In Search of my Body...Not The One I ate...#3 "Crowning Goddesses As We Go"

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hes so sweet when he wants to be...

So true!

You changed your avitar. What is it?

I've been toying with changing mine.

 

[MunkyMe13]

And, a word of advice. Don't punch the wall instead of a punching bag! I know not 1, but 2 people that have broken bones (1 foot, 1 arm) punching the wall and hit the wall studs!

Deb

LOL... I am not so violent... I'll prolly just run on my Gazelle... LOL...

So true!

You changed your avitar. What is it?

I've been toying with changing mine.

Its the view of Neverland as they are coming in from London... The star as they pan in basically.... From Peter Pan... I love that movie!

 

[MunkyMe13]

Eep... I just realized I gave the wrong donation page for my walk!

The correct URL is:

http://www.active.com/donate/ltnPhoeni/2273_ssmithLTN109

they made 2 pages for me but switched it over to just the one... so hopefully no one already donated to that page... LOL... I should be able to call and have it switched if you did tho...

Thanks!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Deb, ornery, you are!

That's right, today IS your birthday. I totally forgot. I was so into myself.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEB!!!! what kinda cake you havin'?

Speaking of birthdays, Liz, I never heard what you got? Hmmm, anything more exciting than the inlaws token gift?

I promise to detail all presents ASAP. Kay? On IM? Tonight? How was pottery shopping?

You know I'll keep reading this. And I will keep being compassionate. And I know it all. Have been there. But I will keep saying over and over and over that in this short time that I've been here I think you are such a spectacular woman. Lyz, you made me not feel scared to be here. That's huge. So funny, so kind, so sensitive to people's needs, so loving, so flippin' cute. And I'll annoy you and annoy you and annoy you because I simply won't shut up.



Agreed. So true. That's my story. People ask me about my weight loss and honestly I say it has more to do with tackling demons than any kind of program. Well I don't say denons just say I have a few things to work out and suddenly - voila the weight has come off. And no I don't openly talk about demons at all. It's just that dreaded AIM.






Love you Steph!!! And I'm not even flirting.

I have a theory. I know that some people think flirting leads to sex. But I think differently. I think flirting leads to feeling alive and happy. Coming from me - Miss can't say sex that's a biggie. I think we are missing out. I just think in the right context it's lovely. My parents' generation was full of flirts. Full. My parents were, and still are, the most social people I know. And they are, geez, nearing mid seventies. So young they seem.



Aaah. Loved the post Lisa. It's actually how I feel. Loved reading it.




Well, I didn't explain myself properly. The problem is it isn't 25 pounds. The last 25 came very quickly, by my rates , in four months. That's not the total. My family has hardly noticed the total not just the 25!!! But then again I shut people down and they had to notice over a long period of time - years and years.

I've lost about, can't say because I never did the scale before BL, 60 probably. Maybe more or maybe less. The before pics I posted are about 35 or 40 pounds ago. I don't have real before pics. I lost weight so slowly - over about eight or ten years - that digital wasn't around!!!! Well, I'm sure it was around but not in my world. One day I'll take a picture of an old picture.

Also, others have noticed for sure. My family is just funny.

I wish I had a now pic for you all besides my face shot but my battery is dead and I have other money priorities. Expensive battery I mean. I do have dollar store money.

But Liz. Please post the pics. I adore seeing all your success. Adore it.



Oh gosh, when I have moulah I'm going to try these. Thanks Lisa.



Thanks Paula. Social skills - nah. He just hasn't found you yet!!!! Or vice versa.



Hi Kat!!!!

Congratulations on your weight loss. Yeah, exercise - even when the scale doesn't move - is a biggie. Some can change their shape and not even lose a pound.

Honestly, I don't want to be small. I know that's tough for many to understand. But I don't. Twelve regular is good for me. I'm a 14 plus right now and 16 regular. I'm not meant to be small. And I know that now 100%. I accept me. And I'm not in denial folks.

This is how righted I am in my head. I love "righted". West Indians use it all the time. He's not righted. Okay back to regular programming. I saw pictures recently of when I lost a lot of weight at 13. I looked sick. And I wasn't even skinny. Because I can't look like that I mean. The weight just didn't fit my bones. It just didn't. You know when the bones are bigger than the body. Hard to explain. And I shed a tear for her. Me. Because I'm sure I thought yeah I look fabulous. I'm so happy. I look like every other girl. I've done it. And everyone around me was congratulating me on the loss. And that's sick in some ways. Because it didn't look good or most importantly healthy. And it took to 41 to realize that. Someone I loved used to tell me that all the time. He didn't see me at my heaviest. But saw me up 20 or 30 pounds from even now. Not the before pics I put up sort of in between. He said, "Lisa you're not fat. You're just meant to be that way. It's just that way you are". It's funny that guys sometimes get what women don't.

You know someone told me how fabulous I looked on the weekend. She was going on excited about the weight loss and I wasn't overly excited. I know part of that is abuse and that it made me not want to be noticed. But I also protect all parts of me. In that - I'm fine now. I was fine 60 pounds ago. I'll be fine smaller. It's still me. I was polite and said thank you. But - hmmm. I'm rambling. Okay, better stop.

Hope everyone is having a fabulous day!!!!!!

Lisa

I love what you say in this post, in lots of ways. And I am I TOTAL agreement with you on the flirting. And most other things, actually.

Okay, I already love you for loving on my friend Lyz, who needs it so much. Thanks.

I know what you mean about the super skinny thing. I am just not built petite. Nor do I really want to be, anymore. I would like to get back to a 10 or so (so I don't have to buy new clothes), and then maintain there and stay healthy/fit.

Thanks for the congrats!

And so with ya on the head thing. Weight gain is rarely about the food we put in our mouths, it is about the reason WHY we are putting that food in our mouths.

OMG Kat, I feel like you are my little bird who just flew around the world. I"m not sure why this statement does it, but I have this burst of pride for how much you have changed and how far you have come. You get stronger and more vulnerable every day, and in that combination, it's such a good thing.

So true!

You changed your avitar. What is it?

I've been toying with changing mine.

Please don't. Emily loves it when she's leaning over, looking at the board.

LOL... I am not so violent... I'll prolly just run on my Gazelle... LOL...



Its the view of Neverland as they are coming in from London... The star as they pan in basically.... From Peter Pan... I love that movie!

Running on the machine is an awesome way to get it all out, Sarah. Good for you. I tend to eat it and that way sucks.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

And last but not least...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEB!!!!

I hope you had a really great day.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I promise to detail all presents ASAP. Kay? On IM? Tonight? How was pottery shopping?

Dangit. I missed it. Had another phone call that held me up. People think I actually work at work.

OMG Kat, I feel like you are my little bird who just flew around the world. I"m not sure why this statement does it, but I have this burst of pride for how much you have changed and how far you have come. You get stronger and more vulnerable every day, and in that combination, it's such a good thing.

YES! Agree totally.

Please don't. Emily loves it when she's leaning over, looking at the board.

For Em, I won't. (And Marvin, our wonder weiner.)

Here is what I was toying with:

I suppose everyone is watching Biggest Loser. I am.

Oh how I love the new seasons of television. Lipstick Jungle, yeah baby. Desprate Housewives. Whoohoo. Kath & Kim. So can't wait.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Me, The Mentalist. Love him. Tivoing 90210.

IM!!!!

 

[Astro Orbiter]

So, I flunk at AIM. dsdonovan1 . And I just tried IM'ing Steph and Sarah and it wouldn't let either one go - "invalid target". Help! Does DH have something set up blocking me? I've gotten home to see IMs before (oops, forgot to sign off) so I'm pretty sure it should work.

BL's over...Please help me to avoid cleaning!

Which now has to be done by Saturday as I told DH to invite the neighbors over for a dinner/playdate...Taco Bar is the current plan. Anyone got any good, easy options that are good for adults and the 2-7 set?

For the record, I'm completely happy with my birthday present. Because I picked it out myself last weekend! Earrings and a necklace.

Deb

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Good Evening Ladies!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEB!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, Zac's appointment went well went long but went well! I think we got there at 1100 and didn't leave until like ONE O'CLOCK! Thank god I brought lunch for zac.... Should have brought some for me... because my choices weren't that great ..... small ice cream from BEN AND JERRY! I wanted and needed something quick and easy besides Mcdonalds and Quizznos I didn't have much of an option. BUt I did talk myself out of a sundae! And a LARGE CHOCOLATE COVERED WAFFEL cone! I had a small regular cone! And then half a sub for dinner tonight and then an ice cream sandwich! A BIG ONE! Chocolate chip cookie sandwich that dam husband of mine! He is my reason for eating!!!! "Oh honey It's just ice cream"
As for My mother! Yes, I still hadn't talked to my mother it has been since September 1. I went to WW last night know she would be there and knew it was going to be uncomfortable! I knew it would come down either way. One way it would come down to blows and a screaming match or both of us just pretending nothing happened. She talked to me like nothing happened and I just was cool towards her. Made small talk in the 3 minute ride to my mother in laws and reminded her that I will need my grandparents dining room table for the house. She saw the kids and started to cry, UMMM HELLO YOU DID THis to YOURSELF!!!! I think this is the longest that she has gone without seeing them EVER! I was shopping today and my cell rang and it was my MOTHER calling to see if I needed anything at the company store (unilever anything you could think of ragu suave all snuggles lipton etc..) I said NO I, AM set THANKs ( i just bought everything at wally world) and at that point my cell started beeping and I said I had to go because it was DYING! and it died! oooops! It really did die! Reason I am still mad she was talking about me not succeeding and mother are supposed help you succeed! Or at least tell you they think you can!

Onward!
THE HOUSE! I called the bank and he said the Bank has checked everything off and we are set with them! FINALLY! Now we need to call this lawyer and I did that and she said that she has contacted our lawyers and it is in their hands! HMMM time to light a fire under them! I call mine and say can we do this, this week ?? UMMM no our schedule isn't clear?? WHY NOT?? I want to move NOW!!!!! I have been waiting for a MONTH!!! So they are waiting for the OTHER lawyer now to call and see what their schedule is like and go from there. So By the end of NEXT WEEK I will be the proud new owner of a MORTGAGE ooops I mean a HOUSE! . Steph and I went there tonight and the house is empty! Just some trash and little stuff they need to finish take out! I CAN'T WAIT! I also think my Mom will end up loving my house and she will love to help me redecorate! That is her thing ! YAY I CAN'T wait!!!! and a side note if my mom comes around I will not shoo her away!

 

[goofyfan-12]

With the economy as such I'm trying not to burn my bridges here because I get paid fairly well... I'm the bread winner right now due to some financial issues on DH's end from poor choices we made early in our marriage... So as much as I want to there isn't much I can do.. He wants to try to get me into his company as soon as they go through their changes. So we'll see... Its just so rough... I don't think you are full of it at all I think DH chose Robin Hood so I'm gonna take my nap, work out, eat my southwest caesar salad and watch that.

I understand.... it was just a thought... just want you to be happy.... hang in there and we will be here to listen when you need to vent....

Paula

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

So, I flunk at AIM. dsdonovan1 . And I just tried IM'ing Steph and Sarah and it wouldn't let either one go - "invalid target". Help! Does DH have something set up blocking me? I've gotten home to see IMs before (oops, forgot to sign off) so I'm pretty sure it should work.

BL's over...Please help me to avoid cleaning!

Which now has to be done by Saturday as I told DH to invite the neighbors over for a dinner/playdate...Taco Bar is the current plan. Anyone got any good, easy options that are good for adults and the 2-7 set?

For the record, I'm completely happy with my birthday present. Because I picked it out myself last weekend! Earrings and a necklace.

Deb

I'm on deb try again

 

[Astro Orbiter]

I'm on deb try again

Still not working. I flunk!

The message I get:
Your message was not sent to snuffy1991. Invalid Target.

Grumble. Not in the mood to fight with it tonight.

Deb

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Still not working. I flunk!

The message I get:
Your message was not sent to snuffy1991. Invalid Target.

Grumble. Not in the mood to fight with it tonight.

Deb

Checking with Kat! I haven't a clue! It's just on my puter and that is all I know!

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Still not working. I flunk!

The message I get:
Your message was not sent to snuffy1991. Invalid Target.

Grumble. Not in the mood to fight with it tonight.

Deb

Deb I don't even show that you are online? I gave Kat your screen name and it isn't showing up with here either??? Not sure maybe your not on?? Not logged in?

 

[3DisneyKids]

Ha! Steph is an invalid target! For some reason this amuses me. Ok, so Nancy is rubbing off on me, what can I say?

Had my first run since the half today and it went very well. No pain. A nice, easy 3-miler. Then hit the weights at the gym and that felt GREAT since it has been a while.

Liz and I booked our air for the Dec. trip! WOO HOO. It's happening!

Kat--don't forget your "to do" list for today (meaning Weds.)

LisaV--we missed you tonight.

Deb--sounds like you are having the same issues Dawn does with AIM. She can never get through either. No clue as to why though. Sorry that I can't help. And on your birthday, too! You should totally be able to AIM on your birthday, right?

Lyz--Liz and I were both channeling you all day. What's up with that?

Paula--another PM coming your way, but too tired now. Will send it off in the morning.

 

[MunkyMe13]

I understand.... it was just a thought... just want you to be happy.... hang in there and we will be here to listen when you need to vent....

Paula

thanks!

Didn't work out... I'm so awful... LOL... There is always tomorrow... LOL

 

[3DisneyKids]

Morning! Looks to be a busy day here, but with fun stuff like furniture shopping, etc.

I am tracking today...Lyz?

And Lyz, have you ever thought about doing WW? I wonder if that would be the way to go for you. And if you didn't want to go to meetings (since you are in a small town and all...I get that) you do the online version. Liz, can I get an Amen here?

Kat--

Hitting the gym early today!

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Morning here from the invalid target!

I am off to the Pumpkin Patch with about 40 little ones!! HEY NANCY HERE I COME! Then off to work! No peace for the wicked...or the invalid target as I am! Deb try uninstalling it and then re installing it! Maybe that will work???

BYE BYE!!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Ha! Steph is an invalid target! For some reason this amuses me. Ok, so Nancy is rubbing off on me, what can I say?

Had my first run since the half today and it went very well. No pain. A nice, easy 3-miler. Then hit the weights at the gym and that felt GREAT since it has been a while.

Liz and I booked our air for the Dec. trip! WOO HOO. It's happening!

YEAH!!!!! Can't wait for this trip....

Kat--don't forget your "to do" list for today (meaning Weds.)

LisaV--we missed you tonight.

Deb--sounds like you are having the same issues Dawn does with AIM. She can never get through either. No clue as to why though. Sorry that I can't help. And on your birthday, too! You should totally be able to AIM on your birthday, right?

Lyz--Liz and I were both channeling you all day. What's up with that?

Paula--another PM coming your way, but too tired now. Will send it off in the morning.

Not a problem... I went to bed early last night... This swimming thing is knocking me out energy wise, but it is worth it. I just need to get used to it again...

Talk to you later,
Paula

 

[goofyfan-12]

Good morning ladies and Dan....

Hope all is well with everyone this morning.... Things are going well here for the most part... Still lamenting the two pieces of bread and butter I ate last night, but there is not much I can do about it now other than to literally walk it off so that is what I am going to do. A three mile walking tape sounds like the perfect remedy... What amazes me is how mindlessly I ate them. I mean what the heck was I thinking... oh yeah, I wasn't and in the mouth they went...

Today is off to a good start. Packed my food for the day including healthy snacks and I should be good to go.... Now if only my office to do list was a tidy... OK - off to get some actual work done... you know that whole employment at will thing... they are willing to pay me if I am willing to do my work.... funny how that works..

talk to you all later,
Paula