eandesmom
I'm with Beast
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On a good front, I told John (my hubby) I needed something good to focus on, I needed a trip to focus on in the future. So as of now I'm attentively planning a trip for next Oct., not completely sure on the dates just yet, but I'll iron that out as time goes on.
Since there are a few of my beautiful Dis friends that are going during that time, I'm sure I'll plan around those dates. It will probably be a solo trip, I know for sure no kids, just something for me. But of course that doesn't mean I won't be hanging out with friends! If you are going to be there during Oct., please shoot me your dates so we can all try and meet up. I know TarzansKat is going, so that's a for sure for me to meet with her. I think I'll need a trip of being around my Dis brothers and sisters when the time comes.
This trip will help in the weight loss dept. too. I've not been as focused as I once was, since coming back from my last trip I've put on a few pounds and I'm not happy about that. Not to mention I'm not anywhere near my weight loss goal, I'm hoping this trip will help me refocus and obtain the goal I've set out to do.
I want to hit that 100 lb. loss mark!!
I know this isn't the best time to be talking about these things considering what all is going on with my mom, but I'm not exactly one to do things to the timing of what the world thinks.
I need something else to focus on, I need to be able to hold onto this gift of joy God has given me. Maybe that sounds strange, but once you've been in the pits with depression, (11 years before I was set free from it) you hold onto the glimpses of joy and happiness everywhere you've been given it.
I ain't letting it go!
God's banner over me is love...Song of Solomon 2:4
I disagree, it is exactly the right time to talk about these things, to focus on these things. You need to take care of YOU. Only by doing that can you be for everyone else, what they need too. For your mom, your family, everyone. These are the things that get us through the darkest days and carry us through and I do believe that he approves. Wholeheartedly. Love yourself first.
I am so sorry to hear about the panic attacks, I can only imagine how scary that is for everyone but what a blessing there are some moments of clarity. And don't worry about talking about the sad things, no one knows the circle of life better than Disney.
