In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate... Vol. 6: Goddesses just want to have fun

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Details. They just seem so unnecessary

Yeah - but on the other hand, I woulda been EARLY for once in my life

Early for college! Sounds like a plan! I really can't wait to hear about his first few days.


Me too - after the fact! This morning Cake came on my mp3 at the gym - Sheep go to Heaven...and I laughed right out loud at the whole goat rodeo thing. really. the crap I get myself into.



Look at you go, Amy!

30 minutes till "C" time.....

me. Pick me. Yesterday sucked. Today was much better....but....this afternoon I stepped on bee - barefoot. Stung my left foot. THEN. Tonight (barefoot again of course) I dropped a table on my RIGHT foot. I don't think it's broken - but majorly bruised.

Which makes me wonder...Kelly! How are you?

A bee sting on your foot! OMG Nancy! That is torture. Then knocked out your other one??? Wow.

 

[3DisneyKids]

me. Pick me. Yesterday sucked. Today was much better....but....this afternoon I stepped on bee - barefoot. Stung my left foot. THEN. Tonight (barefoot again of course) I dropped a table on my RIGHT foot. I don't think it's broken - but majorly bruised.

Which makes me wonder...Kelly! How are you?

This last part (about Kelly) had me laughing my a$$ off! Though I am sorry about your poor feet!

OMG E! Scary!

No, not really scary. Just startling. This is wildlife country, after all. I mean, we TRY to attract bears remember!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Yep. And I wasn't even drinking tonight Just plain talented I guess.

Can't wait to read next part of your TR....

Erika - 15minutes. Just sayin.

 

[3DisneyKids]

I know, I know...just waiting for this BORING conference call to be over.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

what? You can't plank while on a conference call?

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Then slowly turned and headed back the other direction.

Hi Lar Ious!

 

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Agh, it took forever to get out of the hotel. I wanted to be at Animal Kingdom for rope drop. Well, that didn't happen. I made a big mistake on top of this...requested our tickets to be held at will call. Yep ~ it took forever.

I have to preface this by saying that I am sure Animal Kingdom is a great park. It's just not a great park for us in summer with a huge crowd. I would like to give it another shot in cooler weather.

The Tree of Life was amazing. I could look at it all day. We decided to take in our first show ~ It's tough to be a bug. It was so cute! Ryan and Taylor love 3D.

As far as rides go, Kilimanjaro was our favorite. While Kali came in at a close second! Cool spray on a hot day. I attempted to go on Expedition Everest, but it broke down twice while I was in line (20 min wait). I took that as sign to get out of line.

We spent quite a bit of time at Rafiki's Planet Watch. The petting area was great. And look who we found at the Conservation Station:

The blury edge effect on photo bucket is kinda cool! This was Taylor's first character encounter and it took her a while to warm up enough to take a pic. Ok, ok, she was terrified! Jiminy was awesome. He was making all kinds of sign language signals to me and we had a brief conversation. When we were getting near the end of our chat, the handler talked with Taylor and asked if she wanted to be first to meet with him after his break. Her fears disappeared and she had a wonderful time. Ryan didn't want to meet him because he was more interested in petting the snakes. Boys! The pic is from my phone ~ hope it looks ok.

We took a lunch break and decided to eat at Yak & Yeti. It was really good. The kids had their meals and were happy (I think Disney kids meals are boring, but it's what they wanted). Mom, Aunt Susie, and I split Mandarin Chicken Salad, Beef & Broccoli, & Pot Stickers. We really enjoyed our selection and had a ton of food. The kids helped us eat the pot stickers. I think there were 3, but I think we all only had a 1/2 of one. I highly recommend the salad. The presentation was so pretty! I'm a sucker for artsy fartsy looking food. They had it plated on a beautiful green square plate and topped with rice noodles. The chicken pieces angled out from the noodle mound. I normally don't use dressing on my salad, but the dressing was very good. <I'm a freak, I know> The best way for me to describe it was sweet & sour sauce that was turned into a vinaigrette. Very tasty!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Amiee--SO jealous! We have been trying to get Jiminy for-freaking-ever. You do realize that this is a RARE find?

Core is done. Thanks!

 

[DisneyGalUK]

Good Morning!

Hi!! Today I'm joining your group. You all seem so happy and motivated. I need to be that way, too.

Welcome! Tell us more! There is no such thing as TMI

Heidi -- welcome!! I know ALL about setbacks. In the middle of one myself, in fact!!

Kat - Im right there in the middle of the setback with you

And just because I need one and I bet somebody else does too:

to you too

Which makes me wonder...Kelly! How are you?

Why thank you for asking - as it happens I have a delightful bruise on my leg, left over from the concert I think but I don't know how it got there. And yesterday I banged my hand on my drawer at work so that is bruised too. All in all not a bad week for injuries

The goat rodeo - hilarious!

The concert - we went to see Take That. I dont know if you will have heard of them, but they were THE boyband over here in the 90's. They split in the late 90's and I was heartbroken
Well, in 2006 (I believe) they did a one-off comeback tour which was fantastic. It was so well received that they have got back together permanently and are more successful than they were the first time round
They are my favourite Man-Band (Can't really call them a boyband anymore!) So that was my Concert, just me and 50,000 of my closest screaming friends

 

[AKASnowWhite]

GOOD MORNING ALL!


EE- Jiminy Cricket? Amazing luck! So jealous.

Kelly - sorry to hear of your bruises...


One swollen bee-sting toe and one deep purple ?foot top? but I'm off to the gym. Have to. Been gaining weight at a rather alarming rate

 

[disneysnowflake]

Good morning!! I made it through day 1. Yay!! That first day is the hardest for me.

Anyway, I'll tell you a little about me.

My name is Heidi. I'm fat. I spent most of my life thin. I've struggled with my weight for the past 10 years. I'm married. My oldest son is in college. We saved and saved for years for college, but it still costs so much. My youngest son is 15.

I decided to lose weight in 2004. We were planning our first family Disney trip, and I didn't want my photos to look like crap. I lost about 50 pounds by doing low carb. It worked. My weight started piling on when I got a bread machine as a gift about 10 years ago. I wasn't a bread person, but I sure became one when I got that machine. I was eating warm bread, cinnamon buns, etc. Then I started eating cereal, which I didn't used to do. Lucky Charms, to be exact. Do you know what goes best with Lucky Charms? Bagels with cream cheese. So, you see where this is heading. I packed on the pounds.

After I lost the weight in 2004, I felt so much better. We went to WDW in Dec 2004. I felt great. I looked "normal". After we got home it was just before Christmas, so I allowed myself to enjoy the holiday by eating. By March 2005 I had regained 20 pounds. Then it just snowballed from there.

When we went to WDW in Dec 2007, I was the same weight as I was when I started low carb in 2004. Since then I've put on even more weight. I just didn't care. You can really tell in the photos. I looked like crap. I certainly couldn't walk through the parks as well, either.

Now I'm at the point where I'm huge and embarrassed. My size 1x clothing are too tight, and I refuse to buy anything new. I've got to lose the weight to at least get back into those clothes. What I really want is to get back into my "regular" sized clothing.

My goal is to lose... a lot. I'm too embarrassed to say what my current weight is, or what my total amount I need to lose is.

I've decided to watch my carb intake and my calorie intake. Yesterday was hard since most of my former diet was full of sugar and junk. I'll just take it day by day.

Oh, and I'm a WDW fanatic. We planned to go back this Dec, but with our son in college, we have to wait. That's okay.

I like photography, scrapbooking and paper crafting, animals, drawing, and reading. Today is my miniature schnauzer's 13th birthday. I also have a cat who is almost 12, plus I take care of an outside cat that doesn't belong to us. I love to volunteer.

Today I'm hoping will go well. It seems like forever if I look at how long it's going to take to get this weight off, but I'll just take it day by day.

I'm still trying to catch up reading this thread to get to know all of you.

Thanks for letting me join.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Good morning!! I made it through day 1. Yay!! That first day is the hardest for me.

Whoo hoo on making it through day 1!!!!!

Heidi - I am sending you hugs because you did a very brave thing today by sharing all of that with us.

Now, you know you are not alone in this now right? The great thing about this group is the support you get along the way. It is an amazing thing.

I know you don't want to list your actual weight or how much you have to lose and I totally respect that, but I do want to share something with you. Don't let the numbers game own you. They are just numbers that represent how your body is at that particular moment in time and nothing more. How you feel about yourself is a much better gauge on how you are doing.

Besides, I have a lot of weight to lose to get to where I want to be too. (like another 70 - 80 pounds would be nice ), but I only focus on ten pound increments so that I don't get discouraged or sidetracked. I celebrate those ten pound victories with some new tunes for my ipod and mark the milestones (like 25 pound increments) with a treat like a manicure or a massage. Besides, a 10 - 20 pound loss is noticible in your clothing so you will be looking to buy smaller clothes in no time at all.

Here's to a great day 2!!!!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Good morning...

E - awesome job on the double workouts and for getting the core workout in. Loved the story about the moose.

Nancy - sorry to hear about the foot issues. Hope you are feeling better today.

Kelly - sounds like the concert was a good one. Glad you had fun!

Kat - Aren't we supposed to be training buddies for the 1/2? Any ideas on where to start?

Lyz - Hope having the hubby in the office yesterday wasn't too bad.

Liz - How is the tracking going today?

Amy - you are the official racing queen you know. And Lyz calls me the freakshow. I have a lot of ground to cover to catch up to you.

Amiee - loving the trip report! That picture is precious.

Heidi - Hope day 2 is going well for you so far!

Hi Ronda, Roddy, Sunny, Dawn and everyone else I may have missed....

Not much going on here today. Went to dinner with my mom and sister and a few friends at a recently renovated restaurant. Good food, but took way too long. I had to leave just after I finished eating to make it to my training session. Had a great workout with Jesse last night and came up with a game plan to get me to race day. Glad he is on top of these things because I have no clue. Got home from the gym and promptly fell asleep. Guess I was a bit tired. Still dragging today and am off in search of some caffiene to rev me up.

Hope everyone has a great day!!!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

The concert - we went to see Take That. I dont know if you will have heard of them, but they were THE boyband over here in the 90's. They split in the late 90's and I was heartbroken
Well, in 2006 (I believe) they did a one-off comeback tour which was fantastic. It was so well received that they have got back together permanently and are more successful than they were the first time round
They are my favourite Man-Band (Can't really call them a boyband anymore!) So that was my Concert, just me and 50,000 of my closest screaming friends

OMG!!! (Jumps up and down like a little girl) "Whatever I did, whatever I said, I didn't mean it, I just want you back for good. Want you back, want you back, waaaaaant you back for good."

I was OBSESSED with Take That in the spring of 1995. They played them all the TIME in London. I bought the CD, the magazines - oh, yes, I did - and then at the very end of June I came home. January to June, British radio. Home? No one has ever heard of them. And thinks I am insane.

How ARE they? I need to google them. Do they look cute? Are the new songs any good? Or do they just play the old stuff. OMG. I adored them. Adored!

Good morning!! I made it through day 1. Yay!! That first day is the hardest for me.

Anyway, I'll tell you a little about me.

My name is Heidi. I'm fat. I spent most of my life thin. I've struggled with my weight for the past 10 years. I'm married. My oldest son is in college. We saved and saved for years for college, but it still costs so much. My youngest son is 15.

I decided to lose weight in 2004. We were planning our first family Disney trip, and I didn't want my photos to look like crap. I lost about 50 pounds by doing low carb. It worked. My weight started piling on when I got a bread machine as a gift about 10 years ago. I wasn't a bread person, but I sure became one when I got that machine. I was eating warm bread, cinnamon buns, etc. Then I started eating cereal, which I didn't used to do. Lucky Charms, to be exact. Do you know what goes best with Lucky Charms? Bagels with cream cheese. So, you see where this is heading. I packed on the pounds.

After I lost the weight in 2004, I felt so much better. We went to WDW in Dec 2004. I felt great. I looked "normal". After we got home it was just before Christmas, so I allowed myself to enjoy the holiday by eating. By March 2005 I had regained 20 pounds. Then it just snowballed from there.

When we went to WDW in Dec 2007, I was the same weight as I was when I started low carb in 2004. Since then I've put on even more weight. I just didn't care. You can really tell in the photos. I looked like crap. I certainly couldn't walk through the parks as well, either.

Now I'm at the point where I'm huge and embarrassed. My size 1x clothing are too tight, and I refuse to buy anything new. I've got to lose the weight to at least get back into those clothes. What I really want is to get back into my "regular" sized clothing.

My goal is to lose... a lot. I'm too embarrassed to say what my current weight is, or what my total amount I need to lose is.

I've decided to watch my carb intake and my calorie intake. Yesterday was hard since most of my former diet was full of sugar and junk. I'll just take it day by day.

Oh, and I'm a WDW fanatic. We planned to go back this Dec, but with our son in college, we have to wait. That's okay.

I like photography, scrapbooking and paper crafting, animals, drawing, and reading. Today is my miniature schnauzer's 13th birthday. I also have a cat who is almost 12, plus I take care of an outside cat that doesn't belong to us. I love to volunteer.

Today I'm hoping will go well. It seems like forever if I look at how long it's going to take to get this weight off, but I'll just take it day by day.

I'm still trying to catch up reading this thread to get to know all of you.

Thanks for letting me join.

Heidi, thank you for sharing all of that. I love how you wrote it - very honest and matter of fact. I bet it's hard to go from being thin to fighting your weight. I was never ever skinny, or thin, although I probably was in reality. Point is, I didn't need to adjust my mind-set in the same way. Like Kat says, I will have to watch my weight, what I put in my mouth, for the rest of my life. But I didn't go from thin to omg, the hell? And I bet that's a hard struggle on it's own.

Heidi - I am sending you hugs because you did a very brave thing today by sharing all of that with us.

Now, you know you are not alone in this now right? The great thing about this group is the support you get along the way. It is an amazing thing.

I know you don't want to list your actual weight or how much you have to lose and I totally respect that, but I do want to share something with you. Don't let the numbers game own you. They are just numbers that represent how your body is at that particular moment in time and nothing more. How you feel about yourself is a much better gauge on how you are doing.

Besides, I have a lot of weight to lose to get to where I want to be too. (like another 70 - 80 pounds would be nice ), but I only focus on ten pound increments so that I don't get discouraged or sidetracked. I celebrate those ten pound victories with some new tunes for my ipod and mark the milestones (like 25 pound increments) with a treat like a manicure or a massage. Besides, a 10 - 20 pound loss is noticible in your clothing so you will be looking to buy smaller clothes in no time at all.

Here's to a great day 2!!!!

I echo what Paula says here. Not about the manicures, because that's just upkeep for me but about the numbers and the weight.

You are not what you weigh. Each of us has started at what is/was a scary number for us. I'm 5' 7" and my highest (non pregnant) was 237lbs. I was a size 20. I got down to 160/ size 10 and then, since Christmas, have been on a steady gain. I had 80lbs to lose when I started, maybe more, because I wasn't sure where to stop or how I'd look at different weights. (I have slightly more realistic goals now, you see. )

Now I'm happy to get to 157, a size 10, and call it a day!

You could put me next to my dear friend Erika, and her heaviest is my thin weight. But that doesn't matter. I'm not Erika. She's not me. (She's 3DisKids, in case you have not memorized all of us yet.) We might share a brain, but we sure as heck don't share a body. Although if you combined her legs and my upper body it would be pretty sweet. Anyhoo, I can't judge myself against her. It would be crazy to do that!

I can't even judge myself against Kat, who is taller and we tend to weigh the same but gain in different places. Or Lyz, who shares my body type. Nope, it's a one-woman show here, and for those of us who have spent their life in metaphors and similes, that's hard. Comparison is our game, but we have to stop playing it.

So. If you ever do want to share numbers, don't be embarrassed. No judgment here.

Good morning...

E - awesome job on the double workouts and for getting the core workout in. Loved the story about the moose.

Nancy - sorry to hear about the foot issues. Hope you are feeling better today.

Kelly - sounds like the concert was a good one. Glad you had fun!

Kat - Aren't we supposed to be training buddies for the 1/2? Any ideas on where to start?

Lyz - Hope having the hubby in the office yesterday wasn't too bad.

Liz - How is the tracking going today?

Amy - you are the official racing queen you know. And Lyz calls me the freakshow. I have a lot of ground to cover to catch up to you.

Amiee - loving the trip report! That picture is precious.

Heidi - Hope day 2 is going well for you so far!

Hi Ronda, Roddy, Sunny, Dawn and everyone else I may have missed....

Not much going on here today. Went to dinner with my mom and sister and a few friends at a recently renovated restaurant. Good food, but took way too long. I had to leave just after I finished eating to make it to my training session. Had a great workout with Jesse last night and came up with a game plan to get me to race day. Glad he is on top of these things because I have no clue. Got home from the gym and promptly fell asleep. Guess I was a bit tired. Still dragging today and am off in search of some caffiene to rev me up.

Hope everyone has a great day!!!

Day three is good so far, thanks for asking Paula! Can we please please see some new pics of you, doll?

 

[DisneyGalUK]

OMG!!! (Jumps up and down like a little girl) "Whatever I did, whatever I said, I didn't mean it, I just want you back for good. Want you back, want you back, waaaaaant you back for good."

I was OBSESSED with Take That in the spring of 1995. They played them all the TIME in London. I bought the CD, the magazines - oh, yes, I did - and then at the very end of June I came home. January to June, British radio. Home? No one has ever heard of them. And thinks I am insane.

How ARE they? I need to google them. Do they look cute? Are the new songs any good? Or do they just play the old stuff. OMG. I adored them. Adored!

Oh my heck, I LOVE you!

They are FANTASTIC - better than the first time round. They are so gorgeous now, definitely better with age You MUST google them!

The new songs are great, they have had two new albums since they reformed - Beautiful World and The Circus. They do still play some of the old stuff at the concerts, and they even did a few of the old dance routines! It was great!

 

[goofyfan-12]

I echo what Paula says here. Not about the manicures, because that's just upkeep for me but about the numbers and the weight.

You are not what you weigh. Each of us has started at what is/was a scary number for us. I'm 5' 7" and my highest (non pregnant) was 237lbs. I was a size 20. I got down to 160/ size 10 and then, since Christmas, have been on a steady gain. I had 80lbs to lose when I started, maybe more, because I wasn't sure where to stop or how I'd look at different weights. (I have slightly more realistic goals now, you see. )

Now I'm happy to get to 157, a size 10, and call it a day!

You could put me next to my dear friend Erika, and her heaviest is my thin weight. But that doesn't matter. I'm not Erika. She's not me. (She's 3DisKids, in case you have not memorized all of us yet.) We might share a brain, but we sure as heck don't share a body. Although if you combined her legs and my upper body it would be pretty sweet. Anyhoo, I can't judge myself against her. It would be crazy to do that!

I can't even judge myself against Kat, who is taller and we tend to weigh the same but gain in different places. Or Lyz, who shares my body type. Nope, it's a one-woman show here, and for those of us who have spent their life in metaphors and similes, that's hard. Comparison is our game, but we have to stop playing it.

So. If you ever do want to share numbers, don't be embarrassed. No judgment here.




Day three is good so far, thanks for asking Paula! Can we please please see some new pics of you, doll?

WORD!!! These words are so true...

I have always been fat so I don't know how to handle being thin and then not being thin. I am watching my sister deal with that and feel totally powerless to help her because I can't relate.

I know I struggled with being huge and then not being so huge when I hit my 50 pound mark. I didn't recognize myself in the mirror and didn't feel comfortable in my own skin and that freaked me out. I started at a scary number that began with a 3 and was a size 28... Happy to report that I am now at about 245 and a size 22 quickly heading for a size 20. I don't know what my 'happy weight' will be, but I know that I am not stopping until the first number of my weight is a 1! From there, I am going to let my body tell me where to stop. Of course, if my trainer has his way, I won't stop until I get to 150. Not sure if that is achievable yet, but not totally dismissing it either. Just taking a we'll see attitude for now.

Kat did say it best when she said that this is a battle I have to face every day no matter what. All I can say is that right now, I have my armor on and am ready for battle, but I remember times when I couldn't say that (anyone remember 2008?). Sounds like there are others here who can say the same...

Liz - I'll post more pics once I have some taken... like an idiot, I forgot to bring my camera to VT last weekend. I'll see what I can do this weekend.

Paula

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Good morning!! I made it through day 1. Yay!! That first day is the hardest for me.

Day one down. Nice job.

Thanks for telling us about yourself! I can totally relate to the love affair with warm, fresh, home made bread. That is one of my major weaknesses. And wine. That's another! I look and feel SO much better when those two things don't show up frequently in my daily intake.

Don't let the numbers game own you. They are just numbers that represent how your body is at that particular moment in time and nothing more. How you feel about yourself is a much better gauge on how you are doing.

Perfect post, Paula



Went to the gym. Had a lack-luster workout I'm like a train wreck today. But - so far I haven't screwed up my eating



Liz- how's Em liking camp?

 

[AKASnowWhite]

This morning I was listening to the radio on the way to the gym. The author of "Moose: A Memoir of Fat Camp" was on. OMG was she hysterical. Anyway - she was talking about her book that relates her struggles as an overweight teen, and now her life as a healthy, fit mother of twin girls. In just that 5 minute interview she hit upon so many things that hit home for me. I may have to read her book....

 

[3DisneyKids]

Heidi! Thank you so much for sharing all of that with us! You have gotten some wonderful words from Paula and Liz, so I won't repeat them, other than to say WORD. (Which is what we say around here when we agree! How it got started, I don't know. Just being slap-happy some night I suppose.)

Anyway, we have a few folks around here who want to lose 100+ pounds (or did at the start of their journey), so don't worry about that. You are among kindred spirits here. Whether someone needs to lose 20 or 200 pounds, we all understand the struggle. We get you.

I'll post some before and "in progress" pics of some of us, if that will help as motivation.

And LIZ! OMG, yes we share a brain but wouldn't it be GREAT to share the bod as well? OMG, your upper body with my legs? FAB!

Nancy and Kelly--sorry about the bruises! I always have bruises I can't explain.

And Kelly!!! Haven't you learned that you can't talk about bands around Liz??? Now she won't let this drop, you know. She is going to be going on and on and on about them...

Paula! You are our resident rock star!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Here is my before...the picture that sent me screaming to this thread:

And here is me this past fall, though I am about 5 pounds up from this right now (and still had 10 to go in the picture):

And this is LIZ:

Paula has some incredible before and during pics that she should post (daily! cause they are so amazing)!

And here is Paula and me an Narc's last December:

And Liz and Kat...

Yes, we met up to celebrate our successes and wear tiaras around the World...