I am so, so sorry from the bottom of my heart. My prayers go to you.
This was hard to read as my brother was killed by a drunk driver while on his motorcycle in 1980. My father died in 1990, mother in 2000. I went through the things that were left. A large box had been sent to my parents from the police in 1980, it was the pieces from my brothers motorcycle. My parents had never opened it. They couldn't, to much grief. I had the box of pieces destroyed by a crusher and never opened it.
I've been following your posts on other threads and want you to know how much you and your DH are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope with each passing day you will find peace.