Nancy - I totally agree with you in what you said about Paula. Totally. Why can't it just be simple - because I can and because I want to - regarding losing. Totaly agree.
Sorry Paula - I'm talking about you like you're not here.
That's ok, I am used to it from my family... 
But I do think that anyone who had a lot of weight on - some just gain some because of habits but not when it's lifelong and/or a lot. - needs to look at why it came on. Because in truth it is an addiction at that point just like drugs, alcohol etc. Since looking at my past the weight loss is just easier - not easy NOPE - just easier. In fact the first forty or so came off with no thought - it was just a byproduct of my work.
I was thinking about Oprah the other day. She out and out said she has never seen a therapist. And I understand for her the show and good friends have provided that release. However, I couldn't help but think that maybe there is some thought process from her sexual abuse swinging it back and forth still. Maybe. Even her trainer (Bob) will not take clients on unless they know why they got there.
But as for why off - Why can't it just be simple - it's time.
Thanks Paula for opening up with us. See how it helps everyone.
I so got to get off the disboards now.