I was bad yesterday and didn't update. Plus I haven't exercised for the past two days, and my dinner last night was gigantic.
I was having a bad evening last night and had a little bit of an emotional break and cried (loudly) for no good reason, really.
DBF has a free flight on Southwest that expires mid-Sept., so we thought it would work out well if I could visit Sept. 3-6 and make it a long weekend. I couldn't ask my dad to take off work to watch Grandma because his job situation is iffy at best, and he just took a vacation for almost 2 weeks to Florida (he comes back this Friday). I asked my aunt Vicki if there was any chance she could take the day off on Sept. 3, and after a bit of 'well I can see...' etc, we determined that was out due to the nature of her job and the lack of volunteers at the moment (she works at Meals on Wheels).
So I asked my mom if she could watch Grandma on the 3rd, but was feeling bad about it because I have a dr's appt on the 10th and she's already staying at Grandma's in my place for a few hours on that day. She gave me a pretty big guilt trip about asking her to do it, and about me having to ask Dad to watch Grandma on Labor Day (Sept. 6th). So by the time I got home I just kept saying 'Forget I brought it up, it was a bad idea, nevermind, it's not gonna happen' etc etc, because I was feeling like a real jerk for trying to put my obligations off onto somebody else for a couple days.
That's the very long-winded explanation of why I was crying...the short version would be: I am feeling depressed lately and like I don't have anything to look forward to right now, and thought a trip out of town to visit DBF might cheer me up. Then I felt like a jerk for even trying to plan it. That made me cry, along with the fact that it didn't look like the trip would work out anyway. The end.
After all this self-inflicted drama, Mom ended up calling Dad for me (while I was sobbing 'Don't call him! I don't want him to use his holiday off taking care of Grandma for me!', which probably sounded something like 'whimper-mumble-sob-gasp-whimper'

) and asking if he could take care of Grandma on Labor Day, and said she *would* go over there for me on the 3rd. I'm going to hear about it for the next 6 months that I owe her, of course, but I *am* going to Phoenix over Labor Day weekend. It's very likely going to be scorching outside there, but even if all I do is spend the weekend cuddled up with my man that is perfectly fine with me!
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Ok...novel about my minor emotional breakdown complete, onto the food tracking.
Tuesday:
Breakfast - Multigrain Cheerios w/ milk; banana - 296 cal
Lunch - leftover fried rice w/ scallops & shrimp - 553 cal
Dinner - steak w/ mushrooms & onions; carrots, cauliflower & broccoli; red skin potatoes; dinner roll w/ butter; salad w/ poppyseed dressing - 768 cal
Total - 1618 cal
Water - 104 oz
Yeah, dinner wasn't the greatest, but the calorie count for the day was acceptable (or it probably would have been if I had done any exercise). By the time I got home, boohoo'd, fixed Mom's computer so we could print off our coupon for dinner, and went out to eat, it was almost 9pm and I was just wiped and didn't feel like it. That steak was completely worth the calories though; it was so tasty, and I hadn't had any red meat in weeks. We discovered this gem of a restaurant...it's actually a place that used to be a pretty standard bar & grill, but it went out of business and now the new owner/chef makes these dishes that are just so high-caliber, bordering on gourmet (to my peasant tastebuds anyway). It's a bit pricey, but we have never been disappointed in a meal there.
Wednesday:
Breakfast - Nutrigrain waffle w/ natural dark chocolate peanut butter; banana - 380 cal
Lunch - last of the chicken etc leftovers from Macaroni Grill; Wasa fiber cracker w/ garlic & herb Laughing Cow - 265 cal
Snack - light string cheese; apple cinnamon Nutrigrain bar - 190 cal
Dinner - Steak 'n Shake kids meal: mini corndogs & applesauce; asparagus w/ hummus - 277 cal
Snack (or Dinner #2) - sammie thin w/ turkey bologna & 2% cheese; pretzels w/ Laughing Cow - 333 cal
Total - 1444 cal
Water - 80 oz
No excuse for not exercising today other than I just didn't feel like it. I promised myself I would get strength training in tomorrow while I'm at Grandma's and she's asleep. I put my dumbbells in my car already so I won't forget them in the morning. I gotta get my walk on tomorrow night too. Need to walk 4 miles/day for the rest of the week if I want to meet my 20 mile goal.