In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[MunkyMe13]

I lost the fourth pound so I had more energy for the um...er...ride.

You r sooo naughty....I knew I liked you!!

Sooooo..... you are a rider huh??? I thought you would be the conducter of the train!

I definitely knew I liked you gals!!!!

 

[BrcsDisneyPrncs]

I am very excited for you...I know you will do great...and any number before the day that is lost is a positive...
Maybe figure out how many weeks x 2 pounds a week (very do-able) and start journaling a letter to the groom about what each pond means to you and him...

Like:
I lost the first pound because I want to be a long-term wife to you and know that any weight I carry that is extra...may take days from our future.

I lost the second pound because I love when you hold me close...and this will help you hold me closer.

I lost the third pound because you and I want to hike in the mountains and a pound less on my tukkus is a pound less to hike with!


Okay...maybe that sounded nerdy...but I think it would be a great way to show him that this loss is for a life change...not a moment change...and what a great gift to give him...the surprise of how much you lost...plus all the meaning behind it.

I hope that might give you some incentive honey... I am off to see if you have a pre-trippie...I want details of this trip!!

I lost the fourth pound so I had more energy for the um...er...ride.

You r sooo naughty....I knew I liked you!!

Sooooo..... you are a rider huh??? I thought you would be the conducter of the train!

You guys are too much!!!

But in all honesty, that's a great idea Dawn! I'll definately have to do that! As far as the pre trippie - i started a Planning Journal on the wedding thread for my wedding, but i have been severely slacking, i'll have to get updating, if i can dig it up i'll send you the link!

On a separate note - Today is going to be a terrible food day, i just know it. We are off to our tasting for our reception venue to finalize our wedding menu, and they are going to have a ton of food there that we have to try (some good, most bad i'm sure). It's going to take a LOT to not eat a ton! Wish me luck!

 

[Dizneydawn]

at Dawn and DWD!!

I did really well today, but not because I was trying. I wound up having to work from 5PM-midnight, off and on, and just never got a chance to eat much. However my upgrade finally went finished successfully, so at least I have that.

Food for today:
B: Coffee, 2/3 cup fiber cereal (80), 1/4 cup skim milk (20)
L: Pita (60), 1/2 tbsp bacon bits (15), 1/8 cup mozzerella (40), sprinkling of blue cheese (10), w/ cucumber/red onion salad made w/ dill, salt/pepper, and vinegar (15)
D: 1 cluster snow crab (100), 20 small shrimp (100), asparagus (20), artichoke (60), all steamed together and served w/ 1 Tbsp melted butter (50)
S: 10 oz white wine (150-175?)

I am going to start FitDay again today...if I make it 1 full week I am going to spoil myself to a massage! My back is killing me... Total, about 725. Exercise, none, unless you count shopping. Water, 64 oz.

I too need to drink more water...

I definitely knew I liked you gals!!!!

We are likeable...that is us!!!

You guys are too much!!!

But in all honesty, that's a great idea Dawn! I'll definately have to do that! As far as the pre trippie - i started a Planning Journal on the wedding thread for my wedding, but i have been severely slacking, i'll have to get updating, if i can dig it up i'll send you the link!

On a separate note - Today is going to be a terrible food day, i just know it. We are off to our tasting for our reception venue to finalize our wedding menu, and they are going to have a ton of food there that we have to try (some good, most bad i'm sure). It's going to take a LOT to not eat a ton! Wish me luck!

I'll check out the journal...I have a pre-trippie for my trip in Dec...I have put new info on it...it is under Pre-trips reports and labeled"The I'll Pose for Autographs and take pics" B-day trip....iy has a green smilie in the side column to find quick...I will try and link it again later....I would appreciate any one of you finding it and answering the help questions I just posted!

 

[HockeyKat]

You guys are too much!!!

But in all honesty, that's a great idea Dawn! I'll definately have to do that! As far as the pre trippie - i started a Planning Journal on the wedding thread for my wedding, but i have been severely slacking, i'll have to get updating, if i can dig it up i'll send you the link!

On a separate note - Today is going to be a terrible food day, i just know it. We are off to our tasting for our reception venue to finalize our wedding menu, and they are going to have a ton of food there that we have to try (some good, most bad i'm sure). It's going to take a LOT to not eat a ton! Wish me luck!

Sounds like fun! Just don't worry too much, and jump back on tomorrow. I have been working on trying not to let one day or one event derail me, too. I have a tendency to let one bad meal throw me off for the day or even the weekend. Life will throw us events but we have to just enjoy that moment for what it is, and then go back to healthy eating. It is hard but I think that it is the key to losing and eventually maintaining.

Dawn, water is KEY!! Just choke it down, I have a big cup at home and a bottle at work and I consider it diet medicine.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hey All! Just a quick check in now that I am back from my week-end!

Where do you download books for free from?

I use Limewire.com It is very easy and user-friendly. PM me if you need info.

Ok, so hopefully i'm ready for this! I bought myself a scale this morning, haven't had one in years. Ordered a good treadmill, should be here in 10 days, comes with hand weights and stuff too. I'm really determined to do this! (and the threat from my fiance saying "with the money we just dropped on that treadmill, you BETTER use it!) I set up an account on fitday to track what i'm eating, I'm actually excited to start, i almost wish i didn't have to wait for my treadmill to get here! Sticking to the manual treadmill until then (below zero windchill is TOO darn cold to go walkin!) Hopefully i'll be able to lose a little weight before its time for me to be a

Sounds like you are in a GREAT place to start! We are all here for support and encouragement when you need us! (For me, I need this thread every day!)

Hi Everyone...

Well, I finally made it back from Rhode Island... Yesterday's storm was pretty rough down there and I had forgotten how badly the RI DOT kept the roads, so my cousin and I ended up spending the night and driving back today... Needless to say, I am not sure my eating plan is on track, but what can you do when life throws curveballs like this at you?

I am off to get some sleep, it has been a long couple of days and then I will get back on track tomorrow...

Have a good night everyone and I'll try to catch up on all of your posts tomorrow...

Talk to you later,
Paula

So glad that you are back and in one piece! I was totally thinking of you on Friday night. We got about 7 inches here, not sure what they got in RI (about 2 hours south).

We just returned from our big HSM week-end! DD (7 tomorrow!) had an AMAZING time and was out of her mind happy, so it was great. We came home this afternoon and had her "family party" (both sets of g'parents, cousins, etc.) and that was fun as well. But I haven't had time to sit down in 2 days!

Good news of the week-end...I am SO loving WW! Really glad that I made the switch. Seems so easy to eat sensibly without over-indulging. Now, I don't know what the scale is going to say next week, but for right now I am very happy with it. (I am bracing myself for a gain...I think switching from low carb to WW is going to be such a shock for my system that I may initially gain... ) I told DH about the switch for me and he is SO SO SO supportive. In fact, he has been amazing all week-end and is being supportive, loving, positive...the whole 9! And I even got in a run today! Normally, when I have a crazy busy day like this, my work-out is always the first thing to go...but now I make it a priority! I made time to squeeze in a 40 minute run, so I am psyched about that!

Ok, gotta jet and catch up on everything else (like work, e-mails, etc. But you guys come first!). I'll be back in full swing tomorrow!

 

[MunkyMe13]

Hey All! Just a quick check in now that I am back from my week-end!




I use Limewire.com It is very easy and user-friendly. PM me if you need info.




Sounds like you are in a GREAT place to start! We are all here for support and encouragement when you need us! (For me, I need this thread every day!)




So glad that you are back and in one piece! I was totally thinking of you on Friday night. We got about 7 inches here, not sure what they got in RI (about 2 hours south).

We just returned from our big HSM week-end! DD (7 tomorrow!) had an AMAZING time and was out of her mind happy, so it was great. We came home this afternoon and had her "family party" (both sets of g'parents, cousins, etc.) and that was fun as well. But I haven't had time to sit down in 2 days!

Good news of the week-end...I am SO loving WW! Really glad that I made the switch. Seems so easy to eat sensibly without over-indulging. Now, I don't know what the scale is going to say next week, but for right now I am very happy with it. (I am bracing myself for a gain...I think switching from low carb to WW is going to be such a shock for my system that I may initially gain... ) I told DH about the switch for me and he is SO SO SO supportive. In fact, he has been amazing all week-end and is being supportive, loving, positive...the whole 9! And I even got in a run today! Normally, when I have a crazy busy day like this, my work-out is always the first thing to go...but now I make it a priority! I made time to squeeze in a 40 minute run, so I am psyched about that!

Ok, gotta jet and catch up on everything else (like work, e-mails, etc. But you guys come first!). I'll be back in full swing tomorrow!

I'm so glad you are happy on WW! Keep up the enthusiasm and I'm sure you'll be super successful!!!

 

[HockeyKat]

Erika, glad WW is working out for you so far! I have had some friends have great success with it. In fact, I would totally jump on that myself, but calorie counting is pretty much the same idea.

I had a productive day... did all the laundry and got the house in shape, and made dinner, and now am relaxing for a bit. I think that in 15-20 min I may go do 30 min on the mini-stepper, but not sure yet.

Food for today:
B: Fiber cereal + 1/4 cup skim + 3 strawberries (120), coffee
L: Wheat pita + 1/8 cup shredded cheddar + 1 serving roast beef (150)
S: 1 bag FF popcorn (180)
D: 4 oz grilled strip steak (180), red potato/onion bake (100), asparagus (30), salad (50), 1 8oz glass red wine (140)
S: invididual chocolate ice cream (100) + .5 cup sliced strawberries (25) + whipped cream from a can (15)
Total for today, ~1100. Exercise, 30 min on mini-stepper and 100 crunches. Water, 64 oz.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Hi all,
****The following is a personal note...please do not read unless you are wanting to not read about weight loss...


A rough weekend with Chad...he is just a sad misserable man lately and thus my life is cr@p.

I did not do fit day yesterday...did not cheat or binge but what is hard..I made a recipe from the Disboards and ate a Corn Chowder from Boma's and have no clue how to figure out calorie totals?

What do you guys do when you do not have totals due to the fact it is a recipe?

I am on today for FitDay...hoping to do well...I cannot wait until there is enough money to have Chad out...April is my hope and I am telling ya...my back kills from being on the couch anymore...

The kids are realizing he is acting nuts...and when they point it out to him...he assumes I am making him look stupid...so he throws me under the bus to them. Says things about adult content that should not be talked about.

Like here is an example:
Carsyn has a boyfriend named Kyle...she is a Freshman and he is the first boyfriend. She will give him a hug from behind or kiss him on the cheek if heis next to her....typical lovey dovey puppy love.

Chad made a comment to me that he does not appreciate Carsyn's willingness to act that way in front of him and that Treyner never acted that way with any of his girlfriends.

I was astounded because Treyner has had girl in his life since he was in 6th grade and for the past few years would wrestle with them/kiss on them etc..he is 17 and I think he is not a deviant for goodness sakes.

I pointed this out to Chad, said I thought maybe he was acting a little protective since Carsyn is a girl...and he flipped...saying I was just trying to make him wrong.

Treyner was walking up the stairs...heard this and said...."Dad I have done what Carsyn has done in front of you before."

Chad says..."I think I would remember one of my kids sexually groping another teenager in front of me."

I said..."So you are saying Carsyn groped Kyle?"

He said "I never said that."

I said "So then you are saying Treyner did."

Chad says.."I am not saying anyone did."

Treyner points out, "You did too...you are standing the same place as 20 seconds ago when you just said the word grope. I did kiss on the cheek Hanna and Kayla and you never said a word." Now during this Treyner is giggling and laughing and smiling because he assumes Chad is being goofy...not psychotic...and cannot believe he is really arguing a serious point...

I interject saying, "Chad, I just don't want you to say something to Carsyn to make her feel bad about her relationshp with Kyle or her feelings or her sexuality. She is just a young teenage girl that likes a boy but if you act dissaproving of her touching him in appropriate ways...it will either lead her to step it up to fight against you, or repress her to the point of unhealthy feelings towards her own body etc."

He said, "I never said this to her."

I said, "Your behavior, attitude and reactions will be read by her even if it is non-verbalized."

He then turned to Treyner and told Treyner something that did not have to do with the topic at hand...but about our divorce...which was not a big deal...but again...he said, "I am going to make you look stupid for making me feel stupid."

This is classic Chad, if he is wrong...never an I am sorry, never a maybe my feelings are getting in the way about my rationalzation..etc...

He is such a jack wad...and I am not going to ever be able to stop his 2 year old behavior...but he will lose his kids because of it...they are not liking his actions one bit.

Treyner walked up to me after Chad left the kitchen, said, "I am sorry Mom...I thought he was kidding when he was saying I never did...I thought he wasn't being serious."

He then rubbed my back and gave me a hug...I was stirring something on the stove...and he patted my back again, then kissed the top of my head and said "I love you" and then left the kitchen.

I just am tired of this life I lead with him...and need to foccus on work but he distracts me and I let him... so here I sit...in a viscious cycle...I need more work to get more money to get him out...but I am so depressed and tired of the weekend being around him...that I have no energy and motivation.

The example I gave is just one of many on any weekend with him.

Okay...sorry for the rant...just needed a place to be heard...I am proud I am not binging...but I need to keep making better food choices...and continue to find outlets away from Chad.

I miss you all on the weekends...I am glad 3disKids you had a good time w/ DD.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi all,
****The following is a personal note...please do not read unless you are wanting to not read about weight loss...


A rough weekend with Chad...he is just a sad misserable man lately and thus my life is cr@p.

I did not do fit day yesterday...did not cheat or binge but what is hard..I made a recipe from the Disboards and ate a Corn Chowder from Boma's and have no clue how to figure out calorie totals?

What do you guys do when you do not have totals due to the fact it is a recipe?

I am on today for FitDay...hoping to do well...I cannot wait until there is enough money to have Chad out...April is my hope and I am telling ya...my back kills from being on the couch anymore...

The kids are realizing he is acting nuts...and when they point it out to him...he assumes I am making him look stupid...so he throws me under the bus to them. Says things about adult content that should not be talked about.

Like here is an example:
Carsyn has a boyfriend named Kyle...she is a Freshman and he is the first boyfriend. She will give him a hug from behind or kiss him on the cheek if heis next to her....typical lovey dovey puppy love.

Chad made a comment to me that he does not appreciate Carsyn's willingness to act that way in front of him and that Treyner never acted that way with any of his girlfriends.

I was astounded because Treyner has had girl in his life since he was in 6th grade and for the past few years would wrestle with them/kiss on them etc..he is 17 and I think he is not a deviant for goodness sakes.

I pointed this out to Chad, said I thought maybe he was acting a little protective since Carsyn is a girl...and he flipped...saying I was just trying to make him wrong.

Treyner was walking up the stairs...heard this and said...."Dad I have done what Carsyn has done in front of you before."

Chad says..."I think I would remember one of my kids sexually groping another teenager in front of me."

I said..."So you are saying Carsyn groped Kyle?"

He said "I never said that."

I said "So then you are saying Treyner did."

Chad says.."I am not saying anyone did."

Treyner points out, "You did too...you are standing the same place as 20 seconds ago when you just said the word grope. I did kiss on the cheek Hanna and Kayla and you never said a word." Now during this Treyner is giggling and laughing and smiling because he assumes Chad is being goofy...not psychotic...and cannot believe he is really arguing a serious point...

I interject saying, "Chad, I just don't want you to say something to Carsyn to make her feel bad about her relationshp with Kyle or her feelings or her sexuality. She is just a young teenage girl that likes a boy but if you act dissaproving of her touching him in appropriate ways...it will either lead her to step it up to fight against you, or repress her to the point of unhealthy feelings towards her own body etc."

He said, "I never said this to her."

I said, "Your behavior, attitude and reactions will be read by her even if it is non-verbalized."

He then turned to Treyner and told Treyner something that did not have to do with the topic at hand...but about our divorce...which was not a big deal...but again...he said, "I am going to make you look stupid for making me feel stupid."

This is classic Chad, if he is wrong...never an I am sorry, never a maybe my feelings are getting in the way about my rationalzation..etc...

He is such a jack wad...and I am not going to ever be able to stop his 2 year old behavior...but he will lose his kids because of it...they are not liking his actions one bit.

Treyner walked up to me after Chad left the kitchen, said, "I am sorry Mom...I thought he was kidding when he was saying I never did...I thought he wasn't being serious."

He then rubbed my back and gave me a hug...I was stirring something on the stove...and he patted my back again, then kissed the top of my head and said "I love you" and then left the kitchen.

I just am tired of this life I lead with him...and need to foccus on work but he distracts me and I let him... so here I sit...in a viscious cycle...I need more work to get more money to get him out...but I am so depressed and tired of the weekend being around him...that I have no energy and motivation.

The example I gave is just one of many on any weekend with him.

Okay...sorry for the rant...just needed a place to be heard...I am proud I am not binging...but I need to keep making better food choices...and continue to find outlets away from Chad.

I miss you all on the weekends...I am glad 3disKids you had a good time w/ DD.

Why is it that we can't see how our actions affect others around us when we act so stupidly...

Dawn - I'm sending hugs and prayers your way... things will get better... there is hope at the end of this path... you just need to stay strong on the way...
Take care...
Paula

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi everyone....

I think I am finally back in the land of the living. Last week was not an easy one and I spent a good two and a half days of it in my car alone... I am feeling pretty yucky since I haven't worked out since last Tuesday and haven't been following my eating plan at all either. I have been trying to make good food choices and stay within the ranges that Jenny Craig gives me, but I just don't have a good feeling about things at all. My JC appointment is tonight so if nothing else happens, I'll know what the damage is and get the motivation to start in again this week and try to get back on track. I am worried that my motivation for exercise may start to dwindle, but on the plus side, I have my water aerobics class tonight (if they don't cancel it again) so hopefully, that will get me back into the swing of things... Keep your fingers crossed for me that I find my motivation and get back on track. I know weeks like this past one are going to happen, but I have not been very successful at getting back on the wagon after a week like this in the past and I am scared that I am going to give up... I promise to let you all know how the weigh in goes tonight (and Dawn - I'll PM you my wieght when I get it...).

Talk to you all soon,
Paula

PS - D3K - Glad the kids like the HSM on ice and that you all survived the snow storm with no problems... Rhode Island did not get much snow, but their DOT isn't prepared to handle any snow storm so I didn't think the roads were just not safe enough for me to be on....

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

DDawn,

Sorry you are having a rough time. Nothing like being trapped in the house with the enemy. I'd have probably committed a felony by now.

I'm sure he wants you to crack, so just don't give him the satisfaction.

He is feeling differently because Carsyn is a girl, and that is nothing new. If he was thinkging clearly, i.e...not psycotic defensive, then he would just say, "She's my baby girl and I don't like seeing her kiss another boy." His opinion is valid, but he turns into a "2 year old" and you get the brunt of his anger.

After all, it is all your fault. If you were only doing what "Mr. Man" signed you up for, you'd keep your mouth shut, have no opinions, clean house and service his carnal needs.

Sorry, I realize my ranting is probably not helping you calm down, but I feel your fury.

Try to be at peace, you've already won the war. You decided to take back your life, now you just have to keep putting out the fires.

I think it's a good thing Treynor jumped in and the other kids are also too, seing his behavior for what it is. Pounding the nails into his own d@mn coffin.

Another reason to not eat. Wouldn't that really be great to weigh 150 and do, well, practically everything you've been wanting to do!

 

[3DisneyKids]

DAWN--big hugs to you, girlfriend! I am so sorry that Chad is being a turd! (I wanted to say a different word.... ) You are doing EVERYTHING right by thinking of the kids at every turn. AND THEY KNOW IT AND SEE IT. You are totally going to end up on top because you are doing the right thing!

It is times like these that I wish we were all closer together. I have a guest apt. attached to my house and I would just say...come on and bring the kids! Hang in there...and remember that not binging and making good food choices is a way of taking care of YOU.

PAULA--don't give up! Honestly, I don't think I have said this specifically to you before, but you have been SUCH a big inspiration and motivation to me. You have such a great attitude, you stay on your program, you are working out in a variety of ways...water aerobics, walking away the pounds, the BL kick-butt DVD...you are doing it ALL girl! And it is working, right? You have LOST! You may have had a tough week...and other tough weeks will follow...but you made the best choices you could under the circumstances! That by itself is a victory! I will be your cheerleader this week if you need one!

Definitely want to catch up with everyone else, but I am SOOOOOO far behind at work! Be back later.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I have been trying to make good food choices and stay within the ranges that Jenny Craig gives me, but I just don't have a good feeling about things at all. My JC appointment is tonight so if nothing else happens, I'll know what the damage is and get the motivation to start in again this week and try to get back on track.

Ok Goof - I gotta ask. How is the JC food? Is it edible? Tasty even? And how much does it cost? Give me some examples and give me an estimated cost per day. You know these things are all a big secret until someone commits.

Don't lose the drive. You've come so far already. I'm sure this has been the drill before. Lose weight and get fed up with the diet lifestyle. Well, aren't you fed up with the overweight lifestyle? Footloose and fancy free. That's the goal here. Sitting with Goofy in the Magic Kingdom and hopping up without pain or pressure. This is your life. The one and only you get here on earth. (Unless you and Shirley McClain are in the same boat.) After coming this far, you might as well keep going. U rah! (Is that illegal to say if you are not a Marine?)

 

[HockeyKat]

Hi all,
****The following is a personal note...please do not read unless you are wanting to not read about weight loss...


A rough weekend with Chad...he is just a sad misserable man lately and thus my life is cr@p.

I did not do fit day yesterday...did not cheat or binge but what is hard..I made a recipe from the Disboards and ate a Corn Chowder from Boma's and have no clue how to figure out calorie totals?

What do you guys do when you do not have totals due to the fact it is a recipe?

I take every ingredient and add it up and then divide by the number of servings that I get out of it. Sometimes with soups, I portion it all out into freezable containers so that I both get an idea of servings, and am forced to only eat one portion.

Dawn .

 

[Dizneydawn]

Thanks for the pep talk...I am going to head on a 2 day sebatical...a good friend just called and wants to get her Tupp bsiness back up and running so I am going to do a lock in until her business is better...plus then I can give us a breather in this house...
I will try and be on as much as possible...not sure what my internet connection will be like.....Thanks for the support...it will get better...

Goof - Thanks for the card and postcard...I have them in my journal I carry with me....I hope you are not dissapointed by your numbers tonight...I know they cannot be as bad as what they would have been if you were not concious of your food choices....you'll be o'tay!

Talk to you all soon...and Kat..good idea on the breaking the ingredients down...you are a smarty farty aren't ya!!

 

[MunkyMe13]

Hi all,
****The following is a personal note...please do not read unless you are wanting to not read about weight loss...


A rough weekend with Chad...he is just a sad misserable man lately and thus my life is cr@p.

I did not do fit day yesterday...did not cheat or binge but what is hard..I made a recipe from the Disboards and ate a Corn Chowder from Boma's and have no clue how to figure out calorie totals?

What do you guys do when you do not have totals due to the fact it is a recipe?

I am on today for FitDay...hoping to do well...I cannot wait until there is enough money to have Chad out...April is my hope and I am telling ya...my back kills from being on the couch anymore...

The kids are realizing he is acting nuts...and when they point it out to him...he assumes I am making him look stupid...so he throws me under the bus to them. Says things about adult content that should not be talked about.

Like here is an example:
Carsyn has a boyfriend named Kyle...she is a Freshman and he is the first boyfriend. She will give him a hug from behind or kiss him on the cheek if heis next to her....typical lovey dovey puppy love.

Chad made a comment to me that he does not appreciate Carsyn's willingness to act that way in front of him and that Treyner never acted that way with any of his girlfriends.

I was astounded because Treyner has had girl in his life since he was in 6th grade and for the past few years would wrestle with them/kiss on them etc..he is 17 and I think he is not a deviant for goodness sakes.

I pointed this out to Chad, said I thought maybe he was acting a little protective since Carsyn is a girl...and he flipped...saying I was just trying to make him wrong.

Treyner was walking up the stairs...heard this and said...."Dad I have done what Carsyn has done in front of you before."

Chad says..."I think I would remember one of my kids sexually groping another teenager in front of me."

I said..."So you are saying Carsyn groped Kyle?"

He said "I never said that."

I said "So then you are saying Treyner did."

Chad says.."I am not saying anyone did."

Treyner points out, "You did too...you are standing the same place as 20 seconds ago when you just said the word grope. I did kiss on the cheek Hanna and Kayla and you never said a word." Now during this Treyner is giggling and laughing and smiling because he assumes Chad is being goofy...not psychotic...and cannot believe he is really arguing a serious point...

I interject saying, "Chad, I just don't want you to say something to Carsyn to make her feel bad about her relationshp with Kyle or her feelings or her sexuality. She is just a young teenage girl that likes a boy but if you act dissaproving of her touching him in appropriate ways...it will either lead her to step it up to fight against you, or repress her to the point of unhealthy feelings towards her own body etc."

He said, "I never said this to her."

I said, "Your behavior, attitude and reactions will be read by her even if it is non-verbalized."

He then turned to Treyner and told Treyner something that did not have to do with the topic at hand...but about our divorce...which was not a big deal...but again...he said, "I am going to make you look stupid for making me feel stupid."

This is classic Chad, if he is wrong...never an I am sorry, never a maybe my feelings are getting in the way about my rationalzation..etc...

He is such a jack wad...and I am not going to ever be able to stop his 2 year old behavior...but he will lose his kids because of it...they are not liking his actions one bit.

Treyner walked up to me after Chad left the kitchen, said, "I am sorry Mom...I thought he was kidding when he was saying I never did...I thought he wasn't being serious."

He then rubbed my back and gave me a hug...I was stirring something on the stove...and he patted my back again, then kissed the top of my head and said "I love you" and then left the kitchen.

I just am tired of this life I lead with him...and need to foccus on work but he distracts me and I let him... so here I sit...in a viscious cycle...I need more work to get more money to get him out...but I am so depressed and tired of the weekend being around him...that I have no energy and motivation.

The example I gave is just one of many on any weekend with him.

Okay...sorry for the rant...just needed a place to be heard...I am proud I am not binging...but I need to keep making better food choices...and continue to find outlets away from Chad.

I miss you all on the weekends...I am glad 3disKids you had a good time w/ DD.

I'm sorry you had such a rough weekend.

Hi everyone....

I think I am finally back in the land of the living. Last week was not an easy one and I spent a good two and a half days of it in my car alone... I am feeling pretty yucky since I haven't worked out since last Tuesday and haven't been following my eating plan at all either. I have been trying to make good food choices and stay within the ranges that Jenny Craig gives me, but I just don't have a good feeling about things at all. My JC appointment is tonight so if nothing else happens, I'll know what the damage is and get the motivation to start in again this week and try to get back on track. I am worried that my motivation for exercise may start to dwindle, but on the plus side, I have my water aerobics class tonight (if they don't cancel it again) so hopefully, that will get me back into the swing of things... Keep your fingers crossed for me that I find my motivation and get back on track. I know weeks like this past one are going to happen, but I have not been very successful at getting back on the wagon after a week like this in the past and I am scared that I am going to give up... I promise to let you all know how the weigh in goes tonight (and Dawn - I'll PM you my wieght when I get it...).

Talk to you all soon,
Paula

PS - D3K - Glad the kids like the HSM on ice and that you all survived the snow storm with no problems... Rhode Island did not get much snow, but their DOT isn't prepared to handle any snow storm so I didn't think the roads were just not safe enough for me to be on....

Like everyone else is saying... Don't give up hun... we are all here for you and I will help in any way I can.

This weekend is DL so be prepared for the postcards I'm bringing home!!!

I gained .6 lbs today but that could be for any number of reasons... I'm still lower than friday which is good... 227.6 today... I'm sooo close to having lost my 10 lbs for the month... I can almost taste it... I hope everyone has a good day!

Sarah

 

[goofyfan-12]

PAULA[/B]--don't give up! Honestly, I don't think I have said this specifically to you before, but you have been SUCH a big inspiration and motivation to me. You have such a great attitude, you stay on your program, you are working out in a variety of ways...water aerobics, walking away the pounds, the BL kick-butt DVD...you are doing it ALL girl! And it is working, right? You have LOST! You may have had a tough week...and other tough weeks will follow...but you made the best choices you could under the circumstances! That by itself is a victory! I will be your cheerleader this week if you need one!

You are so sweet... I think I blushed when I read your post... Thanks for being my cheerleader this week.... I could certainly use one to help me get back on track...

Ok Goof - I gotta ask. How is the JC food? Is it edible? Tasty even? And how much does it cost? Give me some examples and give me an estimated cost per day. You know these things are all a big secret until someone commits.

OK - here's the skinny on JC... the food really is yummy... I am addicted to their cheesecakes and their double chocolate cake. I am not as big a fan of the lemon cake (not lemony enough for me), but it is good. I definitely have my favorite entree's (turkey burgers, beef chow mein, chickon carbonara, lentils with beef, etc) and have only had a few things that I have eaten but was not crazy about (mostly soups, but I am fussy when it comes to soups so this didn't surprise me).

As for costs, it depends on the plan you buy when you start. They usually have some specials that are $20 to lose 20 pounds plus the cost of food, but I joined the long term plan and paid I think it was $300 up front to cover my consultations for the year and then I pay for the food. I also get a discount off my food because of my plan, but I heard that they are no longer offering that plan now so I am not sure what the current long term deal is.

In general, I am spending between $80 - $100 a week on JC food (includes a 20% discount so retail cost would be between $95 - $120/week). I then go to the grocery store to buy fresh fruits, veggies, some cheese and milk and that runs me about another $35 - $45/ week depending on what I need. So, I am spending about $115 - $150/week on food. When I studied what I was spending by buying breakfast and lunch at work plus usually going out to eat or buying takeout on the way home (remember, I don't have a family so this was the easy way to do it), I was spending $25 - $30 / day on food. Now I spend about $21 so I am saving a little money. If I was cooking my meals and packing a lunch, I would not be saving any money because it is cheaper to cook at home than it is to buy your food already prepared. I love the convenience though. It fits with my busy lifestyle of working and volunteer work.

I can't do this forever, but JC has that covered. Once I hit my halfway to goal mark, I start eating more of my own food and less and less of theirs until I hit my goal. By that time, I should no longer be eating their food and be on my weigh towards maintaining.

Don't lose the drive. You've come so far already. I'm sure this has been the drill before. Lose weight and get fed up with the diet lifestyle. Well, aren't you fed up with the overweight lifestyle? Footloose and fancy free. That's the goal here. Sitting with Goofy in the Magic Kingdom and hopping up without pain or pressure. This is your life. The one and only you get here on earth. (Unless you and Shirley McClain are in the same boat.) After coming this far, you might as well keep going. U rah! (Is that illegal to say if you are not a Marine?)

Thanks for the pep talk... I definitely want to keep going. I am just nervous that tonight's results will throw me off my game... With folks like you here waiting to pick me up, there is no way I can fail...

Thanks for the pep talk...I am going to head on a 2 day sebatical...a good friend just called and wants to get her Tupp bsiness back up and running so I am going to do a lock in until her business is better...plus then I can give us a breather in this house...
I will try and be on as much as possible...not sure what my internet connection will be like.....Thanks for the support...it will get better...

Good luck with this...

Goof - Thanks for the card and postcard...I have them in my journal I carry with me....I hope you are not dissapointed by your numbers tonight...I know they cannot be as bad as what they would have been if you were not concious of your food choices....you'll be o'tay!

Dawn - you are most welcome.... There is someone out there thinking of you and hoping for nothing but success in all that you do... even if the turd you are living with is not thinking that, we are....
Talk to you all soon...and Kat..good idea on the breaking the ingredients down...you are a smarty farty aren't ya!!

I love the support I get from this board.... I am not sure what I would do without you all....

Paula

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Thanks for the skinny on JC foods. It looks so tempting when you see Valerie Bertanelli. I mean, if I'd have started JC when she did, and I watched her the whole time, a year later I'd be a much happier Mamasita. But, I just watched her.

So, the food is good. But...sounds pricy to me.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Thanks for the pep talk...I am going to head on a 2 day sebatical...a good friend just called and wants to get her Tupp bsiness back up and running so I am going to do a lock in until her business is better...plus then I can give us a breather in this house...
I will try and be on as much as possible...not sure what my internet connection will be like.....Thanks for the support...it will get better...

Sounds like a GREAT idea. get outta Dodge for a couple of days! Change of scenery always does wonders for me. April is not that far away...you can make it!

Goof - Thanks for the card and postcard...I have them in my journal I carry with me....I hope you are not dissapointed by your numbers tonight...I know they cannot be as bad as what they would have been if you were not concious of your food choices....you'll be o'tay!

D'oh! I totally forgot to PM my address to y'all. I will do it now. Anyone can feel free to PM me you address as well. Maine is beautiful and I live on the coast, so lots of picturesque stuff around here.

Talk to you all soon...and Kat..good idea on the breaking the ingredients down...you are a smarty farty aren't ya!!

Yeah, this is my issue now as well. WW is basically equivalent to counting calories...and there are lots of meals that I make that I am thinking..."how the heck am I gonna translate that into points???" Living and learning...

Other info.--I admit that I have not been good about water AT ALL since starting this journey. I figured that with all of my exercising plus staying on program, I wouldn't have to worry about the water. Guess I was wrong! (No loss last week even though I was perfect and exercised 5 days.) So today I started with water....I hate it and it is a real challenge for me. I'll stick with it, though.

Also, I am shaking up my workout routine a bit. I honestly don't think that my body is in much of a rut...I have only been running for about 5 weeks, so I doubt that has become habitual for my body already. Nonetheless, today I did a killer interval training work-out that I will share with you in case anyone is looking for something new...

10 minute run warm-up (then hopped off TM)
3 sets of 12 on the leg press (quads_
3 minute run on the TM
3 sets of 12 hamstring curls (low weight)
3 minute run on the TM
3 sets each inner thigh and outer thigh
4 minute run on the TM
3 sets of 12 each bis and tris (free weights)
5 minute run on the TM
3 sets of 12 shoulders (free weights)
5 minute run on the TM
3 sets of 12 abs (on the machine)
3 minute run on the TM
5 minute walk cool down on the TM

I basically just made this up on my own...I wanted to incorporate weights in to my work out, but still wanted to run and keep my heart rate up the whole time.

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This weekend is DL so be prepared for the postcards I'm bringing home!!!

OMG, it is just 4 days away! SO JEALOUS! Where are you staying? Special eating plans? Not sure if budget is a huge concern, be Napa Rose is THE BEST Disney restaurant of ANY at ANY park. Hands down.

I gained .6 lbs today but that could be for any number of reasons... I'm still lower than friday which is good... 227.6 today... I'm sooo close to having lost my 10 lbs for the month... I can almost taste it... I hope everyone has a good day!

Pretty soon you will be saying bu-bye to those 20's, too!

Sarah

 

[born2bird]

Aww... nice of you to say. I don't always feel like I am doing well.

And Maryland isn't that far away... a drive by hockey-sticking isn't out of the realm!!

Bring it on...
We will be spending a week in Edisto Island, SC in Jun. How far are you from there?

I am home. I have to go back to page 60 to catch up! Gheeze-a-lou.

Vacation was great-except for Maddi (4) got pheumona while I was gone. Talk about stress on my MIL and me!

Grand Floridian was everything! Lovely! DH and I got to spend some quality time together and I didn't gain any weight. Same as when we left. So, that's good news.

OK, off to catch up.

Welcome Home!! I am sorry your DD got so sick. It sounds like the GF was amazing. I hope to stay there again one day. Our one and only trip there was compliments of my DIL's. They paid for DH and I as well has my BIL and his wife. Pre-kids of course.

Hi Guys -
New here, but couldn't help wanting to join in, the attitude and environment of this thread is refreshing!

WELCOME!!! I am a calorie counter too. Good luck with all of your goals!

Hey All! Just a quick check in now that I am back from my week-end!




I use Limewire.com It is very easy and user-friendly. PM me if you need info.

Good news of the week-end...I am SO loving WW! Really glad that I made the switch. Seems so easy to eat sensibly without over-indulging. Now, I don't know what the scale is going to say next week, but for right now I am very happy with it. (I am bracing myself for a gain...I think switching from low carb to WW is going to be such a shock for my system that I may initially gain... ) I told DH about the switch for me and he is SO SO SO supportive. In fact, he has been amazing all week-end and is being supportive, loving, positive...the whole 9! And I even got in a run today! Normally, when I have a crazy busy day like this, my work-out is always the first thing to go...but now I make it a priority! I made time to squeeze in a 40 minute run, so I am psyched about that!

Ok, gotta jet and catch up on everything else (like work, e-mails, etc. But you guys come first!). I'll be back in full swing tomorrow!

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for the great weekend! It sounds like you and your family had a great time. It sounds like your DH finally gets it and is being truly suuportive of you

I am glad you like WW! How does it work with you being a vegetarian? I have considered it but did not think it would work for me due to that reason.

A rough weekend with Chad...he is just a sad misserable man lately and thus my life is cr@p.

I am sorry you have to deal with that cr@p. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you but it sounds like he is beyond reasoning and you already have your plan in place.

Hi everyone....

I think I am finally back in the land of the living. Last week was not an easy one and I spent a good two and a half days of it in my car alone... I am feeling pretty yucky since I haven't worked out since last Tuesday and haven't been following my eating plan at all either.

Welcome back! It must feel good to be ack to a normal routine. I am sure you will get back on track.