It is hard. I don't know how people have the courage to try a second time or even more. I feel like so much was stolen from me and my children from the one person who was supposed to "be there for us and have our backs". Instead he was stabbing a knife into them. I have had some good dating experiences where I enjoyed myself. But I think that ability to relax and let anything get serious is missing. I figure if something is meant to happen it will.