Hi Guys,
I have been horrible. The party was a disaster. Things were okay while DH was there. After he left, it started. Comments included,"It is so sad that the eldst son did not have a son." "Had he married a nice Chinese girl, he could have had the healthy babies." My favorite was,"Jean, it will be ok. Men can have children late in life. After she is dead, he will remarry and have lots of sons." Thank God Kate was off playing. I did say, "Hello. I am right here." We left earlier than planned. Renee (BIL girlfriend) said it got worse after I left. I came home to an empty house and started eating. I haven't really stopped.
Yesterday started out k. I did go to the gym, and food had been under control. At 11pm, Kate got another nosebleed. These are a result of her allergies. There really isn't anything to do about them. Unfortunately, this one wouldn't stop.We were in the ER until 230AM. I had to work today. After 2 hours of sleep, I come to work, and find out that Hussein's dad had a heart attack, so he is gone, and Andrea is out sick. Instead of 4 people in the room, there are now 2. We were slammed with patients too. We finished at 445. I am supposed to be done at 330. We never even took a break for lunch. I got home and ate way too much. I am just exhausted. I want to cry. I am so frustrated. I know the eating is a result of the exhaustion, stress, and general miserableness that comes with my inlaws. DH now has a cold, so he is being a big baby.
I need to help Kate get her homework done, and get her to bed. Then I am going to bed. At least if I sleep, I won't eat.
OK, I need the pity party to stop here. Tomorrow, I am going back to the gym. I am going to eat on program. I am going to hit journals.
I am sorry to be so depressing.
I hope everyone is well,
Beth