When Did I Get Voted Off of Skinny Island & Why is This Fat Shadow Stalking Me?

[MulanUSAF]

I'm +1.8lbs But I think it may have something to do with the ton of liquids I've been drinking. It got humid and hot all of a sudden and I just feel so thirsty all weekend. Guzzling down lots of unsweetened iced teas helps, but boy, I don't think I'll ever get used to these southern summers. Same diet and exercise routine, I think I've hit a plateau though. Not much change in weight in the last couple weeks, but my shorts from last summer are feeling really baggy. Time to go shopping for new summer clothes.

 

[eliz991]

Okay I unbelievably totally forgot to weigh myself today. Weird! But I'm sure it wasn't good, I drank Friday and Saturday and yesterday we went to Twisted Root (yummy burger place) for lunch and for dinner we went to our friends' house and she made manicotti. Today is my second wedding anniversary so we are going out tonight but DH picked seafood so shouldn't be too bad.

Aimee, we can be body bugg buddies! If you have any trouble with setting it up or anything (I had a hard time getting my goals right, it was weird at first) let me know!

And Amy, I'm going to Vegas this week too! It's our anniversary trip - we're staying at the Venetian. Are y'all going for Vegas Uncork'd? We're only doing one event (the grand tasting on Friday), but we also have tickets to Ka and Zumanity, and Thursday we're taking a helicopter flight over the Grand Canyon!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Hi guys! Will have time tomorrow morning to finally get caught up. Treyner is him, Dad got fitted for new leg and I...went to the YMCA for water aerobics today! Back at it tomorrow and then here to read and write!!!

Miss you all! I really feel like this is the start of a good swing for us!!!

 

[CrabbyYetLovable]

Alrighty, so I'm on this USANA Reset. I'm drinking 1 shake for breakfast, lunch and dinner; eating 2 snackbar things for snacks, and having one fruit and one veggie for dinner. Also, drinking 64-80 oz of water in addition to the shakes.

The shakes are "interesting." They're billed as a fiber and protein meal replacement shake. They have this crazy fiber taste, and (TMI) funky aftertaste that I keep burping up. Its nasty. But, I have to keep reminding myself that this is only for 5 days.

The first 5 days, you are only supposed to mix the shakes with water. I did that for breakfast and lunch, but for dinner I did 1/2 water and 1/2 milk. After the 5 days, there are some recipies and things, like fruits, that I can add to the shakes to make them taste better.

I really wanted to gorge on my salad tonight, I'm trying to stick to the plan. Only 5 days, 5 days....

Thanks for listening to my vent!

Amy

 

[gellybean]

Okay I unbelievably totally forgot to weigh myself today. Weird! But I'm sure it wasn't good, I drank Friday and Saturday and yesterday we went to Twisted Root (yummy burger place) for lunch and for dinner we went to our friends' house and she made manicotti. Today is my second wedding anniversary so we are going out tonight but DH picked seafood so shouldn't be too bad.

Aimee, we can be body bugg buddies! If you have any trouble with setting it up or anything (I had a hard time getting my goals right, it was weird at first) let me know!

And Amy, I'm going to Vegas this week too! It's our anniversary trip - we're staying at the Venetian. Are y'all going for Vegas Uncork'd? We're only doing one event (the grand tasting on Friday), but we also have tickets to Ka and Zumanity, and Thursday we're taking a helicopter flight over the Grand Canyon!

Liz!! That sounds great! I'll totally get with you when the stupid thing finally gets here. Like an idiot I did an express order, forgot to write my order # down thinking they would send me an order confirmation in the email and they didn't. So I have no idea when it'll be here. I emailed their customer service department to ask for an order number today so hopefully I'll know more tomorrow.

I've read bad things about their food tracking site and that livestrong has way more foods in their database. I may be double tracking FOREVER! But the main thing I wanna know is how much I'm burning. I already know approximately how much I'm consuming.

I'd love to know what your burn and consumption goals are!


On a un-skinny island related note, I'm sooooooooo jealous that you have eaten at Twisted Root. I saw it on Diners, Drive Ins and Dives and so want to get up there to eat!!!

You'll love Ka, if you haven't seen it. We've seen it and O. You'll have to let me know how Zumanity is!!






Update:

Went out tonight with my sister and mom. Ate at the Whole Foods cafe and got flank steak, roasted sweet potatoes and grilled asparagus. I was pretty proud of myself for that one. All I'd had before that was some Greek yogurt with a quarter cup of granola for breakfast. I now know I'm not a fan of Greek yogurt.

I've got my 2 hour glucose tolerance test tomorrow morning between 7 am and 8am in the morning. I'm a little concerned about it but not overly so. Just ready to get the results. They are also doing a A1C, and lipid panel. I'm excited to see if my cholesterol, ldl and triglycercides are lower and my hdl higher with my 'healthier' eating these last 3 months!

Congrats to all the losers this week!!! Hang in there for those that gained! We are so much more aware of our bodies, aren't we? For better or worse! And that's a good thing!

I watched the season finale of Ruby this morning. Wow. If y'all get a chance, especially those that think they may be afflicted with food addiction, try to tune in to the 2 hr season finale. I'm sure it'll run repeats this week. It was very powerful.

to our new joiner and back to o2cre8. Glad you're back!!

Catch y'all tomorrow!

 

[luvsJack]

Alrighty, so I'm on this USANA Reset. I'm drinking 1 shake for breakfast, lunch and dinner; eating 2 snackbar things for snacks, and having one fruit and one veggie for dinner. Also, drinking 64-80 oz of water in addition to the shakes.

The shakes are "interesting." They're billed as a fiber and protein meal replacement shake. They have this crazy fiber taste, and (TMI) funky aftertaste that I keep burping up. Its nasty. But, I have to keep reminding myself that this is only for 5 days.

The first 5 days, you are only supposed to mix the shakes with water. I did that for breakfast and lunch, but for dinner I did 1/2 water and 1/2 milk. After the 5 days, there are some recipies and things, like fruits, that I can add to the shakes to make them taste better.

I really wanted to gorge on my salad tonight, I'm trying to stick to the plan. Only 5 days, 5 days....

Thanks for listening to my vent!

Amy

I may have missed my answer in a previous post, but what is USANA?

 

[CrabbyYetLovable]

I may have missed my answer in a previous post, but what is USANA?

Hmm... I have a hard time explaining it. My friends got me started on it, he is a physician and has had good luck with the program. It's all about low-glycemic eating, and keeping your blood sugar stable. Your blood sugar spikes from eating high-glycemic foods (pasta, breads, potatoes, basically the essentials in the American diet), then it drops, leaving your body feeling weak and sending you craving these foods again. You wind up on this roller coaster with your blood sugar, and your body becomes resistant to insulin. With insulin resistance, your body holds onto fat.

The reset I'm doing is supposed to break me from the sugar cravings and get my body "reset" to a new way of eating. Usana dot com has more information if you're interested!

Day 1 went ok, a little hungry tonight, not sure if I'm actually hungry or if its a feeling like "yea, I could eat" or "I need to eat x, y, and z because I know its here." Going to try and sleep and see how tomorrow goes!

 

[2_Eagle_Mom]

I have not had a chance to weigh this week.
Mom had hip replacement surgery on Monday - been playing nurse since then.
Finally got to the gym yesterday and now I can barely lift my arms!
Had a good dinner with flank steak, fresh corn on the cob and a fruit plate.
Now, if I could only continue this good eating streak through the week.

My Mom had her hip replaced last summer. We had some touch and go moments with Mom's reaction to pain meds (the woman just can't handle morphine). I hope your Mom is feeling better soon.

Hi everyone,

I joined a couple of months ago and then dropped out b/c I was dealing with too many things. Anyway, I'm back and hope to stick around this time. I weigh more then I ever have and it's depressing me more than ever. Forced myself to go to a gym class today and felt like I was a blob of jello One of my biggest problems is that i have no patience and little faith in what I'm doing. All I really get is eat less (portion control), excersize more and drink lots of water.

Yeah, depressing as it sounds that's pretty much what I've figured out.

Hello All,
We are taking our first trip to WDW Oct.8-15th . I want to be looking good and feeling good by then.

Cheers,
Lani

Lani - We'll be at WDW the same time! October 2 - 11 and staying at BCV - where are you staying?

It took me a really long time to get here today. This is the first day of my prep week, which for my job in theatre means I am doing the final push to get everything ready for actors. However, the copy machine is broken for the 3rd time and I am, once again, at a complete standstill and totally frustrated. I had to send my 2 assistants home early because we have literally accomplished everything we can until a) the copier is fixed or b) we can get into our rented rehearsal rooms. I may get a day off tomorrow because there is nothing to do but it just means I will have to work every day this weekend to make up for it. I am not a happy human being right now and really, really want to eat a pizza. (Because pizza fixes everything in the world in case you didn't know.)

I wanted to work in the theater when I was in college, it just never worked out. I can feel your pain about not being able to do something till something else (or someone else) gets back to you. On the pizza front - have you ever tried making pizza snacks using the sandwich thins? Might just curb your craving.

I'm +1.8lbs But I think it may have something to do with the ton of liquids I've been drinking. It got humid and hot all of a sudden and I just feel so thirsty all weekend. Guzzling down lots of unsweetened iced teas helps, but boy, I don't think I'll ever get used to these southern summers. Same diet and exercise routine, I think I've hit a plateau though. Not much change in weight in the last couple weeks, but my shorts from last summer are feeling really baggy. Time to go shopping for new summer clothes.

SHOPPING!! Woo Hoo!

Hi guys! Will have time tomorrow morning to finally get caught up. Treyner is him, Dad got fitted for new leg and I...went to the YMCA for water aerobics today! Back at it tomorrow and then here to read and write!!!

Miss you all! I really feel like this is the start of a good swing for us!!!

I read your PTR and TRs this weekend. I laughed. I cried, I laughed some more... Hope everthing starts to calm down for you soon.

Liz!! That sounds great! I'll totally get with you when the stupid thing finally gets here. Like an idiot I did an express order, forgot to write my order # down thinking they would send me an order confirmation in the email and they didn't. So I have no idea when it'll be here. I emailed their customer service department to ask for an order number today so hopefully I'll know more tomorrow.

I've read bad things about their food tracking site and that livestrong has way more foods in their database. I may be double tracking FOREVER! But the main thing I wanna know is how much I'm burning. I already know approximately how much I'm consuming.

I'd love to know what your burn and consumption goals are!


On a un-skinny island related note, I'm sooooooooo jealous that you have eaten at Twisted Root. I saw it on Diners, Drive Ins and Dives and so want to get up there to eat!!!

Update:

Went out tonight with my sister and mom. Ate at the Whole Foods cafe and got flank steak, roasted sweet potatoes and grilled asparagus. I was pretty proud of myself for that one. All I'd had before that was some Greek yogurt with a quarter cup of granola for breakfast. I now know I'm not a fan of Greek yogurt.

I've got my 2 hour glucose tolerance test tomorrow morning between 7 am and 8am in the morning. I'm a little concerned about it but not overly so. Just ready to get the results. They are also doing a A1C, and lipid panel. I'm excited to see if my cholesterol, ldl and triglycercides are lower and my hdl higher with my 'healthier' eating these last 3 months!

Congrats to all the losers this week!!! Hang in there for those that gained! We are so much more aware of our bodies, aren't we? For better or worse! And that's a good thing!

I watched the season finale of Ruby this morning. Wow. If y'all get a chance, especially those that think they may be afflicted with food addiction, try to tune in to the 2 hr season finale. I'm sure it'll run repeats this week. It was very powerful.

to our new joiner and back to o2cre8. Glad you're back!!

Catch y'all tomorrow!

Ok, you body bugg users, give us reports and let us know how much you love/hate it and if it really is helpful.

Good luck on your blood tests tomorrow. Crossing my fingers you get the results that you want.

I'm going to see if my DVR recorded Ruby. I'm really looking forward to seeing it.

I'm trying to bulk up on my iron this week. I'm scheduled to donate blood on Thursday and since it is that TOM I might be low on iron and given the boot till my levels go back up.

I DID track my food today (and since I ate about 3 cups of cabbage as a salad, have no desire to eat anything else tonight). We DID hit the Y and pushed myself a little more on the treadmill than I normally do. Of course having Jim next to me and wanting to beat his mileage/pace helped a lot (I guess I am competitive).

 

[Leash]

Okay I unbelievably totally forgot to weigh myself today. Weird!

And Amy, I'm going to Vegas this week too! It's our anniversary trip - we're staying at the Venetian. Are y'all going for Vegas Uncork'd? We're only doing one event (the grand tasting on Friday), but we also have tickets to Ka and Zumanity, and Thursday we're taking a helicopter flight over the Grand Canyon!

I feel better now, I totally forgot to weigh myself too. I remembered while I was cooking dinner!


Just a warning for Vegas if you have allergies, it has been so windy here lately that all the pollen is all stirred up so make sure to bring some sort of allergy medication. I have been miserable for a couple weeks with sinus headaches and sneezes and itchy eyes so I finally had to go to the doc and get some Flonase (miracle working stuff BTW) and my allergies aren't usually that bad.
So make sure to stop it before it starts cause feeling lousy on vacation sucks, hope you have fun in our fair city!

 

[zoegirl]

Hey folks!
Been a little mia the last couple days, with a busy schedule.

CONGRATS to all those who've lost last week! And hang in there to all those that didn't or plateaued, I am right there with you. A big fat nothing. I'm disappointed, but not enough to throw my head into a bag of chips. I think I'll pump up the exercise this week, and maybe cut back a bit on eating meat, and maybe I'll lose a bit. Plus I never drink enough water, I'm trying and usually my attempts are futile.

Anyways, wish I had time to respond to everyone's posts, seems like everyone has the right mindset right now, so keep up the good work.

~b~

 

[luvsJack]

Hmm... I have a hard time explaining it. My friends got me started on it, he is a physician and has had good luck with the program. It's all about low-glycemic eating, and keeping your blood sugar stable. Your blood sugar spikes from eating high-glycemic foods (pasta, breads, potatoes, basically the essentials in the American diet), then it drops, leaving your body feeling weak and sending you craving these foods again. You wind up on this roller coaster with your blood sugar, and your body becomes resistant to insulin. With insulin resistance, your body holds onto fat.

The reset I'm doing is supposed to break me from the sugar cravings and get my body "reset" to a new way of eating. Usana dot com has more information if you're interested!

Day 1 went ok, a little hungry tonight, not sure if I'm actually hungry or if its a feeling like "yea, I could eat" or "I need to eat x, y, and z because I know its here." Going to try and sleep and see how tomorrow goes!

Well, I will have to check that out. From the way you explain it, it makes good sense. Something sure causes us to crave more and more food and usually the wrong kind of foods.

I have noticed for myself on days that I am really, really tired I crave carbs . I am guessing that is my body is wanting energy. So I am assuming that would be kind of like blood sugar taking a nose dive and your body craving those things to bring it back to a high point.

Not so sure I could do shakes again (did the slimfast diet a few years ago) but the theory behind it all sound interesting.

Just keep telling yourself "i can do anything for 5 days". good luck!

 

[gellybean]

Good luck Crabby Amy. (ha! I thought it was funny.... gotta do something to differeniate all us Amy/Aimees!)

Keep us posted how it's going. It does make total sense. All the info about sugar levels and insulin resistance is sooooooo true.

Speaking of, I didn't go get my blood work done this morning. When I got up, I took my own fasting sugar with my glucometer and it was 130.

I freaked. Normal fasting sugar should be below 100. So yeah. I got up, got dressed, got everything ready to go, took DS7 to school and was driving on my way and thought about it. I decided that since this is not a mandatory blood test but one I am pro actively trying to stay on top of that I wasn't going to shoot myself in the foot. I ate way too much sugar last night late (which I should have known better diet wise and night before blood work wise) and I haven't been working out like I should lately. Not going at all last week, didn't make it last night because my mom is in (another excuse I know) and thought wait a sec? You're not doing all the things you're supposed to be doing to ensure that you aren't diabetic. Why the heck would I get the blood work done now if I'm not fully in the lifestyle that I know I have to be in to prevent/treat diabetes anyway?


So I'll reschedule for in about a month and I'm getting back on track, seriously for the next four weeks. Can't keep repeating the same behaviors expecting different results.

On a happier note, my bodybugg shipped last week and is on the truck for delivery TODAY!!!!!!!!!!! Just what I needed to get this ball rolling again. I texted my sister and said we need to work out today, period. No excuse. IF she can't, I'm going by myself!

I will work out 4 days this week!!!!

I will be mindful of all my sugar intake!!!

I will start counting carbs more closely!!!


I do not want a bloodtest telling me what I already know. I want it telling me how far I've come.


Hope that makes sense!


Have a great day everyone!!

 

[mom2faith]

Okay I unbelievably totally forgot to weigh myself today. Weird! But I'm sure it wasn't good, I drank Friday and Saturday and yesterday we went to Twisted Root (yummy burger place) for lunch and for dinner we went to our friends' house and she made manicotti. Today is my second wedding anniversary so we are going out tonight but DH picked seafood so shouldn't be too bad.

Aimee, we can be body bugg buddies! If you have any trouble with setting it up or anything (I had a hard time getting my goals right, it was weird at first) let me know!

And Amy, I'm going to Vegas this week too! It's our anniversary trip - we're staying at the Venetian. Are y'all going for Vegas Uncork'd? We're only doing one event (the grand tasting on Friday), but we also have tickets to Ka and Zumanity, and Thursday we're taking a helicopter flight over the Grand Canyon!

This was a last minute trip for us as DH won it on the radio. We leave tomorrow at 4pm and come home Saturday night (well actually it is Sunday morning before we get home - we are on a milk run home: Vegas - San Francisco - Chicago - Home) . We are staying at the Stratosphere - not my top choice, but whatever. It is a bed.

My goal is to SHOP myself silly!! We each got $200 from the radio station, so we are each splurging on something we would never buy - I am getting an iTouch (always wanted one!!) and some Skecher Shape Ups. Then I am shopping for DD and the DNeices - I love to spoil the girls!! (I do have a DNephew too and will get him something, but girls are soooo much more fun to spoil!!)

We are heading to Cirque Believe and one other show and to the Titanic Exhibition at the Luxor. Other than that we are wandering, vegging, and shopping. I want to head up to Target, but it is a bit of pain to get to ( we have done it before and I LOVE Target - we do not have Target in Canada, but I do not want to "waste" time when it is such a quick trip).

I feel better now, I totally forgot to weigh myself too. I remembered while I was cooking dinner!


Just a warning for Vegas if you have allergies, it has been so windy here lately that all the pollen is all stirred up so make sure to bring some sort of allergy medication. I have been miserable for a couple weeks with sinus headaches and sneezes and itchy eyes so I finally had to go to the doc and get some Flonase (miracle working stuff BTW) and my allergies aren't usually that bad.
So make sure to stop it before it starts cause feeling lousy on vacation sucks, hope you have fun in our fair city!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I do have nasty allergies and would hate to have my vacation spoiled. I am going to pack theBendryl as soon as I get home!!

 

[Dizneydawn]

I re- read pages 100-102... will hit the next chunk after I post our weight tallies!

I went to the YMCA and swam laps for 5 minutes, stretched hard for 10 minutes then class for 1 hour.

Then...I made a commitment to a triathlon!

It is called Lazyman 2010 and is a 6 week triathlon that has you swim 2.5 miles or 3 hours of water aerobics, run/walk 26.2 miles and bike /elliptical/row 112 miles.

It is a start and my name is posted now as someone who is making a public statement to do it. Our Y had the first 200 people did not have to pay a sign up fee and you get a t-shirt if you accomplish it.

The swim part is easy since I will do at least an hour 5 times a week but I do not walk at all as of now and sure as heck do not bike so will need to get on that! I thought it would be a great motivator and way to push myself.

I have never worn a shirt for any form of exercise since high school - is it crazy that I will be so proud of myself once I get one!!!

Anyway - here are a start of my responses to you all.

Tom - I will do 45 minutes of swim class then taking a 30 minute Salsa class on land - I may just die but gotta start moving somewhere!!! I love to dance so it should be a great start!!

First Name and Screen name: Bree/zoegirl
What your Goal Is for Fitness:I'm already pretty fit (am an avid runner), just have a hard time burning more calories than I take in.

When did you start running and was someone chasing you?

Anyways, so I am thinking about her and I realize, hey wait a minute that is me too! I am a huge control freak which is caused by things in my life and also hurts things in my life!

This all comes back to control. I have watched myself not have control over so many things in my life and I have allowed myself to be in bad relationships and bad jobs and bad situations. Now that I am in a good job, a good relationship and a great situation, I am still self-sabotaging. I am gaining weight like a mad woman!! I have lost control over that part of my life!
I could have wrote the same thing. I used to self -sabotage good relationships with guys - the whole - "I am gonna hurt you before you hurt me mentality because I was always so sure it would end up happening eventually anyway.
Yet, during this time I have fought to be "in control" of other parts of my life and have caused a lot of stress in my marriage as a result - I want to control how the house is organized, how DH puts things away, how DD does her hair, how we spend our time, etc.Micromanaging is totally something I used to do and still struggle with. You are dead on about control - also I think there is perfectionism in it. If I cannot be perfect, I want others around me to be perfect if possible. If I can't do something perfect, why start because I will just screw it up. All or nothing mentality and also for me - a piece of myself I am still working on is the fact that if I fail at something, it is okay to re-start versus never taking the chance to try, out of fear that failure will define who I am. I can go on and on. When really, all I want to control is me and I cannot find that ground. I cannot get control of my emotional eating. I cannot get control of my laziness. I cannot get control of me need to be "popular" and noticed (even though I do not want people to notice my weight).

I need to let go of controlling others and start channelling that control into what I do for me.
This was exactly what I needed this morning - I wrote it down and it is above my computer!!!


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I am not a patient person by nature and have a hard time listening to people (especially family/kids) tell a story that takes more than 2 minutes. You know how kids have to tell you EVERY detail? Can't stand it. Isn't that crazy when we read TR's and love detail...I think that the ADD piece of me has a hard time foccussing on the details when people talk..when I read, I have talk radio in the background - same when I type. When it is quiet and I need to focus - my mind wanders, I look at the sky, a piece of grass catches my attention. I have been known to interupt my own story when something my eye sees derails me! It drives Dan nuts but I don't know any other way to be. Maybe I need Yoga and try and center myself!

"Excuse me Carsyn - I want to pay attention to you - give me a second to get into the lotus and you have my full and undivided attention!"

So I think I just had a huge AHA moment. To be honest my true choice would have been loaded fries but that is not an option and in the past the chips wouldn't have been mentally OK but now they are.
That is awesome - accepting what you should have as a want versus a "Have to!"
What's everyone's healthy snack?

I love fresh veggies - tomatoes, cucumbers and onions together is my ultimate healthy love food!

My "mind" knows I am way overweight. My "mind" knows that I am statistically obese but I have never seen myself as fat.
Again - I see it in a mirror or picture but only if I really look - the skinny me deceives my eyes with a quick glance. The pants and shirts size, the way I need to sit in a car...all those are signs I am fat but I do not feel fat. Whatever that means. I just don't. I am embarrassed of my weight, humiliated in fact but in my head, I don't feel fat. So stupid not to be able to merge the two...

Anyways I digress..... The point I was trying to make about not seeing myself as fat was this....about 3 weeks ago I went to a local discount/second hand store to buy myself a bunch of athletic shorts to workout in. Since they are athletic shorts (i.e. basketball style) I didn't try anything on. I figured I could guess at the size. I bought about 5 or 6 pair. When I got home NOT ONE SINGLE PAIR FIT -- not even close! And they were all so small that I seriously needed to lose probably close to 30 pounds at that point to even get into them.
I used to have boxes of clothes due to the same reason - I can't eyeball my own hinny! Then I am aghast because my butt cannot possibly be that big!!
The sad thing is I had picked them up really thinking that some of them were going to be lose on me. Boy is my perception of myself -- my body size -- REALLY off.

I so get what you write - mine is off both ways - sometimes i think I am fatter than what I am as well...in comparison to other women but in clothes - I have put myself in a straight jacket thinking it will fit in a store more times than I can tell ya. Then yo have the fun of wrestling out of it in public!

Aha moments abound.

I have the complete opposite problem. I've been overweight for most of my life. I was talking to my DH the other day as we were on a walk. I really don't notice the weight that I've lost (around 55lbs total). When I look at others I try and see if I think I'm bigger than them. There were two ladies in front of us walking (one overweight and one "normal" sized one) and I said "Am I as big as she is?" (the overweight one) he was amazed that I thought I was even close to her weight. He said "you were that size about 40lbs ago" and "I was thinking you looked more like the other lady but I didn't want to say anything since I didn't want you to think that I always go around looking at ladies rears". It was an eye opening moment.
That is my daily life. I also appreciate you guys get that. That you are not being rude when you compare but you know the mirror lies and you lie to yourself so what else are you gonna do? Having a visual of someone else is so helpful!
So why do I sabotage myself? I do really well for a while, then I'll be at home and cruise the kitchen. Some days I'm good about making healthy choices, but lately I just seem to be eating out of control. Not really hungry, but can't stop myself. Yeah - what is that about!!

I really have the best of intentions of hitting the gym and working out, but by the time I leave work I just don't have any motivation. I wish I had a workout buddy, but I haven't been successful in getting anyone else motivated with me.
Can you do mornings? What do you like to do for a work out? For me it was swimming and I like the interaction with all the ladies at water aerobics - it was not lonely!

Dawn!! Miss you!! I hope Treyner gets well soon and that it's nothing more than a common bug! Glad you're dad is progressing nicely! Looking forward to you being on here more once your life calms down (though probably not as much as you are looking forward to it! )
Amen sistah!
I think I'm just a plain ol food addict. Sometimes the simplest of answers is the most profound.

I look at my past as "Well, you are better off than a lot of people so suck it up". That mentality is the downfall for me and so many others because your body will force you to cope - some use food others it is drugs or alcohol.

Off to finish Dawns TR - if none have you have read it, go read it now (the Goofy/Lap Dance one). I have laughed and cried and laughed and cried. I cannot stop reading it!! I started this morning and am amost done. (I mean, of course I am working too!)
Was that the one when Baylor got burned? I have not gone back to read it for awhile - too emotional still. Baylor just got stepped on in soccer 2 nights ago and tore off some of his grafted skin - sat in goal and cried while other kids just looked at him like "toughen up." In fact a parent said, "Why is he acting like it is so bad?" So I explained to the sideline what had happened to him - the parents then understood and Baylor, angry for crying and mad he felt he looked stupid, hobbles up and punches the goal post. We need to work on an outlet that won't cause him to break knuckles and figuring out a more positive way to deal with his emotions.

I look at me and know I turned to food to deal with emotions and maybe anger is better for him because it is released and over - but a punching bag would be softer than a goal post - not that I can carry around a bag either -I need to have him bring it up at burn camp this summer...maybe other kids have some good ideas.

Anyway - sorry for the ramble - thanks for the beyond kind words!!
Talk to you later.

You ladies sounds just like I did a couple of months ago. Some how I have managed to get control on the food addiction and I can (at least for now) stop myself. Although it terrifies me each and every day that I will suddenly wake up and find myself back where I was with no ability to control what I was shoving in my mouth.
What do you think was the turn around for you? Was it just getting past the feelings of hunger for a few days?
Well, I did become an addict -- except it was a legal one and a somewhat socially acceptable one. I was (or should I say I am) addicted to food.
We have to eat - that is what sucks. You do not have to drink or do drugs but we have to eat.
Sorry I had to delete part of what I wrote. I was bothering me that I had posted it so openly.

I am sorry I missed your entire post - I hope you someday feel okay writing your thoughts because you are a profound woman - we can learn a lot from you. More than you know.

I'm so stupid excited I'm about to explode.

I just ordered a body bugg!!!!

Ok - what is a body bug? I have heard rumours but have no clue for sure!

Dizneydawn - Like I said earlier I am reading your TR (the Goofy/LapDance one). OMG!! I was so into it, I was reading and eating a Motts Fruitsation (you know the unsweetened applesauce). Well, I was enthralled in the TR and not paying attention. After finishing it, I headed to the washroom and looked in the mirror and I have applesauce all over my shirt!! I did not even notice I was dribbling down my shirt while I was reading!! Thank goodness I am alone at work today - the boys would have never let me live it down!!

That made my day! I know I am reading this late but so worth it I can't tell ya!!

And it begins.....



I could list a thousand reasons. The truth, deep down, is I really don't know why. It seemed impossible before. Literally impossible. And now it seems doable.

And I'm terrified. I am scared to death that it will become impossible again. And I wish to God I knew what made the difference in me. What made it seem so seemingly undoable and now seems like something I can really put into place as a permanent fixture in my life. It doesn't seem so hard. And I'm scared it will become hard.

Love this my friend!!!

OMG! That's hilarious!! Dawn - you're THAT good.

Never thought I would be so proud to make a woman drool!

I really feel like when we figure out what's at the root of all the eating (which for most of us isn't really food) we have a better chance of getting the weight off and keeping it off.

That is the secret isn't it - now what is the key to open up the solution box of mine???

Okay - I have an actual Disney related question.....

How many of you have actually used any of the gyms at any of the Disney resorts?
I did once -at BWV.
Our trip is coming up in 15 days. We are going to be at Disney for 10 full days (arriving early and leaving late). We are staying club level and also have the dining plan plus we have dinner reservations at several of the signature restaurants. You will have to tell me what you think of CL - you are at the Poly right? We are at BWI CL in OCT.

Obviously we will be walking a lot but compared to the level of exercise I normally do the walking isn't going to be much. I was thinking about trying to get in a couple of gym days for a more intense workout but my DH thinks I am nuts that I want to go to the gym when we are at Disney.
You will feel more in control going to the gym and less likely to just say screw it and not pay attention to anything. Then IMO and from my history - it is so hard to get back on track when home and you feel ashamed and depressed of what you let go.

I had a doctor say to me once. "If I was a cocaine addict - would you say it was okay to splurge a week here or there?

No you wouldn't but food addicts get trapped into saying - "It's vacation" and throwing all their hard work down the drain.

Go on vacation, get your gym time in and then the extra walking you do at WDW will help compensate for the extra calories. It is not how you normally eat so why sabotage yourself into not doing your normal routine plus some?"

That was the one and only trip I worked out. I did not gain anything, enjoyed my food without feeling guilty and the one hour at the gym was day was well worth the rest of the day enjoying myself versus stressing over what I was going to eat, what was the scale going to say when I got home and self doubt.

Enjoyment wise - best trip by far for myself personally.

I am heading to Vegas next week, so I completely understand this!!
Have fun!!

Sorry I haven't been around much this week. I'm feeling really down about life, weight loss, everything so I haven't been much fun to be around. I"m hoping to pull out of it soon. We'll see. Meanwhile, I have managed not to eat my depression away. I know that would just make things worse because I know it is the scale that is at the root of this one.

I am so sorry honey you are having a rough time - I am thinking of you and praying for strength and courage to face the devil on your shoulder that is not letting you see your worth and success!

I've had a phone call from my new doctor today saying I need to go in for a medical tomorrow and I know they're going to give me the, "You are obese, you need to diet" and although I know I am.... I hate other people telling me - it feels like a personal dig at me after years of having people say mean things about my weight etc.

I understand your pain and when the weight loss comments come at you not requested - it makes the stubborn part of you want to do nothing as a "screw you" mentality.

UURRGGHH!

I have had the most horrible peanut butter cravings all week long.My weakness as well! Hook me up to a IV of skippy extra crunchy please!!
Okay vent over....back to work....just ignore me...I had to scream somewhere!

Glad you screamed here or some stranger at Walmart might think you are a nut job!

I was really happy to see a couple of other Canadian gals have joinned. Now someone will know what I am talking about when I mention Canadian things
Moose, eh?

How was your trip???

I had a rough night last night. My new upstairs neighbor has always been loud since he moved in - you know, one of those people who stomps everywhere, seems to run a lot, that kind of thing. Well, last night about 10:15, there was a LOT of noise up there, running, things slamming on the floor, yelling, and then I heard a female screaming "Ow. Stop it. YOu're Hurting me" over and over. Well, that was it for me, I was out of my apartment and up those stairs faster than I have probably moved in a long time. I pounded on the door and when the guy answered, I let him have it. I told him the noise was unacceptable and the fighting was out of control and if it didn't stop this minute, I was calling the police. Then, I demanded that I see the girl to be sure she was ok. She poked her head out of the bathroom and was crying with makeup all over her face. I couldn't tell if he had hit her or not. I asked if she was ok and she nodded yes. I then told her that if it EVER got bad, she felt she was in danger or he hit her again, all she had to do was go to any apartment in our part of the complex and ask for help and anyone would be glad to. I then looked at the guy again and said "Seriously, ANYTHING else happens and I will call the cops." I went back downstairs and I was shaking, I was so angry. About 10 minutes later, I heard more thumping, quiet yelling, and him saying "Be quiet, be quiet." I called the cops and reported a domestic. I know the cops came but I don't know what happened from there. At least it stopped for the night, but I'm sure the guy knows who called the police on him. But, there was nothing else I could do. I wasn't going to let anyone abuse, physically or mentally, anyone else. Ever. Not on my watch.
Holy carp! Go Stacy!!! I am so proud of you!!!!

plus all this emotional junk going on. I have just been feeling down and on the verge of tears most days and a situation with my mother certainly has NOT helped.
Sorry honey.

I am going to keep a closer eye on it for sure, there is no need to starve myself. I want this to be a healthy change, not starvation mode!!
Great outlook!!!

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Dawn- hope your sale didn't get too much rain! I know there were some scattered showers here today.

Sold $400 this past weekend. Hoping for at leats that this weekend and then - donate the rest!!!

Oh! You are so right! (the wanting to punch her in the throat part. )

See - Dan thinks I have a violent streak - but that totally makes sense to me too! Maybe we should all get into kick boxing!!

 

[cheerful chickadee]

ok I'm not entirely sure how this works but I've read a little of the thread and love how supportive you all are! Is it okay for me to join?

I'm actually doing WW points but not the meetings or online program, just doing it on my own with my old materials. I don't count calories so I can't report those. I also haven't been keeping track of inches lost even though I probably should have. I started in mid January -and have lost 33lbs as of May 1st! I'm currently doing 24 WW points a day, drinking 80 - 96oz of water a day and have been working out 5x a week, 3 miles on the treadmill each day, 3 miles on the elliptical and then some arm exercises with weights.

intro:
First Name Patty Screen name: cheerful chickadee
What your Goal Is for Fitness: numbers wise I want to lose 90lbs total
long term wise: I want to be healthy and show my kids how to live a healthy lifestyle, I want to be a positive role model. I want to be here to see my great great grandkids! deep down: I want to know what it feels like to go shopping in a regular store and not have to wrestle with articles of clothing in the dressing room lol
Food that you Find Hardest to Eat in Moderation: chewy fruit snacks (fruit by the foot, gushers, etc) weird right? I buy them for a treat for my DD and end up eating them all myself. my real weaknesses are takeout of any kind, I LOVE eating out.
Favorite Good Food for You: fresh fruit, pineapple, strawberries, grapes....I could eat fresh fruit all day if only it wasn't so expensive!
Favorite Form of Exercise: walking/jogging on the treadmill
What Your Goal is For Yourself when you get to Skinny Island: going to disney world of course! Oh and buying tons of new clothes!!
Family: DH, DS(13) and DD (2.5)

 

[Leash]

We are staying at the Stratosphere - not my top choice, but whatever. It is a bed.

I live right near the Stratosphere, never been in there myself but have not heard anything bad. The neighborhood there is, oh how about "charmingly urban" so just be prepared for that (don't know if you have been there before or not).

THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I do have nasty allergies and would hate to have my vacation spoiled. I am going to pack theBendryl as soon as I get home!!

You are welcome, I wouldn't want anyone to feel this lousy if there is anything to be done to prevent it. The wind has tapered off a bit but still a good idea to bring the Bendryl. We don't have much in the way of "weather" here we really just have the wind but it can be awful. Hope you have a fun trip.

 

[2_Eagle_Mom]

Gellybean - I watched the Ruby finale last night. OMG It was amazing! I have never cried like that before while watching a reality show (Maybe during English Patient, but I'm a sucker for a sob story). But this was crying because I so totally related to some of the things that ladies were going through.

For those of you that don't watch Ruby the show is about this woman's path of losing weight (she started out over 700lbs and is now 320). Its very inspirational and motivating to know that if she can persevere then dang it so can I.

Anyway the finale show was about Ruby and some of her friends going to a 6 day intensive retreat to deal with their food addictions and try and figure out their issues.

I really related to the abandonment issues like waiting for/expecting everyone you love to leave you. The one that I really was surprised about was dealing with a family member with an addiction that takes over the family and the co-dependents that are in the family that don't help the situation. That one has my family written ALL over it. When Tinnie was talking about how when co-dependents don't get their way they shut down "Fine I won't TOUCH the pillows EVER again" Holy Moly - I saw a family member. Wish she had given some pointers on how to deal with that!

I checked Ruby's website but they don't have Tinnie listed as one of Ruby's support person. I'd love to see if she has written a book. I didn't delete the show yet, I think I'm going to watch it again and see if I can get some more clairity. It really gives me a lot to think about and realize that I eat to push down the feelings of loneliness (I do a LOT of eating alone). I really need to think before eating - "what am I hungry for?" most often times its for companionship (Yup the ice cream tub CAN be a friend - it calls out to me from the freezer and doesn't let me down - well not till it shows up on my stomach).

I think that is why going to the gym is not appealing to me without having someone to go with. If I try substituting the gym instead of eating, then I want the companionship of someone to talk to, push me harder than I'd do by myself, etc. I really haven't found any exercise that I really like doing (I guess if I had to pick, I'd say walking outside - treadmills/ellipiticals are ok, but being outside and chatting is MUCH better for me - I just don't push myself enough so I don't think I'm burning enough calories. I wish there were an eHarmony site for people looking for workout buddies.

Not sure if I'm making sense, but trying to write eveything that is going on in the brain is not easy.

I'm really glad that I've found you all and have some place to put this out in the universe. Knowing you are all here to listen is very comforting.

On the food front - doing well so far this week. Tracking, drinking and exercising. Tonight we have another cooking class (Scalloped potatoes and salmon in parchment paper) I'm planning on eating before we go to class so I won't be starved by the time the food comes out of the oven.

 

[gellybean]

Gellybean - I watched the Ruby finale last night. OMG It was amazing! I have never cried like that before while watching a reality show (Maybe during English Patient, but I'm a sucker for a sob story). But this was crying because I so totally related to some of the things that ladies were going through.

For those of you that don't watch Ruby the show is about this woman's path of losing weight (she started out over 700lbs and is now 320). Its very inspirational and motivating to know that if she can persevere then dang it so can I.

Anyway the finale show was about Ruby and some of her friends going to a 6 day intensive retreat to deal with their food addictions and try and figure out their issues.

I really related to the abandonment issues like waiting for/expecting everyone you love to leave you. The one that I really was surprised about was dealing with a family member with an addiction that takes over the family and the co-dependents that are in the family that don't help the situation. That one has my family written ALL over it. When Tinnie was talking about how when co-dependents don't get their way they shut down "Fine I won't TOUCH the pillows EVER again" Holy Moly - I saw a family member. Wish she had given some pointers on how to deal with that!

I checked Ruby's website but they don't have Tinnie listed as one of Ruby's support person. I'd love to see if she has written a book. I didn't delete the show yet, I think I'm going to watch it again and see if I can get some more clairity. It really gives me a lot to think about and realize that I eat to push down the feelings of loneliness (I do a LOT of eating alone). I really need to think before eating - "what am I hungry for?" most often times its for companionship (Yup the ice cream tub CAN be a friend - it calls out to me from the freezer and doesn't let me down - well not till it shows up on my stomach).

I think that is why going to the gym is not appealing to me without having someone to go with. If I try substituting the gym instead of eating, then I want the companionship of someone to talk to, push me harder than I'd do by myself, etc. I really haven't found any exercise that I really like doing (I guess if I had to pick, I'd say walking outside - treadmills/ellipiticals are ok, but being outside and chatting is MUCH better for me - I just don't push myself enough so I don't think I'm burning enough calories. I wish there were an eHarmony site for people looking for workout buddies.

Not sure if I'm making sense, but trying to write eveything that is going on in the brain is not easy.

I'm really glad that I've found you all and have some place to put this out in the universe. Knowing you are all here to listen is very comforting.

On the food front - doing well so far this week. Tracking, drinking and exercising. Tonight we have another cooking class (Scalloped potatoes and salmon in parchment paper) I'm planning on eating before we go to class so I won't be starved by the time the food comes out of the oven.

Glad you got something out of the finale. I am totally going to watch it again when I have some time to myself. HAHAHAH! Like that ever happens.

Anyway, Tinnie is the founder of Shades of Hope in Texas. A rehab-ish center for eating disorders. She was overweight and then was bullemic so she's been there.

You can google Shade of Hope and find her site I'm pretty sure. I don't know about a book but there's more information about her on there.

Gonna go take a nap. Exhausted. Between getting up for the glucose test that I didn't go do and hubby being out of town I haven't gotten a lot of sleep lately. I know I need to rest some before I attempt gym tonight. Don't wanna end up all dizzy again!

Catch y'all later!

 

[eliz991]

Liz!! That sounds great! I'll totally get with you when the stupid thing finally gets here. Like an idiot I did an express order, forgot to write my order # down thinking they would send me an order confirmation in the email and they didn't. So I have no idea when it'll be here. I emailed their customer service department to ask for an order number today so hopefully I'll know more tomorrow.

I've read bad things about their food tracking site and that livestrong has way more foods in their database. I may be double tracking FOREVER! But the main thing I wanna know is how much I'm burning. I already know approximately how much I'm consuming.

I'd love to know what your burn and consumption goals are!


On a un-skinny island related note, I'm sooooooooo jealous that you have eaten at Twisted Root. I saw it on Diners, Drive Ins and Dives and so want to get up there to eat!!!

You'll love Ka, if you haven't seen it. We've seen it and O. You'll have to let me know how Zumanity is!!

Glad they got back to you - I have had pretty good luck with email responses within 24 hours, even had to call them once and they were very responsive. The complaints about the food tracking are old, they have stepped it up and added a lot of stuff. That said, sometimes I pick something "close" but it's not hard to put in a new food yourself either. But I think it's fine - I used to try to do 2 sites but it was too much to keep up with.

My goals are 2500 burn and 1500 eating - for 2 pounds a week. If I don't work out I am lucky to burn 1800 a day so that's about as high as I can go, and when I try to cut to 1200 I just never make it, too dang hungry.

We saw it on there too, that's what convinced my husband to try it!

We haven't seen Ka - I haven't been to Vegas in years and have only seen Cirque shows here in Dallas. I'm excited!

I feel better now, I totally forgot to weigh myself too. I remembered while I was cooking dinner!


Just a warning for Vegas if you have allergies, it has been so windy here lately that all the pollen is all stirred up so make sure to bring some sort of allergy medication. I have been miserable for a couple weeks with sinus headaches and sneezes and itchy eyes so I finally had to go to the doc and get some Flonase (miracle working stuff BTW) and my allergies aren't usually that bad.
So make sure to stop it before it starts cause feeling lousy on vacation sucks, hope you have fun in our fair city!

Good, it's not just me!

Thank you for the advice - I will let T know - his allergies are a mess! Mine aren't that bad but I'll make sure we have claritin just in case (allergies depend where you are too, I have terrible allergies in NY but not in TX, T has them both places).

This was a last minute trip for us as DH won it on the radio. We leave tomorrow at 4pm and come home Saturday night (well actually it is Sunday morning before we get home - we are on a milk run home: Vegas - San Francisco - Chicago - Home) . We are staying at the Stratosphere - not my top choice, but whatever. It is a bed.

My goal is to SHOP myself silly!! We each got $200 from the radio station, so we are each splurging on something we would never buy - I am getting an iTouch (always wanted one!!) and some Skecher Shape Ups. Then I am shopping for DD and the DNeices - I love to spoil the girls!! (I do have a DNephew too and will get him something, but girls are soooo much more fun to spoil!!)

We are heading to Cirque Believe and one other show and to the Titanic Exhibition at the Luxor. Other than that we are wandering, vegging, and shopping. I want to head up to Target, but it is a bit of pain to get to ( we have done it before and I LOVE Target - we do not have Target in Canada, but I do not want to "waste" time when it is such a quick trip).
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I was like, "you want to go to Target?" but then when you said you didn't have them I understand! I have a pair of the shape ups (with as much stuff as I have you'd think I'd be skinny) and I do like them, but I don't wear them too much due to problems off and on with my knees. In fact I think I will put them on at home tonight!

Awesome on winning the trip - we are only going to be there Thursday to Sunday so about the same amount of time! Have fun shopping! We are looking forward to vegging too...although T really wants me to wear a bikini at the pool and I'm not sure I'm up for that... we'll see. Don't want people to be like

Okay, I have GOT to run! Later girls!

Oh Dawn - a body bugg is a thing you wear on your arm that's like a super fancy pedometer - it tells you how many calories you are burning with way more accuracy than regular pedometer or heart rate monitor. Mine (which is actually called a go wear fit, but it's by the same people) even tells me how long I slept vs. just laid down if I wear it to bed!

 

[Duchie]

My goal is to SHOP myself silly!! We each got $200 from the radio station, so we are each splurging on something we would never buy - I am getting an iTouch (always wanted one!!) and some Skecher Shape Ups.

I LOVE my Shape-Ups! I also want a pair of Tone-Ups (the sandals) but can never find the ones I want in my size.

ok I'm not entirely sure how this works but I've read a little of the thread and love how supportive you all are! Is it okay for me to join?

I'm actually doing WW points but not the meetings or online program, just doing it on my own with my old materials. I don't count calories so I can't report those. I also haven't been keeping track of inches lost even though I probably should have. I started in mid January -and have lost 33lbs as of May 1st! I'm currently doing 24 WW points a day, drinking 80 - 96oz of water a day and have been working out 5x a week, 3 miles on the treadmill each day, 3 miles on the elliptical and then some arm exercises with weights.

intro:
First Name Patty Screen name: cheerful chickadee
What your Goal Is for Fitness: numbers wise I want to lose 80lbs total
long term wise: I want to be healthy and show my kids how to live a healthy lifestyle, I want to be a positive role model. I want to be here to see my great great grandkids! deep down: I want to know what it feels like to go shopping in a regular store and not have to wrestle with articles of clothing in the dressing room lol
Food that you Find Hardest to Eat in Moderation: chewy fruit snacks (fruit by the foot, gushers, etc) weird right? I buy them for a treat for my DD and end up eating them all myself. my real weaknesses are takeout of any kind, I LOVE eating out.
Favorite Good Food for You: fresh fruit, pineapple, strawberries, grapes....I could eat fresh fruit all day if only it wasn't so expensive!
Favorite Form of Exercise: walking/jogging on the treadmill
What Your Goal is For Yourself when you get to Skinny Island: going to disney world of course! Oh and buying tons of new clothes!!
Family: DH, DS(13) and DD (2.5)

Welcome! We're glad to have you I'm also doing WW and have lost 32.8 pounds since mid-Feb. (Can I just go ahead and call that 33? )

I had kind of a weird day today. I went shopping for shorts, since mine either don't fit or are way out of style. I'm struggling with the same perception issues many of you have described - I still think of myself as the fat girl. So when picking out shorts, I just naturally picked the size I had been wearing. I had to put them all back and get a size smaller. In fact, many brands that I know run small (like Dockers) were HUGE on me. So yay - that's a good thing!

But my body is changing. It was bound to happen, given my age (I'm 45) and my genetics. Yes I weigh less, but certain things are different. I don't know how to describe it except to say I'm now fat in new places, like my thighs. I always had really nice legs, but not so much any more. So shorts don't look as good on me as they used to. It was hard to celebrate the victory of weight loss in the face of this.

And on top of that, the size I'm now in is still bigger than I'd like. I know it will take time and I'm OK with that. But I just want to look in the mirror and not be disappointed for once. How do you do it? How do you become OK with the you that you become as you get older?

I need to try to focus on the good - I got some really cute shorts that are flattering (and smaller). THAT's what I need to remember from today. And I will NOT drown my sorrows in a big ol' bowl of ice cream tonight..... however I may indulge in a glass of wine (and since I'm way low on WW points for today I'll be just fine.)