April 8, 2004 (Thursday) Day 130 on the Beach
I got on the scale this morning (I know I know) and found I have lost 1 pound. That puts me at 49 and hopefully when I weigh in on Sunday I will be down another pound and can claim a 50 pound loss and a 50 pound clippie. That would be incredible!
I wanted to take some time on my journal this morning since I am home from work today to reflect on something that has been on my mind the past few days. Someone on the main board posted a link to a BMI calculator that tells you what your ideal weight should be for you. My original weight goal was 145 pounds. That seemed almost unimaginable for someone at 280+ pounds. Now I understand I should be about 131 pounds. It made me a little depressed at first because that means I'm actually 15
additional pounds from the goal I envision.
As I said, I've been thinking about this and I've come to this conclusion. I am adjusting my goal weight 5 pounds to 140. When I get there I'll see if I want to lose an additional 5 or 6 pounds. I do the FIRM 5 or 6 times per week and can already wear some size 18's and I'm still over 200 pounds. What size will I be able to get into when I drop at least another 60 pounds? I think working out makes you leaner and able to weigh a bit more but still be able to fit into smaller sizes.
So my revised goal is 140 and then we'll see. I would be happy and very satisfied wearing a size 10. My fantasy is to wear a size 8 and I decided it's only out of reach because I am kinda scared to go for it. I don't want to be scared to get to the door of my dream and slam the door in my own face, I've got more confidence now and believe I can reach whatever weight loss goal I want. So if I weigh 140 and can wear a size 10, then I'll go down the additional 5 or 6 pounds and try for the 8. But want my weight to rest somewhere between 134-140.
I know this was rambling and I apologize to anyone that is reading this but it's important to me to figure out where I want to get to eventually on this journey. It's about the journey for me now and not the destination but eventually I gotta get somewhere, ya' know?
Menu:
Here's today's menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat cereal with 1% milk and 3 sausage links
S: 7 whole almonds
L: tuna salad with whole wheat crackers and an orange
S: Dannon light and fit 4 oz. yogurt (strawberry)
D: grilled bacon cheeseburger and a salad with lf ranch dressning with a 1/2 cup of n/s/a ice cream for dessert
Exercise/Water Gauge:
I did FIRM cardio sculpt blast this morning and feel real good. I love my FIRM work outs and hate having to take a rest day. I feel much more like myself when I work out. I almost feel like I have a little black rain cloud over my head all day on the days I don't work out.

Glad it's not there today! Water level was a solid 5.0. Very good.
That's a wrap for Thursday!
Doe - thanks for stopping by and checking on me! It's always nice to have your sunny and supportive posts to help lift me up. I hope you have a great weekend!
Beth - I appreciate your checking me! I can't believe that bra doesn't fit and you are right about them being so expensive and that's why mine is going back for a smaller size and hopefully one that has a bit more support for my girls!
Lisa - Hey WISH-sis! So good of you to stop by. I'm so excited about the push-ups. I have never been able to do them before. I just love the FIRM! I know it's helping to make me strong and healthy. I hope you can start working out the FIRM eventually but I know you've got your Curves work outs and they sound fun! I can't believe my vacation is so close. I am getting pretty excited and so is my sister. I haven't started packing yet but I am getting into trip mode. I hope you have a great weekend!