In Search of my Body...Not The One I ate...#3 "Crowning Goddesses As We Go"

[sdarwkcabemanmy]

Morning ladies!

I've had a really tough time the last couple of days going out and walking. I get back from dropping DS off and I just don't wanna do it. However, I force myself to do it because I know it's good for me. I've had a hard time laying off the snacks too..last night I ate THREE snack-size bags of Ruffles chips w/ranch dressing. I almost felt like throwing up afterwards but my teeth are already so bad from the years of heavy soda drinking I did that I didn't want to add to the damage I've already done.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Morning ladies!

I've had a really tough time the last couple of days going out and walking. I get back from dropping DS off and I just don't wanna do it. However, I force myself to do it because I know it's good for me. I've had a hard time laying off the snacks too..last night I ate THREE snack-size bags of Ruffles chips w/ranch dressing. I almost felt like throwing up afterwards but my teeth are already so bad from the years of heavy soda drinking I did that I didn't want to add to the damage I've already done.

Abu.... I feel your pain... I am still coming out of a major bout of no motivation to keep doing this... I am not fully there yet, but I am a lot more motivated now than I used to be... Try this... put together a small board of photos, magazine clippings, quotes, etc. that prove to you why you are doing this and make it personal. For me, I answered the question why do I want to be healthy? My photos were of my friends and family (especially the little ones) with a note that read I want to be around to see these guys grow up, quotes like "Obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off the goal" or Thoreau's "Go confidently in the path of your dreams." Photos of me being really and truly happy and a photo of my being depressed that I put a big read 'X' through and wrote the words "I deserve to be happy in my life" written across it. Photos of clothes that I want to wear, but can't with my present body. Photos of activities I want to do but have been afraid to because of my weight. Then, post this board in a place where you can see it and be reminded of why you are doing this and be inspired by it. You are worth the efforts you are taking. You are worth the walks (even when you dread it). You are worth the healthier lifestyle. You are worth having it all because you deserve it....

good luck and when you feel some weakness coming over you, come here... we will get you through it....

Paula

 

[3DisneyKids]

Paula--great idea! Visual imagery like that works so well for so many people.

Abu/name? - I am an exercise freakshow (no, Steph... ...real exercise) and these days, yes, I am all about exercise. But I sure wasn't when I started on this thread. The saving grace for me was my iPod. I loaded it with great stuff...not just music. The DIS Unplugged Podcast, tons of audio books, other podcasts, as well as music.

I have to admit, though, it started with the podcast. I took it with me the first time I decided to walk on the treadmill (this was well before I became a runner). I found it so entertaining that I walked for the entire show! Which is like and hour to 90 minutes or so. That got me thinking....

Then I loaded some audio books on there and that was wonderful. If I could get into a story, then I could stay on whatever piece of cardio all day. Treadmill, bike, elliptical, etc. But more than that...it motivated me to get on it again the next day. I was into the story! It was just like having to put down a good book when you don't want to but have to so that you can go pick your kids up or whatever. I was anxious to get back to my book.

A few weeks of that and exercise was more of a habit. And now it is my lifestyle.

Hope everyone is having a great day! I am done with the gym and had another decent workout plus a bike ride (15 miles). Tracked my breakfast.

Now off for some retail therapy!

 

[3DisneyKids]

OMG LYZ! I just noticed that you alphabetized us! Goddess of OCD!

 

[MunkyMe13]

Good Morning... This one has to be quick... I miss chatting more regularly... Hope everyone is well!

 

[HockeyKat]

I am working on it... and should probably move all discussion of it offline, mmkay?

Hope everyone is having a good day!

 

[sdarwkcabemanmy]

Thanks guys.

I do have an MP3 player..it was a birthday present last year from DH. I felt like I was the last person in the world without one so he bought me a Sansa which I love to death (most of the time ).

I have probably 200 songs loaded on there right now, everything from "Forever Young (Carebears Movie II theme)" to an acapella version of "O Flower of Scotland" to some stuff by one of my favorite renfaire bands, the Brobdignagian Bards. And I always take my Sansa with me when I work out, to keep me motivated. It even has an FM radio built in, so I can listen to my favorite stations as well.

I think I will do the motivational poster thing, Paula. It might help. Problem is..I want to have a Barbie-doll body and after awhile, I get so depressed because I don't (and probably won't ever) look like that.

I taped a photo of Marilyn Monroe (who I think was just absolutely gorgeous) to my bathroom mirror with the caption "Good Morning Beautiful" so t hat I'll see it when I get up.

I want to feel beautiful but it's so hard for me. I have always battled an image problem and I was made fun of a lot in elem/jr high for being 'the ugly kid'. I still struggle with that, even though it's been far too many years and I should just get over it. I've had people (some I don't even know, who've seen my picture) tell me I'm pretty but I have a hard time believing them.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Thanks guys.

I do have an MP3 player..it was a birthday present last year from DH. I felt like I was the last person in the world without one so he bought me a Sansa which I love to death (most of the time ).

I have probably 200 songs loaded on there right now, everything from "Forever Young (Carebears Movie II theme)" to an acapella version of "O Flower of Scotland" to some stuff by one of my favorite renfaire bands, the Brobdignagian Bards. And I always take my Sansa with me when I work out, to keep me motivated. It even has an FM radio built in, so I can listen to my favorite stations as well.

I think I will do the motivational poster thing, Paula. It might help. Problem is..I want to have a Barbie-doll body and after awhile, I get so depressed because I don't (and probably won't ever) look like that.

I taped a photo of Marilyn Monroe (who I think was just absolutely gorgeous) to my bathroom mirror with the caption "Good Morning Beautiful" so t hat I'll see it when I get up.

I want to feel beautiful but it's so hard for me. I have always battled an image problem and I was made fun of a lot in elem/jr high for being 'the ugly kid'. I still struggle with that, even though it's been far too many years and I should just get over it. I've had people (some I don't even know, who've seen my picture) tell me I'm pretty but I have a hard time believing them.

OMG - you are so preaching to the choir about the image problems you are having... I too was picked on throughout my entire life due to my size and it can wear you down. Just last month, my friend's daughter (who is 7) reminded me how cruel those comments can be when she told me that I was too fat... Of course, I never said anything to her or her mother about this comment and I realize she is a child, but I still wanted to cry after hearing it...

We are all beautiful in our own ways and part of finding true hapiness in life is to learning to accept who you are and allowing yourself the strength to love yourself because of it. I know that I will likely never be smaller than a size 14 / 16, but I am not going to let that dictate my life. I know that I have a great deal to offer the world beyond my body shape and I choose to focus on those things because that brings me happiness. Marilyn Monroe had an amazing body and she was not a small woman. What a great icon to wake up to in the morning. (besides - Barbie couldn't make a decision about what she wanted to be, a doctor, a pilot, a travel agent, etc. pick a career already woman...) The best words I can leave you with are some that Liz wrote earlier in this thread... Pick goals that are personal, realistic and attainable and you will find success...

Hang in there... give yourself some credit for what you are - a beautiful person...

Paula

 

[MunkyMe13]

OMG - you are so preaching to the choir about the image problems you are having... I too was picked on throughout my entire life due to my size and it can wear you down. Just last month, my friend's daughter (who is 7) reminded me how cruel those comments can be when she told me that I was too fat... Of course, I never said anything to her or her mother about this comment and I realize she is a child, but I still wanted to cry after hearing it...

We are all beautiful in our own ways and part of finding true hapiness in life is to learning to accept who you are and allowing yourself the strength to love yourself because of it. I know that I will likely never be smaller than a size 14 / 16, but I am not going to let that dictate my life. I know that I have a great deal to offer the world beyond my body shape and I choose to focus on those things because that brings me happiness. Marilyn Monroe had an amazing body and she was not a small woman. What a great icon to wake up to in the morning. (besides - Barbie couldn't make a decision about what she wanted to be, a doctor, a pilot, a travel agent, etc. pick a career already woman...) The best words I can leave you with are some that Liz wrote earlier in this thread... Pick goals that are personal, realistic and attainable and you will find success...

Hang in there... give yourself some credit for what you are - a beautiful person...

Paula

Paula you always say such insightful and heartfelt things... You are truly a wonderful person and always say the right thing... I feel blessed to know you! You always post things that are great for everyone not just the person you are responding too!

 

[sdarwkcabemanmy]

I try really hard not to use 'size' comparisons any more, esp with DS as he is such a skinny little thing, kind of like I was until I hit puberty and while the pounds didn't pile on, I did gain a bit of weight which I was able to more or less maintain until I graduated HS.

DH and I used to eat out quite a bit..three times a week or more but since having DS, we've cut that down to about 2X per month (although last week was an exception, it was my birthday and I ate out three times in two days).

*Edit--fixed it!*

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Abu nice to see a face to go with the name!!!


Ok
A CLOSING DATE HAS BEEN SCHEDULED !!!!! yes I am yelling this!!! How long have I waited??? To LONG! So OCT 1 the house is officially MINE!
I have emailed the currant owners asking If we can start moving things in NOW!
Ok off to work talk to you all later have a great Night!

 

[sdarwkcabemanmy]

Thanks.
That's one of the few pictures I have from WDW where I'm wearing my glasses. Most of the time it was too dang humid to keep them on..they kept sliding off my face. I feel that if I'm NOT wearing them however, I look about 100 times LESS smart than I actually am.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Thanks.
That's one of the few pictures I have from WDW where I'm wearing my glasses. Most of the time it was too dang humid to keep them on..they kept sliding off my face. I feel that if I'm NOT wearing them however, I look about 100 times LESS smart than I actually am.

Abu -

Awesome picture.... Love it when I can put a face to the name....

I can relate to the glasses thing... I have worn my glasses since I was in 6th grade. I tried contacts once for all of about a month and hated the way I looked without my glasses. I buy funky frames and they are part of my look now. I say, embrace them....

Paula

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I had glasses since 4th grade. Funny thing is, I didn't want/need them till a friend got glasses. So I complained to my mom that my eyes hurt. Off to the dr we go and low and behold, I actually did need glasses.

Contacts in Jr. High.

Laser Eye Correction in 2003. LOVE IT!

I am tracking today...Lyz?

Yes, I am tracking. And last night is NOT pretty. I ate like it was my last day on earth. What the heck?

And Lyz, have you ever thought about doing WW?

So would you be suprised to learn I HAVE done weight watchers? Of course not.

I bought all the materials. And get how it works. If I'm gonna count, I'd rather count calories, not points. I mean a Snickers bar is 5 points. That is 1/4 of my day.

Kat--today is the day the ball gets rolling, right? You know that Liz and I are not gonna drop this, so just do it and we'll shut up, k? Seriously, if you need anything you have my numbers. You are an awesome, amazing person and you are doing what is right for YOU. And we're here for you.

Hitting the gym early today!

I walked on the tm for 30 minutes and jogged for 5. I know. Don't get any ideas.

Not a problem... I went to bed early last night... This swimming thing is knocking me out energy wise, but it is worth it. I just need to get used to it again...

Talk to you later,
Paula

I love a swimming exhaustion. It feels good.

What amazes me is how mindlessly I ate them. I mean what the heck was I thinking...

I know Paula. Same with me last night. I was shoveling junk in.

they are willing to pay me if I am willing to do my work.... funny how that works..

Paula, you've been bringing the funny for a couple days now. I love it.

Morning ladies!

I've had a really tough time the last couple of days going out and walking. I get back from dropping DS off and I just don't wanna do it. However, I force myself to do it because I know it's good for me. I've had a hard time laying off the snacks too..last night I ate THREE snack-size bags of Ruffles chips w/ranch dressing. I almost felt like throwing up afterwards but my teeth are already so bad from the years of heavy soda drinking I did that I didn't want to add to the damage I've already done.

Sorry you have been binging. It goes down hill so fast.

What is wrong with your teeth? Do you still drink soda? (Pop here in Ohio.)

Abu/name? - I am an exercise freakshow

This is no lie. She's a exerciseacholic

(off for some retail therapy!

Whatcha get?

OMG LYZ! I just noticed that you alphabetized us! Goddess of OCD!

This is true.

Good Morning... This one has to be quick... I miss chatting more regularly... Hope everyone is well!

Munk - you having a better day?

I want to feel beautiful but it's so hard for me. I have always battled an image problem and I was made fun of a lot in elem/jr high for being 'the ugly kid'. I still struggle with that, even though it's been far too many years and I should just get over it. I've had people (some I don't even know, who've seen my picture) tell me I'm pretty but I have a hard time believing them.

That stuff follows you forever. The goal being to realize you are more than what idiot little kids said. (Or even idiot adults now.)

(besides - Barbie couldn't make a decision about what she wanted to be, a doctor, a pilot, a travel agent, etc. pick a career already woman...)

DH and I used to eat out quite a bit..three times a week or more but since having DS, we've cut that down to about 2X per month (although last week was an exception, it was my birthday and I ate out three times in two days).

*Edit--fixed it!*

Only eat out 2x per month! Wow. We eat in like 2 times per week.

How old are you? You look so young. And how old is your son? You really need to give us more details. Go to page one and see the info we have filled out in the cast list. (post #3)

Fill one out for yourself, so I can add you to the cast list and so we can "know" who you are.

A CLOSING DATE HAS BEEN SCHEDULED !!!!! yes I am yelling this!!! How long have I waited??? To LONG! So OCT 1 the house is officially MINE!
I have emailed the currant owners asking If we can start moving things in NOW!
Ok off to work talk to you all later have a great Night!

Yaaay Steph! That is the best news!

 

[goofyfan-12]

I walked on the tm for 30 minutes and jogged for 5. I know. Don't get any ideas.

But I am getting ideas.... how many more runners can this board take....

I love a swimming exhaustion. It feels good.

so true... just wrecks havoc with my get up and go routine....

Paula, you've been bringing the funny for a couple days now. I love it.

I try.....

Sounds like you are in better spirits today..... that is a good thing...

Paula

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Sounds like you are in better spirits today..... that is a good thing...

Paula

I so AM. And I'm also having an awesome hair day. Go figure.

 

[goofyfan-12]

I so AM. And I'm also having an awesome hair day. Go figure.

Never doubt the power of a good hair day. It can make all the difference in the world.....

Glad to hear you are having a great day!!!!!

Paula

 

[MunkyMe13]

Abu nice to see a face to go with the name!!!


Ok
A CLOSING DATE HAS BEEN SCHEDULED !!!!! yes I am yelling this!!! How long have I waited??? To LONG! So OCT 1 the house is officially MINE!
I have emailed the currant owners asking If we can start moving things in NOW!
Ok off to work talk to you all later have a great Night!

Yay! Congrats!

I had glasses since 4th grade. Funny thing is, I didn't want/need them till a friend got glasses. So I complained to my mom that my eyes hurt. Off to the dr we go and low and behold, I actually did need glasses.

Contacts in Jr. High.

Laser Eye Correction in 2003. LOVE IT!



I walked on the tm for 30 minutes and jogged for 5. I know. Don't get any ideas.



I love a swimming exhaustion. It feels good.



Paula, you've been bringing the funny for a couple days now. I love it.



Sorry you have been binging. It goes down hill so fast.

What is wrong with your teeth? Do you still drink soda? (Pop here in Ohio.)



Whatcha get?



This is true.



Munk - you having a better day?



That stuff follows you forever. The goal being to realize you are more than what idiot little kids said. (Or even idiot adults now.)







Only eat out 2x per month! Wow. We eat in like 2 times per week.

How old are you? You look so young. And how old is your son? You really need to give us more details. Go to page one and see the info we have filled out in the cast list. (post #3)

Fill one out for yourself, so I can add you to the cast list and so we can "know" who you are.



Yaaay Steph! That is the best news!

I wish I could say I was... But alas... my job still sucks and they are stressing me even more... 4-5 weeks and I'm gonna apply at my dh's company... the prez of his company said they are looking to do a mass hire then so hopefully something will pan out and we can get on the same schedule... We'll see... I'm not getting my hopes up too much... Tonight is definitely another Disney movie night... Anyone know the calories in Smirnoff Lime Twist Vodka??? Would help me... LOL...

 

[lisaviolet]

Hey ladies,
Sorry so little from me lately... Work is being crappy... Not making enough sales yet I can stop to take pictures of stones and do someone elses job. Or even better when I ask to look at a stone get sent back to my desk for being disrespectful! All because I didn't say good morning... Good grief I have never worked anywhere so unprofessional EVER! Needless to say I've not been a happy camper... I need to get more motivated to work out... Thing I am going to make an angry music mix and just work it all out... a punching bag would be nice about now... Thats about all here.... Bad weekend food wise... only gained 2 lbs tho which isn't terrible... but I will be working to lose it all week... Oh well... Kinda not feeling the motivation... Work is sucking the life out of me...

Sarah. That's so frustrating.

Okay, I already love you for loving on my friend Lyz, who needs it so much. Thanks.

Sweet Kat. You're so sweet.

And as for the cutie pie - she simply amuses and astounds me to no end.

I promise to detail all presents ASAP. Kay? On IM? Tonight? How was pottery shopping?

Ahh, look what I missed.

LisaV--we missed you tonight.

.

Oh no! IM!!!! To go back to the scene of the crime!!!

Just joking. When are you all usually on? Late?

What amazes me is how mindlessly I ate them. I

Paula

Hear ya Paula. Hate when that happens.

Morning ladies!

I've had a really tough time the last couple of days going out and walking. I get back from dropping DS off and I just don't wanna do it. However, I force myself to do it because I know it's good for me. I've had a hard time laying off the snacks too..last night I ate THREE snack-size bags of Ruffles chips w/ranch dressing. I almost felt like throwing up afterwards but my teeth are already so bad from the years of heavy soda drinking I did that I didn't want to add to the damage I've already done.

Abu. Hang in there.

Lisa

Paula you always say such insightful and heartfelt things... You are truly a wonderful person and always say the right thing... I feel blessed to know you! You always post things that are great for everyone not just the person you are responding too!

I know. I know. I love reading Paula's posts.

Abu nice to see a face to go with the name!!!


Ok
A CLOSING DATE HAS BEEN SCHEDULED !!!!! yes I am yelling this!!! How long have I waited??? To LONG! So OCT 1 the house is officially MINE!
I have emailed the currant owners asking If we can start moving things in NOW!
Ok off to work talk to you all later have a great Night!

Yeah, a closing date. Fantastic to hear that Steph.

And loved seeing the pic Abu. You look so young.


And Ms. Cutie!!! I had no idea "Pop" wasn't a Canadian term Ohio girl!! I thought all of you were "sodas". One of my nieces and one of my nephews - aka two of my loved ones are American and I'm forever teasing them with some of their words. Pop and soda being one of them. I had no clue.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Hey Gang,

I am having a time here. I need to get refocused. I want to lose 7lbs in 3 weeks. 7lbs by 10/15. So I need to be focused, track every little thing, etc. Exercise, yes, back on my schedule. But it's mostly about the food for me and not eating my emotions, feelings, for comfort, etc.

The song that keeps running through my head is "Feeling Good"

"it's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me".

So, who's with me? Anyone else have a mini-goal?