In Search of my Body...Not The One I Ate.. #4 "Inspiring Others... 1 Tiara at a Time"

[3DisneyKids]

Liz is right. Yes, healthy food is a big issue with me. It has been for years and years. But that is the thing...it is MY issue and I have no business pushing it on others.

I am the first one to say (and how many times have I said it???) that we all need to start with baby steps. We can't start doing everything from day one or it is a recipe for failure and heartache.

And I am so so so far from perfect. I mean, I have been needing to lose the same freaking 15 pounds for like 6 months now. If I was doing everything right, then those 15 pounds would have been gone in June and I would be at goal and all of the rest.

So clearly, I have my own crap to deal with.

So for everyone who is working her program in whole or in part...GO! Excellent! You are on the right path...and it is YOUR path. Not mine and not anyone else's.

Ok, I now have to go out in the snow (still snowing here) and dark to pick up my kid from snowboarding. And I am sure that I am going to have to sit in my car for ages waiting as the bus will likely be late due to said snow.

 

[HockeyKat]

Amy, sorry you aren't feeling well.

E, get that 2nd workout in yet?


Oh, when I am off, my food choices would curdle E's vampiric lack of soul. Really.

I can't even tell you the quantity of junk I can consume. It is staggering.

And you do have to start somewhere. It has taken me years to get to the point where I bulk my food up with veggies. Since this is confession time... I do this as much to feel FULL, and get as much food for my calories, as I do to be healthy. If all I had were two small meals, even if they only added to 1200 cals, I would be ready to punch someone by 8PM. Really.

But this week, I went into multiple health food stores to find tofu noodles. TOFU NOODLES!!

Veggies are definitely more expensive, but I will freely admit to buying non-organic, SuperWalmart veggies, and sometimes frozen ones as well. I have gone completely away from frozen meals... $2-3 here, and that can buy 1 romaine lettuce, an onion, a cucumber, and salad dressing.

I finally did find the tofu noodles, btw, at Earth Fare. The non-tofu ones that I got at the Asian market, I am eating now and they are GOOD (they taste and texture like thin rice noodles which I LOVE). The Asian market also had cheap veggies. I hear the farmers markets do as well but the one here isn't that close to me.

So tonight I made the following:
1 boneless pork chop and cut it up (240 cals), added frozen artichoke hearts (25), broccoli, zucchini, onion, spinach, 2 mushrooms (~30 total for all, likely), 1/4 cup roasted red pepper alfredo (80), and 1 tbsp parmesan (25) and 1/2 pack shirataki noodles. Total, 400 cals, 5g carb.

It filled a whole dinner plate and was yummy and filling.

 

[adsrtw]

Hey Everybody! I hope all is well!

I wrote down everything I have had so far today ~ going to figure out a way to track it. I wore a shirt today that I bought a year or more ago without trying on (it didn't fit back then and still had the tags, lol). It's bright turquoise blue with a peasant collar, can't believe it but I even got a few compliments.

Well, I am off again to catch up.

 

[adsrtw]

PAULA!!!!! That is so AWESOME!!!!! (Yes, I'm yelling, how freaking exciting. You are on a roll now.)

Kat - love the pictures, and NHL arena!!! Holy smokes HockeyKat! Yaaay.

EriKa - size 4 - all you gals who are "on" are seeing the results of your efforts.

Amiee - I am facinated by your past. Very interesting reading. Sorry you had to go thru all that. Did you know I hate men? Just ask any of the oldies. They'll tell you.

Nothing exciting to report. I'm accomplishing things and on target mind wise. Yaay for me.

Layta.

Hi Lyz, I have learned so much from my past. I have to think positive though, if it hadn't have happened, I might be stuck in a miserable situaton. Who knows? Nope, I didn't know that you hate men. Do tell, I am intrigued.

 

[adsrtw]

Frustrating day today.

I was supposed to have a training session this morning. My partner & I arrived to discover the trainer has the flu and had to cancel. She didn't have our phone #'s at home with her for some reason or other - so we didn't find out until we got to the gym.

Ok. Fine. No big deal really. Except that we wouldn't have gotten up at some God-awful hour to get there for a 7:00 session. We kicked each others butts instead. I was at the gym a full 2 hours. Awesome workout. My day is looking up!

Then I get home. There's a message on my machine. They are closing school EARLY due to "impending inclement weather". Once again, another week where my kids don't have a full week of classes. This is getting really old.

Enough complaining - off to read what I've missed from last night/this morning.

Nancy, you have my sympathy! You need your kids to have a full week of uninterupted school.

As far as the trainer goes...

Isn't this the 2nd time this happened? Maybe I am just smokin'. Awesome that you were able to have a 2 hour workout.

 

[lisaviolet]

Oh Lisa, if you only knew me a few short years ago, you would be so surprised. I was a doormat to be walked on. Did not have the outlook I have now (even though I am terrified still of rejection).

Luckily, I don't talk with her much at all. The only time I spoke with her, other than to answer yes and no questions, was at an Easter egg hunt at my church two years ago. It was either the anniversary of her baby sister's death or her baby sister's birthday ~ I forget which. She was a wreck and I was feeling extra moved by the spirit (some might say it was possession). It took everything I had (and my pastor's direct conversation and his wife's motherly talks to get me through it). I forgave both of them that very day. That is a huge discussion in itself. It took 5 tons off my shoulders. Anyway back to now. I have known her since we were 13 years old (20 years!). I know her mannerisms and I truely feel she avoids me because of guilt. She is financially stuck with him now, lol. I am not mean or nice to her. I am Switzerland with her.

Now, this doesn't mean that I wouldn't like to pull out her curly red hair on occassion. I am human.

I want to highlight this by itself. I'm in tears Amiee. I just can't imagine what you went through. I would have been a puddle or psycho. Probably a combination of the two.

So listen Switzerland. I am so in awe of your strength. So incredibly in awe.

Of course she feels guilt. How could she not? How could she flippin' not.

I think about you a lot. You are an inspiration Amiee. An absolute inspiration to me.

 

[HockeyKat]

Hey Everybody! I hope all is well!

I wrote down everything I have had so far today ~ going to figure out a way to track it. I wore a shirt today that I bought a year or more ago without trying on (it didn't fit back then and still had the tags, lol). It's bright turquoise blue with a peasant collar, can't believe it but I even got a few compliments.

Well, I am off again to catch up.

Amiee, I use sparkpeople.com. It is free and easy. I am by a computer all day, though, so it could just be that it is easy for me!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi All,

Dawn - you are doing really well with the tracking. Like Liz said, you are eating real meals now instead of just calories. So proud of you for that. Stick with it. It does get easier. Give yourself some time to build new habits and then it will be second nature for you. Again, so proud of you for the steps you are taking. Awareness is the first step right? BTW - Ace is too cute.

Erika - Hope the kids had fun at snowboarding and you didn't have to wait for the bus too long.

Liz - what great advice you gave. I am all about the mental game right now since once you have that down, the rest falls into place.

Lyz - Miss you girl. When will those taxes be done???

LisaV - glad you checked in. Dry those tears - please?

Nancy - have the kids driven you insane yet?

LisaPR - How are the girls you are training doing?

LisaZ - hi....

Amiee - Congrats on the shirt. That is awesom. Congrats on the tracking too. It is not always pretty to read, but it is important.

Amy - feel better... Awesome news about the trip though.

Steph - where are you???

Stacey - hope all is well.

Kelly - sleep tight and be careful on that ice. No more falling - promise?

Made it through my workout, but it was a struggle. I am still fighting that cold and tonight it hit. Pushed through and it was a good workout (Nancy - lots of push ups... I am going to start channeling GI Jane soon - without the head shaving though). Making progress and new exercises are coming my way on Thursday. Jesse pointed out that I always come to my workouts motivated and ready to go. I owe that to you all. Thanks!!!

Have a great night everyone,
Paula

 

[adsrtw]

What are you using to track?

I have no clue yet. Might just count calories, carbs, protein and fat. I am open to suggestions.

Go cut a 14" ribbon for yourself and hang it from the fridge and get one for your key chain! that is a huge amount...so proud of your accomplishments!

Great idea!

I have the best mechanic joke...
Why do Mechanics make the best lovers?

Because they like to lie on their back and fiddle with things for hours!

I love it! Love the puppy pics!

He is a super cute puppy!

Good cereal is key. Breakfast, a real one, really helps.

Sunny, hi. You asked about WW and getting your points in. I am of the mind that you should try to eat all your daily points - now if you have a splurge day and eat some weekly ones, so be it. Then maybe your daily aren't so critical. But your body needs those daily points to lose! So, to get more in, eat a fruit with every meal. With breakfast, a cup of blueberries. With lunch, a cup of strawberries. An apple for snack. Etc. And veggies, of course, at lunch and dinner. But adding the fruits and some more veggies will add up points, fill you up, and give you vitamins, fiber, etc.

I am making sauce for dinner with leftover veggies from Super Bowl. Tomatoes, some peppers, garlic. Olive oil. All simmering on the stove. I love homemade sauce and it's so easy! I prepped it all while on the phone with Lyz!

Someone mentioned pasta. I do whole wheat - Whole Foods has a good one, as does Bionature - mixed with some of the Barilla Plus. Nick loves the Barilla Plus. We buy the thinnest whole wheat available, and I never miss the regular pasta. Honestly, it holds nothing for me. And believe you me, I loved nothing more than sitting on the couch on a cold night and eating a huge bowl of pasta. So if I can switch, anyone can!

Liz, you are so right! A good breakfast was key to my early success.

Hey Ladies:

Paula: WTG on the weight loss and inches lost!

Dawn:Cute puppy!

Kat:Loved the hockey pics and that is SO cool that you get to play in the hurricanes arena. Awesome.

LisaZ-WTG on getting the exercise in!

Erika: Great News about the Size 4's!

Nancy:Sounds like your workout was awesome even without your teacher there!

LisaV,LisaPR,Lyz,Liz,Sunny,Amiee

As for me, yesterday and today were totally blah days. Delena has been running a low grade fever and I just felt super tired and kind of achey. So we've spent alot of time cuddling! I skipped C25K yesterday, but did it today and will do it again tomorrow along with some strength/core. That should get me back on track exercise wise for this week. I also tracked today, came in around 1100-1200 or so. But since I was feeling kind of icky, my eating was off and not necessarily what a normal day would have been. I may post my food specifics at the end of week. Drank TONS of water.

Uh oh Amy, sounds like you are coming down with something. You have my sympathy (especially with a little one!).

Amy, I am sorry you're not feeling well! I totally missed that. I hope you feel better soon.

Dawn, I am going to disagree with Erika here. Or if not disagree, then air my point of view.

I am SUPER proud of you for eating meals. This is huge for you! And I want you to be proud of it. And I want you to be able to post your food, no matter what it looks like. Treats, for instance. I have a treat every day. Is that the best way to go? Maybe not, but it works for me. What doesn't work is FIVE treats a day - and I've done that and look at my ticker - weight gain.

This is personal for me. I have spent a fair part of my life trying to be perfect. Always always Perfect. It's impossible, and it doesn't make me happy. It doesn't last. I have to be real, and real is not perfect.

You have not always owned your choices, but you are making baby steps to own them now. Writing down your food - huge. Owning what you eat - huge. Owning WHY you eat it - that's another step, that maybe you are in the process of taking. I am still learning to do that. Owning not being perfect - go for it. Be honest. That's what counts, that's what works.

For me, anyway.

Lisa V, where are you? I feel like I am channeling you now. xoxo.

This really spoke to me! I constantly beat myself up for not being perfect.

I know! I have Skyler and Ace. My world is good.

I do want more veggies and fruits. I enjoy them a lot. Yet at the homestead right now is unripe plums and bananas. These kids I have eat me out of house and home which is a good thing esp. when it comes to fresh veggies and fruits but my food budget is going to have to do some alterations.

I hate wasting food an so usually I tend to eat whatever is leftover.
Hence many times the same food many days in a row.


Liz - I get it. Went to KFC today and ate lunch and looked at the calories I used up and then compared it to what I would have eaten even last month. For me, writing the info down and posting is huge because I did not love myself enough to do it just for me. I feel accountable to you all and in doing that am learning to love me. Posting will not always be pretty. I noticed lack of protein yesterday and like E pointed out - no fruits or veggies. Not my best food plan but better and the betters will someday add up to being the best. For me. there will probably be no perfect food day. I just want them to be enough that I can look in the mirror and not hate the person looking back.

I want to be proud of the steps I am taking to get to her and I do appreciate what E notices about how and where I can do better. She takes care of herself and her food choices meticulously better than I do. I am just not there yet.

She would dig her own grave if I ever was able to post a day in the life of an old Dawn!

Ummm...did I ever confess to going through a drive thru and pretending I was ordering for a kid or Chad or whoever and not just me so getting a double bacon cheeseburger and chicken sandwich heavy mayo was not so appalling? Cause I have and I remember clearly gorging on those 2 huge sandwiches to the point of nearly vomiting in the car. Pulling over and wanting to die for what I was doing to myself.

So the merge of the new and the old will be one of great growth and strength. I at the end of the day need to choose better. I grew up starving myself because under 100 pounds was being a gymnast. Being under 100 pounds meant looking pretty. I think I was so scared of food for so many years that I am just now learning a healthy relationship with it. I went from one extreme to the next and now, I need to learn amounts and types. More than learn...accept food and not run from it or to it. Just walk with it.

That is my goal.

Sorry for the detail. Maybe too much for some of you. It is my life with food though. That is the reality of it.

Not too much detail at all. I am glad that you are comfortable to share this. It is very personal. I did the drive thru thing too (ordering way to much for just me and eating every single crumb, then feeling just horrible about it).

It's not too much.

Listen, I was 237 lbs. I am not going to lie and say I always ate well, etc etc. Because of course I didn't. Of course I had and sometimes still have, an imperfect relationship with food. I am still a work in progress, and thank God for that.

Like you said, it's your reality. And honestly, if you are honest I cannot fault you. I strive to be honest, to see myself as I am. I was walking around last week, feeling fat and ridiculous at 175. Now, come on. I'm not fat. I'm not as skinny as I was, but I'm not fat, either. So it goes both ways. Denial of the fat, denial of the progress. Lisa V, again, I am channeling you here.

I'm not slamming Erika, either. She is one of my best friends and I love her. And she's right. Of course she is. I just think that maybe you need to start where you are. Not where I am, or E is, or Paula is. Where Dawn is.

And me, well, I'm never going to live up to anyone else's expectations of me. I can only do what I can in that moment. I'd love to get to the point where I never turned to food for comfort or escape. I'd love to naturally eat better. But I will take consciously eating better, and recognizing my choices for what they are.


I liked this:

"Not my best food plan but better and the betters will someday add up to being the best. For me. there will probably be no perfect food day. I just want them to be enough that I can look in the mirror and not hate the person looking back."

This is what this board was, a year ago. This type of confession and support.

No, you will never have a perfect food day. A really good one, sure, and a string of really good ones. But not perfect. And that's okay.

Who wants to be perfect, anyway? Soooo boring!

Awesome post!

Amy, sorry you aren't feeling well.

E, get that 2nd workout in yet?


Oh, when I am off, my food choices would curdle E's vampiric lack of soul. Really.

I can't even tell you the quantity of junk I can consume. It is staggering.

And you do have to start somewhere. It has taken me years to get to the point where I bulk my food up with veggies. Since this is confession time... I do this as much to feel FULL, and get as much food for my calories, as I do to be healthy. If all I had were two small meals, even if they only added to 1200 cals, I would be ready to punch someone by 8PM. Really.

But this week, I went into multiple health food stores to find tofu noodles. TOFU NOODLES!!

Veggies are definitely more expensive, but I will freely admit to buying non-organic, SuperWalmart veggies, and sometimes frozen ones as well. I have gone completely away from frozen meals... $2-3 here, and that can buy 1 romaine lettuce, an onion, a cucumber, and salad dressing.

I finally did find the tofu noodles, btw, at Earth Fare. The non-tofu ones that I got at the Asian market, I am eating now and they are GOOD (they taste and texture like thin rice noodles which I LOVE). The Asian market also had cheap veggies. I hear the farmers markets do as well but the one here isn't that close to me.

So tonight I made the following:
1 boneless pork chop and cut it up (240 cals), added frozen artichoke hearts (25), broccoli, zucchini, onion, spinach, 2 mushrooms (~30 total for all, likely), 1/4 cup roasted red pepper alfredo (80), and 1 tbsp parmesan (25) and 1/2 pack shirataki noodles. Total, 400 cals, 5g carb.

It filled a whole dinner plate and was yummy and filling.

Sounds yummy. I bought two packages and have yet to try them. Just haven't had time yet.

 

[adsrtw]

I want to highlight this by itself. I'm in tears Amiee. I just can't imagine what you went through. I would have been a puddle or psycho. Probably a combination of the two.

So listen Switzerland. I am so in awe of your strength. So incredibly in awe.

Of course she feels guilt. How could she not? How could she flippin' not.

I think about you a lot. You are an inspiration Amiee. An absolute inspiration to me.

Thank you so much Lisa! That means alot to me. Trust me when I say that I was not always calm and collected. I went from both puddle to psycho in seconds! In fact many times during it, I thought I was losing my mind. I threw myself into my job while I was there and then at home would become a zombie.

One thing that I haven't shared though is what I went through is really a huge driving force for my weight loss effort. It is so mental for me! My ex constantly would degrade me because of my weight. I didn't deserve to have somebody who loved me for what I was (then). Now, I know I still have a way to go, but my inner self knows that I do deserve to have that and more (the real part that I know is lurking down deep). Just scared of the unknown. The old way is really all that I know.

 

[HockeyKat]

I have no clue yet. Might just count calories, carbs, protein and fat. I am open to suggestions.

I am counting all of the above. Trying to keep calories to 1200, carbs to 20, protein above 70, and fat wherever it falls.

However, I am only restricting carbs for the month of Feb, as a jump start. My husband wants to try this and I am willing to do anything to get him on board. I may not do the carb restriction for hockey weekend as it may kill me.

I am also not counting fiber from any plant source. So all the green veggies I can stand! (except peas)

 

[adsrtw]

Amiee, I use sparkpeople.com. It is free and easy. I am by a computer all day, though, so it could just be that it is easy for me!

I will have to check it out! Thanks!

 

[HockeyKat]

Thank you so much Lisa! That means alot to me. Trust me when I say that I was not always calm and collected. I went from both puddle to psycho in seconds! In fact many times during it, I thought I was losing my mind. I threw myself into my job while I was there and then at home would become a zombie.

One thing that I haven't shared though is what I went through is really a huge driving force for my weight loss effort. It is so mental for me! My ex constantly would degrade me because of my weight. I didn't deserve to have somebody who loved me for what I was (then). Now, I know I still have a way to go, but my inner self knows that I do deserve to have that and more (the real part that I know is lurking down deep). Just scared of the unknown. The old way is really all that I know.

We will help you find your way.

 

[lisaviolet]

I really want to rock this challenge.


Paula

And rock you are and will.

.


Okay, here comes the fun/exciting/scary part of my day. We found out at practice tonight that our first game of the tournament (which is against another team in the Raleigh women's hockey organization that I belong to) has been moved... to an NHL arena!!!

So flippin' exciting. That's me wishing I was on my way to see that!!!

Good morning everyone!!
Instead of getting up at 3 though, you will be getting up at 4. Pencil it in. If you go, I will make every effort in the world to be there too.

Have a great day everyone!!!

Do you guys get any sleep on these days? My goodness - I simply can't imagine.

Lisa - I thought Shelby's Kat comment was so cute.

I meant to tell you I was sorry about your MIL as well Kelly. Sorry.

Good Morning!

Paula - Congrats on the lost pounds and inches! I think I might have to find a tape measure and do that.

Monday
Points 26
Water 6

Need to work on water today and make sure I get all of my points in. Seems like if I don't eat something that isn't really good for me I have a really hard time making it to 28 points.


Hope everyone has a good day.

Hi Sunny. You should get out the measuring tape. When I was getting this place organized I found some measurements for the middle of my weight loss - a couple of years ago. I'm going to get it back out and see.

P.S. I am wearing my size 4 jeans today. They are a bit snug, but not too bad. Also just out of the wash, so I am going to wear them for a bit and see if I can actually put them back in circulation!

That just makes me smile. I bet you look cute.

PAULA!!!!! That is so AWESOME!!!!! (Yes, I'm yelling, how freaking exciting. You are on a roll now.)

Kat - love the pictures, and NHL arena!!! Holy smokes HockeyKat! Yaaay.

EriKa - size 4 - all you gals who are "on" are seeing the results of your efforts.

Amiee - I am facinated by your past. Very interesting reading. Sorry you had to go thru all that. Did you know I hate men? Just ask any of the oldies. They'll tell you.

Nothing exciting to report. I'm accomplishing things and on target mind wise. Yaay for me.

Layta.

Me and you - endlessly fascinated. Endlessly. Jean is so not. I ask her aobut teammates. What are they taking in university? What do they do for a living? "I dunno".

Frustrating day today.

I was supposed to have a training session this morning. My partner & I arrived to discover the trainer has the flu and had to cancel. She didn't have our phone #'s at home with her for some reason or other - so we didn't find out until we got to the gym.

Ok. Fine. No big deal really. Except that we wouldn't have gotten up at some God-awful hour to get there for a 7:00 session. We kicked each others butts instead. I was at the gym a full 2 hours. Awesome workout. My day is looking up!

Then I get home. There's a message on my machine. They are closing school EARLY due to "impending inclement weather". Once again, another week where my kids don't have a full week of classes. This is getting really old.

Enough complaining - off to read what I've missed from last night/this morning.

Nancy - this might sound a bit negative, it's just concern, but I meant to say this last week. There is this trainer that feels very passionately that one shouldn't go beyond an hour in a session. That the body will not adapt to lower minutes so easily. (Obviously when you guys are training for a race that makes no sense), But you do post a lot of 90 minutes. Have you ever heard that?

That's great that you guys did your workout. Good for you.

When are the callipers coming?

Kat,
That's so exciting!!



Erika, congratulations, that's great news!


Things are going well here. Despite all the kids' vigorous objections, they actually had to go to school today -- it is snowing here but not much. They're so spoiled here in Baltimore....cancel the schools at the least amount of weather.

Hopefully this means that my aerobics class will actually be a go tonight - we have missed the last 2 Tuesdays, due to the inauguration and then the snow.

I have done well so far this week, 2 days of the Jillian Michaels shred, my class tonight and Thursday (hopefully), and I will have hit my exercise goal this week. Last night, I rocked on the evening snacking, went to bed and slept like a baby, and feel great today. As my brother always says, "It's all good."

I've been having lots of fun the past few weeks playing on Facebook, something I never thought I would do. Started when a friend of mine from high school happened to find my brother, and contacted me through him. I procrastinated forever, and then finally set up a Facebook account 2 weeks ago. It is truly amazing to me -- I have been getting emails almost everyday from people I knew in high school or college!!! Who knew all these folks were hanging out in cyberspace -- it's very very cool!!!

Hope you're all having a great day and staying warm! See ya!

Gosh, my sister and nieces are always trying to get me on facebook Lisa. I ask for pictures. Just go to facebook. Ummm can't.

 

[lisaviolet]

Two falls today - not bad ones though, just embarrassing Roll on spring thats all I can say!

Eek.

Kelly did you grow up in the same area as you live now?

Lyz and I want to know. to you Lyz.

And, I am so excited for you. It is awesome when everything clicks... the high is indescribable.

Perfectly said Kat.

Lisa V, where are you? I feel like I am channeling you now. xoxo.

Ummm if you are channeling can you leave your swan neck and waist with me to try on. Thanks so much.

My motto has always been and always will be, for me, if I'm eating it ten years from now - then eat it now while losing.

My mother God love her used to say all the time - moderation, moderation, moderation. But it was hard listening to a woman who had no weight issues and was naturally small. I still can't believe I came from her. Poor thing. I told you I was almost ten pounds, eh? One of Jean's brothers was thirteen pounds. Mama would tell me about that birth. Holy cow Batman!!

So the merge of the new and the old will be one of great growth and strength. I at the end of the day need to choose better. I grew up starving myself because under 100 pounds was being a gymnast. Being under 100 pounds meant looking pretty. I think I was so scared of food for so many years that I am just now learning a healthy relationship with it. I went from one extreme to the next and now, I need to learn amounts and types. More than learn...accept food and not run from it or to it. Just walk with it.

That is my goal.

Sorry for the detail. Maybe too much for some of you. It is my life with food though. That is the reality of it.[/COLOR]

Not too much for me Dawn. It makes me think. I firmly believe that many become scared of food. Sometimes I stay off the BL because of that. I made a choice years and years back that I was never going there. Honestly, I would rather be overweight than fear food. Honestly. I think I started there Dawn actually - that I was going to live loving food and where the chips fall - they fall.

Liz is right. Yes, healthy food is a big issue with me. It has been for years and years. But that is the thing...it is MY issue and I have no business pushing it on others.

I am the first one to say (and how many times have I said it???) that we all need to start with baby steps. We can't start doing everything from day one or it is a recipe for failure and heartache.

And I am so so so far from perfect. I mean, I have been needing to lose the same freaking 15 pounds for like 6 months now. If I was doing everything right, then those 15 pounds would have been gone in June and I would be at goal and all of the rest.

So clearly, I have my own crap to deal with.

So for everyone who is working her program in whole or in part...GO! Excellent! You are on the right path...and it is YOUR path. Not mine and not anyone else's.

Ok, I now have to go out in the snow (still snowing here) and dark to pick up my kid from snowboarding. And I am sure that I am going to have to sit in my car for ages waiting as the bus will likely be late due to said snow.

You're really something Erika. I learn all the time from you guys. You are so fair and calm. I am so reactive. I learn from you.

Stacey - where for art thou Master Stacey?

Steph - missing you.

Hi to everyone.

 

[lisaviolet]

Amy - I lost your post. I'm so sorry that you and little D are sick. Take good care of yourself. And when you're feeling better a little of Delena goes a long way here. I love seeing her smiling face.

 

[lisaviolet]

Thank you so much Lisa! That means alot to me. Trust me when I say that I was not always calm and collected. I went from both puddle to psycho in seconds! In fact many times during it, I thought I was losing my mind. I threw myself into my job while I was there and then at home would become a zombie.

One thing that I haven't shared though is what I went through is really a huge driving force for my weight loss effort. It is so mental for me! My ex constantly would degrade me because of my weight. I didn't deserve to have somebody who loved me for what I was (then). Now, I know I still have a way to go, but my inner self knows that I do deserve to have that and more (the real part that I know is lurking down deep). Just scared of the unknown. The old way is really all that I know.

:flower3 flower3:

All for you!!!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Wow, i love coming on to 10 posts!

Okay, you all wrote interesting and intelligent and meaningful things I want to reply to. But first.

Twilight readers, this one is for you. It is making me crack up, laugh sooo loud.

xoxo

http://movies.msn.com/movies/galleryfeature/lost-twilight-script/?photoidx=1&silentchk=1&vv=600

 

[3DisneyKids]

Wow, i love coming on to 10 posts!

Okay, you all wrote interesting and intelligent and meaningful things I want to reply to. But first.

Twilight readers, this one is for you. It is making me crack up, laugh sooo loud.

xoxo

http://movies.msn.com/movies/galleryfeature/lost-twilight-script/?photoidx=1&silentchk=1&vv=600

OMG! I am only on p. 3 and I swear...truly, no lie, I am teary from laughing so hard. Badonkadonk....

 

[HockeyKat]

Lisa - I thought Shelby's Kat comment was so cute.



I meant to tell you I was sorry about your MIL as well Kelly. Sorry.

...

Nancy - this might sound a bit negative, it's just concern, but I meant to say this last week. There is this trainer that feels very passionately that one shouldn't go beyond an hour in a session. That the body will not adapt to lower minutes so easily. (Obviously when you guys are training for a race that makes no sense), But you do post a lot of 90 minutes. Have you ever heard that?

Oh, I forgot to quote the Shelby comment! I thought that was way cool as well.

And I forgot to comment about Kelly and the MIL, too. So sorry that your MIL is such a pain.

Man, I need to get with the program!

I have done 1.5 hours before? Esp with hockey. I have never heard that there was a problem with that...