. Even yesterday, when I didn't meet my food goal, I did succeed for most of the day and only had one "meal" that was not healthy. I'm still in the game!

I am down, but at least I can see a ladder to climb back up!

 

[lulu201]

I am here for you; you are here for me. Doreen, you and I will never give up on this lifestyle change because we both know that it's much more for us than weight management--it's part of a big picture of wellness and wholeness. We will do this because we just plain have to.

I'm going to email you from work during the day just to see how things are going, so check it if you can. Take today in those baby steps, Doreen--you can do it!

and blessings on you, dear friend--
Erin

 

[septbride2002]

Morning! I fell through as well Doreen - but lets now concentrate on the past and just look forward to today. We can do it! I know we can! I'm sending lots and lots of vibes your way!

~Amanda

 

[luvmy2sams]

Good morning Doe!

I'm going through the same thing right now, Doe! At least you've got your plan going for pulling yourself out of the funk. Bravo to you!

Don't beat yourself up over one blown meal. Today is a new day, and you'll kick those bad habits to the curb! I know you can do it!

Have a great day!
Angela

 

[DoeWDW]

It's 1:30 PM and I just got back to my desk. I went to the EVM and kicked it. Yes, I literally kicked it. The voices have temporarily stopped calling me. I've threatened to go back and stick my tongue out at it if they start up again.

Do you remember how I said I'd spend time planning out all my tasks today? Well, I've changed my mind. I'm still planning....I'm planning to run away! I just got another project put on my plate, along with everything else I have to get done. I wish the people around here didn't see me as a competent professional.

The extra project was the catalyst for those EVM voices to start up. However, I went to the cafeteria and got my burger. I have not indulged in any comfort food. I know if I start, I won't be able to start. I was supposed to have my protein bar for an afternoon snack but I ate it around 11 AM - I was hungry! Now I don't have an afternoon snack. This could be dangerous. I will prevail though. Evil carby sugary food will not help me get any of my tasks done so why medicate myself with food that will only make things worse!

I wonder if all this stress will cause my body to shut down? I am concerned about this, but I guess there's nothing I can really do about it. If it happens, I'll just have to take the day off and give myself time to recover. I should have walked at lunch but didn't get a chance to - the new project meeting cut into my lunch hour. Hopefully I'll get a chance to do some exercise tonight. Burning off some stress would do me some good.

Enough babbling. I've GOT to try to do some planning. I'd rather DIS, though!

 

[gadizlover]

Oh Doreen-
Good for you - way to tell the EVM who is boss! I feel for you, I really do- I've been there with that stress at work. (and probably will again before this month is over). I used to do the same thing -reach for the chocolate. But even though it felt better, the work was still there! Can you maybe slip away from your desk for about 5 minutes? Go outside and just stamp your feet and yell if no one will hear you? Trust me, its a great stress reliever

That way you won't be beating your self up later for letter the EVM have control!

Take care of yourself and don't let the stress win. Take slow deep breaths, take a good long stretch and know that we are here rooting for you to make it thru the day!!

 

[Strings]

So tell me Doe, how did it feel to kick that EVM? Was it satisfying? I bet it was, and security didn't even show up. I'm so proud of you. I know that you will get through this day intact. You have achieved so much. I know you will hadle all of these projects. Baby steps, and DIs for venting will get you through. Take care of yourself and try some deep breathing exercises.

Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, it WAS satisfying to physically KICK that EVM!! I may do it again! Of course, I didn't kick it hard enough to hurt me or leave a dent in it, but the symbolism was wonderful!!

I did not give into the EVM yesterday afternoon! I went home and decided that I was going to eat sensibly but not count carbs. I ended up having a PBJ sandwich, an apple, 10 potato chips and, later, 6 bites of DD's mac & cheese. I didn't binge!! I was proud of myself!

I think I may just have to stop worrying about the carbs for a week or so until things calm down and I feel more in control of some other areas of my life. I plan to eat sensibly and stay pretty low-carb but not obsess over the numbers. I tried this before and didn't do so well but I'm going to try it again.

My goals today:
1. Take meds & vitamins.
2. Drink water - at least 48 oz.
3. Eat sensibly and no binges!
4. Walk 15 minutes sometime today.

I wanted to hide under the covers today. However, I decided to face my fears and feelings of being overwhelmed and underconfident. It's OK to be uncomfortable and unsure and still keep moving forward and do the best I can. I'll be taking baby steps at work and doing the planning I should have done yesterday (before they overwhelmed me with yet another major assignment!).

Beth, I'll be taking your advice and doing some deep breathing exercises. I think I'll set up my PC to remind me every half-hour to stop and do some deep breathing and conscious relaxing. Thanks for the idea!

Here I go, boldy into the day!

 

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
Way to go on kicking that EVM! I bet that felt really good. Your plan for this week sounds like a good one. You can always start counting carbs again when everything else settles down. You did a great job with your food choices after coming home from work! No binge there! Way to go Doe!


I hope you have a wonderful day today! for you Doe!

Tracy

 

[septbride2002]

That sounds like a great plan! I know that when my life feels like a tornado that I have to not concentrate so much on what I am eating. As soon as things calm down - I'm right back to plan. Well maybe not right back but you know what I mean. :happy2:

Your plan sounds great today - I'm afraid if I do deep breathing exercises at my desk that I will fall asleep

Have a great day Doe!

~Amanda

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi Doe,

It's been a while since I checked on you. It sounds like you have a lot (okay too much) on your plate! I am sending you some good vibes ----- {{{{{good vibes}}}} ----. I hope you are able to take some time for yourself today to get your plan together. I absolutely hate feeling out of control. It makes me fearful and anxious and other negative feelings. You are so wonderful to see what's happening around you and have the presence of mind to make a plan to get yourself up and out of it all.

I always consider you to be one of the ladies on this board I look up to the most. I know you will find a way to take back control of things at work, home and with your diet and exercise.

 

[DoeWDW]

Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement and support! They mean more than I can say.

I've just posted a thread on the main WISH board announcing a WISH Walk in Doylestown PA on May 8th. If any of you are interested in meeting and strolling together, please post to that thread. Erin (Lulu201) and I will definitely be there but we'd love to see lots of WISHers! This will give me something to look forward to - a day of fun and laughter with some of my best friends!!

So far I've eaten my apple with peanut butter for breakfast and taken my meds & vitamins. I'm on track!

 

[CheapMom]

That EVM had it coming- You're doing great. Good luck this week!
Mary