My goal weight right now is 169. I would just LOVE to get under the 170 mark. Just to say I'm in the 160s would fill me up with so much pride.
So Friday morning weigh in, I was back to 171.0. Two pounds away! So close, so close! I did really well exercising last week, really pushed myself further than I thought I could go.
So what do I do Friday? I call my husband and work and tell him I don't want to cook dinner and I want to go out to eat. Mind you, I had everything ready for
homemade pizzas sitting in my fridge. I DID have an extra chicken breast and broccoli I could eat for me while the others had pizza.
So Friday, we go out to Red Robin. I persuade my husband to split a burger with me (cheaper, plus fewer calories). He protests, thinking he'll leave there starving. Oh no, he won't, because they have unlimited fries with burgers. And guess who eats most of the fries? Yes, me... we had 3 extra baskets brought to the table. Let me tell you... I have had avoided fries for the most part since we started this. But hot fat fresh steak fries... okay, any hot fresh fries...are oohh so good... I probably ate at least 1.5 baskets. And let's not count the half basket of fries that came with my burger...
So today, I felt properly remorseful about eating so many fries. And I knew we shouldn't go out. ALL day I was good about watching my calories. I kept my "eat less, more often" routine up until evening time. I made the pizzas for dinner for everyone else. 3, 8 inch pizzas. And there was one extra chicken breast I cooked up, and I cooked up the entire head of broccoli so EVERYONE could have some. And what do I eat? The chicken and broccoli? Oh no. The PIZZA and broccoli. It was very good.
Tomorrow, we are suppose to drive out to see my brother. We probably won't see him the rest of the summer and we are giving him a Wii for his bday in 2 weeks. He loaned us money 10 years ago (when he was in high school and rich and we were in college and poor) and never would accept money back. We managed to buy a Wii and this will repay the loan (plus he's getting a couple of used games for his actual present). We've been playing with his Wii for a few weeks, it's VERY fun but I wouldn't pay that much for the system. We are thinking of taking him out to lunch once we arrive. And where are we going? Why, my son's and brother's favorite restaurant... Soupplantation... a soup and salad buffet. I find it hard to control myself there because I feel compelled to get my money's worth ( plus some).
EVERY time I get sooo close to my goal weight, I do this. I seem to be sabotaging myself so I can't get there. EVERY time I'm only a couple pounds away, I will find myself craving all the "bad" foods, or wanting to eat out for EVERY meal. Does anyone else do this? I feel awful about doing this.

I was at 171 just a few weeks ago, then I gained weight the rest of the week. I was so happy to be back down again, and look what I do!
Why do I do this?

Today we went swimming for the first time... and I would love for my belly to go away and my thighs to stop jiggling. You'd think I'd love to stay on track with calories and not eat all this extra stuff.
I'm going to set an exercise goal of 12 miles this week. This is only between what I can keep track of on the treadmill, my walking DVD, and walks around the community lake. Hopefully this will get rid of at least one slice of the pizza I ate tonight
Pru, your son is adorable!!