Angelrose's Journey

[debknight]

So sorry to hear about your cousin, Angel. I do not even drive much, but still see so many that drive recklessly. It's a wonder that those causing the accidents are never the ones badly injured!

 

[Angelrose]

Thanks minniecarousel and debknight. She was lucky and we are all so thankful. I see crazy people on the road all the time. I just try and stay away from them as much as possible. I wish they would stop talking or texting on their cell phones.

She is doing better today. She did get a lawyer from our cousin's son's firm. Joan is still going to worry but at least she has someone to do all the work for her.

She saw her car yesterday. There was nothing left of the outside of the Jeep SUV, just the inside cage which saved her life. She had gone grocery shopping right before it happened. The chips exploded all over the car and so did the two dozen eggs. But they were in a bag so they didn't get all over. She has to make a list of everything she lost including the groceries.

I feel better knowing she has a lawyer now. I'll keep bugging her to find out how she is doing every week until I know she is getting the cast off.

 

[Angelrose]

Hello my friends. Hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I sure did. Karen made a delicious turkey dinner and they finished decorating the tree and the new lights on the outside of the house.

Friday Chuck took our Christmas pictures himself this year. It was Ugly Christmas Sweater themed. OMG we laughed so hard. After that, Karen and I chose the best of the pictures to put on our Christmas cards from Shutterfly. She designed a great card and arranged the pictures. It was a fun night.

Saturday I went over later in the day. Jesse had a friend over and we all went to see The Good Dinosaur. It was really cute. I was very glad to have Sunday all to myself and relax.

 

[Angelrose]

Hello my friends. Today I got some horrible news. My cousin Joann 's daughter hanged herself last night. She has been suffering from depression and never got over her father's death 5 years ago. She was just released from the hospital and told her mom she was fine. Joann went out and when she came back she noticed the light on in the garage and that's when she found her.

I'm sorry but I think that was a horrible, selfish thing to do to her mother. Joann will never have a nice Christmas after this and I don't know if she will survive this. I'm mad and sad and I don't know what else. Then I learned my cousin Butch isn't doing well either. He has uncontrollable high blood pressure and diabetes. The skin cancer on his head isn't getting any better and his liver isn't doing well either.

And the hits just keep coming.

Sorry to lay this all on you but I just needed to vent. My mind is just in a turmoil.

 

[minniecarousel]

Oh no! Suicide is so hard on the family. What a shame that the young woman couldn't get the help or meds she needed. Survivor guilt for your cousin is very real and oh so difficult to deal with.

And poor Butch. As people age and get sick, they have a more difficult time recovering.

Prayers and good thoughts for your extended family.

 

[4nana]

Oh how very sad, I'm so sorry Angelrose . Prayers to you, your cousin, and all your family. May she rest in peace now , so sad she felt there was no hope or no other way out. Hard to blame anyone, mental illness is a terrible beast that claims many lives in different forms or fashion. In 2001 I lost my 38yo little brother to an overdose of alcohol and pain meds combo. No one is sure if it was intention or not, as sadly he fought many demons. Needless to say, still very shocking and heartbreaking for any family to go through, specially poor parents.

Healing prayers to your cousin, Butch, also. So much heartache to endure around holidays . Take care of yourself and hang in there.

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you so much minniecarousel and 4nana. Merry just never got over her father's death. She did get help, just not what she needed I guess.

When I told Karen today, she told me to come right over. We were going to Storybook Land right after lunch, but she wanted me there this morning. It really helped being with the family today. Being near the grandkids always puts a smile in my heart. Of course being with Karen always gets me to laugh, so I was very grateful for their support.

I don't have the courage to call my cousin right now. I have no idea what I would say that would help her. I'm sure at the funeral and a few days after, I can call her and talk to her. As you can tell, I'm managing better tonight than last night.

I really appreciate your well wishes my dear friends. You have been with me for 6 years. You are all such good friends and I feel so blessed to have you all.

 

[snapppyd]

Oh my, so sorry for all your troubles AR. How old was your cousin's daughter? I can't even imagine going through something like that.

The grands look adorable, and Jesse is getting so tall! Hope his ankle is 100% now.

Hello also to Minniecarousel and 4Nana. Sorry I've been MIA, just haven't been in the mood to post.

DH and I are going to Disney on Friday for 5 nights. We are going to the candlelight processional for my birthday. Of course I woke up sick today *groan* Sore throat, congestion and low fever. Hoping to knock it out with vitamin C by Friday.

I'll try not to stay away so long next time! Prayers for everyone!

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you snappyd. I've missed you! Jesse's ankle is 100% now.

My cousin's daughter Merry was only 43. She was a year younger that Chuck. It will be hard for my cousin to get through this. It will be hard for all of us. The funeral will be on Saturday. Just a terrible thing.

Hope you start to feel better soon. Take along a lot of tissues! Let us know how your trip went.

 

[snapppyd]

Went to the doctor, it's a sinus infection. I'm on antibiotics and a nasal spray. Fly should be fun


Sending good thoughts your way.

 

[4nana]

AR, I feel your pain dearheart . Very sad times indeed, my heart and prayers go out to all involved. Be sure to take care of yourself.

Welcome back Snappdyd, we all need a break now and then! - sorry to hear you're under the weather, but thankfully you went to dr before trip. Hopefully the antibiotics will kick in so you can enjoy your BD trip!

Our Thanksgiving was wonderful, this year we celebrated with our DD, DSIL, sweet grands, in North Carolina and soaked up some of their 70*. December temps are unusually warm for Md. thus far, but our nights are cold.

Now that we've celebrated 5 BD thus far in Dec ...I feel like I can move forward to begin my C'mas decorations . I had a great BD family dinner outing, followed by a fun trip with all to view beautiful C'mas lights at one of our local gardens. I'm about done shopping and anxiously awaiting the holiday as I enjoy hosting C'mas eve annually. Sweet grands make it even more special.

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you 4nana. I just want it to be over. That's sounds so selfish, doesn't it? I feel so helpless . There is nothing I can say or do to help my cousin. All I can say is "I'm so sorry". Maybe that is enough. I know when Ron passed they all came and said they were sorry and somehow it did help.

snappyd, sometimes a couple of days on antibiotics can get rid of most of the symptoms and you can enjoy the rest of your vacation. Hoping that's true for you.

 

[4nana]

I know Angelrose ~ tough to know what to say or do . Just being there for her will be a great help and appreciated.

 

[Angelrose]

Thanks 4nana. I will let you k now how it goes tomorrow night. I packed a lot of tissues.

 

[Angelrose]

We all shed a lot of tears and we all gave my cousin Joann lots of hugs. That's about all you can do right now. The mass was very moving and the priest gave a lovely eulogy since he knew Merry from when she was a little girl. There was a short prayer at the cemetery and then we all went to an Italian restaurant right down the block from my cousin Joan. Very good food and we did get to talk to Joann and I told her I would call her in a few days.

I got home around 4 and just watched Christmas movies the rest of the evening. Chuck called to make sure I was OK, which I thought was very sweet of him. They are always looking out for me.

 

[4nana]

Thx for the update Angelrose. Sad and heartbreaking as it is to lose a loved one, even more terrible under the circumstances, hopefully Merry's moving tribute brought you, cousin Joann and family, some peace and hope. You're so fortunate to blessed with a loving family who is always there for you. God Bless

 

[minniecarousel]

Mary, I'm sure you're glad that part is over. Although I know you'll be there for Joann. Such a tough thing to see a loved one go through.

I wish you quiet peaceful days ahead.

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you 4nana and minniecarousel. Today was very peaceful. Nice and quiet. It got up to 75 here today. Strange weather we are having for December.

 

[Angelrose]

I want to wish all my dear friends here a very MERRY CHRISTMAS and a very HAPPY, HEALTHY NEW YEAR full of blessings.

 

[4nana]

Thank you Angelrose. Wishing you and all our Dis friends a blessed Christmas and a New Year full of love, hope, faith, and good health.

Had my family C'mas eve party this evening. Am sitting here unwinding from all the festivities, watching the tree reflection in the sun room windows, and counting my many blessings.