Beth's WW Journey. (Comments Welcome)

[MIdanceMom]

Hi everyone,

Yes I did get to WW yesterday. I was up .4. It should have been MUCH worse. The meeting really helped me focus on what I can do to prevent my uncontrolled eating. I think that part of my problem is that I haven't had a goal for quite awhile. I just want to lose weight. My ultimate goal weight is still too far off for me to focus on that on. I have just been going to through the motions. Cam's challenge is what I need to refocus myself on my goals. I have Chull and Renee's wedding on July 19th. That gives me 14 weeks. I want to be in Onederland by that time. That means I have to lose 12.6 pounds. It will be tight, but it is doable.

How am I going to do this?
1.) Exercise at least 4 times a week.
2.) Track every bite I take. I got a three month journal. The weekly trackers are just disposable.
3.) Plan my meals at least 1 day in advance. Cooking on Sundays seems to be working. I need to do my prep on my healthy meals.
4.) No eating after Kate is in bed. This means that I need to make lunches for the next day before she is in bed. The kitchen will be closed. Light will be turned off in the kitchen.

I did get alot done yesterday. As always, there is more to be done. We had a good lunch yesterday. My ILs are worried about being cut off from kate, and I think yesterday's lunch went a long way in reassuring them.


So last night was a lot of fun. I am shocked. We ditched the party and went to the bar next door. Of course I took advantage of the open bar before I had to start paying for drinks. I used up a lot of points yesterday, but I charted every bite, and accounted for the points. That is what the flex points are for. We played some pool, and laughed. It was good to get together outside of the work environment. I needed to just be Beth for a bit. Bonus: I am amazed I am not hungover this AM.

I have reevaluated my goals for today. I am going to clean do laundry. Instead of the gym, I will take the puppy on a long walk. I can listen to my music and do some planning. I got the grocery shopping done yesterday, so I am going to do some cooking. Katie got a fantastic reportcard, so she got to choose a restaurant for dinner tonight. She chose Famous Dave's BBQ. I looked at the menu, and I have planned my food for the day. I also want to spend some time playing with Kate today. She is obsessed with card games at the moment, so we will probably play some rummy.


Ok I must get moving.

Take care,
Beth

 

[Amy&Dan]

Beth, I got that three month journal at WW and its been very helpful. I like it way better than the ones they give you in the weigh booth each week. I think a .4 gain is no biggie, as you say it could have been much worse. You have really been doing some soul searching. I think your goal of being in onderland (OMG I can't wait for that day for you and me!) is very doable. I know you can do it. You have come up with a plan to be successful and are already following that plan. You are right, flex points are for just what you used them for. Also, I find that if I have some cocktails its best to have them as far away from weigh in as possible. I am so glad you had fun last ngiht, you earned it. Your IL's are lucky to have you.

Hope you had some time to relax and play cards with Kate today! Its a new week, you are off to a great start!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Beth,

Your new goals are looking good! I know that you CAN accomplish each and every one of them!

I'm trying to get into Onederland too. A few years ago, I was in Onederland right before I went to WDW........ I haven't seen it since. We CAN do this, Beth!

I hope you have a wonderful week ahead!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

I think your new goals look great--you can do it!!!

 

[Caitsmama]

Beth, I think those goals are totally doable!! You really sound like you are 100% focused in this, and that will make all the difference - keep it up!!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi All,

I am still feeling and focused.

Yesterday afternoon, I took a short nap. Unfortunately, I couldn't sleep last night. Oh well, I am still

I managed to stay within my points yesterday, despite the trip to Famous Dave's. I also did not eat after 7PM. Huge victory.

I did make out a plan for my week.
Monday: Upper weights.
Tuesday: Elliptical/lower body while Kate is in dance.
Wednesday: Pilates.
Thursday: Rest.
Friday: (I am not working) Pilates and latin fusion class.
Saturday: Elliptical and weights.


Now it is in writing, so I am committed to it.

I am a bit worried about Jon's mental health. He is distraught over his breakup with Darcy. I am actually concerned he may be a suicide risk now. He refuses to even consider counselling. I have contacted some of his friends, and I am hoping they can take him out. I may need to do an intervention with him, it is now that bad.

Ok, Patient here.

Take care,
Beth

 

[keenercam]

Oh, Beth! I was looking forward to focusing on YOU and your journal entries, but let me just say first that I am so sorry you have to deal with Jon. What a selfish CLOD. I am sorry if I sound so judgmental, but seriousy! This man threw away a good life with you and Kate for a quick good feeling and now that it didn't work out and you weren't willing to take him back, he is being selfish and self-centered and making you waste your energy on worrying about him. How pathetic that his self worth was wrapped up in that relationship and how totally pathetic that he is behaving in a way that doesn't validate the significance of his daughter in his life. I am so furious that you are going through this. Have you talked to his parents at all about how he is now? I am so sorry, sweetie.

More importantly, I am SO PROUD of you for getting back to WW and that you were only up .4. And kudos to you on buying the 3 month journal. I am totally with you on the weekly ones being disposable. Here, I can keep a running record of what I've done, rather than throwing away all evidence of a bad or undisciplined week. Your goals look fabulous and totally attainable. And your interim behavior goals are fabulous! Congratulations for planning so well yesterday and for closing the kitchen. Day 1 was a HUGE victory for you! I think you need to start keeping track of the streak you are definitely starting.

I am right here with you all the way, sweetie! I know that together we can succeed. Keep up the great work. You have a LOT to be proud of!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Beth
your plans look great
I know you can do it
sorry to hear about the problems with Jon, obviously if he is as bad as you say you have to help but this is the last thing you need, take care

 

[toystoryduo]

Beth,

Your plans for the week ahead look great! Congratulations on not eating after 7:00 p.m.!!!!

I'm sorry to hear about the situation with Jon. We'll be sending prayers your way.

Take good care of you, sweetie.

 

[kimwim8]

Hey girlie. Sorry for all you're going through with Jon. I agree that he is completely selfish, but I commend you on being the bigger person and realizing that he definitely needs help.

I am following your lead and going to close the kitchen at my house to o. For us, it'll be 8pm because of our soccer schedule, but it's still better than nothing, right? Thanks for the inpiration and GREAT JOB!!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi everyone,

Thank you for the words of encouragement. I DO appreciate it.

I stayed on track yesterday, so exercise and food was all OP. I am really encouraged by that right now. I am not expecting a loss this week because TOM is looming. I can feel the fatigue start to set in, and the bloat. No biggie. I am just going to keep to my plan. I have turned off the lights in the kitchen after dinner. That seems to help me avoid going in there.

Jon was doing better last night. One of his brothers and 2 of his friends called him. He has plans to go out on Friday, and more people are going to check on him today. His moods are just vacillating so much right now. I am not sure who will walk in the door. It is frustrating, but I am not going to let him slip into a black hole. I've been there. I know that it isn't my job anymore, but I am doing this for Kate as much as I am doing it for him. Besides, no one else will do it.

So tonight is hit the gym while Kate is at dance. I brought my workout clothes to work, so I have no excuses. Kitchen is closed at 7pm. I will probably not make it to journals today, I'm sorry.

Meals:
B: Yogurt, raspberries, crispix-4pts.
S:apple. 2 pts
L: Spinach salad with diced chicken/cheese 7pts. (I even measured )
S: Cup of tomato soup w/ parmesan crisp 5pt
Dinner: Salad with 4 oz of grilled flank steak 9pts.

I've already gotten my water in for today, but I'll keep sipping.

Hope everyone is well.

Take care,
Beth

 

[postesf]

Hi Beth! Sorry I've gone missing!!!

You are doing so well. You're spririts are up, your goals are good!!! You are doing fantastic.

So sorry about the crap w/ Jon. I do commend you on trying to help. That speaks volumes for the kind of person you are.

Keep going!!! You are doing so great!

Stacie

 

[toystoryduo]

You are doing a wonderful job, Beth! I am so proud of you!

I'm glad to hear that Jon's brother and friends are taking an interest in him now. Maybe they can help him out.

Keep up the good work, Beth! Have a nice evening!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Oh Beth, I am so sorry you have to deal with yet another one of Jon's crisis'. But as you say, you have to do it for Kate above all else. Hopefully his friends can get him on track before it gets out of hand. Just know I am thinking about you. Just what you don't need.

You are doing so well with getting back on track. You have a plan in place and that is half the battle. I also find that turning off the kitchen light sends a message that the kitchen is closed for the night!

Just keep up this work sweetie, Onderland is waiting for you to enter and I know you can do it! I'll miss ya while I am gone but I'll be thinking about you and the Jon Situation and keeping you in my prayers.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Everyone,

Everything went as planned yesterday. I did add some grilled asparagus to my dinner, but that is free. Gotta love 0 point foods. I also did not snack after dinner.

Last night, Jon came home late, and all mopey. He was looking for support, but I just did not have it in me. I told him that he would need to call one of his friends for the support, because tonight I just was not available to him. I needed to take care of myself last night. After getting everything done, I went upstairs, showered, and went to bed. I felt a bit guilty, but he is going to have to learn to lean on someone else.

Today, work is busy. After work, I do homework with Kate, then Pilates. We'll walk the puppy, and get ready for tomorrow. My life is exciting.

Meals:
B:Yogurt amd raspberries vente skinny latte 7pts.
L: 1/3c hummous with red peppers, cucumber, and grape tomatoes. 4pts.
S: 1 cup tomato soup with parmesan crisp. 5pts.
Dinner: a turkey manwich 7pts, salad 3pts, and steamed broccoli.

Total points:26 I am allotted 29, so I may add an extra snack in there somewhere. Plus I earn 3 activity points with my Pilates class.

Ok, I must do some work. Ugh.

Take care,
Beth

 

[kimwim8]

Good for you, Beth! You're completely right. Jon does need to find someone else to lean on. It sounds like you were completely mature and handled it the right way. You're a wonderful woman, and I can understand the pang of guilt you felt...but yet you realized that if you give him too much....

Your food looks GREAT! You're planning your meals and doing awesome with your points!! Keep it up girl, you're on a roll!!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hey Peeps,

I've had my latte, so my world is good.

Well, I finished yesterday within my points. I did have a snack to make up my extra points. I should have had someting healthy, a piece of fruit or veggies and dip, but instead I ate 3 nutter butter cookies. I enjoyed it to. Pilates was HARD last night. The instructor informed us that swimsuit season is coming, so it is time to kick it up a notch, or two. I was so physically exhausted, but energized atthe end of class. I love Pilates. Jon actually apologized for his behavior from the previous night. Maybe his head is starting to remove itself from his backside.

Today is just average. I am working steady after 9AM. Kate has dance, and I will walk the puppy. Homework/bedtime routine thing. Then I will read for a bit. I have the next 4 days off!!!!! Of course, they are already booked.

TOM is still hovering. I hate the PMS thing. I woke up this AM and my fingers are still from all the swelling. I am so thirsty today, that I have already reached my WW goal on water. I wish it would just come, and get it over with.

Meals today....
B:Yogurt and raspberries, vente latte. 7pts.
L: Soup and salad. 6pts.
S: apple with peanut butter 4pts.
D: spaghetti and salad. 10pts.
Dessert: 1/2 cup sorbet 2pts.
Total pts:29.

That is right on target. I should earn 2 activity points with my walk this evening,so I am happy with my plan.

Now I must actually do some work. Why can't I win the lotto?

Take care,
Beth

 

[Caitsmama]

Beth, that's ok -- we all need our "nutter butters" now and again.. LOL
You are doing great with your workouts and food -- you should be proud!

 

[momof2minnies]

Beth,
I feel for you with the TOM thing, it is the pits!!!!!!! Wait until perimenopause when you are all screwed up and it's a crap shoot!Bloated for weeks-Argghh!!!

Thank goodness for exercise I think it keeps me sane at this time.

I think nutter butter cookies sound real good.

I can't wait to by the DVD on Pilates that Amy recommended to get that going.Do you notice a difference yet, how long has it taken?

Have a good one,
Linda

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Beth
you handled Jon beautifully, & proberbly did him a big favour too!!
Well done for staying OP when TOM is lurking, its so hard then!!
Have a lovely 4 days off - lots of rest & fun