Dis Name Name Total Loss
Dizneydawn Dawn -0.2
Grumpyyoungguy Dan -1
Stitchfan23 Heather -15.3
Stacybaeasm Stacy -12
MulanUSAF Leen -12.9
gellybean Aimee -4.6
Leash Alicia ?
MNdisneygirl Sheree -5.5
luvsJack Sharon -11
PixiePlanner Jessica ?
Shellabell Michelle -5
ski_mom Becky -7.5
eliz 991 Elizabeth ?
ancestry Allison -20
Hanutedmansionmommna Michele -4
Duchie Barb -18.3
Anna114 Anna ?
adnilele Danielle -1.5
Mom2Faith Amy -2
tlenzendorf Tricia -1.6
CrabbyyetLovable Amy ?
albertamommyof4 Tammy -5
peacemickeylovers Lisa -5
njtinkmom Gina ?
GoofyWife Sue ?
LittlePeppers Jennifer Gone 3 weeks
officereg -4
zoegirl Bree -0
njcarita Cary starting
Total loss 136.4
Congrats to ancestry for being the first 20 pound loser!!!!
Amazing job Ancestry!!!!! So proud of you!

Dawn, what will her 20lb picture be?
I have done a lot of soul searching in the past couple of days. I have been overweight most of my adult life. I was at my "goal" weight all during hs, after the birth of my oldest child, after my divorce and about 5 years ago. Each time I hit my goal, I gained it back and each time I have felt worse about myself.
I have to be happy with me just as I am. Not saying I don't want to lose or to get in shape, but that I cannot live my life being depressed because I didn't lose a pound or two. So, I am recommitting to this journey but am committing to different results. I am aiming for a healthier me through exercise and healthy meals and, if all I accomplish is to look better in my size 20's and to be able to run around with my dgd or practice softball with dd without gasping for breathe, then so be it; I will be happy with that.
Hoo boy. I can relate very well to this. For many years now I have been telling myself the same thing: Even if I lose 100 lbs, it will be meaningless if I am not happy with the person inside me. I was on my way there, thought I might have actually turned a corner. But then life threw me many curveballs - thyroid cancer, job loss, death of my mother, dad telling me about hsi affair many years ago and then marrynig the former mistress, etc. Each of these things shook me to my core, causing me to question who I really was. So I'm still a "work in progress". For now, I feel like I'm winning this battle. I'll be happy when I can finally say I've won the war.
Crabby Amy (now that's just too funny not to use!) nice job on the reset. 7 pounds in amazing! It's even better since you seem to be feeling better, too.
Dawn,

. That's about all I'm going to say on THAT subject. (There's more that I really REALLY want to say, but I will respect your wishes and drop the subject now.)
I had a rough start to Mother's Day. Last night the kids and I went to Mass (DH was home working on the floor.) All was fine until right after communion, then the soloist started singing "Ave Maria", which was my mom's favorite song. I can not hear that song without thinking of her, and as soon as I recognized it (which was pretty much immediately) I started crying. I just miss her so much! The kids were great, they knew exactly what was wrong and my oldest just put his arm around me. I hear all the time how someday it won't hurt as much to think about her. I'm just not there yet.
Today has been nice. DH and the kids called Disney Merchandising and ordered me some of the Mickey Fit Flops from the World of
Disney store.

Yeah, I'm pretty darn excited about that. They're not here yet (OK, so maybe DH might have forgotten to order them in time

) but I'm still quite happy. But all day today I've had to fight against eating out of boredom. We couldn't go anywhere because DH was still working on getting the mortar up. He ended up grinding it up, which worked well, but now I the entire house is caked with dust. I probably won't eat tomorrow because I'll be spending the day wiping down everything in the house!
