In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 8...It's Never Too Late To Start Again!

[3DisneyKids]

So I'm at my study group and one of the ladies has asked me to do a tri with her in August.

SO EXCITING! Where is it? What distances? Can I come?

 

[lisaviolet]

Remember when your beautiful shoulders helped you to get #2? You should still be so high from that as well.

 

[lisaviolet]

So I'm at my study group and one of the ladies has asked me to do a tri with her in August.

And? Are ya?

 

[lisaviolet]

Hi all! Went a little over on my calories today but not enough to be kicking myself. (Or kicking myself too hard at least.)

Kind of an emotional day. Been having some trouble getting along with my younger brother who happens to be one of my best friends and today I just broke down crying to my mom about it. He's 25 and I think/hope it's a stage and I kind of think its because of a not so nice girl who is in his life. Any who then I had two ex-boyfriends contact me and they're not the type of guys I should have ever been with and nor should I talk to now. One actually wanted to say sorry, the other wanted me to go see him but both of them just brought back too many memories I was content to forget.

I'm telling myself that tomorrow will be a brighter and better day. I just needed to get that all out I think, thanks all for reading.

Sorry about your brother Megan.

I think that's lovely that someone from your past phoned to say he was sorry. But I hear ya brought up a lot.

Lisa - could you tell me what I look like at goal? I have no freakin clue what my goal is or what I will look like at this point and could use some help...

Ummm. CUTE of course.

My viewing didn't come in a viewing. I could just imagine your satisfaction Paula. The feeling of it around you. However, I did see your hair when I gave it some thought. And it was longer and I said "no no no Paula said her curls don't work longer - oh no no no". . But I guess you're wrong because it looked gorgeous.

But it was clear, it was vivid and it came to me out of the blue. I am certain of it Paula and maybe it's a sign that you need to know that right now. That maybe that's what you need when this "can't get my eating straight" is hitting you in the face. That it is coming.

Yes I realize I should be concentrating on moi.

 

[lisaviolet]

So since we are talking - or me -about some of the emotional junk that comes up when we get smaller.

Well we have this show in Canada - fourth season - called X weighted. Actually we have quite a few Canadian made - this one, Take it Off, Bulging Brides, The Last Ten Pounds Bootcamp (this one is headed by a guy in my graduatiing year at university - he bores me to tears - but Lisa P/R said you're getting that one in the States.

OT - Kat - are you getting PropertyVirgins on HGTV down there?

Okay - back to fitness. X Weighted is head up by this insensitive a$$ non - PC Paul trainer - which makes for great TV watching in our land of PC. Well he just hates whiners.

The first three seasons had a "self esteem" coach as well that comes for a house call. He's not on anymore. They've gone to familes now.

The original three seasons followed one participant through six months and what KILLS me is the socialogical changes that some with the weight. They joke if you want to stay married do not come on the show. There have been many separations and divorces. No counselling to do so of course. Just seems to happen. Many. It's really something. The changes in some of the women and men - through the weight loss - blows up their relationships. Yes, obviously it's blowing up problems that were already there. But it's interesting. They give updates online sometimes it's not during the six months.

Yesterdays rerun was a woman and her husband where they had agreed to have many kids. They had three and then he decided he really didn't like kids (really!!) and he went and had a vasectomy without telling her. And she refused to feel the pain/anger/sadness of that. And just got bigger and bigger. In the beginning she wanted to get back to her "hot body" that her husband longed for. After the six months she decided she wanted it for her. I could write all day about how interesting these transformations are. (They broke up and she married a man with four kids and now she has seven)

Anyway, so interesting.

 

[poppinspal]

Thanks all for your support. I feel a little better today, I at least I feel like maybe this is just temporary and things with my brother will work out soon. I have been lucky to be so close with my siblings (and parents for that matter) so a bigger bump in the road is not the end of the world.

Jo- How'd today go with the kids? Its always tough when the kids wake up so early!

Paula- I think something about your post just clicked for me. Maybe what I'm missing is doing something just for me. I consider running for me but I mean something like a fun workout class or maybe I just need to make more time to read. It also helped to be able to come post here and know that no one is judging me in a bad way.

Erika- Thanks for the reminder of how lucky I am. My sister and I struggle a bit more with our relationship but I think that's still more a product of being almost six years apart and having extreme differences in our likes and dislikes. (She's all pink and barbie. I can be girly but hey I like to be dirty and play sports.) Thanks for the update on Liz as well, I could almost picture myself doing my run in Disney.

Kat-It's actually spelled Megan but please feel free to call me Meg, that's what all my friends call me. Really as long as you're nice you can pretty much call me whatever you want.

Lisa-It was very nice someone said sorry. Today I'm viewing it as just that, something nice that must have taken him a lot to do. I was just negative in general yesterday. That show sounds very interesting. Just from reading what you wrote I was happy to hear that the women found someone who did want a family with her. It is interesting to see how weight loss can change a person's life so much.

Ronda-We just dealt with something really similar with my grandfather. He is home now after a short stay in a nursing home and he now has a nurse who comes to the house to check on him. I know it's hard but all I can say is there are a lot of great people out there who will help in every way they can. So hopefully she will have a quick recovery!

 

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Lisa- yeah we are studying. Using the net and popping on the thread.

E - I have no details yet, but will let you know as soon as I know. All I know is that its for the Y and the swim is in a lake (terrified of the water). Its going to be in Evansville.

 

[lisaviolet]

Lisa- yeah we are studying. Using the net and popping on the thread.

E - I have no details yet, but will let you know as soon as I know. All I know is that its for the Y and the swim is in a lake (terrified of the water). Its going to be in Evansville.

AMIEE! NO! I meant "are you" doing the tri?

 

[lisaviolet]

Thanks all for your support. I feel a little better today, I at least I feel like maybe this is just temporary and things with my brother will work out soon. I have been lucky to be so close with my siblings (and parents for that matter) so a bigger bump in the road is not the end of the world.

Jo- How'd today go with the kids? Its always tough when the kids wake up so early!

Paula- I think something about your post just clicked for me. Maybe what I'm missing is doing something just for me. I consider running for me but I mean something like a fun workout class or maybe I just need to make more time to read. It also helped to be able to come post here and know that no one is judging me in a bad way.

Erika- Thanks for the reminder of how lucky I am. My sister and I struggle a bit more with our relationship but I think that's still more a product of being almost six years apart and having extreme differences in our likes and dislikes. (She's all pink and barbie. I can be girly but hey I like to be dirty and play sports.) Thanks for the update on Liz as well, I could almost picture myself doing my run in Disney.

Kat-It's actually spelled Megan but please feel free to call me Meg, that's what all my friends call me. Really as long as you're nice you can pretty much call me whatever you want.

Lisa-It was very nice someone said sorry. Today I'm viewing it as just that, something nice that must have taken him a lot to do. I was just negative in general yesterday. That show sounds very interesting. Just from reading what you wrote I was happy to hear that the women found someone who did want a family with her. It is interesting to see how weight loss can change a person's life so much.

Ronda-We just dealt with something really similar with my grandfather. He is home now after a short stay in a nursing home and he now has a nurse who comes to the house to check on him. I know it's hard but all I can say is there are a lot of great people out there who will help in every way they can. So hopefully she will have a quick recovery!

Good to hear Megan. That's huge for anyone to admit to being sorry. Major vulnerability.

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Ronda - I was just thinking about you the other day - like where did Ms. medal go?

Sorry to hear about Sue's situation. Sighing. My mom just phoned from Florida and it is so difficult to follow her at times. Like I have to be wide awake and REALLY concentrate.

 

[lisaviolet]

AMIEE! NO! I meant "are you" doing the tri?

I'm still laughing. It took a moment. I read your response and for five seconds I was in la la land.

Too funny.

 

[lisaviolet]

Can you tell I've been trying to avoid Jets and Colts all afternoon.

Paula - Jets?

The screaming at the TV is deafening.

Paula cover your ears. Near the beginning of the game she's screaming " Yes! You're going down Jets. Goodbye Jets".

I walk in a half an hour later at 0-0 with a . She was just TELLING them. No touchdown - she was just telling them.

 

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Oh funny. Said yes to the tri

 

[adsrtw]

And now, some info on the tri.

It's in August (hot and humid). The swim is going to be in a lake. The lady who asked worked a water stand last year and said she saw tons of people walking in the lake instead of swimming. That, I can do. I have a horrible fear of water, especially when it gets in my eyes. The swimming part is 1 mile. The biking part is 20 miles. She is letting me use her extra bike and I already do at least 15, so I am good to go in the biking area. The running part is a 5K, so that is doable.

Sometimes my mouth takes over for my brain and that is what it did today. I didn't think at all before answering.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Paula - is today a long training day for you?

Nancy - this was a recovery week for me, so my long walk was only 4 miles (listen to me - only 4 miles... last year I would have been freaking at the thought of walking 4 miles) Next week is my 8 mile walk.

Have fun painting. I love the texture of the Ralph Lauren suede finish. It is so rich!

Paula - did you recover from working overnight

Aimee - I think I am recovered at this point. I took a nap when I got home from the training session yesterday and then went to bed at my normal time and slept in this morning. Assuming I can fall asleep at my normal time, I should be good to go. Thanks for asking... Studying going well? Very excited abobut your doing a tri! I am still considering it, but want to get through the 1/2 before I take on anything more. (yes, I know I am a wuss here)

Ummm. CUTE of course.

My viewing didn't come in a viewing. I could just imagine your satisfaction Paula. The feeling of it around you. However, I did see your hair when I gave it some thought. And it was longer and I said "no no no Paula said her curls don't work longer - oh no no no". . But I guess you're wrong because it looked gorgeous.

But it was clear, it was vivid and it came to me out of the blue. I am certain of it Paula and maybe it's a sign that you need to know that right now. That maybe that's what you need when this "can't get my eating straight" is hitting you in the face. That it is coming.

Yes I realize I should be concentrating on moi.

Lisa - thanks for sharing this. I am not sure if I am buying the gorgeous long hair on me but it is something to consider. I am sure that I am going to need someone to push me out of fashion / beauty comfort zone at some point since my old look won't work for the new me and all. Now I just need to remember your words.

Paula- I think something about your post just clicked for me. Maybe what I'm missing is doing something just for me. I consider running for me but I mean something like a fun workout class or maybe I just need to make more time to read. It also helped to be able to come post here and know that no one is judging me in a bad way.

Meg - I am glad my words helped a bit. Remember, we are a judgement free zone because crap happens in life. It is how we deal with it that matters. Hang in there!

Can you tell I've been trying to avoid Jets and Colts all afternoon.

Paula - Jets?

The screaming at the TV is deafening.

Paula cover your ears. Near the beginning of the game she's screaming " Yes! You're going down Jets. Goodbye Jets".

I walk in a half an hour later at 0-0 with a . She was just TELLING them. No touchdown - she was just telling them.

Don't worry - I am a Giants fan and since we tanked this season I am over it. Right now, I am unsure if I wan to see the Vikings or the Saints win this game. Tough call...

And now, some info on the tri.

It's in August (hot and humid). The swim is going to be in a lake. The lady who asked worked a water stand last year and said she saw tons of people walking in the lake instead of swimming. That, I can do. I have a horrible fear of water, especially when it gets in my eyes. The swimming part is 1 mile. The biking part is 20 miles. She is letting me use her extra bike and I already do at least 15, so I am good to go in the biking area. The running part is a 5K, so that is doable.

Sometimes my mouth takes over for my brain and that is what it did today. I didn't think at all before answering.

Aimee - you can do this! Will goggles help with the whole water in the eyes thing?

Ronda - sending you and Sue hugs as you go through this. It is not easy caring for a parent. BTW - you still totally rock for finishing the Donald 1/2. It is awesome that you are going to do it again!

E - Is everything all right with Kelly or was it just 'the norm'?

Made it throuh my 4 mile walk this afternoon with no real issues. Spent some time shopping with my sister for some really boring stuff, but did find a pair of shoes that will likely be making the trip to Florida with me.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

AMIEE! NO! I meant "are you" doing the tri?

Lisa - Saints vs. Vikings on right now. We have a bit of couch commentary going on here too!

And now, some info on the tri.

It's in August (hot and humid). The swim is going to be in a lake. The lady who asked worked a water stand last year and said she saw tons of people walking in the lake instead of swimming. That, I can do. I have a horrible fear of water, especially when it gets in my eyes. The swimming part is 1 mile. The biking part is 20 miles. She is letting me use her extra bike and I already do at least 15, so I am good to go in the biking area. The running part is a 5K, so that is doable.

Sometimes my mouth takes over for my brain and that is what it did today. I didn't think at all before answering.

EE - that sounds AWESOME! I'm with you on the water thing. One of my friends asked me to take swimming lessons with her, so we could do a tri this summer. She did a sprint tri last summer and purposely was the very.last.person into the water simply because she is just not a strong swimmer and couldn't bear the thought of all that chaos around her. Of course, she passed people swimming and more while running & biking. So, I'm thinking about it too. After the Princess maybe. It will give me something else to focus on.

And Erika. Not kidding. I still want to do a Muddy Buddy!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Nancy - this was a recovery week for me, so my long walk was only 4 miles (listen to me - only 4 miles... last year I would have been freaking at the thought of walking 4 miles) Next week is my 8 mile walk.

*Only 4 miles* Amazing isn't it? Look how far we've come

 

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I really don't know if goggles will help or not. My issue is completely in my mind. Had a very bad experience as a kid and it has stuck. Mom tried to help me get over it with swim lessons, but it's still haunts me. If I did this alone, I would freak out, but I can get through a mile with a friend. Top it off, she promises that the fish will leave us alone since so many people will be in the water.

Megan - any closure on your brother issue yet?

Nancy - can I get your soap recipe? Serious!

Paula - glad you have recovered!

 

[HockeyKat]

OT - Kat - are you getting PropertyVirgins on HGTV down there?

Of COURSE we do! And of course, I have watched it.


Recovery week? We get one of those?


Okay, E, I know you sent us a spreadsheet. But, I need a level set. This past Saturday I did 8 miles. We have 5 more weeks of training, as the half is 6 weeks from today.

So, what should the plan be for the next 5 weeks? I have a problem for the weekend of the 21st (I generally do long walk/runs on Saturdays) as I have a hockey tournament...

 

[lisaviolet]

Overtime. For for the love of God. But if I was in my 440 sq feet I would be immersed. Totally immersed. 1300 gives a little bit of a cushion.

I actually have a TV room.

Nancy and Paula - she's Saints but has a soft spot for Favre - Lord knows why.

Paula - your hair wasn't long - I misspoke - soothsayer says longer - shoulders. And nice.

 

[lisaviolet]

Paula - Giants. Whoops. That's why I put the I knew it was NY. Sorry about the season. I know you like your football.

I'm getting an OMG - should have just thrown all the way and ended it there. Didn't OT just start?

Yes - Lisa says that's right. Let's end it right there.