Beth's WW Journey. (Comments Welcome)

[toystoryduo]

Hi Beth,

I'm glad to hear that Kate's dentist appointment went well. That's good news that the retainers might do the trick and help her avoid braces.

I'm sorry that your session with the nutritionist wasn't more helpful. That's good that you can use that info and plug it in to what you're doing with WW though.

I hope your headache has gone away.

Have a great weekend!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Glad to hear the dentist appointment went well!

Glad you can plug in your nutrionist meeting information into WW for ya!

hope your headach is gone and have a great weekend

 

[MIdanceMom]

Thanks for dropping by everyone.

I am not feeling well today. My throat is sore and I have the chills. I did go to WW this morning. I am down 3.8. Go figure. Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled. Last week, I kill myself exercising, and I am up 2.1. This week, I only do moderate exercise, and I post a big loss.

I also hit the mall. I needed to buy my BIL a bday present. I tried on some things at Macy's, and I really am excited to be out of plus-sizes officially. I even tried on jeans, and the 16s fit. I didn't buy anything, but it was a good boost to my ego. I did stop in Lane Bryant as a last ditch place for a sports bra. They keep them in the back. They fit, give decent support, and only cost $7. I bought 4. I returned the $40 one to Kohl's.

Had lunch at OG. Soup, salad, and breadsticks. I did ok, until I ate the 2nd breadstick. I only have 6 points left for today. I really don't want to use any Flex points today. Tues is DH's bday, and he chose Mountain Jack's for his bday dinner. . There goes those flex points.

The plan for the rest of the day is to hang out with the munchkin. DH is playing poker with his buddies. DD and I will watch/dance to HSM dance along. That should be good for a laugh. I must remember to pull the shades. Tomorrow is my first session with my trainer at the gym.

Ok, I am off to clean the kitchen.

Take care,
Beth

 

[toystoryduo]

Beth,

I'm sorry to hear that you're not feeling well. I haven't been feeling well today either, but I think it has more to do with my fall allergies than anything else. I hope you're feeling better soon!

Congratulations on the weight loss and for fitting into those size 16s!!! Keep up the good work!

I love, love, love, Olive Garden especially when they have their never ending pasta bowl. Their whole wheat pasta is pretty tasty with alfredo sauce.

Hope you're having fun with the HSM2 dance along!

Have a great weekend!

 

[kimwim8]

There must be something in the air. I'm not feeling well either. Hopefully you're feeling better today. A little HSM2 dancing can make anyone feel better.

 

[traceycooper]

for the 3.8 loss Beth great news
hope your feeling better soon
sending some
for a quick recovery.

Thanks for the nutritionist info, but my heart plummeted after reading it!
This weekend i've had 2 1/2 pints of cider & 3 glasses of wine
AND i live on cheese - i love it
at least i know where i'm going wrong now

 

[ScoJo15]

Hi there!!

Congrats on the loss!!! I'm with you on how sometimes you can workout a ton, eat right and either maintain or gain....then you can eat bad, miss some workouts and end up with a loss....strange how it happens. I guess the biggest thing is to average all of those weekly weigh ins and get a monthly total...and then compare the months, I bet you see a downward trend if you look at it that way

Good luck with the trainer tomorrow and your plan of incorporating the info from your nutritionist into your WW plan sounds like a winner. I also hope you feel better soon...have a good day!

 

[AmyBeth68]

Hi Beth..

Sorry to hear you're sick . That's no fun...and I hate how it puts a damper on the workouts. Hopefullly you'll have a speedy recovery!!!

Congrats though on the loss!!!! I completely agree with Scott...there are so many things that can impact weight from day to day. Looking at it over that longer period of time gives you a more accurate picture . Keep up the workouts...they are truly the best thing you can do! And you've been doing such a great job of staying committed!

Have a great week.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi everyone,

I am sorry I didn't make it to journals today. My day just slipped away.

DD came in at 7AM. I quickly kicked DH out of bed and went baqck to sleep. I slept til 10AM.. Ahhh....bliss. I am feeling quite a bit better, but I'm still congested and have a slight headache. I did go meet with my trainer. Ken was nonjudgemental which is what I needed. We did my "actual body age" based on ht, wt, lifestyle, 5 minute treadmill test, evil fat caliper test, and bicep strength. I am a 36 year old woman living in a 37 yo body. Not too bad. Of course, if I follow the plan and become top of the charts on everything, I could have a body age of 23. Sorry, DH, not in the cards. He'll have to find jail bait elsewhere. Ken was surprised that I did as well as I did on the cardio portion. Yes, I am 70 pounds overweight, but I am pretty active. He did ask me up front, if I would be continuing with a trainer long term or not. I told him that was not in the finances. He was cool with that and is developing a training program that I can do on my own. I do think that I will ask DH for more sessions as my xmas gift and bday gift.

I was so bad tonight. Tuesday is DH's bday. We celebrated today because Tues. is our crazy day. He changed his mind about what he wanted for dinner. He wanted pizza. If I have one downfall it is pizza. Yes, I could have had a salad, but Yummo. I ate 3 pieces. It was worth it. Say goodbye to the flex points and an extra hour on the EE. Oh well, the last time I had pizza was 4 months ago.

I am back at work tomorrow, so I need to head to bed. I am no longer used to getting up at 5am.

Have a good one and I'll catch up with you all tomorrow,
Beth

 

[MIdanceMom]

Ok. so I'm a slacker. I woke up this morning with the intention of taking my dog for a walk. Well, I can't breathe, so I am sitting here catching up on journals before work. Yes, I am feeling guilty. (especially with the sad look puppy is giving me.) Oh well, hopefully the drugs kick in, and I can walk tonight.

Off to work.
Beth

 

[Amy&Dan]

Beth, I am sorry you are sick and hope you feel better very soon! That is great you are out of plus sizes, what a huge accomplishment that must be. See how far you have come!! Sounds like the trainer is very nice and helpful. That is great you can ask for more sessions for your xmas. Don't feel bad about the pizza, in the old days you probably would have more than three pieces. With that great loss, you are obivously doing something very right! Keep up the good work and get well!

 

[kimwim8]

Hey girl. I'm sorry you're not feeling well. Yeah, I think we have the same kind of thing. But the good news is I feel much better today. Hopefully you will be feeling much better tomorrow.

I'm glad the trainer hooked you up with a plan, and it sounds like you're starting at a great point. I bet when I started, I was a 32 year old in a 40 year old body (at least )

 

[toystoryduo]

Beth,

How are you feeling today? I hope you are feeling much better.

Happy Birthday to your DH!

Hope you have a great Tuesday!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Beth
wow no pizza for 4 months i think you deserved the treat
& hopefully its out your system now for another 4 months
Glad all went well with the trainer, i hope the programme helps.
Take care & i hope you feel better soon & the puppy get its walk!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Everyone,

Thanks for stopping by. I am sorry that I have not made it to journals. I hope to get to them tomorrow.

Warning.

I am having major issues right now. I am angry and feeling sorry for myslef. Feel free to skip this post. I thought long and hard (ok, a whole 15 minutes.) about weather to post about this. I decided I needed to, so I can look back on this post at a later date.

I received a letter yesterday, and it upset me terribly. In my first post, I said I lost a child at 26 weeks. I had undergone 7 invitro cycles to conceive. What wasn't said is that I was rearended by a man who was too busy texting on his cell phone to know that there were cars stopped in front of him. He admitted to going 45, speed limit 40. Based on my injuries, he was going 60. I had placenta abruption, multiple pelvis fractures, a dislocated hip, and femur fracture, and a fractured skull with icbleed. It does explain my sense of humor. The guy who hit me had to pay a $2500 fine and his license was suspended for 6 months. I spent 2 weeks in the hospital and 3 months in rehab. It was a dark time for me, and my family. None of us are the same.

He wrote me a letter asking me to forgive him. He explains how he lost his job as a drug rep because he wasn't able to drive. They had to move to a smaller home, and his boys needed to change schools. This has been really hard on his family, and he is sorry that he hit me. If he could change it, he would. Can I please forgive him?

The letter is all about the hardships he has had since the accident. I am so angry that I want to scream. HE has suffered. He has lost his cushy job. I am so sorry to hear that. I lost my baby. I lost 4 months of my life. I was in a major depression for over a year. I still wake up thinking I need to check on my baby. The baby I never got to hold. My daughter didn't know if her mom would live, and lost her brother. My relationship with DH is changed forever. There are days when I cannot manage to get out of bed, literally.

He wants my forgiveness. I know that I should try to be mature and forgive him. It is the Christian thing to do. No. He can have my anger and hatred, and even pity. Pity that he honestly believes that his suffering compares to mine. He can't have my forgiveness. He doesn't deserve it. Let him live with his guilt.

Yesterday, I slipped into my old habits. I self medicated with massive amounts of food. This morning I got my DD on the bus, and went back to bed. After 30 minutes, I got up, showered, and forced myslef to walk the dog. I forced myself to go grocery shopping, and make dinner. I took DD to dance. I cannot let myself fall into that depressive state again. It is a selfish thing to do to my family. My DH and DD deserve better, and I won't let that ******* do it to me again.

Thanks for sticking through my rant.

I need to get Kate into bed. I'll make journal rounds tomorrow.

Beth

 

[kimwim8]

Oh Beth. I am SO sorry for all of this. I don't know about anyone else, but I feel exactly the same as you. I am also a Christian, but forgiveness? Nope. Not yet.

You are a STRONG, STRONG woman. I've "known" you for a very short time, but I feel your strength. Don't let that man "win". I know it's hard for you, but by forcing yourself to get out of bed & be with the ones you love & the ones that love you.....that shows that YOU won't let him "win".

That took big you-know-whats for him to write you that letter. MAN. It gets ME mad and I'm an outsider. I can't imagine what you're going through. Any time you need someone, please contact me.

And one more thing. What an extremely brave thing you did by opening your heart to us here. I admit I'm not great about following cell phone laws while driving (not texting - wouldn't even know how to do that). Your story has changed my mindset. I won't ever use my phone while driving again. So, THANK YOU.

Stay strong.

 

[AmyBeth68]

Beth...wow sweetie. Stay strong. You don't owe him anything . I can't even imagine what you've been through. I think you are an amazing woman. Please try not to allow him to get in your head (I know that's easier said than done). If you need a friend to talk to, please pm me. ((HUGS))

 

[keenercam]

Oh, Beth, you poor thing! I have finally made it to your journal and have only read several of your posts but wanted to tell you that you should not feel badly at all about what you are feeling toward that . . . well, all sorts of words come to mind but I could probably get in trouble for voicing my opinion here. I am so sorry for all that you and your family have been through and I think you are an incredibly strong and warm person. I give you a lot of credit for taking charge of your life and getting out of bed and living it. I can't imagine the pain you have suffered. You should be so proud of yourself to pulling your life together. I am sure your daughter is happy to have her Mommy back and your husband is grateful that you are as strong as you are.

You are in inspiration to me, Beth. You have overcome so much and come so far. I am so happy that you felt comfortable journaling here and that we can all be here with you to provide a even if we have to settle for doing it virtually.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Thank you ladies.

posting yesterday really helped me figure out I was feeling and get my head together. Things are far from perfect, but I got out of bed and did what I needed to do. I took puppy for a walk. I did cancel my PT appointment. Instead I called my therapist and got an extra appointment tomorrow. I have actually eaten on program today. I'm making progress.

DH and I talked about the letter last night. We think he may be in AA, and this is part of his 12 step program. Unfortunately, that changes nothing. I wish him well with his sobriety.

Ok, I need to get dinner started.

Take care,
\Beth

 

[kimwim8]

You are such a wonderful person.