In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[born2bird]

As I have said before...my issues with DH are there...I have just shared some of it and I am sure the rest will come out with time. Mostly, I just don't feel like typing that much...I need a lazy, sleeping smiley!

Basically, though, our marriage is good. He is a wonderful provider (really takes it seriously), is a huge help around the house doing more than his share of chores, and adores the kids and truly enjoys being with them. All good things. The down side is that he is a total perfectionist (not just about himself but about everything...me, the kids, the house, weight, and everything else under the sun), and that is just plain hard to live with.

You may remember a looooong while back on this thread when one of us posted that her DH going out of town and she was actually relieved. This is how I feel, too. Again, our marriage is in pretty decent shape, but it is often exhausting to live with his standards and so when he goes away on business, I feel like I can breathe for a while.

Here are some examples....as you all know, I am super proud of myself for running (just finished my 5k for the day! ). So, the day when I ran 3 miles for the first time, I came bounding in the house...just so proud I was bursting...and his comment was, "Now you need to work toward 5 miles..." And DS came home with a test score...again, very happy..."Hey, I got a 98!" And of course Dad's response was, "That's good...let's shoot for the 100 next week." And it is like that about everything! It drives me nuts.

UGGGHHHH!!! My Dh is a perfectionist about some things but not everything. It really does sound like he has a touch of OCD. To get so upset about 4lbs is not healthy. I hope you don't let his downplaying of your accomplishments tarnish all of the successes you have had. Thankfully, your marriage is good otherwise and it seems like the issues that you do have are all fixable. If it is any consulation, my MIL is a total perfectionist and neither of her sons are that way now.

I want to have a party!!!! I will put my food totals on tonight...going to go and get some Tupperware done... check in a bit...need to get wet swimsuit off....tells you that you guys are my priority...:

We totally need to have a party!!!

Hi Everyone....

You take one night off from the board and look at what you miss…

Let's see if I have this right...

Jodi made it through her test yesterday with no problems... Now we just need to get her IBS in check.... (my mom has the same issue... its not fun...).

Dawn needs to go back to the hospital and drop kick that doctor... (Now we just need to get her to a new doctor that can / will actually treat the problem…

HockeyKat is willing to go open a can of whoop @@@ on Dawn's doctor if need be... (call me if you need a hand with this… I can unload a verbal lashing like none other when the situation calls for it…I work with contractors remember…. )

Sarah is conquering her crazy schedule and has found yummy and healthy food options at Taco Bell… I may have to try that menu someday when I am craving Mexican food… (and she is kicking butt on the elliptical machine )

3DK lives with a body builder… (sheesh.. no pressure there….) whom I believe is not repulsed by her body… (if he hasn’t said anything, how do you know it is an issue with him at all? He loves you….)

Heather has a huge heart full of compassion (love you Heather… ) and is stuck in job hell…. With more on that to follow… (I remember the days when I was in job hell… it is not fun, but we are here to help get you through it…)

So - how am I doing... I am doing GREAT!!!! I weighed in last night and all of the exercise and good food choices paid off.... I was rewarded with a 4.2 pound weight loss for the week... I am so excited I could jump up and down just typing this.... I hope everyone is having a great week and I can't wait to read about everyone's results on Friday...

Also - I agree on the posting of food choices for the day... they give me great inspiration and ideas for when I start to wean my way off of the Jenny Craig food after I reach my 60% to goal mark...

Have a great day everyone...
Goof

Great recap..you are good. Without the quote option I would be lost. And

CONGRATS!!! 4.2 lbs is fantastic!!
I am with you, I like food posts.

As for me - I'm still on the "Jillian Michaels plan". There are now 3 of us at the gym I go to who are doing it together - and a number of women who just look at us like we are completely INSANE! We've invited them to join us, and there are a few who look like they are tempted.. We'll keep working on them....

I am waiting for NetFlix to deliver the Jillian Michaels Workout DVD's that I ordered but will have to check out the website too. It sounds like you and your workout buddies have a great time.

I had a funny story to share about our water aerobics workout that Jodi and I shared today...

So there is this OCD crazy lady that works out like Richard Simons bred with Ozzy Ozborne....
We also have a runner lovingly reffered to as Monkey Man in our town...Marathon runner...[/COLOR]

For a little town, you sure have some interesting characters living there.

I did well and am feeling better...taking antibiotics I have saved from previous run in's...and so far...am down 2 pounds from last Friday...so I am on the right path for this weigh in!!

Soooo.....QOTD....
What thing were you jealous of that a friend/family member had that caused you to see green.. .and how did you resolve your inner jealousy demon...or if you did not...how could you have????

I am off...have a great day and remember...I am thankful you took the time to bring your talents and mentorship to all of us...each of you plays a vital role in this board and I am so proud that you have stayed...

I am glad you afre feeling better. and WOO HOOT on the 2lbs.

QOTD: I am jealous of my co-worker who is thin and runs in 5K races all of the time. Of course I am happy for her and would NEVER treat her poorly or outwardly express my jealousy but man, I wish I was where she is. But then I remind myself of how screwed up her homelife is and that she is probably envious of my family and the closeness we share. Sadly, I think as humans we will always feel jealous to some extent when we see others accomplishing the things we so desperately want to d but can't for whatever reason. To some degree it can be a healthy motivator.

Welcome back to the game sista! Do you have special disney songs that you work harder to? I put the 2 versions of Space Mountain's music in my mix and when they come on I go as hard and fast as I can on the elliptical. The music from Hercules also is very motivating to me.

"Just remember in the darkest hour
Within your heart's the power
For making you
A hero too
So don't lose hope when you're forlorn
Just keep your eyes upon the skies
Ev'ry night a star is
Right in sight a star is
Burning bright a star is born"

I mean how is that not totally motivating Grats on all your successes and keep the food tracker coming! I love seeing the different ideas for meals.




Hmmm... I was jealous of a friend of mine and what she had and what not. I don't know if I got over the jealousy but I did one up her... LOL... stupid purses... LOL... I can't believe how dumb I can be... She had an imitation Louis Vuitton and Burberry and for some reason I was so jealous then when I got my job and started making enough I bought my own Coach bags and then a friend gave me a Louis Vuitton that she didn't want anymore (she dates a lot of rich guys). Looking back on it its completely ridiculous but I think I just always wanted more status. I want to look better than her etc... But I am so done with that. She is dieting and working out too so I am being supportive of her. Just typing that all out makes it so ridiculous. Even when I went the the Landmark forum I realized a lot of stuff I did a year or so ago was pointless and immature. So now that I've gotten that out I feel better... lol... I do still really like purses tho...

Nice music selection!!

You are one of those purse addicts aren't you? My SIL is one too and has a closet full of them. I wouldn't know a coach from a Louis Vuitton to save my life. I get my purses from Target...

 

[3DisneyKids]

You are one of those purse addicts aren't you? My SIL is one too and has a closet full of them. I wouldn't know a coach from a Louis Vuitton to save my life. I get my purses from Target...

I don't even OWN a purse! I hate them!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Soooo.....QOTD....
What thing were you jealous of that a friend/family member had that caused you to see green.. .and how did you resolve your inner jealousy demon...or if you did not...how could you have????

This is a hard one....

I am with you all on the love of purses (although I tend not to like the designer ones as much) and I'll add the love of shoes...

I try not to be an overly jealous person since frankly, we all have our own issues that make the grass not so green anymore, but I sometimes get frustrated watching those who appear to have everything (great job, great house, great clothes, great spouse, etc) when I don't. Right now, I am frustrated because I want to buy a house and can't due to the fact that I am still paying off student loans from college and am not comfortable taking on any more debt right now, but I am frustrated hearing about friends of mine buying new condos, new cars, new everything because they never had a student loan to pay off and have all of this disposable income. I make the same amount of money as they do and I can't do what they are doing. I don't hold this against them personally, but I get extremely frustrated that the government has done anything to fix the high cost of education in this country. I mean, how is anyone supposed to build a comfortable life for themselves when they come out of college with a diploma and a debt load in the amount of the cash equivalent of a car or two? In my mind, why is it that if you are not independently wealthy you automatically get to start out your adult life behind the proverbial eight ball? OK - political rant over..

All I can do to deal with this is keep writing my payment checks and telling myself that it was an investment in myself and I will be done in a few more years... Most days, I am cool with that because I am better off having spent the money on my education than if I hadn't, but there are those few days when all I can think is yeah - what a load of crap...I am working my butt off and what do I have to show for it? In the end, reality kicks back in and I know that I am in a pretty good place relative to others in the country so that is all I can ask for... that and to fall in love and marry some fabulously wealthy guy...

Anyways - that is the biggest issue where jealousy rears its ugly green head... For now, I'll be happy in my apartment and checking off the months / years until I can make the plunge into home ownership...

goof

 

[3DisneyKids]

This is a hard one....

I am with you all on the love of purses (although I tend not to like the designer ones as much) and I'll add the love of shoes...

I try not to be an overly jealous person since frankly, we all have our own issues that make the grass not so green anymore, but I sometimes get frustrated watching those who appear to have everything (great job, great house, great clothes, great spouse, etc) when I don't. Right now, I am frustrated because I want to buy a house and can't due to the fact that I am still paying off student loans from college and am not comfortable taking on any more debt right now, but I am frustrated hearing about friends of mine buying new condos, new cars, new everything because they never had a student loan to pay off and have all of this disposable income. I make the same amount of money as they do and I can't do what they are doing. I don't hold this against them personally, but I get extremely frustrated that the government has done anything to fix the high cost of education in this country. I mean, how is anyone supposed to build a comfortable life for themselves when they come out of college with a diploma and a debt load in the amount of the cash equivalent of a car or two? In my mind, why is it that if you are not independently wealthy you automatically get to start out your adult life behind the proverbial eight ball? OK - political rant over..

All I can do to deal with this is keep writing my payment checks and telling myself that it was an investment in myself and I will be done in a few more years... Most days, I am cool with that because I am better off having spent the money on my education than if I hadn't, but there are those few days when all I can think is yeah - what a load of crap...I am working my butt off and what do I have to show for it? In the end, reality kicks back in and I know that I am in a pretty good place relative to others in the country so that is all I can ask for... that and to fall in love and marry some fabulously wealthy guy...

Anyways - that is the biggest issue where jealousy rears its ugly green head... For now, I'll be happy in my apartment and checking off the months / years until I can make the plunge into home ownership...

goof

Hang in there, Paula! Only about 4 years ago, we were where you are now. DH didn't go to college right away...we actually met when he was half way through undergrad (at age 27) and I was in grad school (at 24). And he because he started late and because I was in school forever getting my doctorate, we didn't start earning decent/professional salaries until age 30. So we were WAY behind everyone. We were just starting to pay off our loans while others were finishing.

I totally know how frustrating it is to see everyone else moving ahead. We were in a starter home and they were already trading up. We had old beater cars and they were buying the newest SUVs. It was really hard on us. Not so much because we were jealous...it wasn't that at all. It was, as you say, frustrating!

But the funny thing is...it didn't last nearly as long as we thought it would. Now, just a few years later, we are doing MUCH better than most of our friends. Why? We did it smartly. We didn't over-extend. We didn't buy the large SUVs just to keep up with the Joneses. We didn't put our kids in the chi-chi private schools (and now that they have transferred their precious cherubs from their precoious private schools into the public school where our kids are....guesss what? Our kids are WAY ahead academically! Sorry for the tangent...proud mom moment! )

And you, my dear, are doing it smartly! And really...for us it seemed to happen quite quickly...all of a sudden we looked around and said, "Hey! We're here! We made it to the place we wanted to be and we are not drowning in debt!" So...stay the course! You are doing it the right way and eventually it will pay off BIG TIME! Until then... HANG IN THERE!

Now, about the other issue...marrying the fabulously wealthy guy....you need to meet my brother! He is 40, single (never married), awesome career (producer for ABC), lives in Manhatten, great income...

 

[3DisneyKids]

And I forgot to mention....the BEST thing about my brother...

Since he works for ABC, he gets all the CM discounts! Hello...free AP! DCL trips at 50% off. DVC membership at 25% off...

 

[HockeyKat]

I don't even OWN a purse! I hate them!

Me too!! I have a wallet that stays in my laptop bag, and it has an insert for license/check card, and I usually just carry the insert. Purses are such a hassle. Granted, I stuff a rolling laptop bag, gym bag, and lunch bag in my car everyday so maybe that is why I think so.

Btw, forgot to congrat on the 4.2 lbs!!

Jealousy... I am jealous of anyone thin, esp the ones that don't seem to have to work at it. Also people with shiny straight hair that always looks polished and perfect.

And I always laugh at the expression keep up with the Joneses, since we ARE the Joneses (literally)!

 

[Dizneydawn]

And I forgot to mention....the BEST thing about my brother...

Since he works for ABC, he gets all the CM discounts! Hello...free AP! DCL trips at 50% off. DVC membership at 25% off...

Soooo.....you have been holding out on us have you.....BTW...my hubby is a Greek God and my brother is a Mickey God...

All I've got is a sister who still believes that a chain e-mail will bring her wealth...(as in called me Sunday morning to tell me to get to my e-mail at 7 a.m.) she is 28 and just had her 1st child in October...I plan on my niece being more mature than her at age 4....

I have another sister who is crass and funny and very great...but she works as a LSW for mentally impaired adults and waitresses at a breakfast place 2 Sundays a month so my link to fortune is a Blueberry muffin!!!

So....lets trade out some eye candy pics....I 've got some that will make you drool....chocolate chip or dare I tempt you with...Poppy seed!!!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hang in there, Paula! Only about 4 years ago, we were where you are now. DH didn't go to college right away...we actually met when he was half way through undergrad (at age 27) and I was in grad school (at 24). And he because he started late and because I was in school forever getting my doctorate, we didn't start earning decent/professional salaries until age 30. So we were WAY behind everyone. We were just starting to pay off our loans while others were finishing.

I totally know how frustrating it is to see everyone else moving ahead. We were in a starter home and they were already trading up. We had old beater cars and they were buying the newest SUVs. It was really hard on us. Not so much because we were jealous...it wasn't that at all. It was, as you say, frustrating!

But the funny thing is...it didn't last nearly as long as we thought it would. Now, just a few years later, we are doing MUCH better than most of our friends. Why? We did it smartly. We didn't over-extend. We didn't buy the large SUVs just to keep up with the Joneses. We didn't put our kids in the chi-chi private schools (and now that they have transferred their precious cherubs from their precoious private schools into the public school where our kids are....guesss what? Our kids are WAY ahead academically! Sorry for the tangent...proud mom moment! )

And you, my dear, are doing it smartly! And really...for us it seemed to happen quite quickly...all of a sudden we looked around and said, "Hey! We're here! We made it to the place we wanted to be and we are not drowning in debt!" So...stay the course! You are doing it the right way and eventually it will pay off BIG TIME! Until then... HANG IN THERE!

Now, about the other issue...marrying the fabulously wealthy guy....you need to meet my brother! He is 40, single (never married), awesome career (producer for ABC), lives in Manhatten, great income...

Thanks for the reinforcement... The whole thing is frustrating, but I agree that I am doing this the smart way and will get there eventually... I guess I am the tortoise in this race....

Umm... so you are hiding this awesome brother of yours... You know, I am only about a 2 hour train ride from Manhattan....

Thanks again and I would expect nothing less than a proud mom comment from you when talking about your children... isn't that a law in the mom code somewhere...

Goof

 

[goofyfan-12]

Me too!! I have a wallet that stays in my laptop bag, and it has an insert for license/check card, and I usually just carry the insert. Purses are such a hassle. Granted, I stuff a rolling laptop bag, gym bag, and lunch bag in my car everyday so maybe that is why I think so.

Btw, forgot to congrat on the 4.2 lbs!! Thanks...

Jealousy... I am jealous of anyone thin, esp the ones that don't seem to have to work at it. Also people with shiny straight hair that always looks polished and perfect. You are preaching to the choir sistah.... Naturally curly hair is great for about the 2.3 days out of the year when it actually cooporates with you....

And I always laugh at the expression keep up with the Joneses, since we ARE the Joneses (literally)!
For the sake of the rest of us, will you please stop buying things....

Goof

 

[MunkyMe13]

UGGGHHHH!!! My Dh is a perfectionist about some things but not everything. It really does sound like he has a touch of OCD. To get so upset about 4lbs is not healthy. I hope you don't let his downplaying of your accomplishments tarnish all of the successes you have had. Thankfully, your marriage is good otherwise and it seems like the issues that you do have are all fixable. If it is any consulation, my MIL is a total perfectionist and neither of her sons are that way now.




We totally need to have a party!!!



Great recap..you are good. Without the quote option I would be lost. And

CONGRATS!!! 4.2 lbs is fantastic!!
I am with you, I like food posts.



I am waiting for NetFlix to deliver the Jillian Michaels Workout DVD's that I ordered but will have to check out the website too. It sounds like you and your workout buddies have a great time.



For a little town, you sure have some interesting characters living there.



I am glad you afre feeling better. and WOO HOOT on the 2lbs.

QOTD: I am jealous of my co-worker who is thin and runs in 5K races all of the time. Of course I am happy for her and would NEVER treat her poorly or outwardly express my jealousy but man, I wish I was where she is. But then I remind myself of how screwed up her homelife is and that she is probably envious of my family and the closeness we share. Sadly, I think as humans we will always feel jealous to some extent when we see others accomplishing the things we so desperately want to d but can't for whatever reason. To some degree it can be a healthy motivator.




Nice music selection!!

You are one of those purse addicts aren't you? My SIL is one too and has a closet full of them. I wouldn't know a coach from a Louis Vuitton to save my life. I get my purses from Target...

Funny I love purses but not huge into shoes... lol... I only have 4 purses tho so its not like I have 40 lol... I have a classic canvus louis vuitton, a black coach, a brown coach, and a denim patchwork coach... so I'm not as bad as a lot of people...

Work is crazy busy today... lol... back to work... LOL!

 

[chbc]

Catching up on all the posts from yesterday. Had a 2 hour meeting with Pastor yesterday. Get out of that school, now! I felt hopeful when I left his office. It is the system that is sick. The school, the state, the union, the insurance companies. I need help from a new lawyer. The others fully believe this situation is whack, but fully admit it is out of their practice. My husband wants me to stay in teaching.

This is a hard one....


I try not to be an overly jealous person since frankly, we all have our own issues that make the grass not so green anymore, but I sometimes get frustrated watching those who appear to have everything (great job, great house, great clothes, great spouse, etc) when I don't. Right now, I am frustrated because I want to buy a house and can't due to the fact that I am still paying off student loans from college and am not comfortable taking on any more debt right now, but I am frustrated hearing about friends of mine buying new condos, new cars, new everything because they never had a student loan to pay off and have all of this disposable income. I make the same amount of money as they do and I can't do what they are doing. I don't hold this against them personally, but I get extremely frustrated that the government has done anything to fix the high cost of education in this country. I mean, how is anyone supposed to build a comfortable life for themselves when they come out of college with a diploma and a debt load in the amount of the cash equivalent of a car or two? In my mind, why is it that if you are not independently wealthy you automatically get to start out your adult life behind the proverbial eight ball? OK - political rant over..

All I can do to deal with this is keep writing my payment checks and telling myself that it was an investment in myself and I will be done in a few more years... Most days, I am cool with that because I am better off having spent the money on my education than if I hadn't, but there are those few days when all I can think is yeah - what a load of crap...I am working my butt off and what do I have to show for it? In the end, reality kicks back in and I know that I am in a pretty good place relative to others in the country so that is all I can ask for... that and to fall in love and marry some fabulously wealthy guy...


goof

Oh Paula. I am with you on this one. My husband and I put ourselves through college, M.S. degrees, had two science fair project fertility clinic kiddos and did not buy a house until we were 33. We had been married for over 13 years before we had our own home. Other family had education paid for, big time home start up help- big time, jobs that bought their existing house and then some when they climbed the ladder in business. They have humungo beautiful homes, and all the perks. We are looked down on and mocked and our children have had the differences in our lifestyles pointed out to them by one side of the family. Don't worry we don't see them anymore.Two years ago I took an extended leave at the unions and Docs advice after whistle blowing the Principal. It put my family in a financial hardship with wageloss and lawyers, Dr.'s etec. and we had almost recovered. Until now, and we don't have the savings we did before. I was frustrated before when we were paying for and education, and now that education and the years dedicated to a profession are lost. I'm scared, I need a break. But, I have we have always made it through on our own, perservered, took the high road, helped others. All will be ok one day-better than before. The old jealousy came back, with this last curve ball, so it didn't consume me then and it won't consume me now.
Paula- Thank you for helping me see again this frustration, because it has been there this past week and I did not see it.

 

[born2bird]

Chbc, I am so sorry you are dealing with sucha mes at work. But you are right, you have taken the high road and as such, will perservere.

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Am I the only parent on the planet who hasn't heard about these:

http://safetytat.com/

I am ordering these before our next trip to Disney. What a great idea! My babes will be tatooed for our trip. I love it because they don't wash off in the rain or pool.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Catching up on all the posts from yesterday. Had a 2 hour meeting with Pastor yesterday. Get out of that school, now! I felt hopeful when I left his office. It is the system that is sick. The school, the state, the union, the insurance companies. I need help from a new lawyer. The others fully believe this situation is whack, but fully admit it is out of their practice. My husband wants me to stay in teaching.



Oh Paula. I am with you on this one. My husband and I put ourselves through college, M.S. degrees, had two science fair project fertility clinic kiddos and did not buy a house until we were 33. We had been married for over 13 years before we had our own home. Other family had education paid for, big time home start up help- big time, jobs that bought their existing house and then some when they climbed the ladder in business. They have humungo beautiful homes, and all the perks. We are looked down on and mocked and our children have had the differences in our lifestyles pointed out to them by one side of the family. Don't worry we don't see them anymore.Two years ago I took an extended leave at the unions and Docs advice after whistle blowing the Principal. It put my family in a financial hardship with wageloss and lawyers, Dr.'s etec. and we had almost recovered. Until now, and we don't have the savings we did before. I was frustrated before when we were paying for and education, and now that education and the years dedicated to a profession are lost. I'm scared, I need a break. But, I have we have always made it through on our own, perservered, took the high road, helped others. All will be ok one day-better than before. The old jealousy came back, with this last curve ball, so it didn't consume me then and it won't consume me now.
Paula- Thank you for helping me see again this frustration, because it has been there this past week and I did not see it.

My heart goes out to you as it sounds like you are dealing with a nightmare... I have been pretty fortunate in that my career has been relatively smooth sailing, but I know how quickly that can change. I'll be praying for a quick resolution to these issues in your life. The silver lining to all of this, as my mom puts it, is that I know the value of my education and of everything it gets me. I am not one of those generation x types who expects to have all of these successes showered on them. I know the value of hard work and perserverance and more than a few bosses have told me that they will take those qualities in an employee before anything else...

As frustrating as everything can be, I know that at the end of the day, I can hold my head up high for what I have accomplished. You can too....

Goof...

 

[3DisneyKids]

Umm... so you are hiding this awesome brother of yours... You know, I am only about a 2 hour train ride from Manhattan....

Thanks again and I would expect nothing less than a proud mom comment from you when talking about your children... isn't that a law in the mom code somewhere...

Goof

Not sure where you are, but I grew up in New Paltz...about an hour and half north of the city. Yeah, my big brother is great and spoils my kids and they adore him. Me and the rest of my family, of course, just want him to find someone nice to marry!

Catching up on all the posts from yesterday. Had a 2 hour meeting with Pastor yesterday. Get out of that school, now! I felt hopeful when I left his office. It is the system that is sick. The school, the state, the union, the insurance companies. I need help from a new lawyer. The others fully believe this situation is whack, but fully admit it is out of their practice. My husband wants me to stay in teaching.

to you. Sorry you have to deal with this awful mess! Can you just try to get a job in a different district? There is a great website...you likely already know about it as all teachers seem to...

www.***schools.com

it is a whole listing of K-12 teaching opportunities in each state. Get out and save your sanity. No job is worth your mental health.

 

[chbc]

Bird & Goof- Thank you. This past principal harassment and after the student assault last fall, my body has had it. Therefore, my strength isn't in as much full force as usual. I'm strong. I am spinning right now, but I'm attempting to get my bearings. Your thoughtfulness and kind words are appreciated more than you know. I need a pick me up and this board is here for me. Thank you!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Not sure where you are, but I grew up in New Paltz...about an hour and half north of the city. Yeah, my big brother is great and spoils my kids and they adore him. Me and the rest of my family, of course, just want him to find someone nice to marry!

I am up in the Albany area, so not too far from New Paltz, but a bit further from Maine. One of my girlfriends from college lives outside Portland and I was lucky enough to spend a week one one of the islands of Acadia about four years ago. You definitely have a pretty area to call home... cold, but pretty...

goof

 

[goofyfan-12]

Bird & Goof- Thank you. This past principal harassment and after the student assault last fall, my body has had it. Therefore, my strength isn't in as much full force as usual. I'm strong. I am spinning right now, but I'm attempting to get my bearings. Your thoughtfulness and kind words are appreciated more than you know. I need a pick me up and this board is here for me. Thank you!

We are all here for you....

goof

 

[HockeyKat]

chbc....

So far, so good today. And work has calmed down a lot so that is a good thing.

Estimated my taxes, though, and looks like I will owe this year. Boo.

 

[chbc]

I am listening to Butterfly Kisses! What a beautiful song. My husband and daughter share the same birthday (he says I never need give him another gift after that special day) and I gave him the book on her first birthday. Butterfly kisses- Life is good!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

This is a hard one....

I am with you all on the love of purses (although I tend not to like the designer ones as much) and I'll add the love of shoes...

I try not to be an overly jealous person since frankly, we all have our own issues that make the grass not so green anymore, but I sometimes get frustrated watching those who appear to have everything (great job, great house, great clothes, great spouse, etc) when I don't.

goof

I have a friend who has the perfect life. Perfect husband, adorable house, perfect child, wonderful career that lets her stay at home part time and also do interesting work (wait, I have that, too!). Everything is perfect. They never fight! They have no money issues! They have no debt, no loans, nothing. She spends quality time doing things with her toddler, while I let mine watch Disney movies - she is very disapproving that Emily can quote Cinderella and a host of others.

Oh, and she lost more weight by breastfeeding than she had gained from her pregnancy. Like, she didn't just lose the baby weight she lost more and is thin and didn't even work at it! I'm sure it's due to her perfect food and nutrition and schedule.

Now, you tell me if I'm jealous! Of course I am!

I am not perfect, but I am a perfectionist. But I'm also very let-it-all-hang out and she's not. So we'll never know if it's not perfect, but with me you know when I stub my toe!

So what do I do? I try to remember that her life isn't perfect, that she's just hiding the imperfections. But it's hard. Sometimes I get off the phone with her and just want to cry/scream.

Funny I love purses but not huge into shoes... lol... I only have 4 purses tho so its not like I have 40 lol... I have a classic canvus louis vuitton, a black coach, a brown coach, and a denim patchwork coach... so I'm not as bad as a lot of people...

Four purses??? Um, I'm taking more on vacation this weekend - for four days!!! That's a very controlled love - I'm impressed! I have at least 40!!!

Catching up on all the posts from yesterday. Had a 2 hour meeting with Pastor yesterday. Get out of that school, now! I felt hopeful when I left his office. It is the system that is sick. The school, the state, the union, the insurance companies. I need help from a new lawyer. The others fully believe this situation is whack, but fully admit it is out of their practice. My husband wants me to stay in teaching.

I have my fingers crossed for you that everything works out!

So my jealous friend update - let's call her Lilo - Lilo asked me if I wanted to go for this free spray tan before our vacation. She had two free ones. I said yes. She said, as we were waiting, "I didn't lose the weight, so at least I should look tan."

Wow! I had no idea she was trying to lose weight for this trip - I've never seen any indication of that. So this makes more sense now. I did what I set out to do - I exceeded my goals of being less than last time and my second goal of being under 200. She didn't try but feels like she failed. That makes me feel sad for her. i would have supported her if she had been upfront with me!

Also, my best friend J said to me, "Lilo is very competitive with her sisters, and she will never win with them because her mom is the judge. But to her, you are her other sister, and she's the one judging you two. That's why she is comparing and trying to win."

Again, wow.

Sorry for the long post - I'm happy to be back, even if it is only for one more day!