In Search of my Body...Not The One I ate...#3 "Crowning Goddesses As We Go"

[HockeyKat]

Erika - In some ways, I love it when the jeans get to be too big because it means progress... on the other hand, I hate having to shop for new clothes every four months or so.... Congratulations on the size 4's.... I'm sure they will fit just fine....



Stacey - keep us posted.... I am hoping for the muscle spasm... the rest of what you mentioned would be scary.... Good luck....

Nancy - Congrats on the one pound lost.... whoo hoo!!!!

Off to fight some battles at work today... To quote Mrs. Potato Head, I have packed my angry eyes this morning....

Paula

I LOVE it. LOVE the angry eyes.

Here is a nice link for you. Scroll down about halfway, and there are angry eye COOKIES: http://cakewrecks.blogspot.com/2008/09/mixed-signals.html



And Paula, I will respond to your friend issue sometime today. You did strike a chord with me, though, w/re to the emotional eating. I need to stop it. Now. Thanks.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

WOO HOO, Nancy! I am right there with you. For you and I, a pound is a HUGE loss, so celebrate it! Goddess crown, totally.

Thanks - at this stage of the game, every pound is a victory!


WAY TO GO LISA! And yes, I have been a horrible Challenge Master but I will post results tonight.

Yeah - 'cause we know how you just spend your day, lounging on the sofa eating bon-bons & watching soap operas ...

Ha! And I went for a 17 mile bike ride, so there! Trading places, anyone?


Funny! oh wait - that reminds me...the owner of the bike shop called - my new sunglasses are in....

I LOVE it. LOVE the angry eyes.

I totally love the angry eyes! Mrs. Potato Head rules!
:rotfl2:

Welcome back Steph!!!!

And Paula.... ...it's an awkward situation for sure...I wish I had some great advice to offer....where's Liz when you need her?

 

[3DisneyKids]

WELCOME BACK, Steph!

We want all the details about the new house! And no claiming thread bankruptcy! Oh no, missy...you go back and read all of those pages that you missed!

I am having a GREAT day! Which is really good b/c it has been a while since I have had one.

 

[lisaviolet]

I know.... it is horrifying to me to say it, but as much as I love shopping, my wallet is just crying for mercy.....



Lisa - in a nut shell, I in the midst of a quandry.... to make a long story short, my very best friend is this guy I met back in college. We are great friends and even though he lives 3 hours away, I am closer to him than any one of my friends who lives locally. Over the years, many folks have asked what is going on between the two of us and I always laughed and shrugged it off, but lately, I have been wondering... I mean one of the guys I work with met this guy once this summer and after playing a round of golf with me, and my friend started asking what was going on...

To make things more interesting, during that same trip, I noticed that my friend starting acting a little differently, but I am not sure what that means. He wants to come up and visit next month (usually he only comes up here once or twice a year and I head there once or twice a year so this visit is a little unusual) and frankly, it is freaking me out... The million dollar question is where do we go from here? I want to have this conversation about where this is going, but am scared to actually have the conversation. So, I am looking for suggestions, comments, encouragement, etc. Now, I can't say that I don't have feelings for the guy, but I am not sure what they are, if he feels the same, etc. I have buried these feelings for so long that I just don't know...

This weight loss journey has forced me to deal with the emotional aspects of my life as a way of rooting out why I was eating the way that I was. I suspect that this new found introspection has brought a great deal of things to the surface. I am gaining confidence and trying to find the strength to deal with my issues instead of hiding them from the world...

Thanks for caring (and your curiousity)... It is not easy for me to open up like this so bear with me and I move slowly here....

Thanks,
Paula

Paula,

Wow. Thank you for sharing. I hesitate to say a thing. Because things will flow as they flow. But we all know that depends on the personalities of the people involved. Ie. courage on one or both sides for whatever needs or not to be said or done. I can see that it takes a lot of thought because he is a such a good friend.

I will share one thing though. And maybe it might have relevance to you and your life and maybe it won't at all Paula. It's just something I've learned through joy and pain. I have thoughts, and still believe strongly to this day, that sometimes that there is only one place to go. Ie. I've had situations where I've understood intuitively that, hmmmm, I'm just going to say it. That a relationship, friendship I mean, at times has nowhere to go but sex - I hate to use the word sex - I mean another form of love/communication ie sex. And this from a girl who has not had a lot in her life.

And by saying that - I've recognized that all relationships have their journey. And when they get to a point where "communication and love and passion" is heading there. And only there. Well if it doesn't - well there is going to be struggle, tension, possibly arguing and miscommunication. Because love/passion/another level of relationship is bouncing off the walls. And needs to take some kind of form. And when I say all this - I have had the situation by choice or by life or by circumstance that sex/relationship wasn't/couldn't come and it's interesting to me that tension often takes its place no matter what one's intentions.

What I'm trying to say by being so incredibly wordy is that don't always have the thought that "well I hate to ruin such a beautiful friendship" by opening my mouth to have the courage to say something. Maybe the friendship will remain super strong. Obviously it already is. But, and I don't mean this negatively Paula, it could simply have tension from the unsaid words/thoughts anyway. (Or maybe not - I'm simply talking about what I've experienced). Gosh this sounds so negative. To me it's beautiful, very beautiful - in that words are magically spoken in this world even if we choose not to - in a variety of ways. Or that words can't cut it sometimes. That's how powerful it all is. And to me that's a lovely thing.

I hope I haven't overwhelmed or made you feel anything but optimistic Paula. I truly realize that you have a lot to think about. And wish you the best with it all. I just don't want you to think that no words will automatically play it all safe - that's all. And obviously you know best.

With much love,

Lisa

 

[lisaviolet]

Weighing in for the challenge....I'm down 1 from last week...for a total of...well, 1. Hey - I'll take every "1" I can get these days!

How the heck did I miss this? Yeah for you!! One is one more gone! Poof.

Hi all

Sorry for not posting....life is busy and Dawn still has no internet at her house.

This is just a flyby to let you know we are still here and BTW Dawn has lost more weight...she is such a trooper...I am soo proud of her !!!

Ok will check back later.

Dan

Hi from the relatively new one.

Good Morning all! I hope everyones week is going well... I had 2 sales yesterday which is a nice change of pace... Been working out hard this week... had a gain today from yesterday which is odd... no cheating but I think I am at that weight point where muscle gain will start reflecting in my weight... So we'll see... I've been using Biggest Loser:Cardio Max and Biggest Loser: Power Sculpt for the past 2 days and boy am I sore... The night before last hub did the sweetest thing! I told him I needed new free weights for my Power Sculpt dvd since the 7 lbers were too heavy... Well he came home with a dozen roses, 2 lbers, 3 lbers, and 5 lbers for me He can be so sweet Anywho thats about all here...

That's so sweet Sarah. Loved reading about your husband.

I'M BACK

I HAVE BEEN AVOIDING PLUGGING IN THE COMPUTER SO I CAN GET SOME WORK DONE,
But I have to pay bills and I can't do that without the computer. I have hmm lets see one room oh no two rooms unpacked I have millions of loads of laundry heading to the laundry mat just to get it done!
So until the house is unpacked I won't be on a lot HAHAHa.
I won't attempt to catch up but if someone wants to give me a run down I would appreciate it. I hear there is an Amy and an Aimee! Welcome!





Great JOb Erika

Hi Steph!!

I don't know why I'm eating popcorn to you. Dinner time I suppose.

 

[MunkyMe13]

How the heck did I miss this? Yeah for you!! One is one more gone! Poof.



Hi from the relatively new one.



That's so sweet Sarah. Loved reading about your husband.



Hi Steph!!

I don't know why I'm eating popcorn to you. Dinner time I suppose.

He has his moments... lol... just when i think he's getting lazy in the romance department he goes and surprises me...

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Hi Gang,

I've missed you. I feel like it's been days. I'm reading, catching up. IM me if you are around, I would LOVE to chat with my friends.

Paula - going to email you.

Steph, welcome back.

Nancy, you crack me up.

E, glad to see you're not in orange.

Sarah, that was super sweet about your husband.

Kat - Love you, babe.

Aimee - OMG, woman you are a survivor! I'm in awe.

Amy - You are adorable and so is your kiddo.

Dan and Dawn - we're holding down the fort, here.

Lisa - I have no idea how you came to us, but I am so glad you did. You contribute so much. Thank you.


Small victory, no make that HUGE. I am down .2 lbs, which means that the 4lbs that has been on and off is GONE and the 6 week dance of lose and gain is OVER. Bye, bye weight! I am down 75lbs for good, forever! Two weeks in a row losing! Whoo-whee!

3lbs more to meet the challenge!

Only 12 to go and I am at goal!

 

[BrcsDisneyPrncs]

Hi Guys -

The pain is down to a dull roar instead of the stabbing awfulness it had been, so here's hoping, i see more dr's next week just in case.

I haven't been able to exercise since Saturday since I haven't been able to move hardly, so i've gained a little, that sucks

Just a quick note, as i have to get to work, might not be on again until monday. After work tonight we have to take the pupster to my parent's house (1.5 hrs away) for the weekend, come home, i have to work all day tomorrow then pick up bruce and head out to the in-laws for the weekend (about 4.5 hours-ish away) and i don't have computer access out there for the most part. It will be hard to be good, they always ALWAYS order stromboli when we are driving out, and then always make NY STrip & Baked Potatoes on Saturday, yummmmm. OH, yea, and my mother is ordering chinese tonight for when we drop off the pup. OH my i can feel my waist expanding already...

Hope everyone has a great weekend, be back in touch soon!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

OH, yea, and my mother is ordering chinese tonight for when we drop off the pup. OH my i can feel my waist expanding already...
Ugh. I have such a love-hate relationship with Chinese food! There is a huge variance in how restaurants in my area prepare food....way too much of it, while has no MSG, is LOADED with salt. They just drown the food in soy sauce, or garlic sauce... Finding a decent Chinese rest. was a challenge - but I think we've succeeded!

So - anyone want to try and help me explain my 3 pound OVERNIGHT weight change? yeah. UP not down Not sure what I ate yesterday that would cause such a freakish reaction by my body....but it's tickin' me off!

Time to run before I go to work....

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Stacy - Stay strong! You can eat all that and still make good choices! You can do it!


Nancy!!!! Stop weighing yourself every day! You know better! And 3lbs could be water, of course. Some hidden salt that just hit you!


Oh, and was it Lisa who said to buying new clothes, "You do know that Liz is on this board"? Well, that was hysterical. Absolutely perfect. Love my clothes shopping.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Nancy!!!! Stop weighing yourself every day! You know better! And 3lbs could be water, of course. Some hidden salt that just hit you!

You are absolutely right Liz. I DO know better. Don't know what I was thinking. Just gotta put it out of my mind and do what I know is right today.

My run was pure mental torture today. Physically - fine. But boy, were those voices in my head active today!

Have a great day everyone!

 

[amykab]

Hey everyone!

1 pound LOSS to report here. Finally. I really hope this is the beginning of the drop off my plateau. The last time I hit a plateau I dropped 5-6 pounds in 2 days all of a sudden. I am hoping that will happen this time too.

Off to catch up! Later everyone!

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

OMG I had a whole post written and it just disappeared brought me back to the Dis home page! Lets see if I can remember what I wrote.
UM house BIgger and smaller in weird ways. More rooms but rooms are smaller.
Kitchen Bigger but not enough cabinet space or counter tops. The Kitchen has 5 windows so I have two whole walls that are just windows. So I have stuffed stored in the basement ( there are built ins down there).
Bedrooms I have now 4 instead of three. BUT ( yes there is always a BUT) the rooms are half the size my old bedroom was 18x24 and my closet was 18 feet long and about 3 feet deep NEW closet is about 3 feet wide and about 20 inches deep. Hangers just fit! New bedroom is about 10x12??? I am not good at figuring square footage.
Old HOUSES DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH OUTLETS!! I have three in my bedroom sounds good but I have one on a short wall and then two right above each other one is almost to the ceiling! We will be fixing this as we re do each room.
My mom came over and helped on friday and saturday!(she owed me right?)
She helped iron and put up my curtains and she even bought me some new ones. Not used to having neighbors so close needed some crochet half curtains to put so she bought those.
So over all I do really LOVE my house just some things that need to be fixed. But Hey it is an old house we did expect things like this. I think
As for everything else Sam is doing wonderfully in school I am so glad she stayed back and she is now getting her self confidence back. No bad reports home only good one! Her knee I think I told you she may have a torn ACL we head for the orthopedist on tuesday to hear what he says. I am trying to keep her off the trampoline I finally told her therapist what she was doing and she told her and showed her what her knee was doing on there when she jumped. I think she got it, this time!!
Tyler is doing great in school but his asthma and Eczema are flared up! Doc wants us to go see a specialist in Saranac lake (paula we could have done lunch if you were there) This specialist is a pediatric allergist.
Zac's teacher LOVES him to bits this year a big change from last year. Last year I always got negative comments from the teacher every week on weekly reports and this year total opposite! All good remarks, all good grade except in math I thought boys excelled in math??
HE was helping stephen mow the lawn on Saturday and ran over a bee's nest. He got 6 stings. Four up his pant leg and two across his hand. He didn't swell or anything but then his sugar went sky high! they were in the 200-300 for two days. Now he is back to normal.
Nathan (my step son) helped us move he stayed the whole week almost. I think he like having his own room! He is coming tonight too and I guess staying till saturday or something like that! I don't mind anymore I used to hate it when he came it caused disruption in MY schedule but now he is older and takes care of his own things like shots and breakfast and everything else I just wake him up and tell him to get in the shower and Heck I am already up! So it is no BIG deal anymore!
Ok I NEED TO GO UNPACK
see this is why I didn't plug in the computer!!!!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi gang...

Today has been crazy at work, but so far, it has all been pretty manageable... Food wise, I am right on track with the one exception of a garlic knot last night... they just smelled really good and when I am stressed, I crave carbs... I ate it, went swimming and promplty worked it off so I am going to pick up and move on from that...

I am missing my exercise class tonight thanks to a training session at work, but there is not much I can do about that. I am going to do my walking DVD or my Biggest Loser DVD instead so I can stay on target for my workout goals...

OK - off to go kill my headache and one of my contractors.... angry eyes are still on...

Talk to you later,
Paula

Oh - and Stacey, when do we see pictures of the new place....

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Steph, great about the house! Sounds like you are all settling in well!

Amy, good job on the weight loss!

Paula, nice job on the food and exercise!


How is everyone else doing today?

 

[lisaviolet]

So - anyone want to try and help me explain my 3 pound OVERNIGHT weight change? yeah. UP not down Not sure what I ate yesterday that would cause such a freakish reaction by my body....but it's tickin' me off!

Time to run before I go to work....

Nancy!! The scale is just nuts sometimes. Something can not agree with me and I"m up four pounds sometimes. Not overeating. Not not exercising. Just some food that's spoiled or my body simply doesn't love. And then, at some point, it disappears. I'm sorry. I know how frustrating that is.

Paula - I hope I didn't scare the crap out of you. I'm sick this week. And when I am I can ramble thoughts. Please know I know it might not have any relevance to your sitution at all. And I was just sharing. I'm feeling insecure about it now. And I wasn't talking about sex in the truest sense - I was talking about what relationship energy/sexual energy can do without us even knowing it. I have this really close friend. He is married. We were roommates in university. There is no fliration beyond what good, close friends naturally do. Nothing inappropriate at all. He's married and honestly I'm not interested even if he wasn't. But I truly have come to the conclusion that there is something for him - something unspoken - that shouldn't be anyway. And that he gets so frustrated with me. Arguments and sensitivity where things used to be smooth. And it's not just age. It's an energy. Ie. that energy gets in the way of what is two people that love each other have. It interferes with what should be smooth friendship. And it's not the first time I've seen unspoken energy come up
because of unspoken feelings. One of many examples for me. And I too Paula struggle with when to take a chance and when not to in that area of life. It's difficult, eh?

Liz - you say the sweetest things. So sweet .

Steph - was very happy to read all about the new house. I especially loved reading about your stepson - ah crap - Nathan? Sorry if I got that wrong.

Stacey - Good to hear from you. Hope things get better. I've been thinking about you.

Lisa

 

[lisaviolet]

Small victory, no make that HUGE. I am down .2 lbs, which means that the 4lbs that has been on and off is GONE and the 6 week dance of lose and gain is OVER. Bye, bye weight! I am down 75lbs for good, forever! Two weeks in a row losing! Whoo-whee!

3lbs more to meet the challenge!

Only 12 to go and I am at goal!

Okay,

This is so friggin' exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just want to dance myself. Big friggin' smile.

Yeah Liz!

 

[lisaviolet]

Hey everyone!

1 pound LOSS to report here. Finally. I really hope this is the beginning of the drop off my plateau. The last time I hit a plateau I dropped 5-6 pounds in 2 days all of a sudden. I am hoping that will happen this time too.

Off to catch up! Later everyone!

Yeah Amy.

Great news. Plateaus can be a killer, eh? Nice.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hey team....would you believe that this is my first post of the day??? I am in the weeds, I tell ya! Nothing serious...just regular work stuff, plus vacation planning, plus chaperoning two field trips this week, plus Riley's soccer team is now undefeated which means they made the play-offs which means the season will be extended...*sigh* Just a lot going on.

So - anyone want to try and help me explain my 3 pound OVERNIGHT weight change? yeah. UP not down Not sure what I ate yesterday that would cause such a freakish reaction by my body....but it's tickin' me off!

Time to run before I go to work....

Nancy! It is not a real gain. Get off the scale. Once a week, doll.

My run was pure mental torture today. Physically - fine. But boy, were those voices in my head active today!

Have a great day everyone!

You and me both! I had tempo run today and it was God-awful. Maybe we are sharing voices now...

OK - off to go kill my headache and one of my contractors.... angry eyes are still on...

Talk to you later,
Paula

Oh - and Stacey, when do we see pictures of the new place....

Another vote for angry eyes! LOVE that!

STEPH--glad you are getting settled! But I am more glad that it is not me! Ha! Moving is such a huge task! Hope all is going smoothly!

STACEY--hope you get some answers about the medical stuff. And hang tough this week-end. You CAN do it!

LISA--just lovin' you, girl!

LYZ--I am in total withdrawal without your posts! Aren't you due back today???

LIZ--yes, no orange for me! That was HI LAR IOUS. But all went perfectly well.

AS FOR ME....aside from being in the weeds, life is good. I am in a better place, have had 5, count 'em 5 perfect days of food and exercise both, and catch this....

For the challenge, I am down TWO POUNDS! (total....not just this week, I mean, this is ME after all! ) I was down .5 last week which I didn't even count as I figured it was regular fluctuation, etc. But I was down another 1.5 today, so

I have to work all night, but I will be on and reading! Missed you guys all day.

 

[Dizneydawn]

I was in the hospital for 10 days for an unexpected vaycay - just got out last Thursady - had a stint put in my kidney - taken out due to rejection and then had an eppidural put in for 3 days to give my body a rest from the pain and the spasms...

So nothing like a time crunch and missing work to freak a person right out...

The giant turd took care of the kids at my house...without buying any groceries...(it is convenient I had just spent $400 on groceries which he and the kids used) or cleaning at all including laundry...

It ticks me off that he is supposed to heve the kids anyway...and that means payindg for food etc...not stealing from my house....

Do you have any idea what I walked into that Thursday afternoon...on top of him being beind in child support and trying to get all the bills together he left overdue when he moved out....could just bop him in the head I tell ya...

Anyway - internet will hopefully be back and functioning next Monday....so I can harrass all of you more then..

Taking Treyner to Omaha to look at his second choice for colleges this weekend....but...

Fort Lewis College wants Treyner!!! He is going to another school visit to firm up stuff at the end of the month... Such a relief to know this but still...so far away...

I really still feel tired and just not myself...but that will hopefully get better...they have me on 4 different meds and a patch I wear at all times...so that will hopefully help....follow up next Monday to see what they can do...

I hope all of you are okay - I need 3 days to do a proper read through and respond....this weekend I hope to have time for that....
I hate feelindg so far out of the loop...it is not fun missing out on people you visit with daily...

I have lost almost 20 pounds total though...that is my good news!

That's it for today - will post more this weekend...