Augh. Ya know these runs are so blessed hard that when I am done I feel that I need to reward myself with a treat. So what do I do - eat ice cream. It is hard to find something to do for myself after the run because I am so tired from the run and hot that I really don't want to paint my nails or take a hot bath - I just want to put calories in my body so that I feel better. This is becoming destructive, and I'm not sure how to handle it. Maybe I need to keep some low carb fudge bars on hand to reward myself.
The run last night was a lot better then Monday but still really really hard. Mother Nature decided to give us a break on the humdity so I didn't feel like I was straining to breathe at all. I was able to continue running the entire 5 minutes every time but I was a lot slower then my hubby. But I figure I need to just worry about my pace and straining myself to keep up with him is just going to end up with me hurting something. Those sports drinks are a lifesaver and really do help me in the recovery period of my workout.
Something strange is happening with my body. I am watching my legs get leaner and my upper body is getting leaner but my lower abdomen and hips seem to be clinging to their extra weight. So for the first time in my life I have a curve. I am usually almost completely up and down but at the moment my hips are about an inch wider then my waist. This is a first for me. I'm not sure how I feel about it because my body image is actually really bad right now - I'm not sure I like hips. Plus I just don't feel like I am getting anywhere - I'm running and walking like crazy and for the most part watching what I eat and yet my weight is still pivoting between 150 lbs to 155 lbs. I know that our exercise is building muscles though because my thighs are litterally telling me off everyday.
Okay - well that was a lot of information! Total recap from yesterday:
B: 1 egg, 1slice of cheese on English Muffin (27 carbs)
L: Chicken (1 carb) and Cauliflower in butter and cajun seasonings (3) = 4 carbs
S: 1 Hersheys Kiss
D: Chicken Ala Amanda - 3 carbs, and about a 1/2 cup of DH's hamburger helper?
S: 1/2 cup of Ben and Jerrys Ice Cream.
So see almost perfect except for the Ice Cream.
Today's Plan:
B: 2 scrambled Eggs, Salsa, and Sour Cream - 3 carbs
L: Either Tuna Salad or turkey and cheese on half an english muffin
S: ?
D: Hotdogs and Bratwurst without the buns, veggies, dh will have french fries
S: Sugar Free Jello
I only got 2 of my goals done yesterday - I still forgot to make the jello. Three goals today:
1) Clean kitchen up
2) Make Sugar Free Jello
3) try not to be annoyed with SIL who is coming over tonight for some reason but she won't tell me
~Amanda