TTC thread take 2

[cc1013]

hey girls, I was in some severe pain last night, almost went to the ER but after talking to the dr on call (he said my ER probably wouldn't know what to do for me, and he's probably right) I ended up doubling up on my vicodin (which they only gave me 6 of by the way...5 mg instead of 10. d'oh!) and sticking it out through the night.

I didn't sleep much...ugh. DH ended up staying home from work and he's going to drive me to the clinic an hour away, I need to be there by 8.

I just can't believe this...sh1tty eggs AND freaking OHSS!! I just can't win.


for those of you who don't know what OHSS is, it is ovarian hyperstimulation. It can cause pain around the ribcage and shoulders, and shortness of breath (the breathing thankfully hasn't been that bad for me, but OHHH the pain!!!

Oh Cheri, I'm so sorry you have had such a rough time. I hope your doc was able to give you something to make the pain tolerable. It's absolutely not fair!

 

[cherbear]

Oh Cheri, I'm so sorry you have had such a rough time. I hope your doc was able to give you something to make the pain tolerable. It's absolutely not fair!

I apparently do NOT have OHSS....which leaves me relieved that my transfer--if the emby(s) survive--won't get cancelled. The u/s didn't show any fluid below my ribs, to my surprise! The doctor talked to us personally afterwards, and said that it looked like normal post-retrieval fluid in my abdomen. She told me how sorry she was that I was so uncomfortable! She's thinking that I probably did have some fluid up in my ribcage area last night, but it's gone today...I just still am feeling residual pain from it.

She prescribed me some vicoprofin. (vicodin with ibuprofin). This time it is 7.5 mg of vicodin, with 200 mg of ibuprofin added in. She said sometimes that little bit of ibuprofin added in can really help the pain. She was right. I have 12 of them, which I am thankful she gave me because it should last me until Monday and she said by then the pain should subside on its own.

And the fertilization result! As of this morning, we have ONE little embryo. They do not grade them this early on, but tomorrow I will receive a call on the grading, as well as being told whether anything else fertilized. (here's where the short life on frozen sperm scares me....which DH so lovingly pointed out to me earlier LOL) My dr said the embryologist thinks that one more was ready to fertilize as of this morning, and quite possibly a 3rd.

For the record, if we do have a total of 3 embies from this, we will transfer all 3. DH and I were talking about it, and when we mentioned it to the dr she said "yep, I think we should transfer whatever we end up with...but let's see what happens" (that was before she got the info today about only one embie so far)


Sorry for the novel!! I had a great nap earlier, so that and the pain is cause for my lack of posting. But I wanted to fill everyone in on what's going on.

 

[cc1013]

I apparently do NOT have OHSS....which leaves me relieved that my transfer--if the emby(s) survive--won't get cancelled. The u/s didn't show any fluid below my ribs, to my surprise! The doctor talked to us personally afterwards, and said that it looked like normal post-retrieval fluid in my abdomen. She told me how sorry she was that I was so uncomfortable! She's thinking that I probably did have some fluid up in my ribcage area last night, but it's gone today...I just still am feeling residual pain from it.

She prescribed me some vicoprofin. (vicodin with ibuprofin). This time it is 7.5 mg of vicodin, with 200 mg of ibuprofin added in. She said sometimes that little bit of ibuprofin added in can really help the pain. She was right. I have 12 of them, which I am thankful she gave me because it should last me until Monday and she said by then the pain should subside on its own.

And the fertilization result! As of this morning, we have ONE little embryo. They do not grade them this early on, but tomorrow I will receive a call on the grading, as well as being told whether anything else fertilized. (here's where the short life on frozen sperm scares me....which DH so lovingly pointed out to me earlier LOL) My dr said the embryologist thinks that one more was ready to fertilize as of this morning, and quite possibly a 3rd.

For the record, if we do have a total of 3 embies from this, we will transfer all 3. DH and I were talking about it, and when we mentioned it to the dr she said "yep, I think we should transfer whatever we end up with...but let's see what happens" (that was before she got the info today about only one embie so far)


Sorry for the novel!! I had a great nap earlier, so that and the pain is cause for my lack of posting. But I wanted to fill everyone in on what's going on.

That's great news on all fronts! So glad you are feeling better and have a fantastic shot at completing the transfer. Grow embies grow!

The news on my end hasn't been great today. AF arrived.

 

[cherbear]

That's great news on all fronts! So glad you are feeling better and have a fantastic shot at completing the transfer. Grow embies grow!

The news on my end hasn't been great today. AF arrived.

OMG you've gotta be kidding me?!!!!!

How much blood is it??? Some people say they get period like bleeding after an IVF cycle and it turns out to be implantation bleeding. (and even though it may seem 'late' for implantation, sometimes the blood can take a while to make its way out, etc)

Aren't you on progesterone??? You shouldn't be starting your period on progesterone (most women don't....granted, I've heard of some that do but I think it's rare)

 

[cc1013]

OMG you've gotta be kidding me?!!!!!

How much blood is it??? Some people say they get period like bleeding after an IVF cycle and it turns out to be implantation bleeding. (and even though it may seem 'late' for implantation, sometimes the blood can take a while to make its way out, etc)

Aren't you on progesterone??? You shouldn't be starting your period on progesterone (most women don't....granted, I've heard of some that do but I think it's rare)

It's definitely AF as I've been cramping since late last night. Based on when I triggered, this is about a day or two later than when I normally would get AF.

I asked my doc about the progesterone and she said it's about 50/50 with women who get AF and women who don't. She told me if AF arrives, I am to continue with the progesterone gel inserts until my blood test. Also, I can't take any advil until they confirm it's negative, so the next few days should be interesting given the cramping is already pretty bad.

I'm so bummed. We are hoping to try IVF again in June, but even that seems overwhelming to me at this point.

 

[cherbear]

It's definitely AF as I've been cramping since late last night. Based on when I triggered, this is about a day or two later than when I normally would get AF.

I asked my doc about the progesterone and she said it's about 50/50 with women who get AF and women who don't. She told me if AF arrives, I am to continue with the progesterone gel inserts until my blood test. Also, I can't take any advil until they confirm it's negative, so the next few days should be interesting given the cramping is already pretty bad.

I'm so bummed. We are hoping to try IVF again in June, but even that seems overwhelming to me at this point.

and AFM.... http://infertilityinanutshell.blogspot.com/2011/05/i-called.html

 

[D&DDisney]

cher and cc1013 - I haven't been around much but had to come and give you both a Thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[joanne312]

Cheri and Christine,
to both of you. I wish there was something that could be done to make the outcomes different for you, and for all of us. Even though I only know you both through an internet forum, I KNOW that you are both better and more deserving women than 99% of the people that get pregnant for free. Throughout my infertility journey, I have never prayed for any outcome or BFP. I always pray that at the end of the day, that I will find peace. And that is what I pray for for both of you. That you can somehow, some way, find peace with whatever the outcomes may be. We'll be here for you when you need us.

 

[cherbear]

cher and cc1013 - I haven't been around much but had to come and give you both a Thoughts and prayers are with you.

thank you so much

Cheri and Christine,
to both of you. I wish there was something that could be done to make the outcomes different for you, and for all of us. Even though I only know you both through an internet forum, I KNOW that you are both better and more deserving women than 99% of the people that get pregnant for free. Throughout my infertility journey, I have never prayed for any outcome or BFP. I always pray that at the end of the day, that I will find peace. And that is what I pray for for both of you. That you can somehow, some way, find peace with whatever the outcomes may be. We'll be here for you when you need us.

that was beautiful. Thank you Joanne

somehow I find myself still praying for a miracle...even though science would say that this is over. I wish I had a cut n dry answer but I have to wait until tomorrow to find out for sure.

 

[D&DDisney]

somehow I find myself still praying for a miracle...even though science would say that this is over. I wish I had a cut n dry answer but I have to wait until tomorrow to find out for sure.

Its not over for you yet. And its never really over until "the aunt stops visiting" so never stop praying for a miracle.

 

[cc1013]

Cheri and Christine,
to both of you. I wish there was something that could be done to make the outcomes different for you, and for all of us. Even though I only know you both through an internet forum, I KNOW that you are both better and more deserving women than 99% of the people that get pregnant for free. Throughout my infertility journey, I have never prayed for any outcome or BFP. I always pray that at the end of the day, that I will find peace. And that is what I pray for for both of you. That you can somehow, some way, find peace with whatever the outcomes may be. We'll be here for you when you need us.

Joanne, you are so kind. Thanks so much for your wonderful thoughts. I really appreciate the support.

cher and cc1013 - I haven't been around much but had to come and give you both a Thoughts and prayers are with you.

Thank you so much! That is very sweet of you.

and AFM.... http://infertilityinanutshell.blogspot.com/2011/05/i-called.html

Cheri - I just don't know what to say. This isn't just or fair. I am praying that you got your miracle today and that embie developed. I am thinking of you and praying for you constantly. Like Joanne so eloquently said, we need peace.

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DH and I took yesterday to just stay home, absorb everything and spend time together (and with our little dog). In my heart, I knew this cycle didn't work, but seeing AF come just really hit me. DH has been amazing though and is ready to get moving onto the next step. We came up with a list of questions for our RE who is luckily able to fit us in tomorrow morning after my bloodwork and u/s.

Oddly enough, today is the best I've felt physically in a very long time. Somehow I don't feel like I'm operating in a haze. I was tired this morning (stayed up to watch all this Osama Bin Laden coverage). I REALLY wanted a cup of coffee as I used to be a coffee junkie and haven't had any in a very long time. I mentioned that to DH and he immediately went and made me a cup and told me to enjoy it and not feel guilty. I guess it's the little things that I am finding joy in right now. All I can hope for is a different outcome in the future.

Ladies - thank you so much for your support. It really means a ton. I am cheering all of you on as well.

 

[cherbear]

Christine, I did the same thing with a coke icee last night. I wanted a coke or icee so bad....I needed SOMETHING to take the edge off.

I thought it was over.

Well...as it turns out, the miracle we prayed so hard for came true!!!

The embryo grew to a 7 cell overnight. From a rating of 1-4 (with 4 being perfect) it was graded a 3. So good or very good.

Needless to say, we were floored, and totally not expecting a transfer today.

I am still praying that you have a miracle on your hands as well. I have heard crazier things. When is your blood test?? I'm glad that you and your DH talked and have a plan for the future.

 

[joanne312]

Well...as it turns out, the miracle we prayed so hard for came true!!!

The embryo grew to a 7 cell overnight. From a rating of 1-4 (with 4 being perfect) it was graded a 3. So good or very good.

Needless to say, we were floored, and totally not expecting a transfer today.

This is AMAZING news! So happy you have the little emby that could! Lots of sticky vibes to you!

 

[joanne312]

I had my 2nd u/s today since starting my stims. The u/s tech noticed a blockage in my left fallopian tube. They said that the fallopian tube is dilated and appears to be filled with blood. For now, I am going to keep stimming and go back on Thurs. They are hoping that it resolves itself or atleast does not get any bigger. She said they most likely will not have to cancel the cycle but will just need to keep an eye on the blockage, and possibly do a repeat HSG in the future if it's still hanging around. The nurse said it's likely it's just leftover blood from AF... how it got there on CD8 I don't really know.

 

[cc1013]

Christine, I did the same thing with a coke icee last night. I wanted a coke or icee so bad....I needed SOMETHING to take the edge off.

I thought it was over.

Well...as it turns out, the miracle we prayed so hard for came true!!!

The embryo grew to a 7 cell overnight. From a rating of 1-4 (with 4 being perfect) it was graded a 3. So good or very good.

Needless to say, we were floored, and totally not expecting a transfer today.

I am still praying that you have a miracle on your hands as well. I have heard crazier things. When is your blood test?? I'm glad that you and your DH talked and have a plan for the future.

OMG! THAT IS FANTASTIC!

I'm so happy that you were able to complete the transfer! This embie definitely seems determined! Now he/she needs to get comfy! Time to relax and do some bed rest!

I've given up hope on this cycle. This AF has been unreal. I've never experienced anything like it, but I'm sure the progesterone gel is making it unusual too. We are looking forward to taking with the RE tomorrow to get some feedback and guidance. I'll let everyone know what happens.

 

[cc1013]

I had my 2nd u/s today since starting my stims. The u/s tech noticed a blockage in my left fallopian tube. They said that the fallopian tube is dilated and appears to be filled with blood. For now, I am going to keep stimming and go back on Thurs. They are hoping that it resolves itself or atleast does not get any bigger. She said they most likely will not have to cancel the cycle but will just need to keep an eye on the blockage, and possibly do a repeat HSG in the future if it's still hanging around. The nurse said it's likely it's just leftover blood from AF... how it got there on CD8 I don't really know.

I'm so sorry Joanne! Do you feel any discomfort on your left side? I hope it goes away quickly and you can continue with this cycle as planned. Prayers and positive thoughts for you!

 

[joanne312]

I'm so sorry Joanne! Do you feel any discomfort on your left side? I hope it goes away quickly and you can continue with this cycle as planned. Prayers and positive thoughts for you!

I have been feeling mild cramping/twinges on my left side since I started stimming. I just assumed that it was my ovary reacting to the meds. When I mentioned this to the nurse she said it's hard to know if the pain is related to the blocked tube. It could be my body responding to meds as I thought, also I had 3 very small remnants from last cycle in my left ovary, she said the pain also could have been from those resolving.
At this point, I just hope that we can continue on with the cycle. The nurse made it sound like we should definitely be able to. I'll know more when I go back on Thursday.

 

[ead79]

DH and I took yesterday to just stay home, absorb everything and spend time together (and with our little dog). In my heart, I knew this cycle didn't work, but seeing AF come just really hit me. DH has been amazing though and is ready to get moving onto the next step. We came up with a list of questions for our RE who is luckily able to fit us in tomorrow morning after my bloodwork and u/s.

Oddly enough, today is the best I've felt physically in a very long time. Somehow I don't feel like I'm operating in a haze. I was tired this morning (stayed up to watch all this Osama Bin Laden coverage). I REALLY wanted a cup of coffee as I used to be a coffee junkie and haven't had any in a very long time. I mentioned that to DH and he immediately went and made me a cup and told me to enjoy it and not feel guilty. I guess it's the little things that I am finding joy in right now. All I can hope for is a different outcome in the future.

I am so sorry this cycle didn't work out for you! Please keep us posted on what the RE has to say. Here's to hoping that the RE has some good advice for you guys and a solid plan of attack.

Christine, I did the same thing with a coke icee last night. I wanted a coke or icee so bad....I needed SOMETHING to take the edge off.

I thought it was over.

Well...as it turns out, the miracle we prayed so hard for came true!!!

The embryo grew to a 7 cell overnight. From a rating of 1-4 (with 4 being perfect) it was graded a 3. So good or very good.

Needless to say, we were floored, and totally not expecting a transfer today.

I am still praying that you have a miracle on your hands as well. I have heard crazier things. When is your blood test?? I'm glad that you and your DH talked and have a plan for the future.

Oh wow! Thank the Lord, what wonderful news!!! Praying for a smooth transfer and sticky little embryo!

I had my 2nd u/s today since starting my stims. The u/s tech noticed a blockage in my left fallopian tube. They said that the fallopian tube is dilated and appears to be filled with blood. For now, I am going to keep stimming and go back on Thurs. They are hoping that it resolves itself or atleast does not get any bigger. She said they most likely will not have to cancel the cycle but will just need to keep an eye on the blockage, and possibly do a repeat HSG in the future if it's still hanging around. The nurse said it's likely it's just leftover blood from AF... how it got there on CD8 I don't really know.

Joanne, I'm saying a prayer that the blockage resolves itself and that you can continue on this cycle. I hope it doesn't hurt too much!

 

[Kennywife]

How are my TTC friends doing today?

My ticker has changed....we're going to D23 in August and staying at a Ramada near the convention center! Getting everything done for the fall trip on Oct. 25.

We are going to see the RE next week to see what she recomends. Had a fun day yesterday. We celebrated Cinco de Mayo at TGI Fridays and split a ginormous Margarita.

We are planning to go to Frontier City for our 5th anniversary. (It's a Six Flags park).

Kenny is planning on changing his schedule where he has an extra day off a week. Then, we can have more fun and go places....and it also helps with ttc.

That's all for now. Tttfn,

Gabbie

 

[Kennywife]

I'm just going to say it......I'll be glad when tomorrow is over. Not to begrudge any mom, but I just feel down.

My mom wants me to go with her to her church tomorrow.....they all know down there about our situation. They have this deal where they celebrate the oldest mom, youngest mom, and the one with the most kids. I'm just afraid it would be like rubbing it in my face. And the advice? No thank you. I don't want to hear, "It's not your time," or the ever popular, "Just relax." Espiecially since these people tend to be the ones who can get pregnant on a whim.

Maybe I'm silly about it, but that's how I feel. I may just go to work online tomorrow.

Gabbie