All righty, I'd just post the links for these, but man, that WW community is really not cooperating right now. Obviously, if it's not of interest....skip onward.
September 21, 2010
Slipping
Why is it sooo easy to slip back into old habits, old thought processes, old numbers on the scale?? I have been maintaining at my original weight goal for a while now, but am having a hard time getting it together to lose "the last 5 pounds" again.
I find this somewhat embarrassing - I was supposed to have this together. I was supposed to be on track for the rest of my life. I don't want to be the person who "lost all that weight and then gained it all back, plus more" again.
I know I can stop it here. I can reverse this trend here. I also know that I've somehow allowed some of my "Danger" behaviors to creep back in. It's easy to be complacent when my pants fit and I can still run, but I need to turn this around now, before my pants don't fit, before my running is impacted. Because if I don't turn it around, it is a matter of time before I end up at rock bottom once again.
I thought I had made peace with the fact that this is a lifetime challenge, that I will need to be careful and mindful for the rest of my life. I fee like I've lost sight of where my thoughts were a few months ago.
It's harder to do where I am now, because I am at a weight where people would say "But you don't need to lose weight." This is a tough time of year (as are they all) because of the weather change - something about the colder weather weakens my resolve a bit.
Finally, I realized what I've been doing lately - it's boredom/procrastination eating. I'm not hungry, but apparently food is the what I can think of to avoid cleaning the bathroom. It's silly! And it's a sign that I need to take charge of more than one aspect of my life, too.
I am still not back into the "lifetime" range for WW, but I've been home several weeks and haven't made it to a meeting yet, because I keep thinking I'll lose and then go back to my nice, free meeting. Well, this is it - I'm going to go to my favorite leader's meeting on Friday and if I pay, I pay.
Until then, Track, Spin, Water, Track, Track, Run, Track, TRX, Track, Swim, Track, here a Track, there a Track, everywhere a Track Track.

Oh, and keep my hand out of the cereal box as well.
September 22, 2010
How to Climb Up Instead of Slipping Down
Step One: Stop Being Complacent! If you are standing on a slippery
slope, if you just stand there, the natural tendency is to slide slowly
downward, and gain speed as you go.
Step Two: Decide Where You
Want to Go! Moving around randomly, occasionally or in a sideways
fashion isn't going to get you to the top of the slippery slope, but if
you have a clear objective, you can work towards it.
Step Three:
Move Toward That Objective Slowly, Carefully and with Purpose. If you
try to run on ice, you fall down, but if you inch your way slowly and
carefully, you can make a lot of progress.
Step Four: Don't Look Down! Keep on moving forward until you reach safety.
Now of course on this journey, there is no such thing as true "Safety" but
there is a place where it's all slightly less slick and sloped.
I realize that I've gone through the summer with a certain amount of
complacency. I haven't been training hard for any races, I haven't been
able to get my brain fully back into the WW groove. I need something
to focus on, to work toward. And frankly, having a focal point even
when you're just trying to stay where you are always, always helps with
balance.
While I was out running today, I remembered that a friend had
offered to pace me to a 2 hour half marathon at the end of October. I
had scoffed and said I was nowhere near that right now. Which is
probably true. However, I have 5 weeks, and if I don't strive for it, I
may never get any closer to a 2 hour half than I have already been. I
think that having more focus in my training will help me have more
focus with food as well. It has in the past, anyway.
I often think that striving for goals is more important to me than meeting them.When I meet them, suddenly that focal point I'd been using to keep my balance is gone and until I find another one, I often start to lapse or
relapse. Until I find another goal - something I WANT - and catch my balance again. Maybe someday I'll be able to focus without a clear goal to grab onto, but until then, I'm going to have to go with what works right now.