TTC thread take 2

[Kennywife]

Hi AJ!

I just had an HSG done. Felt like a big pinch. Kinda like I had to go to the bathroom really bad. The cramping afterward....not so much fun.

But it's over now. Glad I did it though. I found I need surgery to prevent an ectopic pregnancy.

Gabbie

 

[cherbear]

Well, guess who is going to need surgery?

Me.

My left fallopian tube is swelled up and the only way to unswell (is that even a word?! lol) it is to slice it or remove it.

They will do a laparscopy/hysteroscopy to fix it and reshape my uterus. (It's septid. Dent in it.)

They will also shave my fibroids.

The good thing: my ibs willl be gone!!!!! The tube is pressing on my colon. Plus, fertility should be restored and af will be normal....for the first time ever. lol.

If I don't get it done...I run the risk of an ectopic pregnancy/mc.

I tell you, I neeeeeddddd a Disney vacay after all this!!!!

Gabbie

oh Gabbie! I hope you will be put under for all of that!

I too am not happy you have to have surgery, but glad that it will resolve so many things. Is it scheduled yet?

After my last rant my follies decided to cooperate DH and I decided that we would only do IUI this month if we have good follicles on the right side, since my left has this tube thing going on. When I went in today I had a 19, 17, 16, 15, 14 all on my right side! So I'm all set to trigger and then have my IUI on Friday. Hopefully Friday the 13th will be a lucky day for us!

WOW!! Holy follicles! You might have your own reality show soon


kidding...LOL But good luck on Fri the 13th!

Hi everyone! I haven't posted in awhile. I had my first RE appt last night and went in for bloodwork this morning. 6am!!

Anyway, I need to have a HSG test done before I can start Clomid. Has anyone done this? How is the pain? I had an endometrial biopsy done and was told it would just be some cramping but it was the worst pain I think I've ever felt.

Also, yesterday was day 2 of my cycle and my doctor only counted 4-5 follicles. I am only 26 years old so this kind of freaked me out. He told me I should start Clomid with IUI next cycle once the HSG test comes back ok. 4-5 follicles is low correct???

I'm so new to this and it was just so overwhelming yesterday. I felt like everything was thrown at me all at once. The nurse was discussing IVF by the end of the appt. I hadn't even decided on the IUI!!!

wow, I wish my RE was open at 6 am! LOL (I start my workday at 7)

The HSG tends to vary. Some don't feel much of any pain. For me it was baaad. They had a hard time trying to get the catheter in. After that it went pretty quick, but I definitely felt a LOT of cramping. But my tubes were clear.

Yeah, unfortunately 4-5 is a low antral count BUT that can vary from cycle to cycle, so you just never know!

Oh sweetie I hope you don't have to do IVF! It's been a grueling process.

 

[ckret01]

Hi Ladies…..I haven’t been posting on here for a while…guess I just needed a mental break from my failed IVF cycle. But I have been reading everyone’s posts After my failed cycle it was determined that I needed a Myomectomy to remove a fibroid that I had that had gotten very large (8cm) and two other small ones. I had the surgery last Wed and am home recovering now. The surgery went well although I got very sick from the anesthesia . Once I heal in 3-4 months I will go ahead with a FET cycle. I just hope that the few frozen embryos I have make it. My age (37 going on 38 in two months) does not help matters

Also, Last year I had a laparoscopy to cut one of my tubes that was bad from my ectopic pregnancy I had two years ago and remove scar tissue from my other tube which at the time I knew wasn’t in the best shape but at least it was functional…or so I thought. While I was in the hospital last week my Dr called me to see how I was doing from the surgery and he had said to me on the phone that it appeared that the tube I thought was somewhat okay was practically gone. He said he could barely even find it while he was doing the surgery. I went to see him yesterday for a post-op apt and he mentioned it again that I should do IVF again in 3-4 months because both my tubes are pretty much gone. To be honest I am devastated. I really thought I still had at least one tube that I knew wasn’t in the greatest of shape but was at least I had it and thought it was functional but know I know that is not the case. I am really having a hard time with all of this.

The worst of it all is my family and friends don’t really understand. Everyone keeps telling me now that I had this myomectomy to remove my fibroids I should be okay to have a child naturally. And I keep repeating myself to them that no, I cant have a child naturally because of my tube situation and IVF is the only way and that is even if that works. It gets so exhausting telling people this over and over it’s like I wish I never told anyone anything.

I hope I don’t sound mean when I write this cuz I don’t mean to be it’s just that I know you ladies GET IT! And I just need to talk all this emotion out with people that understand what I am going through. If you made it through this very long post, THANK YOU! I really appreciate it.

 

[AJ12345]

wow, I wish my RE was open at 6 am! LOL (I start my workday at 7)

The HSG tends to vary. Some don't feel much of any pain. For me it was baaad. They had a hard time trying to get the catheter in. After that it went pretty quick, but I definitely felt a LOT of cramping. But my tubes were clear.

Yeah, unfortunately 4-5 is a low antral count BUT that can vary from cycle to cycle, so you just never know!

Oh sweetie I hope you don't have to do IVF! It's been a grueling process.

Hey CherBear. Thanks for the input. My nurse just called me. I actualy had a follicle count of 9 yesterday. It was 4 on one side, 5 on the other. I think my nerves were so shot I just heard 4-5. The cyst I have is giving me high estrogen levels to I have to wait until next cycle to do my bloodwork again. She said she would go ahead with IUI's as soon as we can. I'm lucky in that my insurance covers those at no limit, and IVF is covered at 4 transfers. I think I would only need medication.

Quick question: Have you done the IUI's with the trigger or just the Clomid? She doesn't want me doing more that 3 IUI's before we move on to IVF, so I'm thinking I should go ahead and do the trigger. Or just try 1 IUI on just Clomid? UGH! so much to think about.

Sorry for all the questions. Hope you are feeling okay today. Wishing and praying for ya!!!!

 

[cherbear]

Beta was negative. We are very very hurt right now. Why didn't God just kill off the embryo in the first place???

We are done with my eggs. Now we are in debt to family and in no better place than we were 2 and a half years ago.

 

[tinytreasures]

Beta was negative. We are very very hurt right now. Why didn't God just kill off the embryo in the first place???

We are done with my eggs. Now we are in debt to family and in no better place than we were 2 and a half years ago.

I am so so sorry

 

[mickeyboat]

Beta was negative. We are very very hurt right now. Why didn't God just kill off the embryo in the first place???

We are done with my eggs. Now we are in debt to family and in no better place than we were 2 and a half years ago.

I'm so sorry.

 

[cc1013]

Beta was negative. We are very very hurt right now. Why didn't God just kill off the embryo in the first place???

We are done with my eggs. Now we are in debt to family and in no better place than we were 2 and a half years ago.

Cheri, my heart is just breaking for you. I'm so sorry and was praying for you to get a BFP. I have to believe that God has a plan for people like us, but I just wish we could get clue on what that plan is.

 

[Kennywife]

I'm so sorry Cher. It just doesn't seem fair. If you need to talk or something, don't hesitate to PM or Fb me.

I think we could all use one of these....

 

[mrsklamc]

Cherbear...I am so sorry.

 

[mrsklamc]

This is my second trip to the TTC thread. The first was August of 09 when it looked like I had PCOS and something was going on with my thyroid. When the thyroid issue turned out to be cancer, it was just too hard to be here since I couldn't even TTC yet.

I still can't but we are hopeful that towards the end of the year we will be able to. I started metformin for the PCOS and just wondered if anyone had been successful losing weight on it? I have about 20 pounds to lose, and the scale just won't budge.

 

[Minnesota!]

Beta was negative. We are very very hurt right now. Why didn't God just kill off the embryo in the first place???

We are done with my eggs. Now we are in debt to family and in no better place than we were 2 and a half years ago.

Cher - I am so very sorry. I have been praying for you. I am one of the original members of the original TTC board...and I remember the roller coaster so well. My only advice to you is to not let anyone tell you that 'it's ok".....because it's NOT! It sucks and you have every right to be mad, sad, frustrated, etc. It's a death - a death of a dream, a death of your joy, etc. Take care..and spoil yourself rotten the next few days/weeks/months. You deserve it for being to hell and back...

 

[disneyjunkie]

Hi ladies. I've lurked here for a bit but this is my first time posting. Been TTC for about 2 years. Found out early on that friboids were causing the problem. Had a few removed in January. Then found out one side is open while the other is blocked. Started clomid last week. Went to doctor on Tuesday and was told "there are 3 great eggs on the good side." Was told I should get a positive LH surge on Thursday Or Friday. So far nothing. My cycles are normal so I have no idea why I didnt get a smile in the window. I'm planning to test for the next 3 days.

 

[mickeyboat]

This is my second trip to the TTC thread. The first was August of 09 when it looked like I had PCOS and something was going on with my thyroid. When the thyroid issue turned out to be cancer, it was just too hard to be here since I couldn't even TTC yet.

I still can't but we are hopeful that towards the end of the year we will be able to. I started metformin for the PCOS and just wondered if anyone had been successful losing weight on it? I have about 20 pounds to lose, and the scale just won't budge.

I ost 13 lbs in 3 weeks on metformin. I had a lot of tummy troubles while I was taking it. I didn't take it long since I got PG right away after starting it, but I have heard from others that things level off after a little while, so the weight loss probably wouldn't have continued.

Good luck to you.

 

[mrsklamc]

I ost 13 lbs in 3 weeks on metformin. I had a lot of tummy troubles while I was taking it. I didn't take it long since I got PG right away after starting it, but I have heard from others that things level off after a little while, so the weight loss probably wouldn't have continued.

Good luck to you.

Well, I had been watching my calories and exercising for 3 weeks straight and the scale didn't budge so I gave up and started on the metformin. I've been on it for 3 weeks (the full dose just one week) and no weight loss at all yet but I will admit I haven't been very good about watching food intake. I will line out a menu and get food organized tonight to start doing 1200 calories a day again.

 

[cherbear]

I am so so sorry

I'm so sorry.

Cheri, my heart is just breaking for you. I'm so sorry and was praying for you to get a BFP. I have to believe that God has a plan for people like us, but I just wish we could get clue on what that plan is.

I'm so sorry Cher. It just doesn't seem fair. If you need to talk or something, don't hesitate to PM or Fb me.

I think we could all use one of these....

Cherbear...I am so sorry.

Cher - I am so very sorry. I have been praying for you. I am one of the original members of the original TTC board...and I remember the roller coaster so well. My only advice to you is to not let anyone tell you that 'it's ok".....because it's NOT! It sucks and you have every right to be mad, sad, frustrated, etc. It's a death - a death of a dream, a death of your joy, etc. Take care..and spoil yourself rotten the next few days/weeks/months. You deserve it for being to hell and back...

I'd like to thank all of you for your condolences and comfort.

Minnesota, I'm extremely touched that you would post here, I can't tell you how much it means to have you say that. Your statements are so true. People that don't go through this just have no idea.

I am hoping to get back into shape. After I pick up the pieces of my heart, I'm going to get back into the gym, and do P90x, and eat right. I mean, I don't even fit into half my clothes anymore. I have 2 pairs of jeans that fit. And another that is pretty tight, but on a good day I can squeeze myself into them.

Since last night I've had pizza, coke, alcoholic beverages, and this morning a huge venti white mocha from starbucks. All the evils that I couldn't have for the past month. I'll get out of the funk soon, and then I won't be able to have any of that, except on a rare occasion. I want to be healthier, so that when we are ready to try again (with donor) we will have the best chance of getting pregnant.

 

[D&DDisney]

Beta was negative. We are very very hurt right now. Why didn't God just kill off the embryo in the first place???

We are done with my eggs. Now we are in debt to family and in no better place than we were 2 and a half years ago.

Oh Cher. So sad for you.

Cher - I am so very sorry. I have been praying for you. I am one of the original members of the original TTC board...and I remember the roller coaster so well. My only advice to you is to not let anyone tell you that 'it's ok".....because it's NOT! It sucks and you have every right to be mad, sad, frustrated, etc. It's a death - a death of a dream, a death of your joy, etc. Take care..and spoil yourself rotten the next few days/weeks/months. You deserve it for being to hell and back...

Minnesota is right. What's happening to you just isn't right. Its so mean and just WRONG, WRONG, WRONG!!!!! This should NEVER have happened to you (or anyone with infertility). Damn!!!!

 

[D&DDisney]

While I was getting my haircut yesterday, my stylist confided in me that her 16 yr old daughter is pregnant. She's so upset because she thought the lines of communication were open, that she was doing the right things for her and never thought in a million years that this would happen to her daughter.
The news hit me like a ton of bricks. Dont' know why it should. She's not the only teen girl I have heard of that got pregnant. Just made me so mad and sad at the same time. There's no way this girl can take care of a baby and didn't want one in the first place, while we're all here dying for a child. Just sooo isn't right. Makes no sense.

On a happier note, we've decided to pursue another adoption. Called to set up an appt. to get information (ironically yesterday). Hoping that God has another plan for us. Will keep you posted.

 

[cherbear]

While I was getting my haircut yesterday, my stylist confided in me that her 16 yr old daughter is pregnant. She's so upset because she thought the lines of communication were open, that she was doing the right things for her and never thought in a million years that this would happen to her daughter.
The news hit me like a ton of bricks. Dont' know why it should. She's not the only teen girl I have heard of that got pregnant. Just made me so mad and sad at the same time. There's no way this girl can take care of a baby and didn't want one in the first place, while we're all here dying for a child. Just sooo isn't right. Makes no sense.

On a happier note, we've decided to pursue another adoption. Called to set up an appt. to get information (ironically yesterday). Hoping that God has another plan for us. Will keep you posted.

I can't stand hearing about things like that.

God creates life...I believe in God. I believe that he is the creator. So why does he create life in a 16 year old who cannot capably or financially raise a child, instead of a married couple who yearns so badly to have a family, has the finances to do so, has a wonderful relationship, have jobs, a stable home....why??????????

 

[mrsklamc]

The times that are really hard for me are the news, when some small child is horribly abused and killed. So often it seems like it's the mother's boyfriend, and I just hate it because DH would be such a good daddy.