Helen--Looking good! Congratulations to you!
Hope everyone is having a good Sunday.
I am hoping I hit rock bottom yesterday with an upward trend from here.
I fell while walking in the park (getting in my mile for the day) and landed on both of my knees. The right one isn't too bad--just a big bruise. The left one swelled up horribly. Looked like I had a golf ball on my knee cap for a while. I went and had xrays just to make sure nothing was broken. (And it's not). It's wrapped and I am trying to baby it, though I did walk a very slow mile today.
I have had multiple chip binges over the last couple of days. And it is so awful. I am really frustrated and embarassed and just don't understand why I keep self sabotaging.
I even went online today and researched WW and c-d. And what I learned is that gaining weight back after going g-f is not that uncommon. G-f products tend to be very high in calories. (for example a bud light 110, g-f beer ~170). So when I first went g-f and was sick I could get away with the extra calories that are in everything. And I started making bad choices again--and using the excuse--I can't have xxxx so I am going to have this instead. And now I am caring 20+ extra pounds and in the unhealthy bmi range.

And my bp was through the roof yesterday--but I am sure part of that was the anxiety over the injury.
The thing is, I know how hard it is to lose the stinking weight. And part of me wants to say forget it, this is what I am going to weigh. But I know that's not true. I have put on weight almost every month this year and I have to do something to rein it in or I am in big trouble.
So still not sure if I will join WW, do MFP or just try portion control. But I don't think portion control is going to work this time. To top it off, I no longer am having a tom which I am sure is making things even more difficult. My md thought it would even out after the marathon, but it looks like I have hit that new life milestone as well.
Anyhow, I am sure it is doable if I just stop eating crap. Time to put my big girl panties on and stop feeling sorry for myself.
I think I am a little scared I won't be able to lose the weight this time. And I really liked being skinny.
So please bare with me while I try to get this straightened out in my head.
And please send good thoughts for my knee. I really need to be able to exercise!
Thanks for giving me a place where I can talk about this stuff.