Congratulations to the top ten losers
My Pitty Party- I kind of feel like i'm spiraling out of control on my eating and not exercising. I am back up over 300 lbs.

I had such a great start then i got stressed out and things just spiraled. I'm not sure how to get it back. I start each day saying im going to make healthier choices and log what i eat in my sparkspeople but by lunch i have killed it by either not eating breakfast so im starving or eating something cheap because i'm on limited funds. I love my what i do for a living but the not knowing when or where your next paycheck is coming from is stressing me out. I'm afraid to spend money on lunch when it needs to go in my gas tank.
I know alot of you are thinking then why did you just go to wdw. I actually went for business. I had a meeting with a client in the area which went great and you know you cant go to the area without visiting the park. We also made it part of annettes bday celebration. We got $54 each way for airfare, annual passes that exprire the end of the month and DVC so our cost was little. Annette decided to spring for the basic meal plan and that was great.
Well enough of the pitty party.
MY Fav exercise i would say is running/walking very fast. I love to be out side and when the weather is good i could walk forever. I also love to swim.
Why i dont do it_

I really have no good reason, i know i should do it everyday, i have a nice park to walk in which they keep the trail clear of snow and a membership to a gym which i never use. I can always think up an excuse why not to do it(dogs need out, i have an early meeting, my back hurts, i have a hang nail

) maybe its motivation, maybe its lazyness, maybe its because when i was younger i could do so much more than i can now and feel guilty because i've let myself get in the shape im in.
Sorry this is so long just thought i would let you know where im at. I havnt given up but i need some help and a buddy
Amanda