Pretty nice weekend all around, except for a few bumps in the road
Day 132. Sat. woke up and did 1/2 hour on the stairmaster again. Felt GREAT! Brought a fun appetizer to my Godson's birthday party. I had stuffed cucumbers and mini BLT stuffed tomatoes. They were both very good, liked that I had the veggies with the stuffing (although the stuffing was not low fat). And only a couple of the tomatoes were left, otherwise they were all gone!
Something bad came out of the party though. There was someone there who behaves like an arrogant ****! Details don't matter, but it is immensely funny to me to see his behavior because from my vantage point he has very little to be arrogant about, and in fact is kind of a dufus. BUT he really made me and DH angry because apparantly when DD went to get food she got 2 servings of the subs. She said that he was laughing at her, and she immediately felt self conscious, and bad about her appearance. On the way home we talked about body image and she was very upset, close to tears. Ughhh, just days earlier she told me, and I quote.... "I love my life". Now, she is upset, and self conscious. I tried my best, but people are just so mean. Just because he has some psych issues, and one of his kids has issues does not mean he has the right to try and screw up someone elses kids. (And no, I am not just saying that because I am angry at him, he does have psych issues, a family member told me some of the issues he has and his kids' issue (This person is the BF of his wife, and there are visible signs). So now we have a long road of damage repair because of this one ****. I really debated about writing this out, because who knows if they will ever read this. I doubt they would, no one in my extended family knows I am writing this journal, I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, I really don't. So calling someone an **** and a dufus puts me right in his league. HOWEVER I would never say anything about his issues, or his kids issues to them, they don't even know that I know. I don't want to hurt anyone like they hurt my kid, but when you mess with my child, the claws come out. I guess venting on here is the safest way of dealing with my anger.
We are working with her and her volleyball, keeping her active and I will be working on getting her back to her happy self again. Teen years can be so hard.
And although I did make some good choices, overall I didn't really "try" the whole day, so I don't think I earned my smilie.
Day 133. MY BABY is 17!!!!!
Ahhh, how does the time fly? I can't believe DS is 17! Can I possbily be that old? I guess so! LOL. I had fun reminiscing with DS about what he remembers special in his life, and then DH and I drove somewhere and we reminisced too. Very fun. We bought some beautiful mums today, planted in the garden, made a very yummy traditional latvian meatball soup with lots of veggies and had a nice day. I didn't get my workout in though. I have learned from this weekend that I need to work out earlyl in the day on weekends because otherwise I don't get it in. no smilie for me today.
So my goal for this coming week is to get 7 smilies in a row. I got 5 and then didn't try hard enough this weekend, so my goal is to try all week long and then work even harder next weekend!
...nobody said this journey would be easy.
It really is fun once you find your focus and your goal. I sure hope you are feeling better, you have been in my thoughts and prayers.
