You just lost 80 pounds! What are you Going to do next? Ending TR

[Millie12591]

Why is it that the illness of a parent brings out the best and worst of people? My dad is going through something similar. My uncle is being very difficult through my grandmother's illness. Big hugs to all of you during this difficult time.

Jill in CO

That's a really good question, Jill. I find that the worst is usually fear, but instead of just facing the feelings, they react in some very selfish ways. And some times it just reveals what is in someone's heart, and sadly that can be evil rather than good. "For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks."

I'm so sorry for your family to be going through this, especially your dad. I'll lift him up in prayer. And thank you for your kind thoughts during this time, it's much appreciated.

It was so good to talk to you on the phone today and catch up! Despite it being hard as heck, you have a very healthy perspective and response. One day at a time....

Thank you sweetie, I appreciate you. It's always good catching up with you.

 

[Millie12591]

Praying for you and this time with your mom. Lord knows there is so much I could say but I'll just keep my comments to prayers for you.

Thank you Debbie. And you can always comment to me in a PM if you like. Some times we need to just say what is on our minds from time to time.

Camille, you are so very right. It's wonderful to know that we have a powerful loving God upon which to lean! I continue to pray for you and for your mother and for the strength that you will both need to get through this.

Thank you so much, Lisa. You are a dear, sweet sister. I'm so sorry for your loss, it's never easy losing family.

Wondering how things are going with your mom. Still praying.

She's hanging in there. She's declining more and more everyday. Just when you think you won't have any more moments of clarity, you do, which is such a blessing. They just delivered her a hospital bed yesterday, so getting her moved will be a challenge, but good once we get her in it. She's starting to have panic attacks, which is very scary for her and everyone there when she has them. God love her.

She wakes up later and later in the day, eating less, which is all part of the stages of death as were told.
This is all so surreal, and yet so very in your face all at the same time.

No one is going to read my TR ever again. I don't mean to be so macabre everyone, truly. It's just what I'm dealing with, what my mom is dealing with.

Thank you for asking, Debbie. So sweet of you. It means a lot for you to ask how my mom is doing.

 

[Millie12591]

On a good front, I told John (my hubby) I needed something good to focus on, I needed a trip to focus on in the future. So as of now I'm attentively planning a trip for next Oct., not completely sure on the dates just yet, but I'll iron that out as time goes on.

Since there are a few of my beautiful Dis friends that are going during that time, I'm sure I'll plan around those dates. It will probably be a solo trip, I know for sure no kids, just something for me. But of course that doesn't mean I won't be hanging out with friends! If you are going to be there during Oct., please shoot me your dates so we can all try and meet up. I know TarzansKat is going, so that's a for sure for me to meet with her. I think I'll need a trip of being around my Dis brothers and sisters when the time comes.

This trip will help in the weight loss dept. too. I've not been as focused as I once was, since coming back from my last trip I've put on a few pounds and I'm not happy about that. Not to mention I'm not anywhere near my weight loss goal, I'm hoping this trip will help me refocus and obtain the goal I've set out to do.
I want to hit that 100 lb. loss mark!!

I know this isn't the best time to be talking about these things considering what all is going on with my mom, but I'm not exactly one to do things to the timing of what the world thinks.
I need something else to focus on, I need to be able to hold onto this gift of joy God has given me. Maybe that sounds strange, but once you've been in the pits with depression, (11 years before I was set free from it) you hold onto the glimpses of joy and happiness everywhere you've been given it.

I ain't letting it go!

God's banner over me is love...Song of Solomon 2:4

 

[DisneyKid4Life]

Awww so glad to hear you're planning a trip this year. You'll love October. It's wonderful with all the decorations. I'm hoping for a fall trip too, but likely September for the same reason you listed... DISers!

Camille, don't you dare feel guilty or worry about "what other people think". There is NEVER anything wrong with looking after yourself. Never! And looking for some Disney magic, well, I don't think there's anybody here that would deny that wish.

 

[emmysmommy]

Oh my sweet friend I'm so sorry that the clock is unwinding and that you are standing on the edge of a great unknown. I do know that your faith is strong and your hope is sure. Praying that the grace He promised is sufficient.

The Lord your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing
Zephaniah 3:17

I completely agree. You need a celebration trip for that 100 lb goal! That is so huge and I'm so proud of every pound that you have conquered! I would love to be there to help celebrate in October...

 

[zanzibar138]

Sorry I've been MIA. I've been keeping an eye on your TR, just haven't had time to comment.

I just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you, your mum, and your family

It's amazing how people all deal with grief and fear in different ways, and yes, sometimes it brings out a sort of nastiness in people that has been lurking inside. I think focusing your attention on something nice like a trip to WDW is a much better way of dealing with it

 

[KatMark]

If I'm not mistaken, Maryellen (MEK) and Cynthia (eandesmom) have an October trip planned. I wish we were going to be there in October but, unfortunately October is never a month we can go with Mark's current job.

Although we may not "talk" every day, please know that I am always thinking of you and keeping you and your mom close to my heart.

 

[IheartDDuck]

I'm glad that you are planning another trip. Having something to keep yourself focused on is a good way to keep your mind off of other things. There's nothing worse than going through what you are. We went through that with my Grandma last year. Time isn't on your side, and it's also completely unknown how everything will play out. I'm thinking about you guys.

As for gaining a little weight, it's okay, because YOU WILL hit that 100 pound mark. I know it. I can feel it in my bones! It's just a little speed bump.

 

[mickeystoontown]

Camille, I wish that I were there so I could give you a hug. It's tough to see a loved one suffer so and know that there is nothing that you can do to make it stop. What I am about to say may sound like a crazy/strange/odd thing to pray for but I know that you will understand what I am trying to put into words. I pray that if it's not God's plan to perform a miracle and heal your mother completely, that He take her before the suffering gets to be more than she or you can stand. Because, as you and I know, once our loved ones get to Heaven, they will be rejoicing with the Lord!

As far as the trip planning goes, I can certainly understand why you need a ray of sunshine to look toward. The planning will also help keep your mind occupied with "fun" things.

 

[MEK]

Camille - I'm glad you have an October trip to focus on! It's such a lovely time to go and a fantastic time to meet up with other DISers. I know you have so much going on right now, so its good to have something to look forward to on the horizon. Denny and I will be there the 18th -23rd of October!

 

[MAGICFOR2]

Boo! Bet you can't guess who this is.... I'll PM you.

Hey you! Miss you around here!

 

[MAGICFOR2]

My sweet friend, I missed your latest posts around the holidays. I'm so sorry you are at this place with your mom. I have known the pattern and have been praying for her and for you all. Listen to the hospice people, and let them guide you through this process. They are experts at knowing the signs at each stage, and at giving comfort where they can, but being honest with you also. I saw your post on FB about not wanting to bring attention to yourself. Please don't feel that way - you should let those who care about you know so we can be lifting you up - you will be carried through this in His arms.

I am praying that your mom will have peace and no more pain in her home-going, and that you will get an assurance that she is safe in the arms of Jesus and will have peace in all things, too.

"The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me.....To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord, ....To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; That they may be called trees of righteousness, The planting of the Lord, that He might be glorified." Is 61:1-6

I see you as a tree firmly planted, and you will bring glory to God in your actions and God given strength through all of this.

Love you!

 

[Steppesister]

YAY!!! A trip to plan and to help have some moments to focus on "other", more happy, things!

I wish I could say I could go in October, but I think/hope/pray I'll be learning how to be a nurse then.

HI TAMMIE!! So great to see you here, too! Let the good times roll!

 

[pwdebbie]

She's hanging in there. She's declining more and more everyday. Just when you think you won't have any more moments of clarity, you do, which is such a blessing. They just delivered her a hospital bed yesterday, so getting her moved will be a challenge, but good once we get her in it. She's starting to have panic attacks, which is very scary for her and everyone there when she has them. God love her.

She wakes up later and later in the day, eating less, which is all part of the stages of death as were told.
This is all so surreal, and yet so very in your face all at the same time.

No one is going to read my TR ever again. I don't mean to be so macabre everyone, truly. It's just what I'm dealing with, what my mom is dealing with.

Thank you for asking, Debbie. So sweet of you. It means a lot for you to ask how my mom is doing.

I totally understand what you are talking about. For the panic attacks, hospice provided meds that I had been very reluctant to give to my mil but after seeing the fear in her eyes, we decided it was time to give her the meds. I never wanted to see that fear again.

My mil lingered much longer than hospice thought she would. We continued to talk to her and also my daughter made her a CD of hymns that we kept playing softly in the background.

It is a strange place to be in -- someone is in your home is dying while your living must go on. It is ok to be planning a trip and working on your weight loss.

I've got my eye on the 100 lb target too. Before Christmas it was only 7.2 pounds away. Let's just say that I've got about twice that to go now. How can one week be so devastating to the scale?

 

[Captain_Oblivious]

On a good front, I told John (my hubby) I needed something good to focus on, I needed a trip to focus on in the future. So as of now I'm attentively planning a trip for next Oct., not completely sure on the dates just yet, but I'll iron that out as time goes on.

I think it's wonderful to have another trip on the horizon. Personally, having that oasis on the calendar is what keeps me going through tough times. It's always good to have something to look forward to. You definitely need that. I hope you get to greet a lot of DIS friends there!

 

[pooh'smate]

I am slowly geting back into the Dis and I am catching up on your tr. I am on page 10 right now so I have a lot to catch up on but wanted to tell you I am back and reading again.

 

[Millie12591]

Awww so glad to hear you're planning a trip this year. You'll love October. It's wonderful with all the decorations. I'm hoping for a fall trip too, but likely September for the same reason you listed... DISers!

Camille, don't you dare feel guilty or worry about "what other people think". There is NEVER anything wrong with looking after yourself. Never! And looking for some Disney magic, well, I don't think there's anybody here that would deny that wish.

Thank you, Rob. You are so kind.
I've never been in Oct.! Looking forward to it.

Oh my sweet friend I'm so sorry that the clock is unwinding and that you are standing on the edge of a great unknown. I do know that your faith is strong and your hope is sure. Praying that the grace He promised is sufficient.

The Lord your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing
Zephaniah 3:17

I completely agree. You need a celebration trip for that 100 lb goal! That is so huge and I'm so proud of every pound that you have conquered! I would love to be there to help celebrate in October...

I sure hope you'll be there in Oct. to celebrate.
Brenda, becoming friends with you has been one of the best surprises in my life, there are some really amazing people I've become friends with here on the Dis and you are certainly one of them. Thank you for always being such an amazing support, I love you my friend.

Sorry I've been MIA. I've been keeping an eye on your TR, just haven't had time to comment.

No worries, Lana. I know you are around when you can be. I miss ya and think of you often, how are things?

I just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you, your mum, and your family

It's amazing how people all deal with grief and fear in different ways, and yes, sometimes it brings out a sort of nastiness in people that has been lurking inside. I think focusing your attention on something nice like a trip to WDW is a much better way of dealing with it

Thank you sweetie, I think so too. And thank you so much for your kind words, it means so much to me to feel your support.

 

[Millie12591]

If I'm not mistaken, Maryellen (MEK) and Cynthia (eandesmom) have an October trip planned. I wish we were going to be there in October but, unfortunately October is never a month we can go with Mark's current job.

Although we may not "talk" every day, please know that I am always thinking of you and keeping you and your mom close to my heart.

I wish you were going to be there too, Ms. Kat. One of these days we'll be there at the same time.

Ms. Kat, friends don't have to talk every day to know they are there for one another. I cherish your sweet words and friendship when ever and how ever it comes.

I'm glad that you are planning another trip. Having something to keep yourself focused on is a good way to keep your mind off of other things. There's nothing worse than going through what you are. We went through that with my Grandma last year. Time isn't on your side, and it's also completely unknown how everything will play out. I'm thinking about you guys.

As for gaining a little weight, it's okay, because YOU WILL hit that 100 pound mark. I know it. I can feel it in my bones! It's just a little speed bump.

I'm glad I'm planning another trip too! I need it!! Family is driving me crazy!! I think it's all apart of God plan to make sure the people we would never put ourselves around on a normal basis, are family. At least for me any way. You seem to have an amazing family, if you can go on trips with your family then you know you've got it good. Cherish that.
And thank you sweet, funny one, I appreciate your support and kind words. I'm so sorry you went through this with your grandmother, it's not an easy thing to go through, but such is life.

And yes, as for the weight, I WILL CONQUER!! You are right, just a speed bump!

Camille, I wish that I were there so I could give you a hug. It's tough to see a loved one suffer so and know that there is nothing that you can do to make it stop. What I am about to say may sound like a crazy/strange/odd thing to pray for but I know that you will understand what I am trying to put into words. I pray that if it's not God's plan to perform a miracle and heal your mother completely, that He take her before the suffering gets to be more than she or you can stand. Because, as you and I know, once our loved ones get to Heaven, they will be rejoicing with the Lord!

As far as the trip planning goes, I can certainly understand why you need a ray of sunshine to look toward. The planning will also help keep your mind occupied with "fun" things.

Oooh, Lisa. I'd take that hug in New York minute! And yes you are right it is hard to see a loved one in pain. And yes, I know exactly what you are saying, and it doesn't sound strange at all. I wish that moment of rejoice for her sooner rather than later, sounds morbid maybe, but that's how I feel.

The trip planning is actually taking on another life of it's own! I'm actually trying to see if I can plan a trip to New York City for a Dis meet!
We're talking this coming spring. I've wanted to meet Brook and TarzansKat and Tim (that's nice) for a while now, not to mention all the other wonderful East Coast people out that way!! And MEK might even be there!!
I'll be talking with Brook to see if I can swing it.

 

[Millie12591]

Camille - I'm glad you have an October trip to focus on! It's such a lovely time to go and a fantastic time to meet up with other DISers. I know you have so much going on right now, so its good to have something to look forward to on the horizon. Denny and I will be there the 18th -23rd of October!

I've never been during that time of the year, I'm excited to plan for it! And if there is any way we can meet up for lunch/dinner, drinks, I'd love that. I'm pretty sure my dates are going to work with yours, I think. It's still a bit up in the air for me right now.

My sweet friend, I missed your latest posts around the holidays. I'm so sorry you are at this place with your mom. I have known the pattern and have been praying for her and for you all. Listen to the hospice people, and let them guide you through this process. They are experts at knowing the signs at each stage, and at giving comfort where they can, but being honest with you also. I saw your post on FB about not wanting to bring attention to yourself. Please don't feel that way - you should let those who care about you know so we can be lifting you up - you will be carried through this in His arms.

I am praying that your mom will have peace and no more pain in her home-going, and that you will get an assurance that she is safe in the arms of Jesus and will have peace in all things, too.

"The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me.....To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord, ....To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; That they may be called trees of righteousness, The planting of the Lord, that He might be glorified." Is 61:1-6

I see you as a tree firmly planted, and you will bring glory to God in your actions and God given strength through all of this.

Love you!

It is well within my soul. Thank you, thank you, thank you, Tammie.
You are a good friend, we'll have to talk soon.

YAY!!! A trip to plan and to help have some moments to focus on "other", more happy, things!

I wish I could say I could go in October, but I think/hope/pray I'll be learning how to be a nurse then.

HI TAMMIE!! So great to see you here, too! Let the good times roll!

Yes! A much needed plan. And if you can swing the Oct. trip that would be amazing, but if not, not to worry. I'm trying to swing a once a year trip from here on out, so there will be plenty of trip opportunities for us!! I can't wait to plan a trip together!

It is ok to be planning a trip and working on your weight loss.

I've got my eye on the 100 lb target too. Before Christmas it was only 7.2 pounds away. Let's just say that I've got about twice that to go now. How can one week be so devastating to the scale?

Just like Danielle said, just a bump in the road. You will make your 100 lb. goal, right along with me! Probably before me! Let's just keep moving forward, shall we?

 

[Millie12591]

I think it's wonderful to have another trip on the horizon. Personally, having that oasis on the calendar is what keeps me going through tough times. It's always good to have something to look forward to. You definitely need that. I hope you get to greet a lot of DIS friends there!

So many people who get it!! Thank you guys.

And you are right, it's so good to have something to look forward to. I hope I get to see a lot of Dis friends too, but if not I'd be happy just being in my happy place. Brenda and I are trying to see if we can swing it together. Hoping to make it around the time MEK is there too. I'd love for it to be around the time Kat is going to be there, but I believe she will be there too early for me to meet up with her and her beautiful family.
Oh well. Hopefully we'll get a chance to meet this coming spring in NYC.

I am slowly geting back into the Dis and I am catching up on your tr. I am on page 10 right now so I have a lot to catch up on but wanted to tell you I am back and reading again.

So glad you are. And thank you for trying to catch up, just hit the links and you'll be caught up in no time. I really wanted to get a new post done this week, so here's hoping I will!