Thanks Ladies!
This was a good week, a stressful week and I had some moments with sadness and being overwhelmed about family issues and weight loss. But I lost the two pounds I gained last week so it was good. I did also get in three, one hour walks and aquasized once.
And I got free dining for our trip in June! What a saga. Long story short, one cm saw the pin, but couldn't book me since we were part of a grand gathering. GG cm didn't see a pin and was ready to just hang up on me, but I persisted and asked for a manager and one hour after I first got on with the first cm, I had my pkg booked with free dining. Disney reservations is so messed up. But I got my free dining which is hands down the best discount dh and I can get as long as we have the kids with us.
As far as the rest of my week, lets just say I struggled with my emotions but managed to hold my own with food and exercise. I did eat chips for dinner on Thursday but again, my overall week was solid enough to have me down a couple of pounds. I talked with my Bible study teacher a bit about this stuff with my brother and sister and she told me "you are in mourning for your family that in a sense has died". So true. I talked with both my siblings this week and they both seemed like they were mad at me. I may just be paranoid with my brother but my sister is always resentful and angry on some level so who knows. I just felt a distance from my brother and my sister outright said when I saw her last week "how can you still have a relationship with him". WTH? How can I not? Sheesh if I nuked everyone who can't get along with her out of my life, I'd have to live in solitary confinement. As for brother, I hope he also realizes that my nephew may very well understand my brother's viewpoint but in the end he'll stand by his mom's side. Poor nephew just another male relative to dump him because they can't stand his mother. His dad, his uncle, his grandpa, all did the same thing. How hurtful for him. At least he has Dan. I think my brother thinks its up to nephew to call him, Nephew thinks (and I agree with this) that my brother should call him and I will bet my free dining that in the end, neither will call the other. Time was when I would have "brokered the deal" between them but now I just don't have the energy. They are grown men, and even if I get them to talk, I doubt anything further would come of it. I truly don't think either of them care. Which makes me also conclue that in the end, I am not sure how much any of the lot truly care about me.
In fact, I have called nephew, and sent him a couple of texts but he can't be bothered to call me back. When we went down to see them last week, he wasn't home (at a friend's which is understandable he is a young and single guy) and I really miss him. I think he got so overloaded with family drama he just wants a break from all of us. Which hurts me. He'll come around eventually.
Strangely enough this whole thing has brought me and stepdad much closer because after being married to my mother for almost 20 years, he knows firsthand how things work and the dynmamics of the whole situation. He told me the other day how sad he is for me. It made me cry, I guess because I needed to hear somebody acknowledge, that being put in the middle of a feud between two familiy members you love is not a fun place to be.
I keep telling ds and dd, "please always remember you are family and even if Dad and I aren't around, you will always have each other". Dan has had very similar issues with his family and assures me in time, I'll just settle into the way things are and stop thinking about the way things used to be. I hope so and I do actually believe him because I watched him come to terms with this years ago where his family is concerned.
Ds told me "Grammy needs to come back and kick some a** and get everybody in shape. That pretty much says it all!
I have to say, the free dining thing really ended my week on a happy note. I love having the
DDP (although its quick serve but I am fine with that), no carrying around cash or worrying about what we order. I see alot of Wolfgang Puck Express in my future!
Tracy: We did go to
Disneyland once just us and it was fun but I missed the kids. I doubt we do a Disneymoon next summer, I don't think we'll be able to afford it, I want to take ds for Spring Break in 2013 before he goes into the marines and I want to stay deluxe at least part of the trip. Which over spring break will be so expensive!
Tracey: Stepdad's family is coming to terms with his nephew's death, but it was really a shock.
Lisa: I was thinking about you this week, sorry I didn't get on here too much yet again!
How wonderful! 
I love the idea of the vow renewal with a 2nd honeymoon at Disney for you and Dan!
Family relationships can be so tough at times, especially when family members put you in the middle. I hope things work out for everyone soon. Know that we'll be praying for all of you!
I think your DS has the right idea. 
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One of them is my stepdad's, his cleaning lady only wants to do commerical business now instead of private homes so when she quit he nicely asked me if I wanted the job. I grabbed it. I know his condo like the back of my hand since I cleaned it for my mom as a daughter should for years. Now that she's gone it feels a bit funny to take his money but he said he insists so I agreed. Bottom line, he can afford it and if he needs a free houskeeper maybe his loser son can take on that job! He has several friends who live in that same complex and a few mentioned they are looking for someone so we'll see. 
Have a wonderful Friday Amy. 
