Hi everyone.
Just getting back on line and back to work today.
Funeral was yesterday.
We went to a house party on New Year's Eve and to my in laws for fish chowder on New Years Day.
Drove home in a blinding snowstorm on New Years Day (in the night) and I was not feeling well. Ate, quite frankly, like a pig. Totally out of control.
Got home and the next day was out cold with stomach flu.
Doing well again today, but I never want to feel like that again.
So my goals for the challenge:
a) Never eat out of control - if you bite it, you write it - regardless of the points;
b) Contact trainer by the weekend and follow pace training program (trainer and I are playing phone tag);
c) Weigh in each week and report here next week.
Believe me, if I do all of this I will have surpassed my success rate of each previous challenge I have been part of.
Someone very close to me is battling another kind of eating disorder - the polar opposite of mine. When "sick" I am totally out of control - this individual controls every morsel.
I avoid scales like the plague when "sick" - this person is on it nearly every hour.
I act like a sanctimonious dieter in public when "sick" yet sneak sweets in my bra. One time I tried to gobble birthday cake before someone got in the room and had it all over my face. This individual pretends to "eat" yet often really eats nothing for days. I have thrown my coat on over my nightgown, went out in the cold and bought scores of junk food at a local store - pretending I was buying it for someone else and ate every bite.
This individual, is a compulsive baker and eats nary a bite.
This individual is working hard on the issues and is in treatment. My feeling is that if this individual can get control, maybe I can too.
I would never burden this person or their loved ones with my problems, they have enough of their own, but my feeling is that if they can get control maybe I can, finally, too.
Then I will tell them how they inspire me.
That is my focus - that is what I need you guys for.
Weigh in tomorrow (missed Tuesday's class due to funeral and could not go today - a severe ice storm).
I will report in again then.
Have a "magical losing week" guys.
Linda
P.S. Screen name - Joints In Motion Marathon Duck (JIMMDUCK) - in honour of my unending quest to conquer the Disney half.
