June 15, 2004 (Tuesday) Day 199 on the Beach
Only one more day to go to complete my second 100 day cheat free challenge. I almost can't believe it. I remember when I had to start back at 1 after I completed the first challenge and felt like I would never make it through a second one. Boy, time sure passes fast and I guess like I read on another support site, the time will pass by whether we do something about our weight or not so why not do something about it!
I haven't had a chance to check on my WISH buddies' journals with preparing for my trip and now trying to write my trip report but I want to know about all the good things happening in your lives so I'll definitely be checking in with everyone soon!
I'm wearing one of my newer outfits today which is a short (a little bit above the knee which I am not used to) black skirt and a form fitting short sleeve blouse. I feel so normal when I wear this outfit. It's also never fit better than it does today. I jumped on the scale this morning and I'm down a pound from where I was a couple of days ago but not quite at Sunday's weight. My weight always does that. On Sunday I get a reading and then for Monday-Wednesday I am up anywhere from 1 to 2 pounds. Then on Thursday I start going down a bit until I hit Sunday and then I'm down anywhere from 1/2 pound to 3.5 pounds from the previous Sunday's weight. I guess that's what I get for weighing everyday.
I did try on that button down white blouse that was too tight to wear on Sunday and low and behold it fit better. Not quite ready for public viewing but almost. I still don't understand how it could fit so well in the store and then not fit well at home. But I'll be wearing it by the end of the month comfortably, I'm sure. Now that I think about it, maybe it didn't fit well in the store at all and I purposely bought it knowing it would take a bit of fighting to get into it. Things pre-Disney trip are a blur in some areas. If that was my thinking at the time I bought the blouse, then I'm crazy like a fox (or just plain crazy

) in my strategy because now I'll be working extra hard to fit into it.
The other day a co-worker asked me I knew I was the inspiration for so many people in my office. I was embarassed and flattered at the same time and didn't really know how to answer her. I am happy with my progress and I know I can't hide my loss under a basket, nor do I want to, but it can feel like a lot of pressure to think people are watching me and "counting on me". I've stated it before that I wish this process could be private and I could just sit in a dark corner and do this thing for and by myself. I know that's not possible. It's just a little scary sometimes to think if I fail now, people will be disapointed in me. It's even more scary that if I fail after I've come about half way, then I will disappoint myself. Okay, so that means failure is not an option, right?
Here's today's menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat cereal and 2 small sauage patties
S: 8 whole almonds
L: tuna salad with 8 whole wheat crackers and a peach
S: Dannon light and fit yogurt (4 oz.) peach
D: beef stroganoff over long grain converted rice and 1/2 cup of n/s/a ice cream for dessert
Exercise and Water Gauge:
I took a rest this morning. It felt good to sleep in but I felt lousy all day (mentally). I know I need a rest day once in a while but they really don't do anything for my mental health. I should probably take a walk in the evenings with DH on my one rest day. Water level was a 4.75. We're getting better.
Renee - I think 50 pounds is an incredible amount of weight to lose! I remember when we were neck and neck and I'm sure you'll be passing me up one of these days soon! You keep up the good work too!!!!
Beth - I hope the bloat fairy will take a few pounds with her and by Sunday I'll have my 65 pound clippie. That would be nice!
Amanda - They had another flavor besides butter pecan. It might have been chocolate or vanilla. Plus I got the impression the flavors might change so check it out next time you find yourself in the ice cream parlor on Main Street. I miss Disney already and want to go back soon!!!