Tina, thank you for posting about suicide prevention yesterday. Back in 2002, my ex's uncle hung himself. It was such a shock to all of us...he'd always seemed so happy, never saw him without a big smile on his face and laughing...just so full of life. One month before his 53rd birthday. Just goes to show, you never know what's going on in someone's head.
I myself have been dealing with depression pretty much all of my life. I often question why I'm here and I do feel many people would be happier if I wasn't. It has stuck with me that I was an accident and not truly wanted. At 6 weeks after Josh was born, the post-partum depression kicked in big time. I remember telling my doctor (at the time) about it and she just said, "It's normal, it will pass." Well, he's 5 years old now and it hasn't passed. We've discussed medication but I have taken 11 different things over the course of my life and they seem to actually make it worse. And honestly, I absolutely do NOT entertain any ideas about actually doing something.
Online school is going okay. We missed half of the morning meeting today because for some reason, there are usually 2 posted. On our iPad, there was only one, so we sat there "waiting in the lobby" for 15 minutes before I hung up, backed out, clicked on a few other things and then clicked back onto the schedule. Now there were 2 meetings posted and we joined the other one, which let us in right away, and the teacher was halfway through the morning story. We weren't the only ones, though; she noticed and said hello to us and 3 other kids who missed half of it. Now I just have to get him motivated to do his art and music assignments...
Tomorrow he has a soccer game in the morning, and then in the evening we are going to a movie night at his preschool friend's house (the one who is now in the same school but different class). They're having it outside and we're going to see the Great Pumpkin first, then they gave us guests the choice of Nightmare Before Christmas, Monster House, or Hocus Pocus. I've warned them that if they choose Nightmare, we know it by heart and they will have to listen to us sing along
QOTD-pumpkin spice latte, yay or nay?
I'm ambivalent. I won't seek it out, but they are good and if that's all that's offered - or someone kindly buys one for me - I will take it and thoroughly enjoy it. A few years ago, Dunkin offered a brown sugar cinnamon flavor (regular coffee AND latte) at the same time of year and I preferred that, but sometimes my mom will bring Dunkin home after doing errands and she'll get me a pumpkin spice. It's much appreciated
Also remembering 9/11 today. I was at work that morning...but admittedly playing around on the internet and not working. I was on the Vogue magazine chat boards when someone posted that a plane hit one of the towers. I think most of us thought, "What a horrible accident!" and went on with regular unimportant chat. Then a few minutes later, someone posted that a second plane hit the other tower and I think that's when we all realized that it was no accident. In our office, radios started to get turned up and people clustered together in cubicles to listen. After a while, we all started drifting toward our breakroom to watch TV - eventually I think our entire building of 150 people managed to fit into the breakroom which could really only hold about 15 people tops. We stood there watching as reports came in about the plane hitting the Pentagon, then another in a field in PA, and then the towers fell. There was complete silence in that room; no one knew what to make of it. I think sometime around noon we started to return to our cubicles. No work had come in, no orders, no phone calls, nothing. We pretty much spent the entire day listening to radios, going on the internet, and going back and forth to the breakroom to see what the news reports were saying.
We had employees who had just gone out to the home office in Minnesota for training the day prior. They were scheduled to return home in 2 days. Needless to say, they were stuck. They eventually rented trucks and drove home.
When Josh and I did the scavenger hunt last month, I think I mentioned that one of our fire departments has 2 beams from the North Tower out front. I took Josh over to look at them, but I didn't want to scare him, so I told him that something bad happened in our country and some buildings fell down, and these beams are from those buildings. I showed him a photo of what they looked like, and he asked me if monsters made the buildings fall down. I told him that yes, monsters did indeed make them fall down.
I'm ashamed to admit that at the memorial, it wasn't just for the Towers. Here's the photo I took...I just recently noticed the pentagon-shaped stone on one side and the random patch of grass on the other.
)but I can't do this pumpkin spice stuff in anything really.
but it was still pretty good. My favorite at Christmastime is a white chocolate peppermint mocha.
She buys books from Usborne, and really, it's a MLM thing; even if the books are ok, I dislike MLMs. She hosted a party, to get free books for GS#3, so I felt obligated to sit for her sake. I bought a couple books for each grandchild, and had them shipped, so she is happy.
