When Did I Get Voted Off of Skinny Island & Why is This Fat Shadow Stalking Me?

[zoegirl]

Time for the daily check-in..

Dawn - contrats on the lazyman. I've done a similar program at my Y, but it was called ironman in a month. Same commitment as yours, and got a t-shirt. You'll have fun ticking off the mileage...at least I hope you do. For me it's fun to prove to myself I have the endurance to this kind of stuff. I've run 7 full marathons, and even though I'm a slower runner I'm always so proud of myself for sticking with the training and finishing what I started. As for the running: yes something was chasing me to start running, it was my chunky tail Seriously though I started about 6 years ago, and just put one foot in front of the other and built up the mileage.

Gelly- did your body bugg come in today? Did you make it to the gym?

For those of you traveling this week, I'm jealous but hope you have great vacations!

Eagle mom - I've never watched Ruby (I'm aware of the show) but that sounded like a powerful episode. Thanks for sharing the info, I know I can relate to a lot of what you said.

Welcome Cheerful Chick!

Ate well, and within my points range today. DH is out of town , and the kid is driving me a little crazy. Trying to keep my cool, breathe and not eat my frustrations away. He tends to act out when his dad goes out of town, he's 3 I don't expect any different but today it's driving me bonkers. Thank the Lord for soccer, and pre-school.

Went to the gym this morning and ran 3 miles, did the PT setting on the elliptical for 15 mins, and some booty burning exercises that got some strange looks from people around me. I've never been so self conscious at the Y. All I did was take a step and stack a bunch of risers under it. Nothing weird. Maybe it was my imagination?

~b~

 

[adnilele]

Time for the daily check-in..

Dawn - contrats on the lazyman. I've done a similar program at my Y, but it was called ironman in a month. Same commitment as yours, and got a t-shirt. You'll have fun ticking off the mileage...at least I hope you do. For me it's fun to prove to myself I have the endurance to this kind of stuff. I've run 7 full marathons, and even though I'm a slower runner I'm always so proud of myself for sticking with the training and finishing what I started. As for the running: yes something was chasing me to start running, it was my chunky tail Seriously though I started about 6 years ago, and just put one foot in front of the other and built up the mileage.


~b~

Question...when you started running 6 years ago, did it take a while for you to be able to run for an extended period of time...say 20 minutes....

Last year I did the Couch to 5k program, and it worked well until I had to actually run for 30 minutes during the last week, then I felt like I was going backwards...Then I didnt run for about a year, and my bf and I started to try C to 5K again, but he got bronchitis, and when I had to go out alone, I couldnt keep myself consistently motivated...For instance, when I got to the 8 min run, 5 min walk, 8 min run week, i really struggled, but the next time out, running 15 minutes was fine....Any suggestions? Today I just about gave up on the running and decided to go out for an hour walk instead...I dont want to stop running, but I am getting disheartened.

 

[gellybean]

Bodybugg came in!!!!

And I did make it to the gym. Only to be paged to the daycare room 20 mins in to change a stinky diaper. If DS2 keeps this up, I'm gonna have to just keep diapers and wet wipes up there and change him in the rest room and get back on the bike. It's a pain in the tush to get off the bike, go get the kid, take him to the car, get the stuff, get back inside, take the stuff back outside etc. I guess I should buy a lock for a locker there and take my purse in!!

I'll find a solution.

But the good news is, I got my butt back on a bike and back into the gym after a week and half out of there. I made a U-Turn.

I've gotten the bodybugg set up and it's charging. My calorie goal is 1700 which is 200 more than I've been doing and my burn rate is 2700. We'll see how many cals I burn by just 'being'. I'm very interested to see that. I know it's gonna take a few days for it to 'learn' my body so I'll try my best to be patient!

Today was a really hard day. I think for the first time I realized that I really could have diabetes... not just pre-diabetes or gestational. And it hit pretty hard. Especially since we've been talking about possibly having a 3rd child in the next few years. If I'm diabetic going into the pregnancy that's a whole nother ballgame than getting gestational while pregnant. My doctor has already expressed concern about this possiblity and hubby would not want us to have a third if there was a greater risk to me or the baby. So I'm processing all this. Slowly. I know nothing is a done deal but it's just one more reason to.get.this.weight.off!!!!!!!


Hubby's home and I'm planning on a hot bath and Biggest Loser viewing all by myself on the couch later. I need it!

Catch you ladies later!

 

[CrabbyYetLovable]

Well, I will have to check that out. From the way you explain it, it makes good sense. Something sure causes us to crave more and more food and usually the wrong kind of foods.

I have noticed for myself on days that I am really, really tired I crave carbs . I am guessing that is my body is wanting energy. So I am assuming that would be kind of like blood sugar taking a nose dive and your body craving those things to bring it back to a high point.

Not so sure I could do shakes again (did the slimfast diet a few years ago) but the theory behind it all sound interesting.

Just keep telling yourself "i can do anything for 5 days". good luck!

It makes sense once you get into it and hear all the info. It took me months to get on board. My friend lost about 20 pounds by doing the reset and then changing her way of eating, so seeing her lose weight helped get me started on the path.

Day 2 went much better. I'm still kinda hungry tonight, but I think I'm going to try and drink some more water, or I might have a few grapes. I started mixing the shakes with other things, like vanilla extract, and adding some milk to them as well, so they are tasting much better.

I tried to keep myself as busy as possible today. Work, quick final, then came home to clean my apartment. Did some cleaning in the kitchen, and worked on the bathroom for a bit. I actually scrubbed the tub! I was trying to keep myself occupied so I wouldn't mindlessly eat. But now I think I'm thinking about food too much! ACK!

Good luck Crabby Amy. (ha! I thought it was funny.... gotta do something to differeniate all us Amy/Aimees!)

Keep us posted how it's going. It does make total sense. All the info about sugar levels and insulin resistance is sooooooo true.

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LOL Crabby Amy works for me! I'm just like Donald Duck... Not sure if anyone has seen the shirt or merchandise, but he's supposed to be crabby yet lovable!

 

[ancestry]

I've been having this awful feeling recently like something bad is going to happen. You know that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you have to face something that is going to be difficult or life changing -- like going to court or dealing with the death of someone.

The strange thing is nothing is wrong and there is no reason for me to be feeling like this. It is really disconcerting and it has me on edge with no explanation. The whole sensation is making me sick to my stomach.

We leave for Disney in 9 days so I have been trying to get everything ready -- cleaning, packing, grocery shopping, etc. My in-laws are staying here with my older kids so house has to be clean, food needs to be bought, etc. etc. I also have some work related deadlines I have to do before I go.

I didn't work out yesterday because I cleaned so much and I don't mean just straightening up -- I mean scrubbing stuff on my hands and knees for hours. I figured hours of scrubbing was more of a work out than 60 minutes on a treadmill, bike or Arc Trainer.

I hope everyone has a good day! I'm going to try to shake this uneasy feeling.

 

[zoegirl]

Question...when you started running 6 years ago, did it take a while for you to be able to run for an extended period of time...say 20 minutes....

Last year I did the Couch to 5k program, and it worked well until I had to actually run for 30 minutes during the last week, then I felt like I was going backwards...Then I didnt run for about a year, and my bf and I started to try C to 5K again, but he got bronchitis, and when I had to go out alone, I couldnt keep myself consistently motivated...For instance, when I got to the 8 min run, 5 min walk, 8 min run week, i really struggled, but the next time out, running 15 minutes was fine....Any suggestions? Today I just about gave up on the running and decided to go out for an hour walk instead...I dont want to stop running, but I am getting disheartened.

Sounds like maybe you're running a bit too fast so you're bonking before you reach your goal. I still do that. All of my running friends are faster than me, so I try to keep up & usually poop out too soon. My suggestion is to slow it down a bit, and if it takes you longer to build up the mileage then take your time. You're getting out there and moving your body. For me, that's all that counts. I still do the whole walk/run thing. But now I stop about every mile to 2 miles. No shame in that. During a race the water stops are usually every 2 miles, so I try to run to them, walk through, drink then keep going.

Gelly - wtg on the gym & going back to your workout after you had to change a poopie diaper. Does the childwatch at your gym not change diapers? on the diabetes fear. You are taking the right steps to get it under control. My MIL was diagnosed 2 years ago and although she is still on the meds, she was able to lose the weight and get it under control enough that she now only has to check her blood-sugar once a week. Hang in there and try not to get yourself too worked up until you know for sure.

Hang in there Crabby Amy, hopefully you'll get over the hump & into the groove of your new program within a couple days.

Ancestry - sounds like you're having a bit of an anxiety attack. Did scrubbing your house help? Fwiw - on the ww program cleaning your house like that would get you some activity points. Hope you can get everything done that you need to 'cause girl you're going to DISNEY WORLD!!!

~b~

 

[ancestry]

Ancestry - sounds like you're having a bit of an anxiety attack. Did scrubbing your house help? Fwiw - on the ww program cleaning your house like that would get you some activity points. Hope you can get everything done that you need to 'cause girl you're going to DISNEY WORLD!!!

Maybe that is what it is. I've had panic attacks before during stressful period in my life but this is definitely not a panic attack. Don't think I've ever had an anxiety attack before, or if I have I never realized it. Not sure why I would have one now at I'm not consciously feeling anxious about anything. I have a lot of stuff to do but it isn't making me freak out or anything.

Scrubbing didn't help much as far as the feeling went. I just want it to stop as it literally makes me sick to my stomach.

 

[tlenzendorf]

Hey everybody! Sorry I haven't been able to post lately. Life has been ridiculously busy with softball it seems. Mariah has games twice a week and practice twice a week, then Brent and I each have one solo night of softball and then one night together. I have also been helping coach Mariah's team, so it has been softball every single night since last Tuesday!

I really like it, though. It keeps me moving without thinking about the exercise part, plus it keeps me off the couch and out of the kitchen.

I hope everyone is doing well! Good job on the losses this week and to the sames and the gains, keep it up... this is a new week

 

[Dizneydawn]

ok I'm not entirely sure how this works but I've read a little of the thread and love how supportive you all are! Is it okay for me to join?

Hi! Glad you made it here!!! If you want to have me track your weight loss - send me a pm with your starting weight and then each Monday send me a pm of your current weight. Not a - 3 pounds or = 2 pounds but the actual weight. Then I tabulate all outr totals and post here usually in Tuesday.

Please jump in and start posting away!!!

I really related to the abandonment issues like waiting for/expecting everyone you love to leave you.
I need to go watch that - sounds like it was very powerful for you!

I think that is why going to the gym is not appealing to me without having someone to go with. If I try substituting the gym instead of eating, then I want the companionship of someone to talk to, push me harder than I'd do by myself, etc.

I know I keep repeating myself but when I joined the Y water aerobics, I knew nobody and in 2 days had a handful of friends and they expect to see you and I need that responsibility to someone. I need that push - I need that interaction. At the treadmill, everyone is hooked into the tv, book or radio and nobody cares. It feels even more isolating and I do not need that. Weight isolates you enough.

Between getting up for the glucose test that I didn't go do...

Did you reschedule it???

My goals are 2500 burn and 1500 eating - for 2 pounds a week. If I don't work out I am lucky to burn 1800 a day so that's about as high as I can go, and when I try to cut to 1200 I just never make it, too dang hungry.
So where can I get the best deal for one of these suckers and are they waterproof???

In fact, many brands that I know run small (like Dockers) were HUGE on me. So yay - that's a good thing!
No joke that is!!!!
But my body is changing. It was bound to happen, given my age (I'm 45) and my genetics. Yes I weigh less, but certain things are different. I don't know how to describe it except to say I'm now fat in new places, like my thighs. I always had really nice legs, but not so much any more.

Ummm...I will type this out loud and if you all laugh at me versus laugh with me I am going to beat the snot out of ya.

I looked at the mirror the other day and saw two va jay jay's. My fat on my upper inner legs have now formed a second V. I took pride in the fact I was fat but my legs were not. I looked like Mrs. Potato head I thought - big in the middle - skinny other places. Now - with the second Va Jay Jay sighting I am on a mission.

I will take on love muffin handles, cellulite that look like bullet holes does not scare me, but - one woman should not have 2 baby makers.

The end.

Time for the daily check-in..
Hey girl - did you want to be in the weight tally? If so send me a pm of your starting weight from the point you joined us and your weight from Monday. Or just start this next Monday!!
Dawn - contrats on the lazyman. I've done a similar program at my Y, but it was called ironman in a month. Same commitment as yours, and got a t-shirt. You'll have fun ticking off the mileage...at least I hope you do. For me it's fun to prove to myself I have the endurance to this kind of stuff. I've run 7 full marathons, and even though I'm a slower runner I'm always so proud of myself for sticking with the training and finishing what I started. As for the running: yes something was chasing me to start running, it was my chunky tail Seriously though I started about 6 years ago, and just put one foot in front of the other and built up the mileage.
I am starting and will do it slow but that accomplishment feeling is a long time coming and I deserve it!!



Went to the gym this morning and ran 3 miles, did the PT setting on the elliptical for 15 mins, and some booty burning exercises that got some strange looks from people around me. I've never been so self conscious at the Y. All I did was take a step and stack a bunch of risers under it. Nothing weird. Maybe it was my imagination?
Maybe you have such a nice tukkus they could not help but stare!

~b~

But the good news is, I got my butt back on a bike and back into the gym after a week and half out of there. I made a U-Turn.
Yeah for you!!!

I tried to keep myself as busy as possible today. Work, quick final, then came home to clean my apartment. Did some cleaning in the kitchen, and worked on the bathroom for a bit. I actually scrubbed the tub! I was trying to keep myself occupied so I wouldn't mindlessly eat. Sounds like you made a plan and worked it!!!

I've been having this awful feeling recently like something bad is going to happen. You know that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you have to face something that is going to be difficult or life changing -- like going to court or dealing with the death of someone.
I get anxiety before I leave on a trip as well and it is worse when I am leaving the kids. When I get to my spot - I am better but that scared to the core, can't sleep, bad dreams...bugs me till I am gone.

I really like it, though. It keeps me moving without thinking about the exercise part, plus it keeps me off the couch and out of the kitchen.
I am telling you - I do not know what I would do if Carsyn was still in sports now!

Update:

Went to water aerobics for 45 minutes than salsa dance class for 45 minutes. My legs are on fire. The water aerobics are called cardio Wed - I thought I was going to die and then to follow up and dance on jello legs - might have been a tad too much.

Eating well. Just till full. Not stuffing myself.

Carsyn cannot have a MRI on her ACL due to her medical implant in her back. So we are scheduling a mtg with an orthopedic doc and exploratory surgery for next week.

Then found out an aquaintence husband killed himself last week. I don't know how she is going to cope. Very long story but the short of it is that she has a traumatic brain injury from a car accident and could no longer take care of her children from a previous marriage and lost custody of them. FF a few years later and married a great guy who accepts her limitations and a year later, he just killed himself.

How much can one person handle? She did not ask to have a brain injury, not anything of her fault, loved her children enough to want a better life for them that she realized she could not provide and now this.

Just makes me want to push myself harder to be the best I can be - no excuses.

I am missing a few numbers from people - sending out a reminder and then will post it here!!

 

[Dizneydawn]

QOTD:



#1
"Hardship and adversity can be an energizing force that motivates you to move beyond your comfort zone in order to accomplish more than you ever thought possible. Comfort and security can become a double-edged sword—on one hand, an easy mind is free to wander in the land of ideas; on the other, contentment is not a potent motivator. "


#2
If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably won't lead anywhere.

 

[mom2faith]

I've been having this awful feeling recently like something bad is going to happen. You know that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you have to face something that is going to be difficult or life changing -- like going to court or dealing with the death of someone.

The strange thing is nothing is wrong and there is no reason for me to be feeling like this. It is really disconcerting and it has me on edge with no explanation. The whole sensation is making me sick to my stomach.

We leave for Disney in 9 days so I have been trying to get everything ready -- cleaning, packing, grocery shopping, etc. My in-laws are staying here with my older kids so house has to be clean, food needs to be bought, etc. etc. I also have some work related deadlines I have to do before I go.

I didn't work out yesterday because I cleaned so much and I don't mean just straightening up -- I mean scrubbing stuff on my hands and knees for hours. I figured hours of scrubbing was more of a work out than 60 minutes on a treadmill, bike or Arc Trainer.

I hope everyone has a good day! I'm going to try to shake this uneasy feeling.

Maybe that is what it is. I've had panic attacks before during stressful period in my life but this is definitely not a panic attack. Don't think I've ever had an anxiety attack before, or if I have I never realized it. Not sure why I would have one now at I'm not consciously feeling anxious about anything. I have a lot of stuff to do but it isn't making me freak out or anything.

Scrubbing didn't help much as far as the feeling went. I just want it to stop as it literally makes me sick to my stomach.

Busy at work today getting ready to leave for Vegas in a few short hours (3 to be exact, but who's counting )

Just wanted to pop in and say ancestry - take care of yourself. I often have that feeling and usually nothing comes out of it. I kind of joke that it is better whenI have that feeling than when I dont, becuase something bad happens when I DON'T have the feeling.

Are you drinking too much water? I felt very oogy and discontected last weekn when I over watered - maybe that is part ofthe problem. Anyway, take care of yourself.

To everyone else - have a great week! I will check in if I can, but you probably won't hear from me until Sunday!!

Amy

 

[stitchfan23]

Are you drinking too much water? I felt very oogy and discontected last weekn when I over watered - maybe that is part ofthe problem. Anyway, take care of yourself.

I don't know why but this line just made me think you were a plant. Maybe it was the over watered part.

 

[gellybean]

Crabby Amy- I'm sooooo glad you laughed at your new nickname! Didn't want to offend. I thought it was pretty funny but I've been known to have an oddball sense of humor from time to time.

Ancestry- I know what you mean about bad feelings and I agree with Amy. Bad things never seem to happen when I think they are. Maybe you're dealing with some things internally through this weight loss journey that are weighing on you and you may not realize it?? I know when I have that feeling sometimes if I just start talking to someone I trust, things will come out in the course of the conversation that I didn't even know were bothering me and that's when I'm not doing all this self introspection that we've been doing with our weight loss journey lately! It has to be 'worse' when we're digging into our baggage!

We're here if you need us!!!


Bree- thanks for the words of encouragment! Things seem a little more in perspective today. I know it's gonna be a journey and even if I'm not diagnosed I know it's something I'm gonna have to stay on top of and test for yearly for the rest of my life. Would I love to not be officially diagnosed?? YES! But I'm realizing that just becuse I'm not diagnosed now... or 3 months from now (when I had my last A1C done and it was normal) it doesn't mean I'm free and clear for life. So one day at a time, yeah?

Amy!! Have a fabulous trip!! Can't wait to hear all about it when you get back!!

Dawn-

about your vajayjay twin!!! OMG! No one needs two babymakers. AMEN!

I haven't rescheduled yet. I am planning on doing the tolerance test in June. I just has my A1C checked in February and it was in the normal range so if my numbers are in the diabetic range I haven't been there for long. I.E not a diabetic A1C number. I want to give my body a month of working out consistently (which was the original plan when I saw the doc back in March) before I take the glucose test. As borderline as I am, exercise could make the difference between managing pre-diabetes and a diagnosis of diabetes.

I'm not following up with the endo until September, so I have time to take the test. And I'm doing what's prescribed of me to do. Well I was before I quit going to the gym for 2 wks.


The bodybugg is pretty cool if I say so myself. I ordered mine on sale last month from 24 hour fitness . com. It's gone up 20 bucks but it's still 150 less than it was when I first priced them back a few years ago. All the Biggest Loser contestants wear them. That's where I saw them first.

You get 6 months subscription to their weight loss plan (like a sparkpeople or livestrong or weight watchers online tools.) At the end of the 6 months it's $10/month or $80/year. You also get one free phone coaching session with activation. You can follow the meal plan they provide or enter in your own foods. I have a calorie goal of 1700 a day with a 55% carb 20% protein 25% fat goal of my total daily intake. The goals are based on your weight height age gender and your daily %'s are based on a questionaire you fill out about your food preferences and how your body is affected by certain types of food.

My goal to burn cals is 2700 and you wear the bugg to download back to the computer how many cals you burn. It figures it using 4 different criteria and is 90% accurate when compared to a barometric pressure chamber test that's the industry standard for cals burned.

So far today I've burned 900 cals. I've got a way to go. BUT it does say you have to give it a few days to 'learn' your body. So we'll see.






I found this cool site when I was doing some diabetes research earlier and thought I'd share. It's lots of ways to increase (or decrease) your life span. For someone like me, who is overweight and was mostly sedentary and ate unhealthily and is borderline diabetic, well it was kinda nice to read all the things I'm already doing and can do to increase my life span. Some things are in our control! And that's what this shows you. Some things, like genetics, you just have to live with.

Here's the link if anyone is interested:

22 Ways to Predict Your Life Span


Had a talk with my sister last night about our gym habits. Seems she thinks she's doing me a favor by leaving work early to come work out. AHEM. I thought she was working out for her health... odd that. AND I would be just as happy working out without her, especially on the nights that she can't go until 7pm. If she needs to stay at work, I could work out a lot earlier and not affect our evening family routine so much. So we're both trying to communicate with each other I guess to figure out what will really work and which one of us is really doing the other one a favor. I thought I was helping her out because she won't work out on the nights I don't go. So who knows. FAMILY!

Catch you ladies later! Will update on how the bugg likes my workout tonight !

 

[tlenzendorf]

Have a good trip to Vegas Amy! Save me some luck for September!

 

[njcarita]

decided to hop back on the weight loss wagon.... is it too late to join u guys??

 

[cheerful chickadee]

just checking in, I've been so blah this week with my workout, just "off" somehow. I've been struggling with drinking all my water too. Today is my day off (from exercise) but I'm thinking of heading to the gym to do a short workout anyway. IDK, this has just been a rough week so far.

Speaking of working out and family....my mom and sis have both said they wanted to join the gym I go to and have said that they would go with me but truthfully I'd rather go alone. When I workout I really work so I'm not going to be talking to them or any of that, I guess that makes me a giant "B" but oh well.

 

[adnilele]

just checking in, I've been so blah this week with my workout, just "off" somehow. I've been struggling with drinking all my water too. Today is my day off (from exercise) but I'm thinking of heading to the gym to do a short workout anyway. IDK, this has just been a rough week so far.

Speaking of working out and family....my mom and sis have both said they wanted to join the gym I go to and have said that they would go with me but truthfully I'd rather go alone. When I workout I really work so I'm not going to be talking to them or any of that, I guess that makes me a giant "B" but oh well.

I like when other people go with me, just so I'm not going alone...gives me more accountability....but we dont really talk or anything when we are there, especially during the cardio part.

 

[gellybean]

decided to hop back on the weight loss wagon.... is it too late to join u guys??

Never too late. We have ladies that have been with us since the start and some that joined last week! Hop on board and !

just checking in, I've been so blah this week with my workout, just "off" somehow. I've been struggling with drinking all my water too. Today is my day off (from exercise) but I'm thinking of heading to the gym to do a short workout anyway. IDK, this has just been a rough week so far.

Speaking of working out and family....my mom and sis have both said they wanted to join the gym I go to and have said that they would go with me but truthfully I'd rather go alone. When I workout I really work so I'm not going to be talking to them or any of that, I guess that makes me a giant "B" but oh well.

Who cares if they think you're being a B! Sometimes we have to put ourselves FIRST. When I first started the gym I didn't think I'd be able to do it without my sister. Motivation to go and accountability and all that. But the few nights I've gone without her and plugged into my ipod I went harder, faster and longer than I do when she's there and we chat. But I also feel a tad responsible for her continuing to exercise and don't want to be ungrateful for her working out with me to get started by saying you can't come anymore. Guilt sucks.

Be honest and upfront with your relatives about it in the beginning so you aren't stuck in a situation later on you can't get out of!

 

[Stacybaeasm]

Hello everyone! Well, my busy season has officially started. I haven't gotten in "official" workouts this week, but I have been laying dance floors, hauling supplies and tables and chairs, and doing a lot of stairs so I am counting that. Once I get into rehearsals next week, I plan to work out during lunch. We'll see how that goes. I'm doing ok with the eating though. This week is hard because I never know WHERE I'll be around lunch so I have been eating out but I've made good choices so far. I'll be glad to get back to busy normal next week though so I can start bringing my lunch with me again. Anyway, I hope everyone is having a good week. And if you ever need a marley floor laid, I"m your girl!

 

[2_Eagle_Mom]

Today was a really hard day. I think for the first time I realized that I really could have diabetes... not just pre-diabetes or gestational. And it hit pretty hard. Especially since we've been talking about possibly having a 3rd child in the next few years. If I'm diabetic going into the pregnancy that's a whole nother ballgame than getting gestational while pregnant. My doctor has already expressed concern about this possiblity and hubby would not want us to have a third if there was a greater risk to me or the baby. So I'm processing all this. Slowly. I know nothing is a done deal but it's just one more reason to.get.this.weight.off!!!!!!!

I agree with the others, at least you are aware of the possible situation. It would be really bad if you just blindly got pregnant and then had to deal with the situation. Forewarned is forearmed (isn't that the saying?). I think losing weight and exercising could only help the situation. Either you are diabetic and you'll have to watch your weight, bloodsugar levels and exercise OR you aren't and you still need to watch your weight and exercise. Sounds like you are on the right path either way.

I've been having this awful feeling recently like something bad is going to happen. You know that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you have to face something that is going to be difficult or life changing -- like going to court or dealing with the death of someone.

I can go to that dark place easily. I'll bet you are just anxious about your trip and leaving some of the kids at home is probably adding to the problem. The phrase that I try repeating when I'm having a "worry episode" is "Whatever will be, will be" Yup call me Doris Day "Que sera, sera" (no idea how to spell that). Anyway, I try telling myself that worrying isn't going to help any situation, I'll deal with any issues as they come up. It doesn't always work, but its where I start.

Dawn, I didn't realize Carsyn was injured as well. I have to read the latest TR (I finished your last two, but was just starting on the last one). Anyway, I hope everyone in your family is quickly on the mend.

To all of our travelers - safe trip! Have fun!

We were going to go to the Y tonight,but I donated blood today and they told me I can't break a sweat tonight. I'm going to take the dog for an easy walk, just to get moving but no treadmill for me. Tracked all day and only have 12 more ounces to go before I've finished my water.